QUOTE of the day

"Malaysians have to learn to respect each other. Those who want to hurt Indian and Chinese, they should ask themselves this. If we cubit ourselves, do we not hurt? Then why do we want to pinch them? This logic should also apply vice-versa."

- Chef Wan

happiness is achievable

i've read a blog of a friend of mine. she's sad. at the same time, i also feel sad reading Anil Netto's blog saying that Kg Buah Pala villagers still determine to fight for their heritage village and tonight they are sleeping in their broken houses.

well.. we must realised that problems always occur. it happens everyday. sometimes it's avoidable but most of the time, it is not. life is not as beautiful as we always want it to be. there are ups and downs. as a non-perfect creature on the Earth, we can't avoid but to solve and prevent it.

i feel it's not impossible to make ourself happy. how?

first, it can be doing the things you always wanted to do.

second, it can be you finished or accomplised something that you started.

third, it can be you do it with someone who knows you and cares for you.

fourth, knowing that someone you know is happy.

fifth, it can be you did a good thing.

and tonight, i feel i have achieved some happiness in my life.. although it might last only for a while before another problem arrives. but i appreciate every moment of it and save it in my memory.

i have achieved all the five happiness factors tonight.

1. i always wanted to study for my exam n i did it tonight when my friends are sleeping. we r tired tonight after we finished our first paper and the next paper, Introduction to Advertising is at 9am 16/9/09. i didn't want to waste any time that's why i studied tonight.
2. im happy because i finished studying AV. i didn't stop half way and go sleep. i studied from 2.30am to 5.15am. i may not remember everything but at least i have some idea of it.
3. my good friends accompanied me tonight. 2 of them. Saravani and Amirah. i asked my other friends but they are tired. amirah left around 2.30am and Sara was with me the whole night. yes i feel more semangat when my friends are around. if i sleep, they'll scold me.
4. hehe... me n my friends were joking and laughed our hearts out. they are happy. when they happy, i happy. i know Sara is happy too cuz i studied. haha. and if 'she' knows i burn midnight oil, i guess 'she' will be happy for me too.
5. i sent Sara home. yeala so late already you know. 5.20am in the morning. dangerous.

so think positively and live happily. i know it's not easy but.. hey.. in the end, who'll get hurt?

the answer is: WE, US, KITA, I, ME, SAYA, AKU, LIMPEH, WA.

till then, gnite ppl. signing off at 6am. tata.

what the TUUUUUT!

WHAT THE TUT! TUT! TUT! TUT! TUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT!

Maximum Satisfaction

OCE gila babi cokodok basi
Mengidam kfc pi makan seorang diri
Sedap gila hingga menjilat kaki
Now Sudah hapi can study

QUOTE of the day

"There are things we can change and things we cannot change."

- The Obnoxious 5xmom

The Devil Strikes Again

oh god! why is this happening? Why again? and why at this time when I should be focusing on my final then worrying about my mum and siblings safety?? It must be so serious. If not my grandparents won’t come and try to settle it. But as usual, my mum n us will be BLAME. Dad is never wrong.

Im so shocked and sad. Try to imagine someone big in size and hit another person. Try to imagine the impact. My mum always wake up at 6.30am and fetch sister to school. My dad didn’t even fetch her when it’s raining! My mum has to wear raincoat, cover my sister with jacket and send her to school.

What my dad said is totally not true. It’s an accusation. Purely accusation. My mum never instigate any of us. My mum never asks us not to go to grandma’s house. she always ask us to drop by. During last school break, my sister slept there for a week. Dad always want us to go to his parents’ house but never want us to go my mom’s side. my brother is weak is studies. So what’s the problem of taking tuition? My dad always scold him for not going to tuition but when he does, my dad says different thing. My mum subsidize half of the tuiton fee. My brother even dropped a few subjects so that the fee won’t be that high. Yes he is lazy and always play around. But don’t twist your words.

My mum has done a lot and so much for this family. She’s the one who handle and maintain the family welfare. She’s still working. My dad’s monthly allowance for her is totally not enough! Crap! How can rm500 fed 4 persons for a month?! My mum travels 30mins on bike to her work place everyday. She’s uneducated. She cant work in office. She’s just a cashier in a chinese coffee shop. She sells products from Tupperware. In the weekend, she opens a stall to sell Tupperware. But I’m still proud of her. why at this middle age she still do all that? Because my sister is still young. Because she loves us.

My dad doesn’t want my brother to further study in college. My dad forced my brother to take up Form 6. My brother is not the study material. We all know that. If my brother screw up Form 6, he’ll wasted his 2years and end up no qualification to enter any universities at all. My mum never asks him not to further studies. Me, my mum, my aunties, my uncles have been telling my dad the consequences of going to Form 6 but he just couldn’t understand. So at the end, my mum made a decision to let my brother study in this culinary institute and willing to pay for his studies. My brother tried so hard to talk to my dad. I objected at first for my brother to study at that instititue because I feel it’s low class. I want my brother to go to KDU or Taylor’s. I even agreed to use my PTPTN money for my brother. My mom refused. I know money is the prob. My brother and I are not in good terms since secondary school but I love my brother.

Im proud of my sister. She’s only 9 year old, Standard 3 but since Standard 1 she started to surf the internet. When I came to Kampar, she chat with me in English through MSN although she’s from Chinese school. She cakap banyak and she realli know how to think. She’s been protecting us when my dad beat us. I love her so much and I really want her to be someone someday to the society.

Im fucking fed up with all this. That’s why sometimes I never want to go back to penang! I just wana run away from all this. Im too angry. So what if u raised us up? Does it means u can treat us badly?? No! we’ve grown up. We are not like little kids anymore. we know how to think. We know what is good for us. We know who treat us nice and who doesn’t. I acknowledged your sacrifice on this family. It’s your responsibility. I appreciate what you have done but..

I’m totally against child abuse and domestic violence. I went through it. I know how it feels. I hate people who use vulgar words. I don’t want to be a son who charged his father in court. What if one day I have to…

I guess I shouldn’t go travel to neither Cambodia or Sarawak this year. I should save up money for my family. What is one day something bad happened? Who’s gona take care of my sister? And now im thinking really hard whether I wana go back for Raya break this 18-22/10. Maybe I should so that I can protect them.

If one day you have a family, remember, money is important but it’s not everything. Take care of your family with love but not money. Money without love is nothing. learn the right way to show your love. Violence can never solve a problem. Love them..

I know I should’t blog at this time but I need to let my feeling out. I need to talk to someone. i can’t talk to her. my hp is run out of credit. I don’t want her to feel im immature. I was having a nap actually but I was waken up by this bad news.

- anonymous author

time to stop.. for a while

Finally.. I really studied. It feels so nice.

I went to my Vivien’s house. Mirawani was there. fuh! We had lots of fun. We had pillow talk. We shared our thoughts and problems. We let our our grouses. We advised each other. We joke and screamed in the middle of the night like no one else’s business. It has been so long, for at least the whole semester since we had so much fun together.

I miss them. I love them. They understand me. they know who is Oh Chin Eng and the reasons behind my actions. I apologized for my… u noe.. all the bad silly stupid things that I did. Hehe.. I noe im bad. Sometimes only k. im sorry. And thanks for the crazy night.

Oh ya Sing Hua was there too. We took a lot of silly pics. haha.

As usual, my ‘adinda’, the girl that can never make us kering gusi and wana give her a nice tight slap, Vivien, repeat and repeat and repeat her probs. Probs that never exist. She and her ‘what if’. Think too much is not good.

No matter what, you know we love you right?? Hehe.. or I should follow what you say, “I know you love me right?”. It sounds so perasan.

One thing I learnt last night. Im REPULSIVE. Im still figuring out the meaning.

Im happy that finally i got her msg last night. As i always said, a small little action can make a big difference. =p

Around 4am only I started to really concentrate and focus on my studies. Woah! Semangat giler! This is the first time in this semester I burn midnight oil. I enjoyed it so much! my KOPI O KOWKOW really powerful la! Finally I finished Interpersonal Communication. Went back at 7.40am n slept at 8.30am woke up at 11smtg bt slept again till 1smtg.

I had murtabak for sahur. And now im damn hungry. Grrrhh! Chin Eng can tahan!

after I take my bath, reading marathon again. my classmates already reaching the finishing line, but im still in the middle, trying so hard to catch up.

This blog post will be the.. not the last of course. But I’ll control my addiction ob blogging. I wont blog or on9 that much after this la. I dun 1 2 get distracted la. OCE wants to STUDY! im sure regret if i get bad results. So it’s time to stop blogging..for a while. =p

Thx for dropping by. =p

~on FULL BLAST TURBO mode~

*oppss. sorry. i misquoted my fren, Mira. hehe. it supposed to be impulsively not repulsive. hehe. din listen properly ma. =p thx mira. 27/9/09

QUOTE of the day

A little small action can make a big difference.

the last naming ceremony in Kampung Buah Pala

Im glad to inform u people that there will be a traditional naming ceremony for a new baby – a 6th generation – at Kampung Buah Pala at 7pm tonite, Saturday. NOW LA!

The ceremony is the last at the 200 year old Indian village before it is demolished next week. All are welcome to this meaningful event.

For those in Penang, go la n have a look. Saturday night what, should be free. All the freelance photographers also go la. Then I can get the nice pics from u. =p

Go la if you are free. U might not have the chance to see this ceremony again… either in Kampung Buah Pala or any other places.

im not going. i can't because im now in Kampar, Perak. final exam on Monday.

help to spread the news. tq

Anyway sorry for the late announcement.

i'm a curry puff seller

good morning!

i just woke up la. noe wat. i had this weird dream. funny too. in my dream, i became a curry puff seller. what the heck?

the story began when i passed by a chinese coffee shop. then i saw this aunty. in real life, this aunty exists. she's physically ok, can walk, can talk but she always go to people and say 'ah boy ah can giv me rm2 r, i 1 2 buy milo. i 1 2 buy rice'. but then u can always see her smoke.

so in my dream, she was also selling curry puff. i teased her. i kacau her. i begged from people in a very funny way and i used English. haha. then i took his curry puff. i just grab it from her.

and i start to sell it. RM1 each. damn laku! so many ppl buy from me. funny thing is, the curry puff doesnt look like a curry puff AT ALL! it's like some kueh, long-long 1. but i duno y in my dream, it is a curry puff.

ppl there were so happy to taste my curry puff. Then there was this group of Indians. i approached them i asked want curry puff anot. they dun u'stand. y?? they r from India.

then my last customer. the man finally bought a currry puff from me after so hard i persuade him. suddenly before he pay me, a public bus came. i was in the rush to take the bus. then this cilaka man still dilly-dally dun wana gime the rm1. ee.. finally he gave me n i hop into the bus.

i got all the $. bye bye the aunty.

what a crazy dream. that's the reason i prefer not to sleep in the afternoon or till late afternoon because i always get this stupid weird dreams. eee.. sometimes the dream is so out of my mind and scary.

QUOTE of the day

If you want something, work hard for it and you will get it. You can do it, therefore you must do it. Nothing is unachievable.

12th = Happy

SONG of the day

IBU - P. Ramlee

arrghh! i miss my mum so much tonite!

I MISS HER!

i have been listening to Ibu since last night. im addicted to it!

do you miss your mum?? do you? don't you? they are thinking of you. do you know that? they dun 1 your money. they just 1 some simple hi and some time from you.. sometimes we care more abt other people and other stuffs in the world then the one who carried us around in her tummy for 9 months. =(

listen lah to this song. it's a very simple yet meaningful song. i first heard of it when i was very small.. now i'll pass this song to my children.. if i have one. =p

I LOVE YOU, AMMI.

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -- - -

ibu, ibu
engkaulah ratu hatiku
bila ku berduka engkau hiburkan selalu

ibu, ibu
engkaulah ratu hatiku
tempat ku menyerah kasih tiap waktu

betapa tidak kerna engkaulah
yang menyinari hidupku
sepanjang masa engkau berkorban
tidak putusnya bagai air lalu

ibu, ibu
engkaulah ratu hatiku
tak dapat ku melupakan wahai ibu

betapa tidak hanya engkaulah
yang menyinari hidupku
sepanjang masa engkau berkorban
tidak putusnya bagai air lalu

ibu, ibu
engkaulah ratu hatiku
tak dapat ku melupakan

wahai ibu

THOUGHT of the day

Today almost comes to an end. Just a few mins away before we step into another new day.

do u rmbr 911? do u rmbr september 11 2001? do u rmbr what happened on that day? do u rmbr how WTC was destroyed? do u rmbr how the ppl died? do u rmbr the countless unrecognised victims? do u rmbr the sadness of their family members? do u rmbr what were u doing at that time?

Let’s have a moment of silence and say some prayer to them, to remind us how people around us are so important to us and how much we meant for them.

I definitely wouldn’t want any of my family members or friends to end up like the victims of 911. I love them. And I haven’t said that to them yet..

Have you??

RELIEVED

Fuh.. feel so nicely after I took my bath before I went out for dinner just now. I feel as if I were born again. it’s so refreshing and calm.. RELIEVED.

And now I just came out from the toilet. Ahhhh.. uhhh… yeh… I like it man. Feel like heaven. I just released… er.. poo poo. Bestnyer.. nikmat yg teramat sgt. don’t you enjoy going to toilet?? I love you my JAMBAN! RELIEVED!

Fast For Malaysia

Dear friends,
A few friends met up some days ago and in talking about events that have happened in the country in the past year, came up with this idea: what if on Malaysia Day we all fast for peace for our nation? The idea grew into a plan and now, it has become a nationwide call for action.

"Fast for the Nation, Peace for Malaysia" is our response to this call. Please read below and join us:

Malaysia is a peaceful country and it should remain that way forever. Acts of Violence and inciting hatred must have no place in our public life.

Unfortunately, too many cruelties and injustices have happened since the nation’s last birthday.

It is tempting to slip into despair or become revengeful. Let us turn our anger and sadness into a positive force for change.

This September 16, let us all combine our efforts to present a meaningful gift for Malaysia on her 46th birthday.

Let us be united in one single action. Let us all fast from dawn to dusk for peace in this blessed land. Let the Muslims amongst us fast with a specific prayer for peace for the nation. Let the Bahais, Buddhists, Christians, Hindus, Sikhs, Taoists, followers of other spiritual traditions and atheists amongst us fast in solidarity and the same determination for peace.

Let our common experience of hunger and human weakness humble, strengthen and unite us.

Let us offer a hospitable smile to people we know and especially to those we don’t.

Let us perform one extra act of kindness while fasting on this Malaysia day.

Let us show our love and compassion for each other.

Let Malaysia be a better country on her 46th birthday and every day after.

Let Malaysia be truly happy and peaceful this September 16.

And so we fast.
. . . . . . to make room for peace!

Things you can do and How do you join?:

1. Sign up.
- e-mail your pledge to fast on Sept 16, 2009, to: peace4malaysia09@gmail.com.
or SMS to 016-9707966
or leave a comment at http://peace4msia.blogspot.com/
(If you want, you may include your age and location)
or sign the petition here http://www.petitionspot.com/petitions/peace4msia/

2. Forward this e-mail to your circle of friends, family and colleagues. Please try to get your friends and family from outside the Klang Valley to sign up as well

3. Come to the press conference to announce this initiative: Friday, 11am, Sept 11, 2009, at the Selangor Chinese Assembly Hall

4. Break fast (or have the pre-fast meal) together wherever your location is and send pics and caption to: peace4malaysia09@gmail.com

Here are the standard recommendations which you may modify according to your preferences, medical conditions and other circumstances.

• Get a group of at least three people.

• Have your pre-fast meal together before dawn (e.g. before 5.35am for Muslims*). The meal is preferably vegetarian to be inclusive to all.

• Carry out your daily duties and tasks as usual.

• Smile and do an extra act of kindness to people around you or afar.

• Share your message of peace with every curious person.

• Break your fast together after dusk(e.g. after 7.25 pm for Muslims*). The meal is preferably vegetarian to be inclusive to all.

• Share your experience, feeling and thought in this national fasting exercise with more people, in every possible way.

Plotting goodness with friends,
Sivin Kit
On behalf of
"Fast for the Nation, Peace for the Nation 2009" Core Group

QUOTE of the day

Don't judge a person too fast because u might lose the chance to look at their beauty.

IM NOT A CAT EXTREMIST

To: makcik-makcik yg jaga tepi kain orang because sendiri tak cukup kain, LISTEN here.

good morning because i just woke up n because it's already pass 12am. listen... im glad some of u noe me, i might not know u. thanks for knowing me. i've been keeping mum on what has happened although im being shoot from every corners. i didn't scold anyone who scolded me either in Facebook, Blogspot, or in the real life. did i? think carefully. no! i didn't smear anyone's name. but today at this moment i guess i have to defend myself.

it's so funny that my life is about cats now. hahah!

since day one i were born, i never hate dogs. i love all pets. i grown up in a kampung with chickens, ducks, peacock, birds, ants, frogs, dogs, cats and even snakes. i enjoy taking pictures of pets, animals and wildlife. i never harm any of them. i never even kill a cockroach, lizard or beetle before except for ants and mosquitoes la. i hate it when i see people treat their pets badly. i hate it when i see stray dogs hunger for food. i hate it when i see cats being bang over by vehicles. i just don't like Dino since that night.

1) he's the cause of the kitten's death

2) he never stops barking everytime u see him

3) he's too aggresive that's y he's always tied up when there are visitors

my article is basically about the experience i have went through seeing a living died in front of me. the whole write up is about what i see and what i hear. is there anyting wrong? try to be in my shoe. try not to think of Meow and Dino. what if you were me being there and you are witnessing a living creature is being killed by another being creature. as a normal human being, how would you fell?

you may now know me well. it's ok. i don't blame you. but for those who know me. they know exactly who is Oh Chin Eng and how he treats animals. his friends would definitely know that he play around with pets including a DOG! a cute and friendly dog. not the one that barks around and attacks people. and yet he never curse the dogs. i guess some of you have this experience-a dog chase after you before you could go to say hi to them. i also bet that you never heard of a cat bites someone and admitted into the hospital right??

have i ever say or do anyting bad to your dogs - Jessica, Ree Nee, Jasslyn, Eng Huat?

remember whatever i said in my blog post is based and in the context of the death of Meow. at one point i hated dogs so much because of Dino. don't take only certain part of my writing and judge me. it's unfair for me. be holistic. don't just merely listen to what people say. talk nicely. tq!

if you have seen or heard me, Oh Chin Eng bullied, tortured, caused harm, or killed any pets, PLEASE FUCK ME UP AND GO TELL THE WHOLE WORLD!

for unknown readers out there. i don't know who r u. what you see sometimes maybe not true. i've published the negatiave comments from anonymous because i believe in transparency. it's their point of view. im not hiding any truth. having bad comments doesnt mean that the others don't support me. some people they prefer to just watch and see.

try to differenciate between domestic animals, wildlife and pest.

don't judge a person too fast because u might lose the chance to look at their beauty.

that's all i could say for now. im going back to sleep. tata.

*donk mine my not so powderful enggrish.

Go DIE with the DAMN Meow

is that what you want to say?

is that all you can say??

thanks..

thanks for ending my happy day with more scoldings of what i experienced and what i saw.

QUOTE of the day

Hidup ini satu pentas lakonan. Dunia adalah latarnya. Orang sekeliling adalah penontonnya. Wataknya adalah kita. Tidak perlu ada skrip. Tidak perlu ada pengarah. Kita yang mencorakkannnaya mengikut citarasa kita sendiri. Ada kalanya kita perlu bertopeng dan bertukar watak untuk memenuhi kehendak orang lain. Tetapi yang menariknya, kita tetap kita. Pada penghujung hari, kita juga seorang manusia.

Story of Ah Eng dreaming

woah! Im awake! N it’s not even 8am yet. Fuiyooooooo…

chin eng wakes up early today. Nyeh nyeh nyeh.. usually I’ll wake up at 12pm but today so damn early. I had late night sleep last night at 3.30am. My eyes r so tired la.. it keeps sticking together. Hmmm.. it’s ok. I’ll take KOPI O KAUKAU later.

I’m going to uni later at 11am although no more classes. Going there with my classmates because they want to study and I want to check my coursework marks and to NEGOTIATE with the lecturer to increase my marks. Hehe.. got a bit prob la..

I must be crazy because now is just 8am. I still have 3HOURS to go! CRAZEE CHIN ENG! Haha. nvm. I’ll blog. I’ll send pics to The Star. I’ll take pics of my Baju Melayu and Songkok. I’ll arrange my notes for revision. I’ll have my breakfast. I’ll POM POM. I’ll plan my trip to Sarawak this October. I’ll count my money cuz im pokai now. I’ll save photos in the pendrive for my friend and lecturer. I’ll register for Nuffnang thingy. I’ll do my study plan for final exam.

Oh ya. Today no puasa. Tmr la.. today nak makan a lot. A LOT! Wahaha!

By the way la kan. I want to tell a story. I know u love to listen to stories from me. hohoho! Okok. I start now ya. Dun mind of the language ya, it’s the content that matters.

There is this Chinese boy named Ah Eng. Ah Eng was trying to sleep at 3.00am last night. But then har she kenot sleep wor. I mean he la. Ah Eng is a boy ma. He belek sini belek sana. Goyang sini goyang sana. Pusing sini pusing sana. And he garu sini garu sana. Hmmm.. imsomnia izit? I duno..

Then.. hahahahaha.. this Ah Eng started to dream. He wasn’t asleep yet but he’s dreaming. Can r?? can… Ah Eng anyting oso can. HE IS UP FOR ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING.

Ok back to the dreaming story. So this Ah Eng kenot sleep. He dreams la. Dream of a gal.. uhhhh… girl.. fuiyo. Try to guess who’s that girl. It’s her 'SAYANG'! For your information la. I noe u duno dats y im telling you. His Sayang is a Muslim. Muslim but not Malay. All Malays are Muslim but not all Muslims are Malay. Remember that. His Sayang is a from a mixed parentage of Chindian and Malay. Means she’s a Malaysian la. cool kan??

So this tak malu Ah Eng was dreaming. He dreams of breaking fast with his Sayang. His sayang is going back to hometown on 15th and he’s going back on the 18th at 2pm after his exam. so he’ll reached at abt 5.30pm la. this crazy guy plans to give his Sayang a surprise. Hehe.. he plans to bring her to E&O Hotel for a buka puasa treat. Fuiyooo.. that place har expensive oo but ada kelasss..

This gatai guy wana drive on that day. He seldom drives in Penang before he enter uni. This year oni he drives around and fetch her. it’s safer, more comfortable.. so he already plan everything u noe.. every single things. He’ll ask her to wear nice-nice. If can formal wear la or a gown.. uhhh.. yeala E&O Hotel is a high class hotel ma, must act high class oso la.

He knows she’ll definitely ask whr. But Ah Eng is not gona tell her. haha. cilaka mia budak! Ah Eng will go n fetch her. then Ah Eng will be awww looking at his Sayang yg chantek menarik lemak berkrim disukai ramai meletup bombom.

Then, he’ll secretly drive to the hotel. He’ll open the door for her n kiss her hand. Haha! so funny! His Sayang will ‘hei’ at him but he won’t care. Ah Eng oso dream of singing her a song unplugged. Too bad Ah Eng doesn’t know how to play guitar. Then he’ll give her a rose.

DEI YENNADEI! It’s a buka puasa dinner not a Valentin’s dinner. The Hotel ppl will kick ur ass out!

Crazy Ah Eng oso think of the way to pose for photographs with her. he loves to take photos with her and she’s a good model =p lastly he hopes to give a kiss on her cheek at the end of the day. Where?? I duno. Ah Eng doesn’t want to tell.

I tell u all. She’ll very shocked with the surprises. His Sayang will be very touched and rmbr the moment forever. Shhh.. he doesn’t want her to know anything about this.

Damn Ah Eng la. bermimpi di siang hari although it’s already 3.30am la..

We just wish him good luck k. finger cross. Legs also cross. Remember.. don’t tell his Sayang. If not Ah Eng is gona kill me.

Ok.. gtg. It’s 8smtg already. Tata.

she just called

arrghh! omg omg!

i can't believe it! she just called me! woohooo! shake it shake it. *dance *jump *shout

i must be dreaming.

090909 SO WHAT?!

So what’s up today?? Nothing is up la. Auspicious day?? Hmmm… I duno.. I dun see anyting special that happened to the world except some belief that this 090909 number is a lucky number. Haha! I duno.. it’s just my point of view.

As a chinese, we are superstitious. We believed in numbers. TOTO number, date to get married, Number 1 in competition, when to pray etc la.. that’s why la today so many Chinese tied the knot because 9 in Chinese means long lasting, ever lasting, longevity and anything that can be long lah. Some feel it’s not a good time because this month is Hungry Ghosts Month. Hungry.. they will eat u UP!

Haha! but it’s a cool thing la let say u met ur lover on this day or u were born on this day or u got married on this day or someone u noe passed away on this day or Malaysia got attacked by terrorists on this day or I won a car on this day or she says ‘I LOVE YOU’ again! Haha!.

anyway.. im addicted to be-log-ging. Can’t stop myself from blogging othou exam is on next Monday.

I’m so happy because I got my pay finally for the wedding photoshoot that I did 3 months ago. RM700! You can view the wedding photos in my FB. Haha! my friend, Chiew Zhi Wey, who is the cousin of the groom, gave the cash money to me last night. Me and the groom had some probs la. we didn’t set the price before the wedding. Luckily Zhi Wey settled it for me. I feel really bad for her la. she’s the middle person ma. Anyway thanks a lot my friend. As I told you b4, im gona belanja u. so wait ya. Hehe.

I accidentally woke up at 9.30am this morning. Then I slept again until 1.30pm. I went to buy vege food from the chinese aunty but finished d. aih.. so I went out to buy from one of the 3 Indian aunties. It was my first time buying from them. 3 of them sell nasi lemak. Pity them la.. they’ll start their business before lunch and sit there till they finished their food. Usually in the evening la. so hard to earn a cent. As I was stil on vege today, I looked for vege food n I found this aunty.

She's so nice and friendly. She speaks English. Wow! =p anyway my big portion of rice and the many dishes only cost me RM3! What the heck! Damn cheap! Seriously cheap! She just poured everything in my Tupperware. Haha! I like this aunty! She’s more generous then the k*dekut chinese aunty. She always gave me little bit little bit and charge me Rm3.50. eee!

Suddenly the clouds turned grey. Winds started to blow so strongly. So the Indian aunties have to pack and that’s the end of their business of the day. It started to rain at 2.30pm after hot sunny days for few days.

I didn’t study at all today. Too lazy. I noe im gona regret after I walk out from the exam hall. My friends started their revision already. She’s gona scold me for not studying. Aih.. as usual la I read news. I FB. I delete pics. haha!

A news in The Star online caught my attention. Perkasa, a Malay NGO which headed by the Kelantan independent MP, Datuk Ibrahim Ali is calling for JIHAD for the Section 23 cow head protestors. What the heck! Does he as a Muslim knows what is JIHAD? I feel so pissed. He’s stirring and worsen the situation because Selangor governement already found a better place for the Indian temple. This is not Iraq or Iran. Malaysia doesn't need an extremist. Geram aku! I’ll blog about this soon.

By the way, me and my friends are still arguing over my cat’s article.. hmm.. aku dah pasrah. Im tired. Really tired. I duno what else to do. We didn’t tok at all.. looks like im losing 2 good friends in Semester 2. Hmm.. I’ll post smtg about the conflict later.

Today is my last day of vege. Hehe! I guess this is the first time im on vegetarian diet for a cause besides then religious purposes during chinese Nine Emporer God festival. I feel good abt it though. Im proud of myself for accomplished a task that I started without giving up halfway.

I tell u a secret. I bought snacks last night. And u noe what? I forgot that it’s prawn flavour snacks and I ate it. Arrghh! I was like eh y it taste different. Then only I realised it’s prawn n im on vege. I got freaked out. I quickly say sori and drink water. Hehe.

I missed buka puasa dinner with my friends because I was sleeping. Aih.. So I went out for dinner alone at 10smtg. I feel good and ok going out alone. I prefer to be alone sometimes. Im not saying that I don’t like to mixed with my friends. If they call me out, I go lah. It feels so good to have your fav food when u r starving and when you are forbidden to eat it for few days. The food becomes tastier! AKU MAKAN SEDAP! I had Nasi Goreng Kampung and fried chicken and limau ais. Limau ais is her fav too. =p

My friend said smtg to me just a while ago. I was shocked with what he said but I find it quite amusing and agreeable. He said in our life we must appreciate our ‘first time’ in whatever what we do. I was like ok.. then I said u already lose your first time what. He said yealo. He lose his first time to a girl who did it for more then once. He feels bad now. Haha! u noe what I mean right?? First time experience is the most memorable and important on our life. So don’t lose your ANY ‘first time’.

I HAVEN'T LOOSE MINE YET. =p

If you noticed in this blog post, I mentioned about my friends. I talked about them but I didn’t put their names except for Zhi Wey. I’ve learnt my lesson. I dun 1 2 argue with anyone anymore. sometimes ppl don’t like us to mention their name especially if it’s a bad thing. I also must learn how to respect people and their privacy. I acknowledge them that’s why I mention their names. But nvm la..

Erm.. I miss her you know.. I haven’t tok about her for quite some time. Is it because I start to let her go? I don’t have the answer because I still don’t want to let her go. how ah? How ah? How how?? I can’t wait to beraya with heR? I can’t wait to go back to Penang and break fast with her. I can’t wait for exam, to do my best and to get good results so that I can show her. I can’t wait to show her my very long hair. I can’t wait for her to come to Kampar again to take pictures for her assignment. I want to fetch her with my bicycle again.. awww.. LO-MAN-TIK oo.. I miss her so much. How good if she knows.. =p

I’ll call her later lah.

Oh SHIT! Holy shit! I haven’t take my bath yet for today. Lazeeee. Hehe. Tak BUSUK ok. Still standing. I just feel a bit hot. Ok im going off now. c u ppl tmr. Gnite. Tata.

Oh Bulan Oh

*yawning.. ahhh…

I just woke up lah..

Freaking hungry n sleepy. I woke up at 9.30am then I slept again.

Anyway, I already posted up the pics of the moon on Facebook last night. Do u remembered my blog post titled (what a ‘morning’ call) on 9/4/09? I took pics of the moon. So u people out there go SENDIRI TAG YOURSELF la. hehe!

Then can show ur mather, ur farther, ur sista, ur brata, ur amma, ur appa, ur gf, ur sayang, ur honey, ur baby, ur darling, ur sweetheart, ur BFF, ur bestie, ur fren, ur peng iu, ur kawan, ur gundechik and anyone la throughout the world.

Since my friend, Lok Damien already posted up the pics on his blog, I also wana post la. anyhow, it’s me who took the pics what. Hehe. I oso wana show off ler..

PERIBAHASA of the day

Siapa makan cili, dia akan terlompat sana sini.

Meow

The controversial, havoc helpless defenceless little kitten. You shouldn't die at this young age. For those who make a fuss and condemn your death, Karma is waiting for them. Whether you are a cat, a mouse, a dog, a bird, a hamster, a turtle or any other creatures created by God, i would do the same too. Truth can be swept under blanket but it can't be denied.

QUOTE of the day

The biggest killer of mankid is not war, disaster, poverty, diseases, old age, or illness. But it is WORDS.

Silly Mistakes?

People often make silly mistakes. Or should i say repeated mistakes. Or mistakes that shouldn’t happened.

U made a decision then it brings bad effect and you regret about it. Is that sound familiar to you? I made a decision. My friends are not happy with what I did. I expected it from them. I wonder whether my decision is really a mistakes or it’s just a disagreement of opinions or misunderstanding.

All this while, I strongly hold on to my belief that WORDS ARE NUMBER ONE KILLER because I experienced it before. Now my friends felt that by my writing. How irony is that.

Is it good to be truthful and honest? I duno.. I hurt my friends by my sincerity and truthfulness through my writing. People don’t like when we are honest. Because honesty hurts. It’s like when a girl tells you that she doesn’t loves you anymore.

I tak suka bermuka. I tulis apa I rasa. If I rasa tak ok, I tulis tak ok. I don’t like to lie in my writing.

I’m sad that my two good friends are angry. They are such a lovely caring friends to me. they are nice people seriously. we always went out together. They were there for me when I was left out by my friends. We joke around, we sing around.. They were worried when I was so sick few months ago. I’m happy to be with them although they are INDIANS. I LOVE THEM!

My blog is never meant to disgrace, humiliate, downgrade or embarrassed anyone especially my friends.

Writing is my life. It’s my life partner beside then photography. I put all my feelings on it. I express my sadness, anger, disappointment, happiness and excitement through these two mediums. It’s my loyal companions during my ups and downs.

I just said what has happened as what I see and what I hear… Personally I don’t think it is wrong. But I know for people who got blamed and badly perceived at, they feel angry and sad. I feel the same too. No one likes to be blame, accuse, gossiped, backstab, badly portrayed etc.

It has been quite a very long time since I gadoh with my close friends. I never want to gaduh with my friends. Come on friends are friends. What the point of having friends if you gaduh with them?? One of the fears in my life is that my good friends will be angry.

I totally agree that we can’t judge a book by its cover. I might be wrong with my perception that my friends were not sad because I can see them smiling. But what would a normal human being feels if he sees smile on her friend’s face over a death?

I used to say this last time. I forget when was that. I said “different people different opinions, different perceptions, different thinkings, different views.”

I’m sorry Ponney and Visha for offending you. I don’t have any intention to make you girls angry la. In my blog, I didn’t blame you also. I didn’t say u all are happy seeing the cat died. Don’t get me wrong la.. it’s just a misunderstanding. u try to read what I wrote again. please..

Certain paragraphs about government is my complaint about government, it’s not a personal attack to anyone. Anyhow, my blog post is about the cat’s death. Im mourning on her death. It has nothing to do with any human beings on this earth.

I may not disagreed with what you said or feel but im not gona fight over it. It will worsen the situation. I don’t wana lose nice people in my life.. try to be on my shoe.

Honestly, now I dare not to see your faces again. I don’t think I have the courage to even step on your house. no im not angry. not at all. Because you got ur every rights to be angry. =p

I mustn’t let this distract my studies. But im so RIMAS! cannot concentrate. cannot study! Omg! I still have a lot to read up. Come on! Let’s all of us put this behind and move forward la. forgive and forget. No forever enemy in the world. How’s that??

OH CHIN ENG is a peace-maker.

I’m a journalist ma. I’m telling myself this is normal. I must prepared for all this. Not everyone will agrees with what I wrote and what I said. But I must persevere and believe in what I believe. I must be responsible on my reporting.

* God knows what happened exactly that night. He knows what was in my heart. Im a human being. i made mistakes. I ask for forgiveness from You.

3 days vegetarian diet

yes. believe what you read.

i'm on 3 days vegetarian diet. means im not fasting for 3 days.

when?
i start my vegetarian diet today Monday 7/9/2009 until Wednesday 9/9/2009.

why?
im doing this for a cause actually. firstly it's because i'll be taking my final exam next monday. secondly it's because of Meow. i make some wishes to God. i wish to have clear mind when im studying, i wish i can remember what i read and i wish i'll score well in exam. for Meow, i wish that she'll be placed with the good spirits and animals in Heaven. i believe in what im doing. some people thinks it's ridiculous. it's ok..

people always say fasting or vege will make u skinner. i totally disagree with that statement. if by fasting or vege will make you skinner, then 'lidi-lah' everyone. haha.

i feel good. still strong. still got muscles. haha!

friends out there, you know me since day one, OH CHIN ENG MEMANG SKINNY. u saw the way he eats. he eats a LOT! a lot man! but he still looks the same. he's still that small cute and kiddy. hehe. if he becomes fat, hmmm... you'll be shocked! you won't see Oh Chin Eng anymore. i'm enjoying my life. i appreciate food. but what to do. cannot fat means cannot fat la. i also wana grow some fat and look handsome and masculine.

i faced only one problem today. food poisoning. zzzzz.. it's all because of last night's Roti Pisang i bought from mamak shop. i ate that this morning.

then.. nightmare happened. i CIRIT! 3 times already! 11.30am, 2.20pm and 4.30pm! grrhhhh!

anyway my blister has swells up. i can see liquid in it. hehe. syok la. its like bubble. my shoulders are aching. yala i just dig a hole and buried a corpse.

ok im done blogging for tonight. =p

i watched her dying..

* im so sorry for the late posting

It was a lovely night with the flaming full moon in the sky. Stars were twinkling and the chilling breeze makes everyone so relax and calm.

But it lasted only for a while. Me, Saravani, Visha and Ponney came back from a wedding dinner at about 11.30pm. we stopped at Visha’s house because they want to change their clothes. And the story began. They told me that Visha’s dog, Dino just bitten a kitten. I was so fucking shocked. I rushed out from the car to look for the kitten. I found her. she was in the drain.

MENGERANG KESAKITAN.

What the hell the dog has done to the cat?? It’s just a small little kitten. The dog is so huge, fierce, kurang ajar and uncontrollable. The cat actually went into the house compound and the dog bit her from the legs till the abdomen. You can see blood and flesh of the cat. It was a heart wrenching scene. I call her Meow.

Silently I made a wish. I asked from Gods to make Meow not so painful, to lessen the burden she bears, and to put Meow with the holy people and animals. Oh.. The Gods are Buddha, Kuan Im, God of Heaven, Nine Emperor God, Ganesha and Murugan.

Saravani and I were so sad. im so shocked to look at the cat’s injury. She was just waiting to die. I fondled her softly. She didn’t attack me although she kept snorting. I know she was in pain. Everytime she snorts, I feel a deep cut in my heart. I quietly talked to her. I asked her not to be scared. I make cat’s sound. I know how la.. I just want her to feel secure and comfortable. I wanted to send her to veterinary but it was already so late. I can wait for tomorrow but the cat didn’t has much time. Time is so crucial now.

I tak tahan tengok Meow sengsara.

Knowing the fact that she’s dying, I made a very serious and heavy decision. I dig a hole. I wanted to put Meow there. she was dying. I don’t want her to die in the drain. Then I moved her from the drain to the hole. I grab the skin at her neck. Initially, she fought back because of the injury. she tried to attack me. she fell into another drain. Aih..

I felt like kicking and punching the dog. Grrhhh! Meow is so cute so adorable. She doesn’t deserved to die at this young age! I fondled and talked to her again. I tried my very best to calm her down. Visha gave her a chicken’s head. That’s the only thing Visha has in her house. Meow didn’t even smell it because chicken is not her food! Plus, she’s in pain. what she felt is only pain, not hunger.

Visha has to released her crazee dog. We have to take away the cat. If not, the hungry dinosaur is gona make Meow his breakfast, lunch and dinner. Visha brought a box. I say some prayer. Then I moved Meow into the box. I quietly wiped my tears away.

All of them are scared of Meow. Saravani was sad. Ponney and Visha were not so sad.. They can still sm*le.

After I placed Meow in the box, Visha took it away. Try to imagine.. a scene from a movie where a girl tries to throw her baby away. That’s the feeling of that time. Visha doesn’t want her house to be smelly. I didn’t want to do it because it’s still alive. Because it’s a living. I cannot be like how other people always do, throw them into the dustbin or put them under the tree. Cats or dogs are not rubbish! They deserved some dignity! She and Ponney took the box for at least 200metres away from her house. They put it by the roadside, at the bush. I followed them and I stayed there. I told them to pick me up when they are going back later.

I duno what else to do. I guess it’s time to say goodbye to the cat. I snap some pics. I had the last conversation with Meow. I say a little prayer again. I apologized to Meow and God for not able to save her. I did my best.

That time was 12 something in the morning. Suddenly two uniformed policemen on patrol stopped by. I didn’t feel scared because im not throwing away a baby and im so used to be ‘approach’ by them. The first question they asked ‘anak kucing ka?’ Fuh.. I was relieved. Haha luckily they didn’t thought that it was a baby. I told them what happened to Meow. One of them had a look at Meow and sighed. Then they just blahh! I teased Visha. I said don’t worry the policemen wont charge her.

Saravani and friends came to pick me up. I asked them to say goodbye. Then we went for the tarik. I didn’t order anything. My heart was so pain. no appetite. i lose all my moods. Saravani cried. On the way home, Saravani said to me that she hopes Meow will die faster because she doesn’t want her to suffer longer.

I asked my friend, Navin is there any veterinary here in Kampar. He said yes but it’s closed tomorrow which is today because today is public holiday. =( that clinic is the only one in Kampar. No hope for you Meow.

The dark clouds then started to cover the moon. I believed the God is sad too. I know He is watching.

And I woke up at 10smtg this morning. I totally forgot about the cat until Saravani asked me abt it. Suddenly it hit me. I rushed back to the scene. In my head, I knew the cat is going to die. I just hoped that the box is there so that I can bury her. around 11.45am I reached that place.. what a relieved I saw the box from far. I walked towards the box with my fast beating heart. Dup dap dup dap! And as I expected, she’s dead. I knew it but I couldn’t accept the fact. I was in denial. I looked at her.. I called her name. she was not moving. I didn’t see any pulse movement. No breathing. No response.

SHE’S DEAD!

Aku nampak sebuah mayat terbujur depan mata. Terlantang tak berkata-kata. Sakit yang tak terperi. Meninggalkan Bumi ini dengan mata yang terbuka luas. Di bawah sinaran terik matahari yang membakar bagaikan api.

I was so sad.. really sad. I looked at her for quite sometime. I duno what to do. What to say. My tongue was numb. Then I gathered back my little courage and I say a little prayer for her. she was in deep pain. She died not because of old age but because of severe pain. she didn’t get proper treatment or medication to reduce her burden. She died without family members with her. she died without leaving any message behind.

I brought her home. I wanted to bury her but I didn’t bring tombstone, I didn’t bring hoe/mattock. I put her outside of my house. Then I went to look for the hoe from the construction site in front of my house. The worker was so nice. He borrowed me one. Then I went to Saravani’s house. She agreed to let me bury Meow there. I brought along my Chanting book and red marker pen so that I can write some words on her tombstone.

I went to saravani’s house at 1.30pm. it was a very hot shiny day. Saravani became my assistant. I mean photographer and a person who shares the same feeling with me. We were looking for a suitable plot to bury her. I found one-deep inside at the side of her house-it’s an empty ground actually.

So I korek lubang. I used the hoe/mattock. Not buttock. I dig n dig n dig. Fuh! Penat gila! I was sweating like hell. The sun wasn’t sympathizing me. my skin was burning! the ground was so hard, full of rocks. My left palm got blister. I hit my knee with the hoe / mattock. I banged my head on the wall when i was trying to take cover in the shade.

Saravani kept asking me to dig deeper, if not the cat will produce bad smell. At that time, Meow is already smelly. I can see sadness in Saravani’s eyes. Finally I managed to dig a hole of 30cm deep. It’s quite deep for a kitten I guess.

Then I went to my bike to get my Chanting book in the bonnet. I left my key on my bike and it disappeared. I went to ask Saravani’s friends. I knew they took it. But they didn’t want to admit and return it to me. I beg them but they just denied that they took my key. Then Saravani asked from them. Then only they returned it to me. grrhhh!

I put Meow in the hole. She was badly injured. Severely hurt. I say a prayer for her. I recited some verses from the Chanting book namely:

1) Saranagamanapatha (passages on going for refuge)
2) Pancasila (the five precepts)
3) Buddhamangalagatha (verses of blessings of the Buddha)
4) Tiratananusaranapatha (passages on the recollection of the three treasures)
5) Sumangalagatha (verses of excellent blessings)
6) Abhayaparittam (the fearlessness protection)
7) Uddisanadhitthanagatha (verses on aspiration for transference of merits)

Then I poured a bowl of milk around her. I duno why. Saravani asked me to do so. The last process-to bury her. I bury her with a heavy heart. Each scoop of sand makes me weaker. I’m sending her off. I’ve laid her to rest forever..

I wrote something on a board and I put it on her cemetery as a tombstone. It’s for remembrance.

What a day. I just handled a corpse. I became the policemen, the CSI, the coroner, the undertaker, the priest and the family member of MEOW. You’ll always be remembered Meow.

I always like cats more then dogs. I love cats. When I was small, I stayed with my grandma in a kampung. There were only 3 Chinese families, the rest were Malays. The Malays love cats. Whenever the kittens are lost, my Grandma and Grandpa will bring them to a Tok Kucing from the Malay kampung. I never dare to touch them until i met my sayang. She rear cats too since she was small. She’s the one who gave me courage to touch cats and play with them. We love cats. we saved a cat before from a tree. =p

Cats are cute
Cats are adorable
Cats are small in size
Cats love to ‘meow meow meow’
Cats don’t melalak around
Cats are not that smelly
Cats are loving
Cats have nice and soft fur
Cats are not aggresive

Now I hate dogs more then I used to. Why?

1) Dogs are fierce
2) Most of them are kurang ajar
3) They always make small kids cry
4) Dogs are smelly
5) Dogs look disgusting when they shit or pee
6) Dogs FUCK everywhere in public
7) Dogs are dirty
8) Dogs love to bite
9) Dogs saliva are everywhere

I’m not gona kill that black crazee dog! No it's a DINO-SAUR! A life can’t be replace by a life. Killing is not gona solve anything. Life must goes on. If it is human who bit Meow, I’ll definitely curse that person to death. Now I feel how it’s like when you lost your pet. I don’t have a pet but I feel I owned Meow..for a few minutes.

It’s time for our government to come up with a law to protect pets, not only reptiles or endangered species. Apa binatang peliharaan bukan binatang ka? Im so sad that the government is still ignorant of all this. Pets are not protected under the law like USA. It’s ok if you bang a dog or cat in Malaysia. Its’s ok.

Do you still remember cases of stray dogs being throw at Pulau Ketam and foreigners have to come for their rescue?. Do you remember cases of dogs bite people? The owner should be punished for the misbehave of their pets. The owner must be responsible! If you cant’s commit and tcare of them, don’t rear them. Give them away to friends or relatives or zoo or SPCA!

If there is this law, and im the judge, i'll say:

"AKAN AKU SABITKAN ENGKAU, DINO, ANJING HITAM YANG HITAM YANG SUKA MELALAK, SEBAGAI PEMBUNUH KELAS PERTAMA, MEMBUNUH DENGAN NIAT, MENDATANGKAN CEDERA PARAH, DAN MEMBAWA KEMATIAN. AKAN KU HERET KAU KE MAHKAMAH DENGAN HUKUMAN SEBAT 6 KALI, PENJARA MANDATORI, CABUT GIGI-GIGI BERKULAT KAU DAN KASI KAU SUPAYA KAU TAK MEROGOL ORANG DI DALAM PENJARA!"

JANGAN DUK SUSAHKAN ORANG LAIN!

Somehow I feel a bit angry at Saravani’s friend. Just a bit hati terguris la.. What if it’s the dog who got bitten by the cat. Would they do the same thing like how they did do Meow? I’m saddened by their attitude. Im sorry I have to say this. They took my bike key and hid it when I needed it the most. They just happily laughing and joking away when me and Saravani were burying Meow. They didn’t even come out from the house to see or to ask how are we doing. It’s her dog who caused the death of Meow! Don’t they have feeling towards animals? Or is it because cat is not their favourite pet? I don’t have the answer.

I KNOW SOME OF U WILL FEEL THAT IM STUPID, IM NAÏVE, IM CRAZY. IT’S JUST A CAT! WHAT TO BE SO SAD ABOUT IT??!

I would say to your face. U R DAMN FUCKING WRONG. It maybe just a cat. But it’s also a living. The cat has a family. The cat has 9more lives. The cat can still live longer. The cat didn’t steal, didn’t rob, didn’t take ‘duit kopi’, didn’t rape girls, didn’t take drugs, didn’t simply melalak or gigit orang, and didn’t do anything bad to you.

All these things will only be done by the so-called Human. We don’t need manusia bertopengkan binatang di dunia ini tapi binatang sejati yang dikasihi! Im sad and angry with the death of Meow. I don’t care you people out there like or don’t like cats or dogs. Treat every beings as you would like to be treated.

This is life. In real life this is wat happened. Yang kuat akan buli yang lemah. Yang ganas akan mamah yang lembut. Yang kaya akan pandang hina pada yang miskin.

'No one should die because they cannot afford health care, and no one should go broke because they get sick...” - says Nadiah Fadwa Fikri.

I have been saving a lot of cats. I mean dead cats on the road. This is the 1st time I saw an almost dying cat and I can’t do anything to save it. I can only watch her died helplessly. How nice if all of us can live happily with each other, respect each other, no killing no war. It's just an idealistic dream that will never materialize.

Now you see why I put a cat picture as the header of my blog?

Fikir-fikirkanlah malapetaka ini..

Sadhu! Sadhu! Sadhu!

time to study

Yo yo yo! Yoyo! Waasssp wassup?!!

Yo man! Cool man! Chiil man! Yeh!

Woooi! Diam la! duk memekik pagi-pagi pasai pa? nanti aku kerat sama hang!

Hehe..good morning. im crazeee. Woohoo! Wah I dind’t expect to wake this early at 10smtg. I set my alarm 11.45am. I slept at about 3.30am last night. I feel so fresh. =p

Exactly 1 week from now is my final exam which is on Monday 14/9/2009. After so much time wasted and spent on sleep, online and loitering around, it’s time to settle down and study.

I now officially declare that Oh Chin Eng is going to starts studying today.

So since it’s study week, what should I do?

1) Less on9-ing
2) Less blogging, journal-ing and diary-ing unless it’s important
3) Less going out and less outside activities
4) Less sleep
5) On vege 3days
6) Less talk, kutuk, gossip and complain
7) Chant every morning
8) Drink milk every morning
9) Be truthful, try not to lie
10) Sleep at least 6 hours and not more then 8 hours per day
11) Study at least 5 hours per day
12) Do more good deeds
13) Have a clean and positive thinking
14) Try to control my anger
15) No stealing
16) No anger
17) No sexual misconduct
18) No drugs
19) No killing
21) Try not to hurt anyone

Monday, 14/09/09 1400 D220
UAMG1043 INTERPERSONAL COMMUNICATION

Wednesday, 16/09/09 0900 G200L
UAMA1004 INTRODUCTION TO ADVERTISING

Friday, 18/09/09 0900 B103
UALE1013 ENGLISH FOR MASS COMMUNICATION

Wednesday, 23/09/09 1400 B209
UAPO1003 INTRODUCTION TO POLITICAL SCIENCE

Friday, 25/09/09 0900 G200L
UAMG1004 INTRODUCTION TO MASS COMMUNICATION

Monday, 28/09/09 0900 B113
UAMG1033 MASS MEDIA AND SOCIETY

Good luck to everyone especially my friends who will be taking final exam.

SONG of the day

Don't Worry Be Happy - Bob Marley

It has been quite some time since I since I sing u guys song. I love to sing. Today listen to this song. It makes me happy and stress free. Usually when im down, I listen to sad songs. I realised that It makes me more emo. So today. Jeng jeng jeng! We change the menu k.

Let’s sing this together with me. =p

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Here's a little song i wrote,
you might want to sing it note for note,
don't worry, be happy

in every life we have some trouble,
when you worry you make it double
don't worry, be happy

dont worry be happy now
dont worry be happy
dont worry be happy
dont worry be happy
dont worry be happy
aint got no place to lay your head,
somebody came and took your bed,
don't worry, be happy

the landlord say your rent is late,
he may have to litagate,
dont worry (small laugh) be happy,

look at me im happy,
don't worry, be happy

i give you my phone number,
when your worried, call me,
i make you happy

don't worry, be happy

aint got no cash, aint got no style,
aint got no gal to make you smile
but don't worry, be happy

cos when you worry, your face will frown,
and that will bring everybody down,
so don't worry, be happy

don't worry, be happy now...

don't worry, be happy
don't worry, be happy
don't worry, be happy
don't worry, be happy

now there this song i wrote
i hope you you learned it note for note
like good little children

dont worry be happy

listen to what i say
in your life expect some trouble
when you worry you make it double
dont worry be happy
be happy now

dont worry, be happy
dont worry, be happy
dont worry, be happy
dont worry, be happy
dont worry
dont worry be happy
don't worry, don't worry, don't do it,
be happy,put a smile on your face,
don't bring everybody down like this

don't worry, it will soon pass whatever it is,
don't worry, be happy,
i'm not worried

heart be-ruk-ken ah??

I just woke up.. I know it’s late already but I feel so sleepy larh.. I didn’t had a good night sleep. I kept waking up in the midnight. I duno y. something is bothering me I guess. Now my whole body is pain. My muscles feel like as if I just work out for 1hours.

I had a good day yesterday until the time I was going to sleep. Someone who used to be very close to me, who knows me better and so well then any other frens, who used to love me said something which I think is quite awful, saddening and offensive. In another unrelated matter, I was let down by my friends.

I didn’t want to tok about it. I din tel anyone but it’s bothering me so much. Annoying! I need to let it out. Im still heart broken.

Let’s talk about what happened between me n my friends 1st. when I was on my way to cover Majlis Berbuka Puasa by Anwar Ibrahim at a surau at Kampar Old Town yesterday around 6.45pm I met my friends on bike. 5 of them. I wondered y they are together. So I asked whr r dey going. They are heading for dinner. So I said ok I’ll join them since one of them wana have a look at Anwar. So I went to cover Anwer first. After about 30mins they reached the surau. I talked to them. I asked them to wait. I continued to take pics.

After a while, they disappeared. I was like hey I asked u all to wait for me right? I told you all that im joining u guys for dinner right? at least sms me where to meet to have dinner. If u dun 1 me to join u guys, at least inform me if u guys are leaving. I didn't know whr they are going to have dinner. They din tell me. My credit has expired. I can't contact them. Seriously im hurt. Its not that I terhegeh-hegeh wana join u people but I just feel it would be more marrier if more people since I know u guys for almost a year. i want us to be close friends again...

This is not the first time this incident happened. It won’t happened again. I’ve learnt my lesson. Im not gona ask to join them anymore… I can go eat alone. Whether u eat a lone or with ur friends, u still have to eat, u still have to fill your stomach, you wil still feel fulled, u still shit, u still sleep and you still wake up in the next day.

Now I can confidently say that I’m being left out, kick off from the group. Haha! it’s ok.. different agenda I guees. Personalities clash. Maybe I did something that offended them. I'm not angry ok. Im not. not all all. It's more to dissappointment. No matter what. They are always my friends. Muax! =p

Now the second hurtful incident. This incident affect me more then the 1st one. This happened around 2.30am when I was going to sleep. So cun she on9 at that time. Of cos I tok to her. we were toking about her friend who’s having argument with her because of her friend’s love life. I din noe wat to say about two of them because they used to be good frens. She questioned whether I support her fren. Definitely I’m not! She said at least she dare to make decision, not like her friend, everything also she wants.

I was like.. ok. Ouch. Sakitnya hati. So Proud is it with her decision to break up with me??! now nk show off la. I reali shocked n speechles. i ask her she’s so proud of herself izit? She din reply. I waited. I think she’s scared. She just said something without thinking of the consequences and people’s feeling. Arrghh! Hebat sgt ke brani nk kata break up n dump a guy??! After 10mins she still din say anyting. Fine lo! She’s speechless I guees. I changed my status to away at 2.54am. den 3.00am I went to sleep cz im sad n angry. she stil on9. I din even say bye to her. y must i. she din reply i. she said smtg yg bongkak. She said smtg hurtful.

I went to checked her msn. Stil on9. 3.03am she off9. She went off without saying bye. Haha. see.. she alwaz lidat. dh buat slh n tau org x hapi, she x kisah, takkan say sori, biarkan je, as if nth happened, wont tok abt it. im so used to it.

Aih.. just now my friends – saravani, Jessica neoh, khaw ree nee and liam kah hoe – asked why m I heartbroken. I told Jessica what happened. She so shocked that we already broke up. Wat la. Memang dah lama break up lah.. dh 3 months and 24 days and 11 hours plus plus since 13/5/2009 1.35am. I talked abt it on facebook, msn n my blog wat. It’s ok Jessica, next time I’ll call all my friends and tell them. Next time I’ll make announcement in newspaper and television.

Jessica said she’s confused with my blog. haaha! 1st time I got this comment. Maybe she’s right. I crap a lot. I write a lot. Arrhhhh! I duno.. I just write out what’s in my mind. maybe I should use only 1 language in my writing. Or maybe I shud use more serious tone.

Another friend of mine, Visha, she asked I broke up with my gf d r. haha! I just knew this girl, not so close to her. she’s saravani’s friend. People except my few close friends in uni don’t know my love life. I don’t go and tell everyone who’s my gf etc etc.

my another friend, Yeng Ai Chun said i shud move on. just move on. she said i shouldnt live in denial. break up means that the end. somehow it's true..for now..in this situation. i told her im not giving up yet. she's right u noe.. im hurting myself. bodoh betul.

love itu merimaskan. haha. u like someone, someone doesnt likes you. so? what can u do? u cannot use force in love. i rmbr that i didn't agree to the break up but hei u can't play a solo part in a relationship.

There’s this Chinese saying, ‘ku eh bo chau, sin eh beh lai’ which means new one wont comes if the old one didn’t go. it’s like if you lose smtg, you’ll get smtg to replace it.

Life is full of problems.

If u live without problems, then it’s not a life anymore. if you live without problems, then your life won’t be colourful. If you live without problems, then you’ll never grow and learn. If you live without problems, then you’ll never realised your weaknesses. If you live without problems, you won’t know the meaning of love. If you live without problems, then you won’t remember God.

So stop complaining why problems always happened. Accept and face it lah!

MALAYSIANS can now PROTEST and DEMONSTRATES

MALAYSIANS can now PROTEST and DEMONSTRATES
Yes it’s a fact that we Malaysians now can organised, join or contribute to a rally, protest and demonstrations. This new verdict just approved.

The world has known that Malaysia is a very peaceful country. You cannot doubt that, we live in harmony despite of the differences we have in term of the language we speak, the food we eat, the clothes we wear, the belief we hold on to, our skin colour, our background and our political views.

Malaysia is a democratic parliamentary country where the head of the country is our beloved Agong and governed by Barisan Nasional. Dewan Rakyat is the place where new laws are passed by the MPs and approved by the Agong.

Every Malaysian knows our rights are protected under the Constitution. We have freedom of speech and assembly. Do we really can perform that right as a Malaysian? U have the answer. Our rights are always denied. The more active civil society is, the more oppression and injustice they have to bear.

Today after so many years of struggle, so many gallons of water cannon and so many bullets of tear gas are released, finally we achieved our rights to express our rights. This new rule haven’t debated in the Parliament but it’s already approved. How nice is that. MPs don’t have to waste their time shouting at each other in Dewan Rakyat anymore. We don’t have to wait for months to wait for a new law to be enforced.

Why I said that? Oh it’s because the cow head protesters are still free on the road but peaceful anti-cow head protestors are on jail. How cool is that. We have a new street MPs now. wow! They are the one who’s wearing navy blue uniform, with the cap, usually with a thick moustache and they love to hide behind the tree. I call them the BLUE geng.

When cow head protestors making noise and chaos protesting on the road, it’s ok. They can even bring banners and dead animal. BLUE geng said the group are small so no need to catch. And a few hours ago, a group of peaceful anti-cow head protestors had a candlelight vigil at Dataran Merdeka. Now many of them are in jail. The BLUE geng took them away with BLACK MARIA.

Now u see what I mean? Same offence, different punishment. We are a democratic country man. Of course we are. Because laws now don’t have to tabled and passed in parliament by the MPs but the BLUE geng. They are the real goverment of the day. Don’t you think so?

We are practicing 1Malaysia? Y? because we practice power sharing between MPs and BLUE geng. Because BLUE geng get money from our taxes and work for the ‘good’ people. Because when we protest, we can bring dead animal. Because BLUE geng wob’t kacau anymore if you want to demonstrate. Because if you staying in kampung for generations, you are squatters, you have no right on your land and you have to give way to developers who bought the land from the government. Because if the majority of the community are Race A, religious building of Race B or Race C or Race D cannot be built there.

Now I give you some tips if you want to practice this new law.

1) Attire – anything but not branded because police will tear it
2) Props – bring dead animal, no candles are allowed
3) Time – afternoon, night time is forbidden
4) Location – government building, no fields are allowed
5) Only protestors from a same race are allowed, multi-racial crowd cannot

So my fellow Malaysians. if you don't want the BLACK MARIA to take you away so that you can have nasi 'campur' and grey imbalance 'mattress' in the little square room, u bettter follow the five tips. Now two thumbs up to the BLUE gang and the new law. Yeh!

Umat Islam jangan cerca agama lain - Najib

Sabtu September 5, 2009

Umat Islam jangan cerca agama lain - Najib

MARAN: Umat Islam di negara ini diingatkan supaya menjauhi perbuatan menghina dan mencerca agama lain dan penganutnya sebaliknya berpegang kepada ajaran Islam sebenar dengan menghormati mereka. Perdana Menteri, Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak berkata perbuatan seumpama itu boleh mengundang perkara yang lebih padah kerana mereka yang dicerca itu mungkin akan membalasnya dengan lebih teruk lagi dan akan membawa kepada perpecahan kaum dan bangsa.

"Janganlah kita mencerca agama orang lain, biar Allah yang membalasnya di akhirat nanti kerana jika kita cerca agama lain, orang boleh cerca agama kita lebih hebat lagi," katanya ketika berucap selepas majlis berbuka puasa dan solat Maghrib bersama 1,000 penduduk Mukim Chenor di Masjid Jamek Chenor dekat sini semalam.

Memetik ayat ke108 dalam surah AlAn'am, Najib berkata umat Islam juga dilarang menghina apa saja benda yang disembah oleh penganut agama lain kerana dengan cara itu, penganut agama lain itu tidak akan menghina Allah S.W.T.

Turut hadir isteri Najib, Datin Seri Rosmah Mansor, Menteri Besar Pahang Datuk Seri Adnan Yaakob dan anggota Dewan Undangan Negeri kawasan Chenor Datuk Tan Mohd Aminuddin Ishak.

Beliau berkata, Rasulullah s.a.w sendiri ketika membina negara Islam pertama di Madinah dengan Perlembagaan Madinah telah menjadikan agama Islam sebagai teras pemerintahannya dan agama lain turut dibenarkan untuk diamalkan.

"Ia menyebabkan masyarakat di Madinah hidup dengan aman. Di negara kita juga ada kaum minoriti yang besar....Insya Allah kita juga akan menjadi negara aman, kalau negara kita tidak aman, kita tidak mungkin mengecapi pembangunan yang hebat sekarang ini," katanya.

Selain itu, Najib juga meminta umat Islam kembali kepada perjuangan agama Islam sebenar dengan menjauhi perkara seperti hasad dengki, benci melampau, adu domba, kaki gaduh, kaki umpat, miskin dan dikaitkan dengan pelbagai permasalahan.

"Itulah persepsi negara Barat terhadap agama Islam. Kita perlu menjauhi perkara berkenaan, sebaliknya kembali kepada ajaran sebenar Islam supaya umat Islam menjadi model dan contoh kepada umat lain," katanya.BERNAMA

*copied from http://www.mstar.com.my/berita/cerita.asp?file=/2009/9/5/mstar_berita/20090905130352&sec=mstar_berita

PERIBAHASA of the day

Carik-carik bulu ayam, lama-lama ayam tak ada bulu jua.

what a 'morning' call

First of all. A big round of applause and a big thank you for my friends for their ‘morning’ call. Thanks for waking me up. Haha!

I was sleeping actually since around 10.30pm after my laptop black off and shut off my itself again. so lazy la wana on9. Furthermore I was so fulled with my buka puasa meal-2plates of nasi putih, telur dadar and kangkung goreng belacan plus limau ais. Wah! Yummy!

Im a person who’ll definitely wake up whenever someone calls me. and if she calls or sms me, i’ll straight away wake up like nobody’s business with my eyes half-closed. Blur-blur and stim-stim and talk to her. I never let her down. =p

So as I was sleeping, someone called me at 12am plus-plus. Dengan blur-blurnya aku tekan ‘answer’. Oh its my classmate, Zhi Wei. Yea she talked to me. but I duno what she’s saying because I was sleeping! I only remembered she said something wana give me money. I said okok. Before she finished her sentences I hang up the fon and I continued my sleep. Haha!

Then after a while, someone called me again at 12.29am. its Ponney! She asked what m I doing. I said im sleeping larh.. anyway she said she’s now at Ghany (a mamak restaurant, a lepak place for Utarians), ask me wana go or not. So I asked her who’s thr. So she said la got Sara, Visha, Crystal etc etc. I said NO! I want to sleep la.. she din force me. so I landed on my bed again.

Damn! After 5mins another call came in! arggghhhh! I looked at my hp. its Zhi Wei again. I was panicked because I tot she’s angry. I answered the fon. Its not her. haha! its my housemate, Liang Yee. He asked to go to the basketball court now because the moon is very nice, there’s a circle aound it. I was like what is so nice about the moon n the circle? I’ve seen it so many times. Haha. anyway I said ok, I’ll go.

I lied down for few mins then I woke up. I on9 for a while then I headed to the basketball court. On the way I saw my hsemates Liang Yee, Wei Keat n Siang Yong cycling home. They said they’ll go to Ghany for supper. So I said I’ll join them later la. I went to the basketball court. Apa pun talak. I look right and left and I see nothing. Aih… so I went to ghany la. suddenly I looked up.

Argghh! I sae the moon! Omg! I tell you! It’s damn nice! I bet u never seen this anywhere in your life b4. I stopped my bike immediately. A group of ppl were shocked look at me, as if I wana rob them. Haha! it was full moon. The sky was so clear and bright. If you notice, usually there’ll be this small circle of clouds around the moon. But tonight! Fulamak! The circle was damn super big! What a breath-taking view I tell u.

My neck was super LENGUH. The moon is on top of us. As usual la, I took pics of it. Due to the gigantic size of the circle, I have to lied down on the ground to get the whole thing in my camera and it just fits in. It’s ok as long as I got the shoots. Haha. that’s what photography is all about. N im crazy about it, I’ll do anything to capture the moments.

So many onlookers were there. they were wondering what the heck la is this guy doing lying on the floor. I heard someone said im sleeping. Wahaha. Then, more and more people came to take pics with their camera phones and they cannot get the whole thing because it is just too big. Some even called their friends to look out from their window.

You know.. it feels so warm and nice that a phenomenon can bring all of us together despite the differences in our background, our lifestyle, the food we eat, the language we speak, our beliefs, our cultures, our religions, our genders

God has brings us together tonight by creating a magnificent spectacular and amazing view.

Somehow I feel proud of myself. Hehe. Yeala ppl noticed me man. They know me man. Haha. I duno them.. =p a girl ask for my email address because she wants the pics I took. So I bagiler. Then a group of cyclists hie to me and I heard they said ‘yea yea he’s the guy from Journalism course la.’

For your information lah, u can witness full moon on the 1st and 15th on the chinese lunar calender. If u can read chinese, then u noe la when is it. If you duno, ask ur chinese frens la. if they also duno, I oso duno la.

Then I went to ghany to meet Ponney, Sara and the geng. My ex-classmate from Penang who’s now studying in Utar, Chuin Pei, called me and tell me about the moon. =p thx. After they left, Zhi Wei and frens r stil not thr. So I tried my luck, I went to another mamak restaurant, Maha Maju and they were thr. We chit chat a while then I went home n reached home at about 2am.

They realli got me up. I felt so energetic and awake. I din noe whether I can sleep back again or not. But by on9-ing, reading news and FB-ing can make someone falls asleep.

Anyway seriously I am touched that they called me. they noe who to look for to get nice shots. Haha. if they don’t call me, I wouldn’t have got the cool pics. it’s just so funny that you all call me at the ‘right’ time. Usually I’ll sleep after 2am. Usually they don’t call me. but this time, when im having my nice sleep, I received so many phone calls. thanks ya. Im happy tonight.

And now im going back to sleep again. im sleepy already. My eyes are shutting. what a night. Haha. I have class at 9am tmr. I’ll wake up at 7.00am. trust me I will. I have many stuffs to settle before I can concentrate on studying for my final exam.

So good night. See you. Luv u. muax. Tata.

Last Presentation of The Semester

Fuh.. finally I’ve done the last presentation of this semester before preparing for the final exam this 14th September 2009.

Im writing this is Introduction to Advertising class. My friends are doing presentation now.

Adik-adik semua, akak hari ini nak bercerita. Heheh. Nak dengar tak? duduk BAIK-BAIK and pasang telinga KUA-KUAT and buka mata BESAR-BESAR ye.

Pada tanggal 3 september 2009, pukul 12.30pm Mr. Oh Chin Eng dengan kekawannya, Mr. Gan Siang Yong, Mr. Siew King, Cik Amirah and Miss Vivien Chang telah melakukan satu persembahan presentasi untuk subjek Mass Media and Society. Kekawan sesama course yang lain juga turut berserta bersama-sama untuk menyokong dan menunjukkan peraasan simpati, kasih sayang kepada mereka selain untuk meluangkan masa mereke bergoyang kaki dan tangan.

What the F**K! what a bad presentation! Grrhhh! The Tutor, Mister Soh Or Kan entered the class at 12.35pm. that time Mr. Oh was alone. His groupmates were fotostating some documents to enclosed it with the presentation handout.

Wait! Akak lazy to tel story d. I’ll let Mister Oh to tel you the story himself. More accurate.

So anyway, im Mister Oh here. So Mr. Soh entered the class dengan muka yg membabi, marah, masam and bucuk. Itu I duno y la. haha. so he said ‘‘I’ll give you all 5mins to set up. If you all stil not yet ready, then I’ll go out!’’ zzz… when I entered the class, my friends already set up the LCD and projector.

So in 5mins my groupmates all entered the class and gave him the documents. Luckily before that I already open the slides siap2 and wait for them. So this mister Soh was so angry. He scolded us. He yelled at us. Duk memekik maciam itu speaker.

He asked “y u all never fotostat prepare earlier?! I give u all one week and u all repeat the same mistake!”

We all din say anything except Miss Vivien Chang yang gagah perkasa. Oh she just apologised la. without further delay, we start the presentation la. most of us just read from the slides. I try not to count on the slides so much la. I give my own ideas n opinions. Crab here CRAB there. repeat this and that. My mind just gone blank. I lost all my words and vocabulary.

Damn la! cilaka babi cokodok basi! U noe wat? He din pay attention to us. HE DIN EVEN LOOK AT US FOR ONCE THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE PRESENTATION!! He’s pissed at us? We r pissed at him too! We showed him visual aids. No respose from him. Aih..

Now wana noe the biggest joke of the day?? Haha!

After we finished our presentation, he asked, “any question? Any question? If no question I’ll call it a day. Any question? If no question, I give you 13.5 over 25. I give you only 1 mark for teamwork. The rest no problem. Any question? If nothing, good luck for your final.”

Then, he just walked off from the class!! Arghhh! We all are stunned! Speechless. Duno what to ask him and duno what to say. All of us just stood there, so blur, in the state of disbelief, looking him just walked out from the class. Fulamak! Fuiyo! We ‘salute’ him for that!

Our presentation started around 12.40pm and ended at 1.10pm. he’s always like that. Enter the clas, listen to our presentation then by-bye. No discussion, no teaching. NOTHING! One and a half hour of tutorial but finished in half an hour.

After he went out, we laughed la. we cursed la. normal la. grrhhhh! Macam tak percaya. Eee!! He din even comment on our presentation.

We realised we screw the presentation because we suppose to compare news from different newspaper but we just focus on one news. Salah! But he din noticed about that also. I don’t think he knows what the presentation is all about lah…

Aih.. this is the second worst presentation after English for Mass Communication. It’s nobody fault la. no one to be blame except ourself for the content of the presentation. But as a Tutor, its appropriate to show this kind of attitude. We are grateful that he gave us chance to postponed our presentation because one of my groupmates are late for the presentation last week.

Sad la we got 13.5 over 25 only. We really duno how to do u noe.. seriously he never taught us how to do, what is the requirements for this presentation and etc.

No one take pics with him. He just walked out what. If he din also, we dare not la. haha. I wanted to ask can we get higher marks anot. Hehe. Luckily I din. If not, sure kena again. we all very the TULAN!

Anyway. Im happy la because no more presentations. No more assignments. Now focus on final. =p

QUOTE of the day

Prophet Mohammed said: “ One who hurts a non-Muslim, he hurts me and one who hurts me, hurts God.” (Hadith)

-Fadiah Nadwa Fikri

i miss u

rindu...

i miss u..

yes i miss you, the girl i used to call sayang and she's still the one and only sayang in my heart.

i miss u so much.. im sorry. i noe u dun like to listen to all this. but i couldnt help it. i cant hide my feeling. is there any wrong to miss someone?

i miss u so much tonite. i duno y. nearly 4months since we separated. the feeling is still there. im too stubborn i noe.

life is hard this semester without u. life full of sorrowness and sadness.

how i wish u r here right now beside me. awwww...

angan2 mat jenin. =p i miss your smile, i miss your stare, i miss your belaian..

dah lama sangat tak tengok into your eyes lama-lama. dah lama tak cook for you. dah lama tak gendong you. =p

i miss your "good" thumb sign everytime i wana perform or compete in a competition. i miss bringing you around explore penang with my bike. i miss scolding reckless drivers with you. i miss eating good food with you. i miss talking phone to you for hours with Happy. i miss joking with you. i miss arguing with you about politics. i miss you massaging me. i miss the moment i fetch you with my bicycle in Kampar. i miss the time when people always stare at us wherever we go and sometimes ask where r we from. i miss singing with you. i miss you cheekiness when you try to pull off my one and only janggut when i don't follow your wish. i miss hunting good food with you. i miss being stopped by cilaka policemen just to check what race are u. i miss the first time in my life puasa with you. i miss you feeding me.

arghh! i can go on with the list. i miss too many tings about us. i remember everyting abt us. wana noe y? cz u r the important figure in my life. you've touched my heart and took it away. dun you ever return it cz it's now belongs to you. i've devoted my love to you.

im damn serious on you since i said ''Suidkah u jadi girlfriend i?" at 7.35am on 12th August 2006 at Gurney Drive.

hope you have a good sleep tonight. i know u r doing good there with your friends. i always pray for your succcess and well-being, as usual. tcare always.

i noe u dh x sayang i. haha. i tau la.. its ok k. im not forcing u. im just expressing my feeling. u dun have to pity me. nah, u dun hav to. i'll wait..

okla good night. i nak tido dah. i puasa esok with you esok k. hehe. sleep tight and sweet dreams. sorry but love you. muax. tata.