QUOTE of the day

BE PART OF THE MOVEMENT!

i, am not ok..

UTAR Ball has taken a toll on my life.

The event is over but the mess is not over yet. I just hope as a team, everyone will bear the responsibilities together. This is our event and not my event. Don’t just quit or pin-point when we are in troubles.

A lecturer just told me that he will deduct my marks. Ok.. Yea because I didn’t do well in my coursework. I deserved that. Even if I give him what he needs now, no use already.

Oh besides that, I didn’t submit an assignment which due last week. Haha. What the fark am I doing right. It’s all my mistake. Not that I didn’t do but I can’t finish it. I slept at 4.30amon Thursday. Woke up so early on Friday and work on the ball whole day. Saturday is about UTAR Ball again.

Im living in the world of worries and insecurity every single day...

I screwed up my assignments. My studies drop like shit. I’m totally not happy with my life now.

Whenever my friends see me, they’ll ask am I ok, why am I looking down, tired and stress. They see it themselves that I am not ok.

I am really not ok.

Since beginning of March, everything seems so disorganized. Everything seems not ok.

Whenever I try to settle something, there will be sure some other things popped up to be settled. At the end, many things are unsettled.

You know.. I am tired n down. I skipped a lot of classes this semester.

I am worried. I am so so worried.

I’ve totally no mood to talk to anyone. I get angry so easily. I lost my patience when I talk to people, even people who I’m close with.

What can I do now? What should I do now? What choice do I have?

The final exam is the only way I can save myself. The only way. Please, don’t bother me with event’s problems anymore, I had enough. Just give me a break please. Let me alone. At least for these 2 weeks until I’ve done with my final exam.

PRIORITY!

Now, my internship is still in limbo. The company hasn’t reply to my lecturer. I told him that I don’t wana intern in UTAR.

He was so happy when he knew that we can intern in UTAR. What the fark man, who wants to intern in his/her university? I DON’T WANT!! Now is week 14 and no answer from the company yet. Then what should the students do? We live in fear every day, afraid that we can’t go out to do internship, afraid that we must stay in UTAR to do our internship. Can the lecturer please help us out? Please..

He’s like cincai cincai all the time. sorry la but this is how I’m feeling.

Arrrghhhhh!

Seriously don’t ask me to do anything else. I am fed up. Suddenly here not enough money, there not enough money. Must attend this meeting and that meeting. Suddenly money hilang. Suddenly have to settle some stuff and rush to university. Oh ya not to forget ongoing, continuously INCOMING CALLS, SMS, and FB NOTIFICATIONS! Halo what kind of life is this??

YES I AM COMPLAINING! GO AWAY IF YOU DON’T WANA LISTEN.

I am now giving away giving up everything in my hand for studies. Ok?

DON’T ask me for photos unless it’s necessary. Politics? Get off!

I’ll read less news, care less, totally less Facebook-ing, take less photos, sleep less, still going to eat more and STUDY!

I don’t know what’s gona happen if I flunk my final exam. NO! that’s NOT gona happen!

I am so in a mess right now. Don’t believe me? Look at the photo or you are welcome to my room. I’m not hiding anything and telling people how good I am because I am so not in a good position right now…

I.. Am not OK..

biggest mistake in my life

I just made the biggest mistake in my life.

Instead, I made it few months ago, in 2010.

If I ever persevere, stick to my principle, all these wouldn’t happen.

I never wanted UTAR Ball. NEVER! UTAR Ball, ball night, events, entertainment, girls, party are never in my mind. That’s not the reason why I joined SRC.

My biggest mistake was I accepted explanation and persuasion from Dr Teh and support and agreement from my own committee.

It was a mistake. It is a mistake.

It’s all my fault. I’m a weak leader.

This is the biggest defeat in my life.

Yes we managed to pull it through. We have to change the venue from Tambun Lost World to Kampar Club. Majority of the people who came were extremely happy. They were partying crazily, screaming, and enjoying themselves to the max. They were laughing all the way and it’s a good thing because that’s the point of continuing this event.

While they were enjoying themselves, I was standing there at one corner, looking at them while my mind at somewhere else, thinking, cracking my head on how to solve the financial problem.

I am totally not feeling happy. People are laughing happily but my tears are flowing, heart aches bitterly to the max.  

Fingers will soon be pointing to one direction, to me.

I just hope that miracles will happen.

I just hope that I won’t be alone.

Actually why am I so sad? Yea I already made a big mistake by allowing this event to takes place ever since from January 2011. But I’m even more sad when there’s trouble, everyone is running away. Many people are quitting. Many fingers are pointing to me and I’m talking about my own committee members!

Like Hong Leong said, the lesson is I must be firm. I must dare to make my decision as a chairman and all will have to follow my words.

Yea it’s ideally that way but in reality, that scenario can never happened in the team.

Throughout the whole event, I got to see more of the real faces of people. Some people have their wn agenda. Some people are taking advantage of the networks, financial, friends, girls, reputation etc.

And some, they really put their heart and mind into making this event a success. In this group of people, those who really worked as I observed, are the innocent ones.

I thought after tonight, I’ll be free but no. There are damages that have to be repaired. There are messes to be cleared. There are debts to be paid.

Despites all the obstacles and problems we faced, we made it happened. I must thank all the committee members, helpers, sponsors, performers, university, Sahara, Kampar Club, participants and friends. Thanks a lot.

Thanks to the 4 committee members and 6 helpers who stayed back till the end, till midnight to clean up. Thanks to the girl who said this to me, “May God bless you.”

Thank you. Yea I know the god has been blessing me and I don’t ask for anything more. Hope you guys will be blessed as well.

I am gona silent my phone and sleep till God knows what’s the time. I’m not gona pick up any calls or reply any sms-es.

I..made the biggest mistake in my life.

*It’s easy to avoid responsibility than to bear responsibility.

the show must go on

hmmm.. UTAR Ball 2011?

It’s very ironic. Top guns keep telling me as a chairman you don’t have to do anything, you just observe, monitor and do some surveillance. Ok.. that’s totally different from what I’ve been practicing. I still helped what I can and what I know. But when there’s problem. Every finger is pointing at me. Mouths are telling that I didn’t do anything and I NEVER help my committee. Hmmm.. ok.. these two statements are so contradict. It’s not easy to be at the top. You can’t please everyone you know.

It’s human nature..

When you make mistake, people only look at your mistake and nothing else. Your track records are nothing because you already made a mistake and people will remember your mistake.

Many people out there, as normal will give their point of view but they don’t know what’s going on inside. Only inside people know the truth.

A lot of top guns in the committee said they can do this and they can do that, but at the end of the day, only a few of them and only the talked less people did the amazing things. For those who talked big, now they kept quiet. Sometimes they put they blame on others. As for me, I made a mistake by not putting 100% effort in it.

I chose to just listen and I won’t put the blame directly to any specific person. I make mistakes and I admit it. For those in denial, let it be.

my stomach is kacau again since few days ago. im tired but couldn't sleep because of the pain. what the toooot la.

 While the Sarawak people are fighting for a change, I will be fighting to make a good UTAR Ball despite all the hurdles the committees have to face.

We are fighting here in Kampar to give a good show.

The show must go on!

I just have one hope tonight. Please no rain.

Thank you.

YES YOU CAN

A smile can make up your day. A loud shout can take away your nervous, worries and stress. A simple message can motivate you. A physical or a virtual hug can make you calm down and loved. A scolding can boast your confidence. anyway, YES YOU CAN!

It's not about whether you can or cannot. It's not about whether you have to do it or not. it's about whether you want it or not. If you want it, then do it. Go all out, do all you can. Make your choice a worth one. DOn't regret later. YES YOU CAN! YES! YOU CAN!! YOU CAN!!!

SET YOUR MIND, PUT YOUR HEART, HAVE FAITH, NEVER HAVE DOUBTS, BE POSITIVE, GO ALL OUT, DON'T WORRY, BE HAPPY.

YES YOU CAN!

wohooo! alright to boast up my confidence and make myself happy, i need to get an ice cream now! yes i can get an ice-cream! =p

QUOTE of the day

Don't be afraid. Hold firm on your principles. Keep fighting for what you believe in. Just say what you need to say. Just do whatever you need to do.

BIG things to do

alalalalala...

BUSY BUSY BUSY!!

yes yes busy.

will be busy from this week this April.

In fact many of us started to be busy from last month.

a lot of things to do this semester.

hmmm..

but for tonight...

I want to accomplish 3 tasks!

3 is enough la. Not too less, not too much.

at least i have an aim and i'm working on it.

It's ok if you say out your dream and then you can't achieve it.

how can you say people cakap kosong?

A dream is not an empty entity. You dare to achieve something for yourself.

Whether you achive it or not, it's another matter.

I'm actually feeling so sleepy right now. Doctor ask me don't take coffee must i can't resist it.

so..

i wana done these things before i sleep tonight.

1) Assignment

2) Sponsorship letter and proposal

3) Confirm and inform SRC Monthly Dialogue Session

4) Resume

5) Send application form to be the staff for March Introduction Weekend

* I'm really stress. What i hope from friends is just an understanding and care. That'll all to keep someone keep on fighting.

get ur facts right

All these while, I have been keeping quiet, not saying anything although I have been framed, criticized, downgraded, humiliated, and accused by someone.

But now before I sleep, I have something to say.

I would like to remind everyone to get your facts right before you say anything because it can become a sedition or defamation. I, OH CHIN ENG, NEVER EVER USE MY PTPTN LOAN TO BUY ANY CAMERA OR DSLR. I bought my DSLR back in 2007 using the money I earn working part time in few places. It’s ridiculous to say that I use PTPTN loan to purchase my DSLR. For your information as well, as a student representative I have never given a cent and I have never taken a cent from the university. You can check it with the university for clarification. If I am self-centered I won’t devote my time, energy, money and reputation to stand up for the students.

I don’t mind and I am so open to criticisms but please debate on facts and not by attacking people’s personal life. Don’t act as if you know me so well.

I am offended by these derogatory remarks. I hate being accused and its hurt. Mind your language. Yes, I feel behsyiok now.

But good news is, you, yes YOU, if you still know who you are after saying I use my PTPTN loan to buy a DSLR, you can continue with your baseless and irresponsible allegations. I’m not gona care anymore. Or let me suggest you this, if you don’t like what people say or write, just go off, don’t listen and don’t read. Don’t torture yourself la.

Thank you and good night.

*Kes ditangguh buat semementara waktu sehingga satu tarikh yang akan diumumkan kelak. =p

an IMPORTANT reminder

This is to remind all the UNIVERSITI TUNKU ABDUL RAHMAN Kampar campus students to please pay your student bill by this Friday (11.2.2011). The deadline also applies to those qualified students who didn’t get their PTPTN loan yet.  I already went to the relevant department to inform them about the late imbursement of PTPTN loan. But the officer said the deadline won’t be extended and we must pay the penalty. I repeat, UTAR IS NOT EXTENDING THE DEADLINE! If you are late, you’ll be charged penalty RM10 per week. Good news is you can write a letter to the Division of Examinations to get back your penalty. Good luck!

UTAR Kampar

SRC Chairman

lost in 2011

Today is like what, the 10^th day of 2011?? But why am I feeling so lost, as if I’m already in the maze of 2011 for years.

I don’t feel comfortable with what I’m feeling now seriously. Seriously..

I’m back in Kampar already. Reached here late last night. While my other classmates still enjoying one more week of holidays, I have to be back earlier. There are a bunch of people also sacrificed their holidays to prepare for Orientation this week. Hat off to them. They are really dedicated in what they are doing.

Now back to my story. I feel so stress up la. Yea this is just the beginning of the semester. But with Orientation, SRC, events, studies, Final Year Project, Internship application, etc etc and etc, wah kepala boleh pecah!

I think what bother me the most is SRC. A lot of unfinished plans and things to be done. Hmmm..

The problem now is..

I FEEL LOST!

I feel so so lost. Moody.  I don’t know what I should do. I’m so clueless and helpless.

No ummpph! No inspiration!

HOW ah? How?

I need the KICK!!

I need to start working. But brain is not working. Time flies so fast. I can’t afford to waste anymore time. Chances have slipped away.

OCE WAKE UP!!

Oh, I feel like go into the ring for a fight now. Feel like punching someone and let someone punch me. I wana feel the pain lah. Really la. Is there any illegal fighting ring? Eh I wana join. When you fight, you can overcome your fear you know. Cuz u’ll be dare to face your opponent and challenges.

I believe fighting is a good way to train us to face our problems. =

2010 was a good year. 2011? Hmm.. what say you? I don’t think 2011 is a good year because I don’t feel it. But maybe tomorrow I’ll feel differently? So, if you feel it’ll be good, it’ll be good la. And if you want it to be good, you make it good lo..

3 weeks in Penang

wooohoooo!

finally i am home. i reached Penang on Wednesday morning. and i lost my handphone. i left it in the ferry.

this is the first time the exam for Journalism course finished earlier than other courses. most of the time, our paper is the last one.

last paper was on 18th. then i went to Kuantan from 19th to 21st. i had an enjoyable time with you Sotong, Dai Ka Jie, Jing Wen, Xiang Lin, Yat Kuan, and Siew King. Thanks for the great hospitality Yat Kuan.

i met up with Feli yesterday. it feels great to catch up with her again. she bought me a tie as a Christmas gift. lalalalala. and she made me walked in George Town and hopped into public bus instead of travelling with my scooter. it's nice to slow down and feel the life of Penang.

then i helped Sheau Fung from PHT to shift exhibition stuffs in the new Museum at Macalister Road. Everytime i come back to Penang, i sure look for her and help out whenever i can. she taught me a lot of things.

you know..  i just helped my mum to wash the dishes.

im glad i did.

this is the first time i helped her to wash the dishes eventhough she didn't ask me to do so.

i feel.. i duno. i should do something for this family, to ease her burden.

this semester break is the only time i have to be with my family and i'll make use of the time i have.

i'm going out now but my mum ask me to eat. hmmm.. but she has not finish cooking la and i am rushing. this is the situation i dislike the most. i know she wants us to eat. every mum in the world work so hard in the kitchen to prepare a meal for her family hoping that they will eat, stay healthy and not hungry when they are out of the house. i know she feels disappointed everytime i didn't eat.

well, i'll stay to have my lunch and be late for my date lah. =p

this semester break is quite long, a total of 4 weeks. but i only have 3 weeks cause i have to be back to uni for the new students Orientation. yeala that's my duty as SRC Chairman ma. 3 weeks is damn short la.. most of the time, i dun really care of holidays. but this time..

I WANT ONE MONTH OF SEMESTER BREAK!!

SRC Monthly Dialogue Session

Monthly Dialogue Session by Student Representatives Committee (SRC) of Universiti Tunku Abdul Rahman (UTAR) Kampar is back.

Come and participate. Make your voice heard loud and clear.

We'll discuss a lot of issues that affect your welfare.

We want to listen to your complaints, suggestions and ideas. This will be the last dialogue session before we focus on our exam and have our holidays. This will also be the last chance for you to voice up in written form before we submit a memorandum on students' needs to the university.

Date: 30/11/10 Tuesday
Time: 5pm-7pm
Venue: B208

Hope to see you guys tomorrow. Please spread the news.

Thank you.

Oh Chin Eng,
Chairman
SRC
UTAR Kampar

now, i support autocracy

I am a firm believer of democracy.

i have been practicing it all this while.

i listen to everyone. i make sure they speak. i make sure they are heard. i want everyone to take part in the team. they must know that they are important and they can make a change too.

But now for once, i believe in autocracy.

why??

so that there'll be only one voice that represents the team.

this might not sound good. BUt sometimes, it is necessary to make sure things are done. It's not good if no one listen to you. It will be messy if everyone wants to take the role of the head. no decision can be made if some people wants to be 'hero' or they have their own agenda.

i never command anyone to do anything that they are not willing to do. i never force them yet. i didn't raise my voice even when things are not done. i never even use my power as a chairman to scold, to complaint or to sack anyone.

I felt i don't have to do so because this is a team and we must always be united. All are adults and all know how to think. But some just know how to talk, know what they should do but never do.

Now, knowing that i have the power, thus i must exercise it.

Power is part of my responsibility.

I was given the power and mandate to stand with the people and serve them.

Before i can deal with anyone, i must make show my team are willing or at least listen to my order.

I must be firm, stern, straight forward and strong in my decision and principles.

I'm sorry and don't blame me if i scold anyone. I know im too soft when i deal with people. I also know i am not the best leader.

Let's just work all out for the last one semester.

Leave a good memories for yourself and your voters. Don't make yourself regret. 

It's ok if people don't praise you, just make sure they don't critisize you. =p

hectic week

Everyone suffers in short semester.

Everyone will go crazy especially from week 3 - week 5.

I am so so gona go crazy.

yes, may things to do, many things happen in this week.

1) Public Administration midterm: today

2) Culture and Communication presentation: Thursday

3) Public Administration assignment: Friday

4) Treasure Hunt Competition: Wednesday

5) JR Gathering: Friday

6) Sister dancing competition: Sunday

7) Pay student bill

8) SRC: meeting, events, student welfare issues

9) etc etc.

im working, people

SRC

Things that you might not know.

it's not that i didn't do anything.

i did a lot of things.

but..

students don't know what i did.

i didn't tell everyone everything that i did for them.

i didn't tell because i am sincere.

i didn't tell because i feel i don't have to announce to the world what i have done.

i didn't tell because i don't want to have the impression that im showing off.

i didn't tell because it's not the way i work.

it's my job. it's my responsibility.

A friend said to me, "There's no need for you to tell. As long as you know you did it, it's good enough."

Yes i agree. I totally agree. in fact, i always practice that.

but in reality, this way is not working.

it's human nature that people wana see you are doing something. the students wana know and they need to know what i've done for them.

when people don't see, they will say you do nothing.

ok i will try to tell more after this.

if that's what the people want.

a humble reminder

I don't want to be mean but I am sorry i have to say this.

What have you contributed to the people? Do you ever want to serve them?

No one should be kaki tumpang nama or do nothing but just want the name.

Leave if you don't have the heart to be in the team. Leave if you don't care of people's welfare. Leave if you talk big but no action. Leave if you do nothing.

Do it GRACIOUSLY.

You should know your PRIORITY.

You are here in this position not to show off, get notice, lobby for posts and contracts, but to do work.

Respect is to earn.

Public interest is much more important than personal interest.

Please do some REFLECTION.

You can disgrace yourself. NEVER disgrace and humiliate your team.

People look up at you. You actions will reflect on the team.

I am not only angry. But i am highly disappointed and fed up!

I thank you, the student who help me to solved the problem.

QUOTE of the day

people have eyes to see whether you are really working for them or you hold positions just for popularity and status.

J and P

life is a learning process.

now i know i want to be a J and not really a P.

although u enjoy being a P.

it feels good when you can help people.

if i never try, i'll never know.

Thanks to you people who continuous help and support me.

Life will gets tougher without you people.

UTAR Kampar SRC not improving?

Nothing has changed since the new SRC team took over?

Are we not listening enough? Are we not responsive enough? Are we not efficient enough? Are we not doing good enough? Can't we change the bad perception you have towards SRC? 


I am not here to change your mindset. I am not God. Even God can't make you think what you want to think.


But my point here is if you see we are working, give us support and encouragement. Work with us, give us feedback. If we are doing better then the previous batches, if we are being different, if we change in the way we deliver, then change your perception, change the way you think, make yourselves open to changes. 

If we are not performing well, advise us. Let us know. If we still don't meet your expectation, let us know. Don't be quiet. If you never tell, we never know. And if you never tell, it's unfair to say we never do anything.


Have some faith in us.. Lend us your help.

Come to us personally. Send us sms. Write to us. We listen and we are willing to improve.

I accept constructive criticsms and I'm not hiding from my mistakes.

I listen. If my team members don't listen to you, i still listen. I am sure they listen too.

Come on, pour me with sincere answers.

Whatever your perception towards us, i accept it. It's ok. I will still continue working. i will still continue giving my service. I will still listen. I will still do all i can to improve students welfare. I will still coming up with changes. I will still do what i supposed to do. 

I am where i am today because of the 4% of you. But i am a student leader who represent the 13 thousand students of you in UTAR Kampar. Your voice are so significant and important.

Student Representative Committes always with the students. That what's me and my team always do.

To see changes, we must be together in voicing out our demands and needs.

Changes never happen in one day. But if we never take the first time in coming together and voicing up, nothing, forever, can be seen.

I may not be the GREATEST student leader ever, but at least, let me and my team members be the best SRC team ever in your studying life in UTAR Kampar.

Thank you.

Oh Chin Eng,
Chairman,
SRC UTAR Kampar
2010-2011

Information Booth by SRC UTAR Kampar

ok SRC UTAR Kampar will b having an information booth and conducting an opinion poll at Block C and Block F from 25-27/10/10 11am-4pm. Pls bring all ur complaints, suggestions or whatever u 1 2 say to us!

Thank you =p