Kenapa manusia malas?

Manusia jadi malas apabila mereka tahu mereka boleh bergantung kepada orang lain dan senang mendapat bantuan tanpa berusaha keras sendiri. 

Kebanyakan orang dulu, belajar sendiri. Keluarga takde duit, mana boleh p tuisyen. Nak berjaya kalau, usaha kuat sikit, jatuh bangun sendiri. Mak bapak sibuk kerja, nak cari duit, takde banyak time nak manja dengan anak. Tapi kalau tak kerja, mana ada duit, mana boleh beli nasi, nak beli buku, permainan, elecktrik dan air? Kenalah orang mcm kita bangun pagi otomatik, siap pakai baju minum Milo, jalan kaki pukul 6.30am p naik bas awam p sekolah. Budak sekarang, bertuah sangat, nak ini, ada ini, nak itu, ada itu. Nak answers, abang kakak bagitau. Hali hali duk FB, duk smartfon, duk TV!

Ini malam gua panas, mau letop sikit yooo!

Public bus and kiasu parents

My blog has been so super quiet for some time. Seriously I have lesser time to sit and write on my thoughts here. It can be tiring to write again after work, as researching, interviewing and writing are the things I do everyday. Since it’s an off day, let’s fill something in my blog. =p

It’s a lovely sight to see school kids converging the public bus stops again. If you are not aware, the schools have re-opened today. The public busses are packed with the students who either go to schools or to go back home. School busses are back on the streets too. 

I was one of them who used public transport to school. I remember waking up 6.30am the latest, then walked along the quiet long street just next to the graveyard to the nearest bus stop. Hahaha. Those were the days. 

My thought about this is these kids are independent. They do not have to count on their parents to send or pick them up from schools. Or maybe their parents do not have the time to do so. Most of these kids (if not all) are from the middle and lower income families. These type of families where got so much time to do the sending and picking up job? Time is spent with work to make ends meet. And these are not the kiasu parents I would say. Are the more than average families over protective? Or are they have no confidence in their kids and the public transport? Or is it because you know, they are scared to let their kids out on the street?  Scared their kids will be sweating over to the hot weather, got kidnapped or robbed, dirtied and so on? These kiasu kiasi parents are the main cause of the traffic congestion in the morning, afternoon and evening. Hey parents, education and social awareness start from you. And please don’t farking block the entire road just to send or fetch your price/princess. You cannot die if you park your car somewhere or park your car nicely in front of the school. Damn it! 

Perhaps this is a way to show their love to their kids, by sending and picking them up from the schools. Hmmm...

My sister enters secondary school today. It’s her first day in Form One and first time wearing the sky blue pinafore. She’s studying in Penang Chinese Girls' High School (PCGHS). As a brother and as someone who has endured hardship and challenges, I just want the best for her. She’s grown up so much. She starts to rebel and fight back. But I’m happy that she knows about what’s going on with the country. I hope one day she can render her service to the nation. 

brunch with sis

I was away for 3 years in university. Didn’t have the time to spend with my sister. After graduation, it’s time to work. Less time to spend with her again. Journalists work on weekends. Since today I’m on MC, I brought her out and we had a good makan at ‘Chit Tiao Lor’. Eheheh.

*Siblings are growing up. Once you missed the time to spend with them, you’ll never have the chance again.”

Before

Jawa Mee

Hokkien Mee

Chee Cheong Fun

Pasembur

After

我要学華語

I am a bananaman.

WHY SO?!

Because I'm a Chinese but I can't read Chinese.

I feel really ashame of myself.

Malu besar, kemaluan tak besar sangat lah..

anyway..

Language or mother tongue is the pride of your people and your root.

What is it to be a Chinese but you can't read Chinese?

Ok i am not that bad la, at least i can speak and understand Chinese language and I know about the history of Chinese, our cultures, beliefs, practices, taboos and so on.

Some even worse, they duno anything about themselves and they proudly speaking like the British.

Okla nothing is wrong but i feel as a Chinese, Malay, Indian, Iban or Penan, you MUST know your own mother tongue.

I learnt the language before in primary school during kelas tambahan, but the 1 hour lesson few days a week is just not enough.

Now i forgot everything i learnt.

Thanks to my sister, girlpren and thanks to UTAR, i can speak mandarin fluently.

But of course i don't understand the Chinese canggih words.

Now i want to learn to write and read. I'm 24 this year, not so old if we have the will to do it.

Google Translate can be handy at times but it sucks man!

SOmetimes u just duno what the heck it says.

Like now, i want to translate 'i want to learn Chinese language/mandarin' also so problematic.

I have to translate word by word and then verify it with certain websites.

aduih.. bodoh betul aku.

Language is so beautiful when it's able to connect people around the globe.

By the way my name is  胡进荣

what kids need

Kids maybe so disobedient, annoying n so demanding for this n that. But what they needed the most are attention and love. I am so not gona missed out my sister's performance again tonight!

wow-ed by sister

There’s a photograph competition by The Star on Starwalk Penang 2011.

The theme is ‘Happy Starwalk Moments @ Heritage Spots”.

One participant can also submit two photos.

So I asked my sister to help me choose the shortlisted photos.

After a while, we can’t decide which is the best.

She asked me who chose the photo that I won the first prize at the beginning of the year.

It was me.

Confident and errogantly she said:

“You must trust yourself.”

I said ok ok and she just left.

It’s a words of encouragement, support, and inspiration.

I never thought to hear that from her, moreover at her young age.

She wants me to think by myself. She knows I can do it. She knows I can take good pictures.

Thanks Oh Poh Sim. =p

pampers?

I miss wearing pampers for my sister, Oh Poh Sim la.

hehe...

she's 12 years youunger than me.

i took care of her when i was 12.

i changed her diapers, fed her, carried her around etc.

i miss those moments you know..

thumbs up to my Bro

I am really really proud of my brother la.

While today i help my mum to make steamboat, my brother who has graduated from a culinary art school and now working in the kitchen of Eastin Hotel, is making some kind of special dumpling.

I don't know what exactly it is but it's like glutinious rice ball or tang yuan.

The normal tang yuan don't have fillings but now my bro put some ingredients in the glutinious rice ball.

I saw crushed peanuts, shredded chocolate and cheese.

it looks delicious ok!

my brother is good in what he's doing lah.

what impresses me is his question to my mum.

he asks my mum to sit down and learn how to make this special food from him.

hahah! wow!

but my mum says since he's pro already, he should cook for the family.

my nosy and curious sister is helping and learning from my brother now. =p

by the way, home-made steamboat is yummy! =p

time is getting less with family

holidays are gona ends soon, very soon.

3 weeks passed so fast.

I have another week to go before I go back to my uni. I supposed to have 4 weeks holidays until new semester starts on 17^th but due to some commitments in university I have to be back 1 week earlier.

I already start to miss my state and my family especially my sister.

I still have many things haven's done and settled in Penang.

And guess what I’ll start working tomorrow, means no much time left for me to spend with my sister as her school going to reopen next Monday.

I don’t want her to always stay alone at home. She dislikes it. I hate it too. But what can I do. What can we do. Everyone needs to work to make ends meet.

So I plan to bring her for bowling now as I promised but my brother didn’t want to come. Aih.. why.. he has been very negative and not loving for the past few years.

I know he has trauma. I know he’s not happy. So do i. after all these bad growing up experiences with abusing environment, we know who’s lucky and who’s not. We used to feel that there’s not love in the family. And all the past has made him into what he is today. For me, I stay positive, I know I don’t have to shaped by the environment and the culture, I chose my own path and decide on my own. But it’s tough tough.

I believe one day my brother will open up his heart and care for the family.

as for now, when im still in Penang, i'll try to spend more time with my sister and my family.

Me and my brother didn't talk much as usual. But this will be my resolution for next year, to have a better relationship with him.

QUOTE of the day

You got hurt the most by the person you love the most.

Where is Faizah??

At about 7.20pm today, my sister asked me something. This is our conversation.

Sister: “Why recently I always think of her?”

Me: “Who??”

Sister: “Faizah lo.”

Sister: “It’s about 5 years already I didn’t see her.”

Sister: “Do you know where is she now?”

Me: “I don’t know la.”

Sister: “I heard people say she’s in Sabah or Sarawak.”

Me: "Nola.."

Sister:  “You like have things hiding from me.”

Then I just kept quiet. I didn’t say much. I just hope she won’t ask again and slowly forget about her although my heart is telling me not to do so.

I want my sister to remember her. My sister loves her. My sister had a lot of good memories with her. My sister learnt from her.

I was shocked when she said all that. All this while, I was thinking why my sister didn’t mention her after so long. I really thought she has forgotten her. i was wrong. my ex is still in her heart, miss her and thinking of her, like i do. Kids nowadays have good memories har..

I feel bad I lied to her, I hid from her. I have been doing that since last year and she didn't know that we are not together anymore. I can tell for sure that they will never meet or talk to each other again.

it's not the time yet to tell my sister we are no more together. she'll ask more questions. she'll be sad. And i don't want her to have any bad impression on us.

Kalau tepuk sebelah tangan je takkan bunyi.

One day, she will understand why..

proud of my sister

this is a story about my sister.

i brought her to a Nine Emporer Gods temple just now.

While walking to my bike to go home, she went back to the temple.

She said she wana make a donation.

She took out two RM1 note from her pocket.

I asked how much she would like to donate.

You know what she said?

Guess la..

"Our family got 5 people, i donate RM5 la."

I was so shocked. At the same time, i'm so touched that this statement came out from my sister's mouth. I'm thankful that she is kind-hearted and she's willing to do charity. But i am more deeply moved when she care for the family.

I asked her to only make donation for herself.

At the end she put RM3 into the box.

Right now, i asked her how much and why RM3??

she said sincerity lo, because they might use the money to repair the furniture and the building.

OMG OMG!

tears of happiness are about to flow.

i am so proud of her.

i miss home..

its raining out there..

i duno why the whole Westlake is so quiet tonight. yea i know it's raining, but i feel the whole world is so quiet..

i can sense the loneliness in me..

i need to do something..

i just got back from the closing ceremony of Business Week in UTAR. i was invited. and of course i help my friend to take pictures for her society.

some people critisize, how in the world this chairman gona be a chairman cuz he only knows how to take pictures. haha. negative negative comment. it's ok. im gona prove it to them those who take pictures also can be a chairman. =p

mood like gila babi this week. im stress i guess.. stress with assignments, SRC etc. I miss home.. i haven't gone back home yet ever since the new semester started. i miss my family so so much. i wana see them.. i miss my mum's scoldings.. i miss her food. i miss them.. i miss them so much. so much.. i need a good rest seriously. i need to recharge myself from Penang. i need to get away from UTAR for a while, 2days are enough. =p

anyway.. thanks to my friends in Kampar. thank you. thank you. that's the only word i can say to show my gratitude to u guys. u guys have been always there for me. you guys helped me a lot!! i mean.. if without you people, i can't be who i am today. thanks a lot. thanks for being part of my life, be there even when i don't need you people. =p i love u all ok.. i really do. i'll try not to make mistakes that can be avoided lo.. ok ah.. im sorry tau. thanks for being a friend since Year 1 Sem 1 till this moment.

n i think im emo because of my teeth. i talk less since last Monday. i bukannya bertaubat la ok. i CANNOT talk! my teeth is so damn painful. can't talk can't eat. WISDOM TEETH ka? i duno la man.. aih.. why must we have wisdom teeth la. this is teh time i need to talk a lot you know.. Don't tell me have wisdom teeth already ill have high wisdom and be matured.. can meh?

raining.. hmmm.. the sky also sad ah. or People up there also sad that's what u cry? chill la..

it's still so quiet out there. i can listen to the rain drops, the wind and even my heart beats..

a good wesak day

just reached home. stomachache. don't care. i wana blog first.

ok let's recap what happened today.

overall, it was a superb day.

first, my results are out! but.. i haven't check yet. heheh. im scared. i am so freaking nervous. a lot of my friends don't get good results. what if i fail? habis koyak my mood later. hopfully i don't fail la. u see im so gila-gila now. later sure cry. sure KANTOI!

i went for a photoshoot today. im not the model la of course. for the first time ever, i officially take modelling photos. Jessica Neoh is the model. =p i tell u the whole process was damn fun n exciting. Nixon n Dexter were there as well. heheh JEss has to wait for few months for the pics. cuz im lazy to edit. n i'll be very busy for an event in uni this whole month. pics must slowslow edit n post. it's just like when u wana shit. mau berak kena slow n steady. baru best. baru syiok. baru sonng. i'll tell more about the photoshoot in another post.

my brother made spaghetty. fulamak. i tell u har. sedap!! delicious!! seriously it's so nice. better than my version. he's learning culinary art now n having training at Eastin Hotel. he wants to go oversea. good! GO! go wherever u want. get as much money as you want. after u become successful then only you come back!

then at night me n sister went for Wesak Day's procession. everywhere was so jamn. thousand of people from all over Malaysia and the world came. Penang is one of the main hub for all religious festivals in Malaysia i would say. people here just live in harmony. we are brothers and sisters. i was asked to be on duty as a Red Crescent first aider but kenot la. i need to take pic, pray and be with my sister. being there at the procession, i just felt so calm. so relieved. so close to God. i feel safe. i missed the procession last year because i was in Kampar. im glad i didn't go for a camp in KL n i stay in Penang. I love Penang so much. so so much!

after the procession, MAKAN! i had ais kacang with ice-cream, hokkien mee, char keow teow and kopi peng. awesome. wonderful meal before i go back to Kampar.

arrrghhh! skait perut again!! ok bye gtg. tak boleh tahan d. arrghh! i wana go shit shit d. Shit gona bom out soon! den mandi. den check my results. then bang my head to the wall n sumbat my head into the jamban.

lecture from my sister

Back in Penang, it’s still that hot but cooler than Penang. I have air-conds at home but I used it once only. Im lazy. Im not the air-cond type of people.

But few seconds ago I asked me sister to on the air-cond because It’s so hot n im tired. I just came back from a photo shoot.

Me: Poh Sim, on the air-cond la. so hot la.

Sister: air-cond, air-cond! The Earth is dying already. You still want air-cond, air cond.

Me: huh?!!

Wat the!! My sister give lecture! God tolong! She’s just Standard 4 but matured d. she’s knowledgable and socially conscious. I know I should be happy and proud. But.. this is too fast n shocking.

don't lock and shit

u noe..

when you shit, of course you must lock the toilet's door but not the master bedroom's door.

my sister was having his lunch.

suddenly she had stomachache.

so she went to shit before she finish her meal.

she used the master bedroom's toilet and she locked the room.

suddenly my mum's phone rang n the phone is in the room.

haha.

mum mum was banging the door.

forced my sister to open up the door.

but my sister was shitting half way.

hahaha. this is hilarious.

i don't know how my sister going to open the door while shitting.

at the end my mum got her handphone.

i think my sister opened teh room's door quickly and rushed back to the jamban before my mum went into the room to get her handphone.

hahaha. so people.

don't lock the master bedroom because you migth have to pause your shiting and that is not satisfactory moment of shitting,

it's nice to send my sister to school

Good morning.

AT this time, my sister is already in school.

I just sent her there.

Damn sleepy right now. SLept at 4.30am n mum called at 6.26am to wake me up. But i slept again till 6.45am.

Sister woke up so fast. No hanky panky no merengek merajuk. The waking up process was so smooth. She brushed her teeth. Sometimes she didn't. haha. I prepared breakfast for her. Combed her hair. Gave her RM2.

I remember it was so hard to wake her up back then. Then all of us will be late to school n i went to school with grumpy and sour face. Stress gila.

The last time i fetched her and my brother to school was in 2007 when i was still schooling in Form 6.

WHen im back in Penang, i'll pick her up from school when mum is busy.

It feels so nice to be a brother again, sending and picking up my sister from school. =p

ok i wana get back to sleep people.

Good night.

tonight without parents

What if one day both of our parents are not with us anymore? what you gona do? What am I going to do? Im still young. Im still studying n not in Penang. Who’s gona take care of my brother and my little sister?

I’ve always taken my parents for granted. I didn’t do enough for my family yet. My parents have been very tiring and struggling all this while in making sure we got enough food to eat, clothes to wear, leisure, basic needs and education.

I haven’t repay them. I need to. I want to.

An old lady told me seomthing today. She reminds me to always be nice to our parents. Appreciate them. respect them.

It’s true you know. No matter how rich you are, how smart u are or how loving you are to your friends and partner, parents are still the most loyal, most loving, most caring, closest and the persons that sacrificed the most in our life from the moment we are created. When the whole world turns down on you, parents are always there. no matter how hard our life is, they never complain, never neglect us, not a second.

Why im so sentimental tonight??

Cuz both my parents not at home tonight. Both of them are away. Away at different places for different reasons. And Im taking care of my sister for tonight and tomorrow. I just put her into sleep. Oni 3 of us, my brother, my sister n me at home tonight.

I feel kind of lonely tonight without my mum’s nagging and without my dad’s snoring.

Human nature huh? When we have something, we tend to less appreciate it. We tend to less think of the importance of it. But now when something is not there, we feel the lost. We feel the emptiness.

Im bad, im sucks in relationships. I don’t know how to express my love in the correct way. Sometimes I just hide my feelings. Im a failure. Im sucks in love. I’ve failed to show my love to my mum, to my dad.

I want them to know I love them. I really do. They are the best parents in the world. They are the best. Im sorry for being a naughty and not-so-obident son.

my sister just never listen

okok chill chill.

i know i should not be angry.

but im just pissed off with my sister.

again, she came home by herself although i supposed to pick her up!

tulan lo i tell u!

this is not the first time. many times already.

usually my mum will pick her up. but today my mum can't.

again i went to fetch her. waited for her for 20minutes. then her friend came to me and said your sister went back already!

i was like WHAT!! not again!

She didn't even wait for me. i was just late for 2 minutes.

her school is just behind my apartment but it's dangerous for my sister to walk home. she's a girl and she's still a kid.

i scolded her before. i warned her so many times not to do that again but she just never listen!

i asked her never walk home even if mum is late. wait! if people ask you to wait, you wait. no one knows where are you if you are not there waiting.

what if something happen when she walks home?? u tell me.

you know, my mum scold me when my sister walks back alone.

fuh.. im not gona scold her. i wont. im done with it. im so disappointed with her.

IM NOT GONA FETCH HER FROM SCHOOL ANYMORE!

my sister..

My sister is getting taller. Her head is reaching my neck. Tall but still skinny.

She’s talented. She’s good. If you come to my house, you’ll see all her trophies. She purposely display it in the hall. Haha.

She always draw. Im not sure whether she loves it or not but she has been doing it since small. She won quite a number of art competition.

Sometimes I pity her. Her weekends always packed with activitied. Like last Sunday. She woke up early morning for tuition at 8am, then rush for a drawing comepetition and dancing class at 1pm. I don’t know how she can cope with all this.

I wana spend time with her. bring her out for a movie, go for a good wlak with her at the Botanical Garden or fly kite with her. but sometimes I just don’t have the time. Then I’ll feel bad and blame myself for not spending enough time with her.

She’s quite smart. Exam: she’s always in Top 5 in the class and Top 10 in the whole standard. Like wow!!

But she never want to study. I ask her to study, she plays games, watches TV. Waleuh. I ask until bolat d.

Oh ya! She just washed all the dishes. I asked her my mum ask her to do that is it? She said no. *bows*

3 nights ago she taught me ABC. A for alamak. B is for Behtahan! Fulamak! *faints* I duno who taught her that.

Last night, she asked me something that she’ll never get the answer from me. it’s about love. In my family, we seldom n we are not open to discuss about this. It’s hard to change t his culture.

Sister: Takke (big brother), do you have a girlfriend?

Me: No.

Sister: Why no leh?

Me: Why must I have one?

Sister: Why must not you have one?

Sister: you know ah? In the drama, they always say ladies must get married by 30 years old. Then how old do you wana get married?

Me: I don’t know.

See.. that’s my sister. She’s matured d la. Nak akil baligh d. When we went to Thailand, she read newspapers in the hotel instead of following me n my mum out for shopping! Then we were having dinner, we saw a lady begging for money. My sister complained!!

She said, “aiyo why this lady wear so nice, got hands got hands but wana beg for money?”

Me n my mum just kept quiet. Haha.

Sometimes she’ll ask me about her. I’ll just keep quiet. I don’t know what should I say. I just hope my silence will make my sister forget about her like how I’m doing now. My sister misses her a lot.. a lot.. a lot.. I miss her very, very, very much too..

Ok I wana go out with my sister now to fly the kite. Something that we never do before. It’s also one of the things that I wanted to do my the one I love but I never have the chance to do so.