A Song For Mama - Boyz II Men

Song of The Day

Yesh yesh! I did it! God fulfilled my wish. My sister on9 just now. I was like oh shit should I tell her n ask her to wish mum happy birthday? I decided I should do it. But then I was like oh shit again. how to tell her?!!

So I said today is mum’s bday, tell her happy bday. She just said ok. Fuh.. ok.. I duno how she gona say it. I wonder she’ll just wish her or she’ll tell my mum that I wish her. haha.

I want to know how she reacts. =p but anyway I did it. At least she knows that I remember her bday. =p all this while ever since secondary school, I know when is her bday bcoz I memorize her IC number. I need her IC number 4my school’s activities ma.

Anyway thanks to my sis la. I feel bad. She always want to webcam with me but I don’t want because my laptong hang when I use webcam. N sometimes I just don’t have the mood to webcam. She always ask when im going home. I can sense that she’s kinda disappointed la because I didn’t go home last week.

It’s still raining out there. I wana oink-oink! Im gona have sweet dreams tonight n no more wet-wet. Yesh!

I dedicate this song to you, ammi. Muax muax!!

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You taught me everything
And everything you’ve given me
I always keep it inside
You’re the driving force in my life, yeah

There isn’t anything
Or anyone I can be
And it just wouldn’t feel right
If I didn/t have you by my side

You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down
You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be what you have been to me
You’ll always be you always will be the girl
In my life for all times

Chorus:
Mama, mama you know I love you
Oh you know I love you
Mama, mama you’re the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin you is like food to my soul

You’re always down for me
Have always been around for me even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong
Yes you did

And you took up for me
When everyone was downin me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on

There was so many times
Looking back when I was so afraid
And then you come to me
And say to me I can face anything
And no one else can do
What you have done for me
You’ll always be
You will always be the girl in my life

Chorus

Never gona go a day without you
Fills me up just thinking about you
I’ll never go a day
Without my mama

Chorus

Happy Birthday Ammi

im awake. i didn't really sleep. my body is tired but my mind is keep thinking..of many things. one thing about me is my mind is active when im trying to sleep. all kind of thoughts n memories will flash back in one shot. then i'll try to key in as many as possible in my handphone then transfer it to my laptop the next morning.

right now, it's raining so heavily since just now. my stomach is rumbling so hard. i was going to sleep again but then if i sleep, i won't wake up till the next morning.i'll wait until 9pm for the rain to stop. if it doesnt, sleep again. im super tired.

i have something important to do before i sleep.

i wana wish my mum Happy Birthday. today is her birthday, 10th Nov. she's 45 now. old d huh?

sorry i have to wish you here. i don't have the guts to call you. i tried but.. it's hard. all this while we never do that. it's just not our family's culture to say 'i love you' or 'happy birthday'. how i wish you or sister will come across my blog and read this post. i wanted to ask sis to wish you but i forgot to do so when she online just now.

im a bad son i know. i alwayz make u angry. hehe.. i seldom clean the house n i keep junks! i turn my rooms n another room into STOREROOM. =p i realised that i put my family at the second place in my heart. as in i'll do my other stuffs, think of other stuffs then only family.

you know.. i already planned to go back and celebrate it with you. really. i want to make your 45th birthday special when im 21. all this while me, bro n sis or dad never celebrate your birthday. i feel so bad you know. my friends will celebrate it with their mum or at least call to wish them but i don't. i never do that.

finally i feel i have grown up. i feel like i wana do something for you. tangible one. i wana show it instead of just praying for you n dad. i feel like i got the call from the God to repay you, to be nice to you and be a good son. i'm already 21-legal age. first time you celebrate my birthday, not to count the birthday parties when i was a little kid la.

anyway, in the end, im still here in Kampar. many things came up. i was so undecided whether to go back or to go down to Melaka. i have test on Thursday morning. i have a Journalism Gathering on Wednesday. i was so sick last Saturday. i wanted to clean my room n learn French. and i slept whole day last Sunday after not being able to make up my mind.

my sayang taught me a lot. seriously. she n her mum are very close, like sisters. they always go for shopping together. =p im impressed with the bond between them. they are so like friends. talk to each other without fear, shy or doubts. jokes around. she celebrates her mum n dad's birthday. she always call her mum n update her. the thing i like the most is, she'll say 'assalamualaikum' when she starts the conversation. =p

ammi, i want you to know that i love you. i know u never hear it from me, but i do love u. i need more time n more courage to say it. i'll be good k? i think i am. =p and im safe here, dun wori.

i'll always pray that you'll be healthy always, you'll be safe wherever you are, you'll have long live.

friends out there, please don't be like me la.. cherish the one you love especially your parents n siblings. think anout this: how many years do you have to sing birthday song to your mum? HUH?!! people get old and human dies.

grrrhh! don't care. i wana go back this week n i wana belanja her MAKAN! yes makan is my favourite activity.

Happy Birthday Ammi.

from JOG to CYCLE

yoyoyo people. im home! i reached home at exactly at 4pm. in my previous post i said i wana go jog right? yea i din go. instead i went for CYCLING!! =p

tepuk la sikit. i cycled for 40km Kampar-Gopeng-Kampar for 4 hours. i'll blog about it when im free la.

i just bathed. feel so damn fresh n clean. i smell so good. seharum bunga di pagi.

ok im going to sleep now. im damn tired n sleepy lah. i need to restkan my eyes, my jaw, my hands, my spine, my legs, my ass, my muscles n my b*lls-according to Emily Chong. the battery in me need to be recharged. if you use Energizer pun, cannot recharge punya.

someone pls wake me up at 8.30pm pls coz i need to fotostate notes for my Moral midterm exam this Thursday morning. i haven't study anything yet. =p

i love to sleep when it's raining heavily like this. but pls no scary thunders.

gnite yo. tata.

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morning run

good morning! i feel so got UMMPPHH this morning! the sky is so clear.

i have been sleeping for at least 8 hours i guess. that's more then enough! i had some crazy dreams last night. i'll blog about that later.

now i wana go JOGGING!!! woohooo! i duno whether i can run for how long but aiyah just run la.

i always want to jog n work out but tak jadi cuz im not discipline. im lazy la.. the last time i jog was like 4-5months ago. and i dun have my sport shoe with me here.

people say skinny people shouldn't jog. others say jog is good for health. aiyah dun care la. jog only ma. basic exercise. i have a friend, really skinny n small, but she jogs everyday n she is a good runner! i tabik sama dia!

SARAH SULAIMAN CH'NG u r my running inspiration. hehe.

ok gtg! wana have a cup of milk mix with weight gain powder then RUN!!!!