bye 2010

ok before the end of 2010, i would like to apologise to everyone for all my wrongdoings. i noe i made mistakes. i ask for forgiveness.

i humbly wish everyone a very happy new year and a great 2011.

alrite, i'm ready for 2011.

time is getting less with family

holidays are gona ends soon, very soon.

3 weeks passed so fast.

I have another week to go before I go back to my uni. I supposed to have 4 weeks holidays until new semester starts on 17^th but due to some commitments in university I have to be back 1 week earlier.

I already start to miss my state and my family especially my sister.

I still have many things haven's done and settled in Penang.

And guess what I’ll start working tomorrow, means no much time left for me to spend with my sister as her school going to reopen next Monday.

I don’t want her to always stay alone at home. She dislikes it. I hate it too. But what can I do. What can we do. Everyone needs to work to make ends meet.

So I plan to bring her for bowling now as I promised but my brother didn’t want to come. Aih.. why.. he has been very negative and not loving for the past few years.

I know he has trauma. I know he’s not happy. So do i. after all these bad growing up experiences with abusing environment, we know who’s lucky and who’s not. We used to feel that there’s not love in the family. And all the past has made him into what he is today. For me, I stay positive, I know I don’t have to shaped by the environment and the culture, I chose my own path and decide on my own. But it’s tough tough.

I believe one day my brother will open up his heart and care for the family.

as for now, when im still in Penang, i'll try to spend more time with my sister and my family.

Me and my brother didn't talk much as usual. But this will be my resolution for next year, to have a better relationship with him.

aduih...

I tell you hor..

Pangsai is such a tiring activity.

Aduih..

So tired now.

Bo lat liao.

I love you, Ammi!

When was the last time I post a song?

I don’t remember.

But this song left my tears flowing..

I am not a mummy’s son. You know, that kind of boy who always glued to his mum. I seldom open up my heart to her. But she, gives me courage, showers me with unlimited love and raised me up to who I am today.

I thank her for that.

I never ever say to her face that I love her.

I don’t have the courage.

But, yes I do, I do love you, Ammi.

MmmmuaksS!

YOU are quoted

Sometimes you have to lose to win, to wrong to be right.

~ Fadzrina Ariffin
~ 28.12.2010
~ via FB

I wonder..

Why the mat salleh foreigners so rich 1 har? so damn kaya always travel here n thr. they eat kaya everyday kah? come sponsor me la!

where to before 2011?

It's the of the year before we usher in 2011.

I'm done with class trip to Kuantan n family trip to Genting.

But i have not yet spend time for myself.

I want my own personal quality time.

Where to after this for PERSONAL trip??

=p

Sweet and Sour of Xmas 2010

1)      Fire blazed 5 houses in Teluk Bahang and I was there, very fast, one of the first ‘reporters’ to be there. After 1.5 hours only the media arrived.

2)      I hurt my foot. I stepped onto either glass or nail.

3)      Went to Feli’s house for Xmas lunch.

4)      Sad can’t meet up with Yu Jean.

5)      Had another fail date for the second time. It’s all because of the fire.

6)      it feels so GREAT when u stopped ur bike at the traffic light to help a blind man to cross the road while everyone else of their vehicles just stood there, do nth n look at us. =p

7)      Mum prepared ‘hu chui’ the talisman/spiritual drink for safety purpose.

8)      Im going to Genting Highlands for family trip now. Coming back on 28^th morning.

merry christmas hohoho

hohohohoho!

it's Christmas again!

merry Christmas to all of you.

Hope all my Christian friends will have a joyful and memorable Christmas this year.

It is time to partay, to have good food and share happiness together.

to those kaypo people who celebrate Christmas as if they are Christian, buy some gifts for your friends la.

It's kinda weird u noe cuz everyone celebrate xmas. yes many of you cbrate xmas. many of u happy that it's xmas. hahaha. cuz it's a off day right??

alrite im goin to Feli's house to EAT BIG now!! wohohohoho!!

Selamat Hari Natal people.

tata.

QUOTE of the day

You'll know if someone care, love, cherish, appreciate, and put you in their heart. You'll know..

3 weeks in Penang

wooohoooo!

finally i am home. i reached Penang on Wednesday morning. and i lost my handphone. i left it in the ferry.

this is the first time the exam for Journalism course finished earlier than other courses. most of the time, our paper is the last one.

last paper was on 18th. then i went to Kuantan from 19th to 21st. i had an enjoyable time with you Sotong, Dai Ka Jie, Jing Wen, Xiang Lin, Yat Kuan, and Siew King. Thanks for the great hospitality Yat Kuan.

i met up with Feli yesterday. it feels great to catch up with her again. she bought me a tie as a Christmas gift. lalalalala. and she made me walked in George Town and hopped into public bus instead of travelling with my scooter. it's nice to slow down and feel the life of Penang.

then i helped Sheau Fung from PHT to shift exhibition stuffs in the new Museum at Macalister Road. Everytime i come back to Penang, i sure look for her and help out whenever i can. she taught me a lot of things.

you know..  i just helped my mum to wash the dishes.

im glad i did.

this is the first time i helped her to wash the dishes eventhough she didn't ask me to do so.

i feel.. i duno. i should do something for this family, to ease her burden.

this semester break is the only time i have to be with my family and i'll make use of the time i have.

i'm going out now but my mum ask me to eat. hmmm.. but she has not finish cooking la and i am rushing. this is the situation i dislike the most. i know she wants us to eat. every mum in the world work so hard in the kitchen to prepare a meal for her family hoping that they will eat, stay healthy and not hungry when they are out of the house. i know she feels disappointed everytime i didn't eat.

well, i'll stay to have my lunch and be late for my date lah. =p

this semester break is quite long, a total of 4 weeks. but i only have 3 weeks cause i have to be back to uni for the new students Orientation. yeala that's my duty as SRC Chairman ma. 3 weeks is damn short la.. most of the time, i dun really care of holidays. but this time..

I WANT ONE MONTH OF SEMESTER BREAK!!

let me TELL you thisdd

How much times left for you to know ur uni mates, to spend time with them n to go crazy with them. well.. not much! so?? get ur ass up n do it b4 u graduate. =p

live from Pahang

Hi, it's me ur popular TV presenter, OCE reporting live from Gambang, Pahang.

it's a small cute little peaceful town with a lots of rumah burung or bird-bird house.

travelling here from Kampar is so damn fast but damn tired when your backpack is the biggest and heaviest among all.

the time now is 12.20am and i am feeling damn sleepy.

but im still fulled after the delicious local cuisine for dinner. wow! first time having wild boar as a dish.

with me here in the Yat Kuan's house are Sotong, Siew King, Dai Ga Jie, Jing Wen, and Xiang Lin and they are already sleeping.

i tell you, the house is damn BIG la!

we are going to depart to... don't know where at 9am later.

it was raining here during the day and it is so damn cold now.

last but not least, we are having a resort treatment although this supposed to be a backpack trip.

till then, sayonara.

see you at the same place and same time tomorrow for more updates. =p

*i miss my family. feeling a bit uncomfortable not because of the trip but partly because of it also lah. aih..

It's me, OCE!

it has been so looooong since i post my photo.

NAH!

Photo taken after the last paper of the year, completing my Year 2 Trimester 3 today. woah! go crazy go gila!

thanks Dai Ga Jie for the pic. nice! i like it! ada skill oo u. =p

I'm cleaning my room and packing for my trip to Kuantan tomorrow morning. can't wait go makan angin kentut angin minyak angin naik angin dan segala angin in the world.

well.. im still a bit depressed of the exam today. but aiyah forget about it la.


to my coursemates who are going back to hometown, please be safe ya. take care of your health. we shall meet again next year.

see 2010 is a good year, has been a good year.

Now, let's countdown to 2011 with better attitudes, greater achievements and stronger body.

lalalalalalaa.

camera coma again..

no..

not again.. 

Congratulations! my camera broke down a day b4 my trip. how m i goin 2Kuantan tmr?! NOOOOO.. 

Sayang, u noe i love u rite? janganlah merajuk. later we go cbrate New Year countdown n c fireworks la..

this is the second time already. make it the last time ok??

faster recover and tomorrow we go travel. nak tak??

exam over, happy holiday

Finally exam is over. damn hard n sien lo. Public Administration easiest paper konon.. gone case d la. 

aiyah dun care la! better go pangsai, chase buffaloes, take pics, eat, ronda, sleep and holidays!! wohohoo!

anyway happy holidays to all my friends. enjoy to the max, be safe and INGATLAH ORANG YANG TERSAYANG.

i wana go out and snap snap Kampar Old Town before it is gone next year. tata.

last Kopi 'O Kao of the year

Oh yeh.. tomorrow morning at 9am is the last paper. Nomnomnom. And it’s the hardest paper of all, Public Administration. I hate that paper la I tell u. not interesting at all. Sien nia.. eeeww. 

Sumor the weather is so chilling, nice to sleep lo. And according to Kow Kwan Yee, bath is unnecessary lo. I totally agree! I tell u, I don’t bath lo if it’s too cold. Why wana bath when u r not sweating. Hahaha! U still smell good ok. =p

I duno what the notes are saying lo seriously. Wana get an ‘A’? hmmm.. fall in love with the subject first la ye.

Hehehe… I’m sipping my hot Kopi ‘O Kaokao with pleasure. Ahhh.. it’s so ada class gaya mutu keunggulan. The aroma is so strong n sexy. It gives you some kind of ‘chi’, some kind of drug to keep you awake. You feel so energetic everytime your tongue touches on the black thick coffee. Ahhh.. you melt once the coffee go through your throat and your mouth produces the hot air from the dark local-made coffee. 

Im drinking Kopi ‘O Kaokao for the one last time in the year 2010 to mark the end of my last paper tmr. Ahhhh… sexy! =p 

Im not gona drink anymore coffee for this year. No more.. u noe ah, I duno what im studying lo. Gona talk crap tmr with my general knowledge plus minus what I’ve studied. I still have a lot to memorize lah.

But..

I’m already in the holiday mood and no mood to study la! Ayaaaaa!

Exam ends tomorrow. But actually im not going back to Penang yet la. I’m going to somewhere else. Hehehe.. shhhh! Dun tell anyone har. I tell you secretly, im going to Kuantan. Hehehe. Will be back to Penang on 22^nd or 23^rd la. Then cbrate xmas eve, have xmas lunch at Feli’s house the head to Genting on 25^th or attend a friend’s wedding on 26^th. Then Happy New Year!

Will do my reflections before end of 2010 la. I need to review what I’ve done and achieved throughout the year. U need to analyse one ma.. if u didn’t perform well this year, u perform better next year lo.

To my coursemates minoring in AV, especially the gatai Rachael, eh dun show off neh. I know u guys finis ur exam d today. I smack u ah. Hahahah! After tmr, we’ll be free too! I just had dinner with her, Tiffany, Sotong, and Vivien at Vegas. Good food. =p

Thanks to my roommate, Ah Liang for letting me use your computer. Without your computer I duno how am I going to survive and do my assignments. Thank you so much, wish u all the best for your final exam while im enjoying my holidays. Take care of our room baik-baik ye. Hehehe. 

Ok back to revision. It’s almost 11pm d. time to sleep. Hahah! NO WAY!! Study first la! Last paper d, do ur best la OCE. Ush!

YOU are quoted

"Take it easy. It's just an exam."

~ Miss Por Heong Hong
~ Lecturer of Culture and Communication
~ UTAR Kampar
~ Wednesday 15/12/2010

after Kopi 'O, Panadol.

It has been quite some time since i last blogged. yea some time. don't you think so huh?? don't you miss me?? alrite this question is so syiok sendiri. anyway im just kidding.

it's almost 4am now in few more minutes time.

You see, a blog, as what my lecturer Miss TanJJ also told us, is a personal diary. Yeah i agree. Blog is our own personal space for us to tell and to share our stories. Blog is also a place for us to know about other people. no one knows the truth of what is written here. Only the writers do.

hmmm..

i duno what's the purpose of this post.

maybe it has been too quiet. that's why i need to make it noisy for a while. =p

i actually have a lot of things to say, to blog but due to exam and other commitments plus no laptop, i didn't manage to do so. but luckily i still have my pen and notebook. i jot down in details of how i feel and my thoughts. and lucky me i have my handphone to type my mind out in the form of texts and then save it.

this semester i only have 2 subjects and now is the exam period. yea i didn't give all out. first paper was on last Wednesday. started first paper with Kopi 'O kao-kao. I need coffee to make me awake. but now oh shit, i am sick. my body is too hot. my hingus is red color. now im gona end my last paper with panadol. i dun wana be awake anymore. last paper is this Saturday but my head is gona explode soon. it's too painful and heavy. only panadol can make me sleep soundly.

anyway thanks to Jing Wen. i went to her house just now to study although she hesitate to let me in. haha not her fault la. i was so random n crazy that i suddenly 'visit' her and i didn't inform her before that. i studied from 9pm until 2am ok. =p

she prefers to study alone. she's an individualistic person. so do i, i guess. but when it comes to study, to avoid falling asleep on my comfy bed, i need to be with someone. at least when someone is around, i'll feel motivate, i won't simply lie down to sleep, and i can ask him/her if i don't understand anything. =p

life in Kampar has been great with friends around me. i have random, active and sporing people like Pei Suang, PC, Tai Ka Jie and so on. Oh ya, they are the Eastlake Gang, the united gang. it is true u noe.. they alwaz do this together bla3. here in Westlakes, everyone is scattered around and no one is like-minded like me. sorry to say classmates staying in Westlakes are passive. it's impossible if they follow me to ronda or makan etc. Different channel and personality ma..

3 years of studies are actually very short. blink blink oh 3 years d ah?! that's y i chose to spend more time with friends, do things together. after graduate, i might not see them as often as i used to be anymore.

but, sometimes i still prefer to be a lone melayani peraasan, to do what i want to do without restrictions. as a non-punctual person, i can follow my own time. i have absolute freedom. i only have to be responsible for my own life.

study hard for your exam la. i pray that my classmates can get better results. be safe wherever you go. please take care of your health. i know u all studying hard but u need to have enough sleep s well. look who's talking. im the one who's always sick but im asking other people to take care of their health. aaahhaha.

another thing is.. Force won't bring happiness lah. If people say no, don't keep asking anymore. You can persuade but take it if you are rejected. Never use force. 

to my seniors who are graduating soon, very soon after this exam, all the best in ur life. u r in the working period now. no more a student. hahah! no more PTPTN. whatever u do, always be responsible. do your best and no regrets. life is a long journey. it's ok if u change job. if u never try, u never know ma..

lastly, erm.. thx la to those caring people out there or those who are kaypo to drop by this space to see to feel and to know what i wana say... although what i say sometimes are nonsense and crappy.

okla c u tmr. need 1 more panadol. good nite. bye bye.

PERIBAHASA of the day

Sesal dahulu pendapatan, sesal kemudian apa pun tak dapat.

notes missing?!

Grrrrhh..

When im ready and have the mood to study, my notes go missing. hmmm.. bagusla tu. 

notes not complete how to study la..

I'm very particular one lo. before i start studying, i must arrange all my notes. i must make sure my notes are complete. so if i got tips oso no use cuz i can't start studying if one chapter is missing. =p

NEVERMIND!!

we study with what we have! i'll study EVERYTHING then only i'll sleep.

we are not stupid. I'm definitely not stupid. I'm just lazy. I tell u if i really study, sure get flying colors lo. by that time i sure can fly up the sky.

Annek, Kopi 'O KaoKao satu! POWER mia!

*listening to 988 while studying is great. Sunday nite is all about old songs. nostalgic leh. =p

STUDY, don't sleep!

People, exam period but u so lazy to study. always sleep, sleep, sleep. u scared no chance to sleep meh.. after u die, u can sleep as long as u want lo.

hahahah! hey people u don't get offended k. dun terasa.

I'm actually telling this to myself la.

hehehe...

so bad la. i've been sleeping the whole week. do nothing about my exam yet. i was so busy with events and other activities. i facebooking. i play non-stop. i take pics. kanasai me!

first paper is next Wednesday ok.

no way!

I WILL STUDY AFTER 10PM TONIGHT! NO MORE PLAY PLAY!! OCE WILL STUDY GILA-GILA! I STILL WANT AN 'A' FOR MY SUBJECT ALTHOUGH IT'S TOUGH!

friends scold me lah if i don't study. =p

QUOTE of the day

The only way to success is do it with your heart.

i want to have a peaceful sleep

Why is it so hard juz 2hav 1hour nap???

1st 30min: cant sleep.
2nd 30min: phone calls keep comin in.

aduih. see now cannot sleep d lo cuz i need to study.

i wish to sleep in peace la...

i don't blame those who call me la cuz i know they need me.

but seriously i'll consider to silent my phone when i'm sleeping next time.

cannot get me ah? ur problem lah! hahah.

Love

Love should be long-lasting NOT lust-lasting.

Pantang Larang?

Pantang larang?? Do you know what it means? Well.. living in Malaysian generally and being a Chinese or any race in particular, we are born, nurtured and socialized with so much of cultures, beliefs, traditions, norms and pantang larang. Pantang larang or taboos or acts that are forbidden are different according to the ethnicity.

I’m a Chinese but that does not mean all the Chinese have the same pantang larangs. It is different according to your dialect, your hometown in China, your religion, your family culture, your environment and etc.

Haih… do we really need pantang larang? What say you? Sometimes I feel we do. But most of the time pantang larang is just pantang larang. Nothing scientific. Pantang larang basically means No, No and NO to whatever you want to do. Pantang larang is also some kind of law that you must follow to have a smooth and better life. And this law is an unwritten law. It is usually passed down from one generation to another generation.

Why so many pantang larangs? Is it necessary? Is it reasonable? Aduih.. sorry to say at this moment, I feel so geram that i used to practice some pantang larang and I feel so regret now.

When I was small, really small, I’m forbidden from:
1) looking at monkey
2) playing with monkeys
3) and even cannot say the word monkey in ‘Hokkien’
4) not allowed to look at the wake and funeral
5) not allowed to attend funeral

hmmm.. until this moment, I’m phobia, scared and I never say the word monkey in Hokkien. I even dare not to type out the word monkey in Hokkien. It’s a great fear ok. It has been instilled in my mind since young. So yea why can’t I look at monkeys? I duno. And I never ask. I dare not to ask.

So why can’t I attend funerals? Ok some say when we are too young, our ‘power’ or ‘chi’ is weak to hinder us from the bad spirits. The evil spirits will come and kacau and then we’ll get sick blablabla. Ok la I can accept that. BUT I am so sad I can’t even attend my Ah Chor’s funeral. What the tut is that! I love my Ah Chor so much ok. And she loves me too. That time I was just around 10 years old. Sad ok. What kind of pantang larang is this! Ah Chor is my ancestor lah.

I never ask why. In Chinese culture, never question the elders. If not they will say you are rude or kurang ajar. Due to this perception of ‘kurang ajar’, the youths of my age nowadays dare not to open up their mouth to question and to ask intellectually. They are scared, they are fear and they have no confidence.

As I grown up, I, not to say forgotten but I've leave behind a lot of pantang larangs because I don’t feel it is necessary. I do whatever I feel like doing as long as I don’t harm anyone and I don’t tarnish my family’s name.  I don’t merely follow pantang larangs anymore. I will question the relevance of it. My parents also no longer ask me not to do this and that and they accept when I attend a wake or funeral. I guess maybe because I’m adult already and the bad spirit can’t kacau me anymore or maybe because I’m free from any CURSE. Haha.

If you practice a pantang larang for a religion purpose, I can still accept that. Other than that, hmmm.. I won’t criticize la. It’s your right ma. Siao meh. Im not that racist, bias and discriminative ok. Wa banyak open punya.

You may say, if we don’t follow the pantang larang, our culture will be vanished. But culture is a very wide aspect. In this modern world, no one really care about their cultures and religions. Yes this is a fact. Everyone is living in their comfort zone. People do whatever they like without taking into consideration about their cultures, beliefs, norms, and traditions. People’s lifestyle has changed. Everything is based on science technology now. However, I still believed in religion but I’m no longer that strong in practicing my pantang larang as how I used to be when I was small.

I am not here questioning your pantang larang. This is just my point of view of my own cultures.

Tiada kena mengena dengan yang hidup atau yang mati ataupun yang sepera hidup dan mati.

QUOTE of the day

If you wana know what it feels like, do it for yourself, don't just watch and admire

back to life

I've reached home with scars, itchiness n loss of voice from the camp but sweet memories in the heart. tired but best!

I got an award for a video competition but it's the worst prize-giving ceremony i ever attended in my life. lucky but got cheated by the organiser!

anyhow, it's a bit of sueh plus funny and crazy weekends. =p

weekends in KL

this week is gona be a good week.

yes it will be!!

i woke up at 6.30am. damn early. n i'm feeling so sleepy right now.

ok got to go.

1) Raleigh International Kuala Lumpur camp

2) prize giving ceremony in Putrajaya

*tq so much Navin for ur sleeping beg, now only i noe whatis a sleeping beg! hahahah! malunya aku. syiok la so comfy. got ur smell. hehehe. thx. recover cepat2

things-to-do-TONIGHT!!

QUOTE of the day

It's ok if you are not pro in one particular field but u know a lot of things from different fields.

better photographer?

I tell u, if u can be crazier than me, u can definitely become a better photographer. 

But before that, you must learn how to act, pretend, cheat, jump, climb, crawl, run, langgar traffic, speed on bike n help other pressmen.

Good photographs also come from experience you know.. Not only talent, passion or good gadgets. 

Good night.