time is running out

oh no no no no no!

this is just the first week of semester. and today i feel the heat from everywhere already.

it's not only about studies, but also about my interest and passion, religion, activities in university, roomate etc.

more responsibilities im bearing now.

i can feel old old old time Chin Eng is coming out. slowly.. it's coming out. if it's not, i'll FORCE it out.

I need the old me now so badly.

i've been such a.. er... not so active student for the 1.5years n im tired of being one.

i feel all this responsibilties on me now is not a burden. it's a privilege. it's an advantage. and it's a learning process.

after this, i think i'll cut down on my postings especially on personal stuffs. it's useless la.

people, especially those that i owed pictures, important pictures especially. i'll post it up and send it to u by this week ok. i promise. take note Jessica, Sharmilla, Phui Leng, and Bae Shiuan.

after this weekend i'll be very BUSY. VERY! TERAMAT SANGAT!

i can assure you that for the next coming weeks, more pimples will pop up, more money will be spend on hp, i'll drink more coffee, i'll sleep very late, cannot go back hometown that often n i'l b more stressfull n panas baran.

Model Shot (2)

Date: 28/5/2010

Time: 3.21pm

Venue: Armenian Street

Model: Jessica

Photographer: OCE

don't use my things without my permission!

Arrghhh! Im gona gone crazy! When I thought my roommate is a nice guy, ok he is stil a nice guy, but now my perception towards him has totally changed!

I came home at 2pm. I entered my room. Before I put down my beg, he said,

“Eh your laptop got virus. I cannot go to UTAR Portal. I help you scan already.”

I was like what!! You opened my laptop? U used my laptop? WTH?!! I put my laptop into sleep mode before I went out. I remained cool. I didn’t scold him. I'm so amazed at myself that i didn't yell or push him away. Then I checked my laptop. He downloaded an anti-virus software n it’s in the process of scanning.

Im super pissed. 1^st thing. Who gives u permission to use my laptop? WHO?!! Awat hang duk pandai-pandai bukak laptop orang! You can’t enter the website n u simply say my laptop got virus?!! Who said my laptop got virus? Why u simply download stuff?!! Grrhrhh!!

i betul betul naik gila, kepala panas gila but arrgghhh! WHY DIDN't I SCREW HIM?!! im so soft-hearted. DAMN ME! i still heheheh to him n i said "oh really ah? got virus ah? ooo..."

Now all my recent items gone. All my web histories gone. All my websites gone. Im GONE!! All my important websites gone. I need it for studies and research! And he also viewed my pictures.

What is this man! Im so hot now till I feel like curse u to death lo! Hang jangan duk buat kerja sieh!

I don’t care you tok nicely or not but your action is totally wrong!

If you really need to use my laptop, sms n ask from me. but why you didn’t?!! laptop is a very private and personal thing! I never care when you use my household stuffs or books or boiled water.

Im so so sad and angry. I just feel like crying. seriously! I hate it so much since I was small when people simply take my things and never tell me. privacy is so much important for me. I hate it when people invade my privacy even my parents. i had a very bad experience before regarding the issue of privacy. you should know simple manner. Ask if you need to use someone else's stuffs.

I don’t feel safe anymore in this house. Anything can happens to my other belongings. i dare not to leave my room now although he just went out. what if he comes back n touch this n that!

I need to set a password for my laptop already.

Im damn tulan at him!

damn u again for ruining my mood. ruining my plan to go to the gym.

DON'T EVER USE MY THINGS, ESPECIALLY VERY PRIVATE ONE, WITHOUT MY PERMISSION!