6.30pm

6.30pm. that’s the time im leaving Penang tomorrow. Life is so weird. At one point u can be so happy about something. Then suddenly u r pissed with it. Life is so unpredictable. Mood swings so fast like wind.

I came back to Penang, I was so happy n look forward for it. Well, I had fun n I enjoyed the first week in Penang. Then, this week, the second week, everything just changed. What’s going on. Now I want to leave this island ASAP! I dun wana be here, at least for a week. I need to be alone in Kampar, where no one that close to me talk to me. I dun wish to talk to anyone..

My mum has brought the bus ticket for me. if she buys it, means she paid for it la. if im the one who bought, I use my own $ lo. Anyway my bus departs at 6.30pm tmr from Butterworth. Im taking Transnasional again.

My mum bought it at 4.30pm today. she was rushing because she is working at 4.30pm. luckily she went to buy it before she went for work because the bus left 1 empty seat only. She called me n asked whether I want to take the bus or not because my seat is at the last one at the back. the next bus is on Friday morning. She asked me to take the Friday one. I made my decision n I took the Thurday 6.30pm bus.

I wana leave here ASAP! Suddenly this island becomes a nightmare for me. I’ll think of that person if im here. I need to cabut. I can’t study here. So many distractions.

Mum pesan not to forget to bring the bus ticket tmr. She asked me to kip it in my wallet.

So people bye bye lah. Thx.. thx for.. duno wat. See u in Kampar lah. I think I blog more when im in Kampar. =p

stop and stare

No no no! this post is not about the song from onerepublic. This post is about a girl. A fair, pretty and clean face girl. I sent my sister to tuition at 8pm. I walked her into the room. Then a chinese girl clad in white shirt was standing there at the door. Her eyes were on me, with full of concentration, without even a blink, for at least 10 steps away from me. As I getting nearer the room, she still stared at me.

I was freaked out. Seriously! so I stared back at her la for few seconds. I tried to recall whether I met this person before or not but nop, I never met her!! I tried to be nice. I smiled, just a little, but she still looked at me as if I owe her something very valuable. fine! I turned away. I sent my sister in. my sister’s teacher was there.

She asked me what time im coming to pick my sister up. I said 10pm lo. The lady was still there at my left hand side, stared at me again!! Never a girl stares at me for so long. I stared back at her with the “yes? What? Do u noe me? do I noe u??” look.

Suddenly my sister’s teacher said  “u don’t have stare until like that. She’s my daughter.” I turned and look at her daughter. She looked at her mum n she said “he’s from SXI ma. A photographer ma.” I was stunned. Totally speechless. I blink blink my eyes. I carved a smile. Then I looked at her mum again. I asked how her daughter knows abt it. She said her daughter also from SXI.

Then they just walked away dengan stylonyer. I was still blur-blur. Then I quickly asked her what year her daughter was in SXI. Only Form 6 in SXI got girls. I never seen her before in SXI. That’s why I stared back at her full of curiosity. Her mum said smtg but I couldn’t catch it. Den we left the place.

Woah!! My heart is still pounding while im writing this. Im excited I guess. Shocked too. I don’t know how to describe the way she stared at me with her big eyes. She knows me but i don't know her!!

Aiyah!! i didn't snap her pics lah!!

A or B

arrrghhh!! A or B?!! how?? i need the answer now. my mum is going out n i need to give her an answer. I don't know when should i go back to Kampar. i have to go back bcoz im having exam dis Saturday.

it's a very simple decision but im in dilemma. nonsense!! crazeee!!!

A-go back on Thursday night.
B-go back on Friday morning

so A or B?? why is it so hard to choose??

i don't know. something is holding me back but im not sure what is it!! is it bcoz i still want to meet her before i go? er... if i go back on Friday, i scared i'll be tired to do revision etc.

*smack my head to the wall!!