I Am A Lonely Photographer

Photo courtesy of Rachael Soh. 

It’s raining so heavily here in Kampar. It’s flooded again. And again, I went out to snap some photos.

And I was alone..again.

When I went backpack, my friend said I'm a lonely photographer.

Well, she is right.

Now I get what she meant. I bet many people who saw me on the street have the thought also.

I never follow a photography trip before. Neither do I go for a photography outing.

I don’t feel comfortable.

But I will purposely go out to snap something that I feel is meaningful. For example if a building is going to be demolished. Or if the sky is beautiful.

It's ok la.. I enjoy what I'm doing and i don't need a bunch of photographers to make me good.

Whenever people see me, they will see my camera too.

Hmmm..

I don’t know why I’m suddenly so down. Maybe because I saw some outing photos from my friends in Facebook. It’s ok.. I am not jealous at all.

It just makes me realized many things. I’ll just keep those thoughts in myself.

I thank God for giving me good eyes to see. Sometimes my eyes see something that the other people don’t see and that’s what makes my photos special. I’m thankful for having a heart that cares and I express it through images. I’m glad I’m always alert with my surrounding too.

I don’t have the intention to praise myself but I always share my experience with my friends. I am so much happy everytime I see their happy face. The satisfaction of getting a good shot is extraordinary.

As I’m writing this, it’s raining cats and dogs outside.

Becareful on the road.

If you are a lonely photographer like me too, don’t be sad. It’s an enjoyable thing to snap pictures with all the freedom you need. Whatever you do, you just need to enjoy it and you will do it well. 

I am happy being a lonely photographer. 

梦一场 (Meng Yi Chang) - 萧敬腾 (Xiao Jing Teng)

我們都因為寂寞而給對方承諾 我們都因為折磨而厭倦了生活
只是這樣的日子 同樣的方式 還要多久
我們改變了態度而接納了對方 我們委屈了自己成全誰的夢想
只是這樣的日子 還剩下多少 已不重要
時常想起過去的溫存 它讓我在夜裡不會冷
你說一個人的美麗是認真 兩個人能在一起是緣份
早知道是這樣 像夢一場 我又何必把愛都放在同一個地方
我能原諒 你的荒唐 荒唐的是我不能自己遺忘
早知道是這樣 如夢一場 我又何必把淚都鎖在自己的眼眶
讓你去瘋 讓你去狂 讓你在沒有我的地方堅強
(過場間奏)
時常想起過去的溫存 它讓我在夜裡不會冷
你說一個人的美麗是認真 兩個人能在一起是緣份
早知道是這樣 像夢一場 我又何必把愛都放在同一個地方
我能原諒 你的荒唐 荒唐的是我不能自己遺忘
早知道是這樣 如夢一場 我又何必把淚都鎖在自己的眼眶
讓你去瘋 讓你去狂 讓你在沒有我的地方堅強
讓我在沒有你的地方療傷

Wǒmen dōu yīnwèi jìmò ér gěi duìfāng chéngnuò wǒmen dōu yīnwèi zhémó ér yànjuànle shēnghuó
Zhǐshì zhèyàng de rì zǐ tóngyàng de fāngshì hái yào duōjiǔ
Wǒmen gǎibiànle tàidù ér jiēnàle duìfāng wǒmen wěiqule zìjǐ chéngquán shuí de mèngxiǎng
Zhǐshì zhèyàng de rì zǐ huán shèng xià duōshǎo yǐ bù chóng yào
Shícháng xiǎngqǐ guòqù de wēncún tā ràng wǒ zài yèlǐ bù huì lěng
Nǐ shuō yīgèrén dì měilì shì rènzhēn liǎng gè rén néng zài yīqǐ shì yuán fèn
Zǎo zhīdào shì zhèyàng xiàng mèng yī chǎng wǒ yòu hébì bǎ ài dū fàng zài tóng yīgè dìfāng
Wǒ néng yuánliàng nǐ de huāngtáng huāngtáng de shì wǒ bùnéng zìjǐ yíwàng
Zǎo zhīdào shì zhèyàng rú mèng yī chǎng wǒ yòu hébì bǎ lèi dōu suǒ zài zìjǐ de yǎnkuàng
Ràng nǐ qù fēng ràng nǐ qù kuáng ràng nǐ zài méiyǒu wǒ dì dìfāng jiānqiáng
(Guòchǎng jiàn zòu)
Shícháng xiǎngqǐ guòqù de wēncún tā ràng wǒ zài yèlǐ bù huì lěng
Nǐ shuō yīgèrén dì měilì shì rènzhēn liǎng gè rén néng zài yīqǐ shì yuán fèn
Zǎo zhīdào shì zhèyàng xiàng mèng yī chǎng wǒ yòu hébì bǎ ài dū fàng zài tóng yīgè dìfāng
Wǒ néng yuánliàng nǐ de huāngtáng huāngtáng de shì wǒ bùnéng zìjǐ yíwàng
Zǎo zhīdào shì zhèyàng rú mèng yī chǎng wǒ yòu hébì bǎ lèi dōu suǒ zài zìjǐ de yǎnkuàng
Ràng nǐ qù fēng ràng nǐ qù kuáng ràng nǐ zài méiyǒu wǒ dì dìfāng jiānqiáng
Ràng wǒ zài méiyǒu nǐ dì dìfāng liáo shāng


Lovely song.. Have been listening to it since last night.. And it helps to recall a lot of childhood memories. It helps me to open up my eyes on how to 'see' people. It helps..to take away my stress,

Listen..

keep quiet

Talk too much is not always good. Sometimes, we just have to be quiet in order to listen to others.

Talk too much is too noisy.

Talk too much is annoying.

I'm a bit tired of talking.

My point of view is not always right.

Today is Monday and the day is so beautiful.

I wana enjoy the day and talk less.

There are many more things can be done other than talking.

Oh I can do that. i can do that.

Don't skip class today OCE! you better don't do that!

lalalalalal!

150 respondents for FYP! =p

30/10/2011 5.38pm

That’s the end for my FYP questionnaire. The answering session is now closed. Kedai dah tutup. 150 people have responded and I’ve achieved my target.

I finish setting the questions on Saturday 5am in the morning on October 29.

Then I sent the questionnaire to my friends at about 6am through Facebook since the questionnaire is in digital form. It’s easier, faster and cheaper. Most importantly, it’s confidential since I don’t know who does it.

My junior, K was the first one to answer it at 6.23am. Don’t worry the respondents answers will be kept confidential. Haha.

I was targeting only 100 people for my questionnaire.

But I was so surprise by the good response. I achieved my target at 5.58pm, just after 12-hour. Technology really helps me a lot.

Then I increase the respondents to 150. It was risky. Thank God I achieved the target at 5.38pm today, October 30.

What is this? A report on my FYP ah? Haha.

To all, thank you so much for your time and honest answers. Some of the answers really opened up my eyes. I learnt from you. This research will never be completed without all of you. Oh Chin Eng thanks all of you again. May you be blessed always.

There are respondents who didn’t answer. Some even simply type words that don’t exist such as “fvjhdfutk,”. But it’s ok. I guess this is normal for a questionnaire. And some people are playful.

Now it’s the time for analysis and discussion part. It’s the lengthiest part of all but I know I’ll enhoy doing it because I love this topic. The hardest for me I think it’s the literature review.

I must specially thanks Agkillah, Felicita and Qistina for helping me sending out the questionnaire to their friends. Coincidentally all of them are from SGGS Penang. Not to forget, thanks to Lay Nee, Ai Chun as well.

I must also thank Edmund and Cynthia for staying up late, going through the questions with me. Thanks to them, the questions sounds better and more relevant. If I were to do it, people sure behsyiok with the way I ask. Hahaa. 

Thank you again. Ok bye. FYP belum habis!