Where is Faizah??

At about 7.20pm today, my sister asked me something. This is our conversation.

Sister: “Why recently I always think of her?”

Me: “Who??”

Sister: “Faizah lo.”

Sister: “It’s about 5 years already I didn’t see her.”

Sister: “Do you know where is she now?”

Me: “I don’t know la.”

Sister: “I heard people say she’s in Sabah or Sarawak.”

Me: "Nola.."

Sister:  “You like have things hiding from me.”

Then I just kept quiet. I didn’t say much. I just hope she won’t ask again and slowly forget about her although my heart is telling me not to do so.

I want my sister to remember her. My sister loves her. My sister had a lot of good memories with her. My sister learnt from her.

I was shocked when she said all that. All this while, I was thinking why my sister didn’t mention her after so long. I really thought she has forgotten her. i was wrong. my ex is still in her heart, miss her and thinking of her, like i do. Kids nowadays have good memories har..

I feel bad I lied to her, I hid from her. I have been doing that since last year and she didn't know that we are not together anymore. I can tell for sure that they will never meet or talk to each other again.

it's not the time yet to tell my sister we are no more together. she'll ask more questions. she'll be sad. And i don't want her to have any bad impression on us.

Kalau tepuk sebelah tangan je takkan bunyi.

One day, she will understand why..

sueh

Sueh sueh sueh.

Sueh sueh sueh.

Recently so sueh.

The sueh season is here. When it’s here, it means bad.

I can feel it. I can sense it.

Everything seems not right. Everything is not smooth.

So many bad things happened.

my heart at this moment still dupdapdupdap for no reason. As if something bad is gona happen.

My heart just feels like popping out. Body is chilling.

Im feeling insecure and fear.

And you know what, when I was riding just now, I felt so lost. I couldn’t concentrate. I felt as if im gona bang to someone.

OMG. What’s happening.

And im feeling sick now..

how come???

usually my 'light' quite bright one.

ok the Chinese believe that human has some kind of 'light' on both their shoulders. the 'lights' will determine their luck or something like that.

so what, my light is very dim is it?

kamma. kamma. this must be my kamma. my previous kamma.

hmmm... alrite alrite. i'll do more good deeds, be nice, pray more, be a good boy.

SUEH arggghhhh!

=(

QUOTE of the day

"There are people in the world so hungry, that God can't appear to them except in the form of bread."

~ Mahatma Gandhi (1869-1948)