Bon Odori fireworks

cikabomb!

sampat! This photo is blur la, but nvm it shows the fireworks during Bon Odori in Penang last weekend. 

Nice photos post next month. lalalala!

Happy Convocation UTAR-ians

To all my seniors n friends from UTAR Kampar and other campuses who are finally graduating n having their Convocation this weekend, congrats!!

Sorry i can't be there in KL to give you a hug, a pat at the back or a bouquet of flower. It's not in Penang or Kampar la..

Anyhow, i wish u all the best in life.

Kampar will always on our minds.

Look for me if you need a photographer in the future.

*I don't want to get my scroll in Wisma MCA, KL.. I want my convocation to be held in Kampar, the place where i studied and spent my 3 years.

selamat hari merdeka ke-54

Malaysia is already 54-year old.

Happy Independence Day Malaysia.

Selamat hari merdeka kepada kamu yang ber-IC warganegara Malaysia. Dun be racist. Each n everyone of u r Malaysians n thr’ll b no Malaysia without any of the races we hv. Patriotism is not only by waving the flag. It’s about what you feel and what you do to ur nation. Loving n stayin in ur nation is patriotic too..

Let’s celebrate this day with the right freedom, peace and respect towards each other.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

Wohooo! Finally it’s Hari Raya! Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitiri buat semua rakan tak kira di mana anda berada. Hati-hati kalau balik kampung. Makanlah byk2 sampai perut buncit. Sekiranya ada silap n salah, percakapan atau perbuatan, saya minta maaf byk2. Semoga Raya ini penuh dgn kemaafan, keinsafan, keamanan, cinta dan kasih sayang.

Everytime whenver it's Raya or Deepavali, i will sure go back to Penang. Never miss! But this Raya, i'm working. I'll only be back on the 3rd Raya.

Friends asked me before, why do i want to spend money travel home? Raya and Deepavali is not even my celebrations. Eh, i celebrate. I feel so awkward for not celebrating it. Raya and Deepavali are already part of my culture. I'll visit my friends during these festivals.

At the end, i'm the few Chinese who will go back hometown, the rest, stay in the hostel and do their own things or go back for holidays.

I miss home la.

My friends in Penang, wait for me, i'm coming home.. soon!

I guess i'll go back on Wednesday la although i supposed to work. I'll apply for MC or emergency leave la ok. haha. September 6 i must be in uni. I don't wana stay in KL then straight to uni for internship presentation. If i don't go back Penang now, i have to wait till 11th because 11th i need to be in KL for an event.

Blablabla i talk too much. Ok set, i'm going back to Penang then Kampar then KL. At least i can rest in Penang, meet up my friends and spend time with family.

counting down

Raya 2 more days.

Merdeka 3 more days.

Balik kampung 4 more days.

wohooooo!

I can't wait for these 3 occasions la. Please cepat-cepat datang.

I need to start do my packing already. i seriously di not know how am i going to carry all these things back to Penang la.

No, no acking tonight. I'm to tired and worn out. I went to Broga Town at 6am this morning with Adeline Wok and reached home at 5pm. Slept straight away but not so blur, macam drunken master.

good night.

Photos of Bersih 2.0 Launching

Hi guys, i went to the launching of Bersih 2.0 at Kuala Lumpur Selangor Chinese Assembly Hall last night. You can view the photos here.

Don’t steal my photos. But if you need to use it for official reasons, please acknowledge me. thank you.

http://www.facebook.com/TeresaKokSuhSim?ref=ts&sk=wall#!/media/set/?set=a.10150211732127877.319634.599962876

running

Music In The Park Performance in conjuction with 1Malaysia Parks and Gardens Carnival.

Date: 11/6/2011

Time: 9.36pm

Location: Botanical Garden

Pesta Chow Kit Kita

JOM datang beramai-ramai.

live from KL

oh yeah, im in Kuala Lumpur!

Happy World Press Freedom Day

This is my Yellow Ribbon in support of World Press Freedom Day. It was given to me in 2010 during the lauching of Speaker's Square in Esplanade, Penang.

Happy World Press Freedom Day everyone.

The celebration was on 3rd May 2011.

I know i am late for like 1 day but it's ok. I was and still occupied for my finals ma. World Press Freedom is not only for a day but throughout the whole day. The fight for a free press will be going on until we achieve it one day.

Coincidentally on World Press Freedom Day, i had an exam on the subject of Politics and Media. hahaa. How irony is that when in studies, we talk about media freedom but in actual life, we actually don't have that.

I wrote this in my Facebook yesterday: it's 12am. it's May 3rd. It's World Press Freedom Day. i just hope that one day, the media in Malaysia will be more independent, neutral and free from Government control. let us at least against racist media for nation sake.

I don't know what we can do actually. but let's do something. Let's make a demand, a protest or a boycott to bad media.

DO you know that Malaysia is now ranks 143 out of 196 countries in the latest Global Press Freedom Index released by Freedom House from USA? What do you think about that huh??

You can decide what press you want you know.. The choice is in your hand.

i, am not ok..

UTAR Ball has taken a toll on my life.

The event is over but the mess is not over yet. I just hope as a team, everyone will bear the responsibilities together. This is our event and not my event. Don’t just quit or pin-point when we are in troubles.

A lecturer just told me that he will deduct my marks. Ok.. Yea because I didn’t do well in my coursework. I deserved that. Even if I give him what he needs now, no use already.

Oh besides that, I didn’t submit an assignment which due last week. Haha. What the fark am I doing right. It’s all my mistake. Not that I didn’t do but I can’t finish it. I slept at 4.30amon Thursday. Woke up so early on Friday and work on the ball whole day. Saturday is about UTAR Ball again.

Im living in the world of worries and insecurity every single day...

I screwed up my assignments. My studies drop like shit. I’m totally not happy with my life now.

Whenever my friends see me, they’ll ask am I ok, why am I looking down, tired and stress. They see it themselves that I am not ok.

I am really not ok.

Since beginning of March, everything seems so disorganized. Everything seems not ok.

Whenever I try to settle something, there will be sure some other things popped up to be settled. At the end, many things are unsettled.

You know.. I am tired n down. I skipped a lot of classes this semester.

I am worried. I am so so worried.

I’ve totally no mood to talk to anyone. I get angry so easily. I lost my patience when I talk to people, even people who I’m close with.

What can I do now? What should I do now? What choice do I have?

The final exam is the only way I can save myself. The only way. Please, don’t bother me with event’s problems anymore, I had enough. Just give me a break please. Let me alone. At least for these 2 weeks until I’ve done with my final exam.

PRIORITY!

Now, my internship is still in limbo. The company hasn’t reply to my lecturer. I told him that I don’t wana intern in UTAR.

He was so happy when he knew that we can intern in UTAR. What the fark man, who wants to intern in his/her university? I DON’T WANT!! Now is week 14 and no answer from the company yet. Then what should the students do? We live in fear every day, afraid that we can’t go out to do internship, afraid that we must stay in UTAR to do our internship. Can the lecturer please help us out? Please..

He’s like cincai cincai all the time. sorry la but this is how I’m feeling.

Arrrghhhhh!

Seriously don’t ask me to do anything else. I am fed up. Suddenly here not enough money, there not enough money. Must attend this meeting and that meeting. Suddenly money hilang. Suddenly have to settle some stuff and rush to university. Oh ya not to forget ongoing, continuously INCOMING CALLS, SMS, and FB NOTIFICATIONS! Halo what kind of life is this??

YES I AM COMPLAINING! GO AWAY IF YOU DON’T WANA LISTEN.

I am now giving away giving up everything in my hand for studies. Ok?

DON’T ask me for photos unless it’s necessary. Politics? Get off!

I’ll read less news, care less, totally less Facebook-ing, take less photos, sleep less, still going to eat more and STUDY!

I don’t know what’s gona happen if I flunk my final exam. NO! that’s NOT gona happen!

I am so in a mess right now. Don’t believe me? Look at the photo or you are welcome to my room. I’m not hiding anything and telling people how good I am because I am so not in a good position right now…

I.. Am not OK..

money matters

If you ask me do I trust someone when it comes to financial.

My answer would be no.

Why no?

Why not yes?

Why must yes?

Human nature: there’s greed in everyone. When you have the chance to keep something for yourself for free, you’ll do it.

In organizing an event, sure there will be a lot of expenses. But impossible you wana claim everything right? There are things that we have to spend by ourselves to make the event a success. If every single thing also claim, then pokai la.

And when it comes to claiming, there are sure people will give fake receipts. Eh eh I wana ask, you don’t afraid that people might find out meh? You don’t afraid of your religion meh? You tak takut dosa ka? Nanti tidur tak lena, makan tak lalu, mandi tak basah and berak taik tak keluar!

When so many people have to chance to hold on to the money, fraud will happen.

When there are so much procedures and steps or bureaucracies in getting the money or passing the money, fraud also happen.

This is why we have corrupted people. Duit dah melekat kat bola mata.

I also don’t have faith in myself. But of course I control myself. I still have high discipline, conscience, ethics, moral and fear for my religion.

You take people’s money today, tomorrow you’ll lost even more.

Never do bad to others la.

Money is important.

Money can be everything.

But conscience is always above money.

Mini Thaipusam? Many people don’t know about this celebration. We only know the real Thaipusam in the month of January or February.

Mini Thaipusam or the real name is Chithirai Pournami. It is actually the 1st Full Moon of Tamil Calendar. As usual, there’ll be people carrying milk pot and kavadi.

I missed Thaipusam this year, as in not carrying kavadi and no piercing and I feel not good about it.

Mini Thaipusam is today and few days ago I planned to go for it but I can’t because yesterday is UTAR Ball. I need to be on vegetarian and stuff.

But now, the urge is there for me to at least go and have a look and pray. When I wana do something regarding religion, I’ll do it. It’s not good when you say and when you think you wana do something religious but at the end you didn’t.

It’s all about your faith.

I still don’t feel good about UTAR Ball because there are many problems to be settled.

It’s ok.. let me go pray first.

i'll be on vegetarian today.

Teluk Intan here i come.

Nothing and no one I can count on to now except for religion.

At least religion is true, religion will never lie on me.

biggest mistake in my life

I just made the biggest mistake in my life.

Instead, I made it few months ago, in 2010.

If I ever persevere, stick to my principle, all these wouldn’t happen.

I never wanted UTAR Ball. NEVER! UTAR Ball, ball night, events, entertainment, girls, party are never in my mind. That’s not the reason why I joined SRC.

My biggest mistake was I accepted explanation and persuasion from Dr Teh and support and agreement from my own committee.

It was a mistake. It is a mistake.

It’s all my fault. I’m a weak leader.

This is the biggest defeat in my life.

Yes we managed to pull it through. We have to change the venue from Tambun Lost World to Kampar Club. Majority of the people who came were extremely happy. They were partying crazily, screaming, and enjoying themselves to the max. They were laughing all the way and it’s a good thing because that’s the point of continuing this event.

While they were enjoying themselves, I was standing there at one corner, looking at them while my mind at somewhere else, thinking, cracking my head on how to solve the financial problem.

I am totally not feeling happy. People are laughing happily but my tears are flowing, heart aches bitterly to the max.  

Fingers will soon be pointing to one direction, to me.

I just hope that miracles will happen.

I just hope that I won’t be alone.

Actually why am I so sad? Yea I already made a big mistake by allowing this event to takes place ever since from January 2011. But I’m even more sad when there’s trouble, everyone is running away. Many people are quitting. Many fingers are pointing to me and I’m talking about my own committee members!

Like Hong Leong said, the lesson is I must be firm. I must dare to make my decision as a chairman and all will have to follow my words.

Yea it’s ideally that way but in reality, that scenario can never happened in the team.

Throughout the whole event, I got to see more of the real faces of people. Some people have their wn agenda. Some people are taking advantage of the networks, financial, friends, girls, reputation etc.

And some, they really put their heart and mind into making this event a success. In this group of people, those who really worked as I observed, are the innocent ones.

I thought after tonight, I’ll be free but no. There are damages that have to be repaired. There are messes to be cleared. There are debts to be paid.

Despites all the obstacles and problems we faced, we made it happened. I must thank all the committee members, helpers, sponsors, performers, university, Sahara, Kampar Club, participants and friends. Thanks a lot.

Thanks to the 4 committee members and 6 helpers who stayed back till the end, till midnight to clean up. Thanks to the girl who said this to me, “May God bless you.”

Thank you. Yea I know the god has been blessing me and I don’t ask for anything more. Hope you guys will be blessed as well.

I am gona silent my phone and sleep till God knows what’s the time. I’m not gona pick up any calls or reply any sms-es.

I..made the biggest mistake in my life.

*It’s easy to avoid responsibility than to bear responsibility.

happy new year

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!

Happy Vasakhi to the Sikhs.

Happy Tamil New Year to the Indians.

Happy Vishu New Year to the Malayalees.

and Happy Songkran Festival to the Thais.

messy

EVerything is messy like the lines and colors in this photo. Im feeling stress and tired as well. when i close my eyes, my mind is till running here and there. nice sleep? never! Physically tired. that's ok. Physicals can heal. But when the mind is tired, it's hard to continue working.

My room is messy. i hardly have time to really clean it.

My mind is messy. too many things to think and too many things to do at the same time.

my assignments are messy. 2 more presentations and 1 written report.

hmmm.. messy messy. is your life messy?

well, everything can be messy but not your life.

Happy Valentine Day

Today is 14 February which is the well-known Valentine Day throughout the world.

In Malaysia, the people celebrate it too and it's definitely a Western culture.

But who cares where it came from as Malaysians adopt a lot of culture from all over the world.

but recently there's a HOT issue again, the controversial Valentine Day.

The oppositional political party, PAS is acting like a moral police while Islamic body, JAKIM is saying that Valentine Day is a day where vice activities happen.

sweat. what a moron statement. ignorant.

i'm not gona comment about that in this post.

what i wana say is Valentine Day is just a day to celebrate and commemorate love with your loved ones be it, mother, father, lover and even friends.

Let me show you my version of Valentine Day.

http://www.facebook.com/?sk=messages&tid=1556016383848#!/album.php?id=599962876&aid=125577

View this album in my Facebook.

Lastly Happy Valentine Day to all.

or Selamat Hari Maksiat?

haha! Who knows one day the government might just make Valentine’s Day into Hari Maksiat?

Anything is possible in this Boleh Land.

Only in Malaysia.

no (nasi) Pattani lo..

Not going already la.

Too much to handle in one night.

If I were to go to Thailand, means I have to depart this morning.

Too much to give up and let go. I have responsibilities here. I have tasks to perform here.

Many things holding me back.

Furthermore, this thing is too last minute.

It’s not compulsory. It’s not necessary. It’s not a must choice.

I can say NO to it.

I’ll just pray that I’ll get the chance again next time.

I told my mum. She’s ok if I go Thailand. She didn’t stop me. She let me to decide myself.

Why last night I’m holding back and decided not to go?

1.       Because this news came to me too sudden. Too rush la.

2.       Because later at 6.30pm I wana go for UTAR 2^nd Karaoke Competition 2011’s audition.

3.       Because I haven’t settle my Final Year Project title and Industrial Attachment application.

4.       Because I wana take pictures of the oldest house in Old Town Kampar before it’s being demolished.

5.       Because I have UTAR Ball meeting tomorrow night.

6.       Because I already promise someone to go back with her on Thursday night.

7.       Because I already bought my ticket RM21.60 back to Penang this Thursday night.

8.       Because I scared no more ticket back to Penang this morning.

9.       Because I scared no more trip to Hat Yai today.

Wah I give so many excuses to justify my decision!

Red Mob

This is to announce that UTAR Kampar will be flooded with blood color today.

Why?

You wana know why?

You come and see it yourself la.

Can't make it??

Then you just wait for the photos lo..

Don't worry, no police involved. No FRU involved.

It's peaceful.

Pattani: to go or not to go

I have a chance to add another colour in my life.

I believe that we should paint our own life and make it colourful.

But should I go or not?? It’s this Wednesday la.

And it’s in Pattani, Thailand! Yes I repeat again, Thailand.

Just now around 5pm I got an email from a friend in Thailand inviting me to AMAN 20th Anniversary Assembly and Interfaith Conference on Multiculturalism and Global Peace from January 26 to 28, 2011 at PSU, Pattani Campus.

I want to go la.

Eh this is a golden and rare opportunity ok.

It’s not always that you get this chance. And not everyone get this chance.

I like the topic as well. If I go there, I’ll be presenting Malaysia I think and I can bring out my opinions to the world. Chandra Muzaffar will be there as well as the speaker. My participation will help a lot in my resume too.

This is just the beginning of the year and I got this golden chance.

I feel so overwhelmed by the sudden pour of rezeki this month. So many good things are happening. I feel so, so encouraging and, and too blessed.

You can feel the presence from ‘above’ ok.

My friends ask me to go for it. Just grab the chance. Opportunities don’t always come.

Ai Chun said good things require hard work, sacrifices and persistence.

I know I know. I know I’ll regret if I don’t go. I also know I’ll regret if I go.

There is a price to pay.

There are pros and cons.

But, something is holding me back. Maybe because it’s too far and this news got to me too last minute.

I have a lot of things to settle leh. Have to consider a lot of things.

If I go Thailand, I have to let go a lot of things. Letting go is not really a problem but the problem is it’s my responsibility.

Money should not be a problem cuz I’ll get funding from the organizer.

Aih.. how ah??

Indecisive is a very suffering situation especially when you are stuck in between two important decisions.

Hmm.. I think I am going to Thailand la. Hehehe. Cuz I just rushed n speed like hell with my bike as if im going to end my life to tapao dinner, to reload my handphone etc.

Who knows I might change my mind later.