going back soon

I am leaving at 2pm later from Butterworth. It's about time for me to go back to my university, UTAR in Kampar, Perak. Today 18th Jan 2010 is the first day of my Year 2 Semester 1 of my degree programme. I am looking forward for it. I feel fresh, as if i'm a newbie of university. I miss my classmates so much. I miss them! All of them! They are now in Kampar already.
Before this i was so eager to go back but now i don't really feel it. I miss home and my family. Im not done with my CNY shopping yet. I haven't done the things that i wanted to do here. Sad right. What to do. I want to achieve something that is beyond my capacity. I mean beyond my control, beyond my ability. I just don't have enought time to do all that la..

I usually pack my luggage few hours before i depart. I'm still packing right now. Too many stuffs to bring back to my second home. I guess one of the reasons i'm SO short is because my beg is super heavy! that;s why i can't grow!! GRRHHH! It's also because of my heavy camera. What a lame excuse. haha.

There's 90% more to pack but haha i feel like blogging laaaaaaaaa........... I have so much to say but so little time.

it's already 2.30am now. Everyone at home has already sleeping. I am sleepy, tired after a long day of rushing here and there, busybody care-pochi (kpc) everywhere. I woke up early in the morning. See how good am i. Then i slept again. zzz.. i missed the chance to document a very unique scenario of racial tolerance in Penang where a group of Indians celebrate Ponggal in front of a church. The celebration took place in the church's compound. Unfortunately i was too lazy to wake up.

In the afternoon i went for my first photography course organised for Sony Alpha DSLR users by Sony. It's FREE! Haha. i learned new things. But most of the things i already know lah. I taught people sitting at my left and right. I took model picture for the first time and i feel so urrghh! i never like modelling photography. NEVER! eeww! i just don't feel comfortable. I can't stand people pose here and there, show their boobs asses here and there.. GRRRHHH! no offence k. I'm just not into this kind of photoshoot. Overall, the course was great. A lot of theories were taught. You know i never learn all these. I'm self-taught in photography and i learn by my experience. Afterall i feel, theories are not that important. You need practice, hardwork and heart in photography and you'll produce a good shot.

Before the course ended, i received a phone call at about 5.30pm saying people died at the sea. So i rushed to Lebuh Macallum from Batu Ferringghi. It's very far ok. I nearly got into accident...again for rushing to cover a news. A car was crossing the road in front of me. Suddenly it brakes. WTH!! I got no where to go! So i pressed the break with all the strenghth i had at that time and luckily my bike managed to stop, in front of the car! damn it! I and other cars honk continuosly at the f*cking red Kenari driver. I got to go in to the scene becoz the guard thought that i'm a r*porter. shhhhhhh... hehehe. but i left early bcoz camera run of battery again. aih.. I still remember when i met a reporter, Chin Liang few years ago at a fire scene, my old semi-pro camera that uses AA battery ran out of battery as well. He was the one who lend me batteries. Today i met him again at the scene, but unfortunately my camera uses another type of battery that only fits Sony DSLR. So i had to leave. If i were a real reporter, i'll sure kena sack for failing to capture the news. Anyway 2 people are found dead. LEt's all of us pray that the other 4 missing students are safe.

I took a nap before i went to Batu Feringghi. My mum followed me. I fetched her. heheh. It was such a warm feeling of her sitting on my bike and she said 'can ride not that fast ah?' HAHA. She was comforting me after i didn't get the thing that i need for my public speaking at Batu Feringghi.

I think i'll need few hours to finish packing. By that time, my mum will wake my sister up to school. And i'll send her to school for one last time before i leave. Then, i'll go to the scene where the students fell into the water during a dragon boat training exercise yesterday morning. Then, see my former teacher at my form six school SXI, buy needle for Thaipusam, fotostat soem documents etc etc.

I think that's all i need to do tomorrow.. After i got back to Kampar, definitely i'll blog more. Haha. More unpublished posts will be up.

I also wana take this opportunity to thank Hor Wei Vern for designing my namecard. It's really nice and unique! BETUL!! unik ok!! Look for her if you need a graphic designer.

TRUST ME, 2010 IS GONA BE A BLAST!!

Good night. tata.

i miss you

I never really dedicate a blog post for someone. As in write about someone. Especially for someone saying that i miss him/her. Oh maybe I did la to my sayang. But this blog post is not about her. today I wana talk about my good friends.

I miss two of them so much. Im missing them now. miss you miss you!

These two girls are the very few best and good girl friends I have. I mean.. I don’t mean that my other girl friends are bad but these two are special. These two are special in my age range. Im now 21 la. im trying to say that I have other best girl friends too but not in my age range.

Ok what the hell im talking about. Grrrrhh! Im not good in words la especially when it comes to describing a person.

Anyway these two girls are Tan Lay Nee and Carla Cardoniga.

Tan Lay Nee or Lay Nee. She’s now 20. Doing her degree in Australia! N im now in Malaysia!! I’ve known her for like.. haha many years oo. Since Form 2 or Form 3? That time I was 14/15. We were in PBSM or MRCS, a first aid society la. she was from MGS n I was from SMH. she’s helpful. Intelligent. A leader. Friendly. Very helpful. She’s small in size. A conflict that happened made us closer to each other. Somehow she became one of the girls that I trusted a lot at that time. I was the shy shy silly guy at that time. Yeah we do talked a lot but you know.. I was shy all the time. =p It’s still fresh in my memory when she won a footdrill competition. She was the commander at that time.  Im so proud of you Lay Nee. I can’t wait to see you back to Penang. But by that time, I’ll be back in Kampar. Wait for me lah. =p have a safe journey k.

Carla Cardoniga. Wooooo this girl.. she’s not a Chinese. She’s not a Malay. She’s not an Indian. She’s not a Malaysian la. She’s from Phillippines. Cool huh I have a friend there. =p she’s just 20 this year and she’s doing her degree. I feel so old n outdated. We know each other in Thailand. We were participating in a Youth for Peace Conference there. I represent Malaysia n she represents Phillippines. So that’s how I know her lah. Well.. she is pretty. Yes she is. She’s very nice n warm to talk to. N yeah she has a boyfriend. =p One week in Thailand may seems very short but it has built up our friendship across two regions. Im glad that we still keep in touch n care for each other. We’ll meet up again one day. =p

How nice if two of u are in front of me right now. wana give both of you a tight hug. Haha! I just miss you two sooooooooooooo much tonite. Greedy huh? Gatai?? Nola.

U girls must be proud because I only miss people who are special and meaningful in my life. Im sorry if I ever said or did something that hurt you. Hehe..

Pls take good care of yourselves wherever you are. Eat well sleep well. Don’t forget to pray. I love you my friends. Friends forever.

*if I dun say I miss you, doesn’t mean I dun miss u k. =p

Decision. Photos. Controversial.

Few days before I was talking about whether to post up the photos of the 3 UTAR students drowned in the waterfall incident. I get feedback. Some say ok. Some say not ok. For me, as a photographer, as a journalist to be, as a witness to the searching and rescuing operation, as a normal human being, I really want to post of the photos. It’s my hardwork to get those photos.

Im a person who uphold the truth. But I also care about the sensitivity of this issue. I know for sure that some people will make a fuss about this. They will definitely condemn me. than, go n spread the news saying that cilaka photographer post up photos of dead people. There are also people who will talk about respect the dead.

So I have decided that im gona post up the photos of the incident but not the dead bodies photos. I have also decided that if any of the victims friends want the photos, I’ll give it to them. but until today I haven’t do it.

My friend, Tennee got the photos from me and she post it on her blog. guess what? People critisize her. I already know that people will bising, make noise, critic this and that, condemn you etc. I pity her. anyway she removed some of the photos already.

You people only make noise because some of you know the victims and most of you know about the news. I can guarantee you 100% that if you never come across this news, u wont even give a damn to google their news and click on our blogs and look at the photos. And if you see the photos, I bet you’ll click on it and you’ll view it. You are curious to know what happened. You are attracted to something that you never seen before.

Your eyes want to see those photos but when you see it, your mouth say we shouldn’t published it.

Oh grow up people. There’s this ‘busybody’ gene in you. Don’t wear a mask. Don’t be a pretender. Don’t be a kuih talam dua muka. mang kong lanciau ua.

Please don’t forget that these photos are in the newspapers too. Chinese newspapers especially published those gruesome and scary photos. Why don’t you make noise there instead of here? Is it because we are small little people that are easily to be bullied or you just don’t have the guts to show your tigress tooth to the big company?

This is a sharing to those who were not at the scene. We are just reporting and showing you what has happened like what the newspapers are doing. It’s just a documentation of a disaster. This is a NEWS! So many people were there snapping photos with their handphones. the photos are circulating all over the WORLD! so what are u gona do?

Blogs, social networking sites and photo sharing sites are the alternative ways to get news. Nowadays people don’t turn into mainstream newspaper anymore because of its bias coverage. People prefer on9 news because it’s free, fast, wide coverage of news and you can get news from different perspective and different sources.

Stop blaming the people who post up photos of any bad events. Blame the people who go to google and type:

1.       james khor dirty dreams

2.       dirty dream james khor

3.       dirty dreams by james khor

4.       dirty dream blog james khor
5.        james khor dirty dreams blog

yes there are people who typed that keyword in the search engine. Im not lying. I have prove for what I say. I can trace how what the keywords that people use and end up in my blog. these 3 students are gone. Why some people still wana find fault?!

We never expect that to happen. We never want that to happen. This is fate. If can, I also want to turn back the time and see them alive but I can’t. I saw the bodies, I saw their parents crying, I saw death!

Im sad and down too. I have a mother, a father, a brother, a sister, 2 grandpas, 2 grandmas, relatives and good friends waiting for me to graduate and back to Penang safely. I have a girl that I love. I feel how you feel. I don’t want to loose anyone that I know. I wish I’ll DIE first so that I won’t be sad and mourn for their death.

In journalism, there’s this aspect that we must uphold the truth and give the facts to the audience. But there is also an aspect called ethics.

So people I ask you since who am I to give my opinion on this. Do you think truth can goes a long with ehics? Do you think by telling the truths that might give disadvantages to some people is unethical? What can be published and what can’t be published?

What say you?

So stop blaming anyone. The photos are not meant to humiliate the victims. Some people talk about respect. Oh puh-les. When someone is alive, you don’t give a damn on them. You cheat on them. You humiliate them. You accuse them. You lie to them. You smear their good name. you defame them. You set them up. you insult them. You downgrade them. You disgrace them. You scold them with vulgar words. You say nasty stuffs about them.

Now they are gone and you talk about respect? Do you respect a living person? Do you really respect your father mother, your brother sister, your grandpa and grandma, your relatives, your bf n gf, your husband n wife, your buddies, your friends, your lecturers, your boss, the aunties n uncles who collect your daily rubbish, the waiters, the hawkers, the orphanage, the old people, the disabled, the beggars and anyone that came across in your life? DO YOU?!!

Tepuk dada jangan tanya selera, tanyalah keimanan diri.

Kalau nak kritik tu biar bertempat. Tengok kat diri dulu sebelum nak berkata. Jangan gajah depan mata TAK nampak, lalat seberang laut nampak.

Ok I don’t know why I say all this. I didn’t post up any photos also. No one has yet to say any bad things about my blog post of the incident. Im just fed up with some people and their thoughts.

If you terasa, itu bukan masalah saya.

*as usual, my blog 24 hours a day 7 days a week 365 a year welcome your comments, suggestions, opinions, support, critiques, vulgar words and whatsoeveryouhaveinyourmind.

 *I’ll post what i want, i'll say what i wish. You don’t have any rights in the world to judge me. Leave the judging to those who really know who Oh Chin Eng is.

Students Swept Away...AGAIN

Batu Berangkai, Kampar: Body of James Wan Kai Khor, 20 from Penang was the first of missing victims that was found yesterday by the 2 villagers at about 9.40pm yesterday. He was among the 3 missing UTAR students who got drowned at about 5.30pm at Batu Berangkai Waterfall when a sudden gush of water swept them away. The waterfall is about 10km away from the collapsed suspension bridge where 3 pupils drowned in the river just a week ago here in Kampar. Looking on is Perak MB, YAB Dato' Seri Dr. Zambry bin Abd. Kadir, wearing black cap.

*I was the first journalist/photographer to reached the scene n got the photo. Nyeh nyeh nyeh!

I’ll upload more pics. Sabar…

COPYRIGHT RESERVED! IF YOU REALLY BETUL-BETUL GILA BABI NEED TO USE THE PHOTO AND NOT FOR COMMERCIAL OR PROFITABILITY OR POPULARITY PURPOSELY, USE LAH BUT PLEASE LET ME KNOW!!

Tq. =p

UTAR students missing at waterfall (update 3)

7.20pm
Breaking news! 3 students from UTAR, Kampar, Perak went missing at Kampar waterfalls. Alert came in at 5.45pm. Rescue and search operation is going on despite the heavy rain. And now i shall head out to the scene!

7.43pm
saya baru menghubungi Balai Polis Kampar untuk mendapatkan maklumat terkini. lokasi kejadian dia Kuala Dipang Waterfall. operasi mencari dan menyelamatkan masih dijalankan. menurut Koperal Suhaimi, 3 pelajar tersebut dikhuatiri telah dihanyutkan. pihak polis meminta bantuan pelajar-pelajar UTAR supaya menghubungi pihak universiti ataupun lecturers supaya berhubung dengan Balai Polis Kampar sekarang. dan saya berharap kita semua doakanlah rakan seuniversiti kita selamat. ok nak keluar pi scene sekarang! lapar..

7.50pm
According to the police, 2 boys and 1 girl were swimming at the waterfall when a sudden flow of water swept 3 of them away. Their male friend who was not in the water with them rushed to ask for help from the police station.

2 november 2009

12.20am
i left the location n headed to Hospital Kampar.

2.50pm
i finally reached home. fuh.. what a day. All 3 bodies have been found-2 boys 1 girls. I was the first ‘journalist’ to reached the scene and I got the pic of the first body and their IC photos. Press asked the pics from me. oh know they know me-Oh Chin Eng, the enthusiastic Journalism student from UTAR. bad things happened too. I fell twice in the jungle n I fell from my bike. Doctor gave me an injection. It’s my first accident and injection in Kampar. During the press conference, MB of Perak, YAB Dato' Seri Dr. Zambry bin Abd. Kadir told the press that I was the one who torched him when he enter the jungle n he asked them to get the pic of the 1st body that was found from me. =p I just had my bfast, lunch, dinner n supper for y’day. Im run out of energy. Thank God Im safe. Im so gald that im still alive. My heart breaks when I see the victim’s family members cried. I love you mum, dad, bro, sis, NF n my frens. Gona pangsai, clean up myself, sleep n wake up at 8am to check my photos in the newsppr and blog abt it. Too tired lah!

4.15am
my roomate, Gan Siang Yong just help me to translate the news in Chinese for me. China Press published the pics with my name on it. hehe. i dun want to be a BANANAMAN! im gona learn Chinese by hook or by crook. yesh!

5.10am
i just bathed n it's raining again..

6.25am
i was google-ing the news from the press. saw the photos i took. the press used it but without crediting me. zzz.. hope that the printed version will have my name on it la. im not trying to be popular but this is ethics and they promised me that they gona put my name of it. afterall i took the photos. gona sleep now. be strong ppl. pray. love. gnite. see ya later. tata.