the final is tomorrow

Just in few hours time, I’ll be competing with 4 more finalists in Bahasa Melayu Category for my university’s public speaking competition final round. The competition starts at 10.30am. I don’t know when is my turn. I hope im not the first one.

Sadly tomorrow none of my coursemates are able to come and support me like how they did during the preliminary round last December. I’ll be there alone.. without anyone by my side. This is because all of us have class from 10am-12pm. Im not gona ask them to skip class just to come and watch me. its unfair for them. studies are more important. After all this is just a competition. My family also not coming because this is an internal event and it's just too far my my family to travel here.

My coursemates actually wana come. They are very supportive. But well what to do. I know some of them are really sad. I feel more sad ok. I don’t blame anyone la. it’s just not my luck.

You know I even went to the lecturer to asked him bring all my coursemates to my competition tomorrow. Haha. I was just joking with him la. I asked him to release them early if possible. I told him I can’t make it for class, so my friend will sign for me la. hehehe. He said its ok, he can sign for me. Then we laugehd out loud. Hahah.

Im so scared and nervous right now until shivering and stomach pain. My heart is throbbing and my blood is pumping hard. I just feel like giving up la. im not done with the text yet. I duno why im so last minute this time? No UMPHH la. not excited oso. Why? Is it because I know that my friends are not coming? Is it because the gap between the preliminary and the final is too big. Is it bcoz the title is not interesting? Is it because of ‘her’? or is it because im LAZY?!! Im not gona blame anyone if i don't get anything tmr.

Anyway thanks for all the wishes n prayers from my friends. You know who u are. Tq from the bottom of my heart. I'll do my BEST!! I dun wana dissappoint those who support me.

I wonder whether she remembers about this competition or not. Again she’s not here when im competing..

All the best 2eveyone especially my Senior, Pei-Jing who’s also one of the finalists in the competition.  Let’s do our best to get the first prize of RM600. =p

CHIN ENG JUST DO YOUR BEST NO MATTER WHAT. AFTER ALL THIS IS WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR ALL THE WHILE RIGHT? I DON’T THINK YOU WANA GET FIRST RUNNER UP AGAIN RIGHT? SO DO IT! KALAH PUN MESTI KALAH DENGAN BERMARUAH!