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Friday, 11 March 2011

let us pray..

Today is 11th March 2011, 11311.

Today is a day we gona remember because tsunami striked again. Japan is highly affected with tsunami after a 8.9 richter scale of earthquake. I don't have to say much. Just open any news portal and you'll know how big is the impact. More and more people died with thousand of belongings destroyed.

well..

let's do what we can do.

While most of us here are still safe, able to online and be with friends and family, let us put our hands together, just take one minute to pray for the safety of our brothers and sisters who are facing disasters now.

Sunday, 5 September 2010

buka puasa and celoteh


SELAMAT BERBUKA PUASA!! WOOHOOO! jom makan. it's makan time. i know la i tak puasa today but xpe.. kita makan sama-sama ye.. Bazar Ramadan kat Kampar Old Town memang best! punya banyak i sapu. tengokla apa i sapu hari ni. =p

ada Laksa Sanggul, taufufah, otak-otak, nasi lemak, cucur udang, jus pegaga, dan entah kuih apa benda la. best! sedap! i kan suka makan, kuat makan, hidup untuk makan. satu hari tak makan ok.. bukan apa, malas nak keluar. hehe.

hmm.. i makan sorang2. siapala kawan i yang puasa kat sini. yang puasa pun sikit tu je. semua pun balik kampung. sini area Cina.. Bazar Ramadan pulak jauh. so susahla students sini nak p sana.

i saw RM1 just now. no one dares to take it. so i took it. i was like thinking what should i do with it. kalau jumpa duit, rezeki la kan. but then i decided not to take it la cuz it's not mine. i remember i promised my ex before that i won't steal or talk anything that doesn't belong to me anymore. if not because of her also, i still pegang pada prinsip and maruah. kalau orang tak nampak pun, Tuhan nampak.



eh i took it but i donated it to to some guy at the Bazar Ramadan.best juga buat charity. hati rasa lapang. =p

u noe.. i puasa for a day only this time. yea you'll ask why must i puasa cuz im not even a Muslim. aih.. u won't understand la. it has to do with my previous relationship. anyway takde mood la nak puasa. u noe bila u sorang-sorang, buat apa pun xde makna kan. eh i tak emo. i cuma berkata benar. dulu i puasa cuz of her. now rasa janggal puasa alone. arrghh! memory masa lalu... she still lives in me la..

puasa this year is so dull. i don't feel Raya at all. no kick. no umpph! it's not like the previous Raya anymore. last time, i'll puasa, i'll go visit friends' house, i'll bermaaf-maafan with her but this year.. hmm.. i didn't even know that she's back. and now im in Kampar, not sure whether im going back to celebrate Raya or not.

it's funny you know when i see my friends' reactions everytime i told them that im going back to celebrate Raya. haha. they'll like huh?? why you wana go back? you Muslim meh? ayooo.. i ni Malaysian la. im not sure about you but i grown up in an environment where i accept, respect and understand other races and their cultures lo.. i celebrate all the major festivals in Malaysia.

waaaa walaueh u noe ah??? my roomate holiao oso lo.. girls always come to our house and see him one. yeala do discussion ma. but then hor most of his friends are girls. fuyoooo.. cayala! and all of them also PRETTY!! hahaha.he's quite good looking la.. =p

i went to the bank to get some money just now and i wana pengsan now! I am so broke now! serioous la. no lying. not joking. i terkejut sampai mata terbeliak bola jatuh pecah hancur looking at my account. aih.. how to travel? how to fix my laptop?

laptop is still sick. im now using my roomate's PC. tq Ah Liang. and thx to Tiffamy for fetching me from bus-stop when i reached Kampar. Thx to Rachael also for lending me ur laptop. muax muax.

im so kuai today. my bed is so neat now. i washed my bedsheet and mattress. i fold my clothes. i boiled water. i returned library books. i went to uni to snap pics. i arranged my notes. see how 'good' i am. hahaha.

oh ya! i miss her la.. how ah??

BUAT BODOH LA..

Monday, 19 April 2010

bye Penang..

i dun wana go back yet...

i wana stay here...

maybe for few more days?

ahhhh... Kampar is so damn hot la.

when the weather is hot, im HOT too..

anyway, im glad to be back.

and im so thankful and grateful that i've done what i intended to do.

Thank you to the One up there.

so it's a great weekend n it's so worth it that i came back.

im gona miss everything here especially my family.

again i dun really have time to spend time with my sister.

i was packed ok even im in Penang.

this is so crazy!!

yea because i only come back to Penang when i have soemthing to do here. Family is second. i miss them i i wont purposely coem back to see them. They are in me every second. And my mum don;t really like i always come back because it's a waste of money. somehow it's true..

ok.. i got to run. i just reached home n i haven't pack my stuffs.

bus at 6.30pm and i need to be at the Jetty the lastest by 5.45pm. im still looking for transport to go to the Jetty.

till then, tata. have a great day everyone. remember to always thank God.

Sunday, 4 April 2010

some silly but serious questions

1. Is 2010 really that great afterall?

2. Why the process of getting something is so wonderful but the results always sucks?

3. I am skinny. But does it really matters for people to judge me for who i am?

4.Why most of the time when i already set my target, plan my goals, suddenly something will appeared and block it?

5. Why i'm the one who give out so much but get so less in a relationship?

6. I'm being myself all the time. Do i have to be serious so that you know i mean what i mean?

7. I'm tired of what-so-ever stuffs that i like and i'm doing now. Take less photos, should i?

8. Can you God please bless and protect those i love and those that love me?

Good Night.

Sunday, 28 March 2010

2 sides of a coin

good morning.

i know it's super late already. but if it's possible i wana sleep till tonight.

haha. but cannot. i have 2assignments to pass up next week.

i haven't washed my face yet, still blur blur but i have something to say before i forget.

Feli always said that there's no right or wrong decision.

she's right. whatever decision we made, there are pros and cons.

we'll be happy for getting what we want and we'll be sad for not getting what we wan.

there's a price to pay.

there's always 2 sides of a coin.

one musn't look at something from just one perspective. try to think from another perspective, analyze from every aspects and take people's advice into consideration.

it's just a choice we have to made in our life.

it's either A or B. or sometimes C. it's still a choice if you don't choose A, B, or C. not making a decison is a decision.

once you made up your mind, be consistent, go on and work hard on it till you achive it. don't be hesitate and be doubtful of it. don't be fear to make a decision. don't be fear of the results.

so why i talk about this in the early morning? i mean afternoon. =p

i made a decision to stay in Kampar yesterday.

because of the decision:
1. I didn't follow Navin to KL for a field trip.

2. I didn't go for a visit to the Orang Asli Village.

3. I missed my paternal grandpa's birthday celebration.

4. I missed my beloved former secondary school, SMK Hutchings Silver Jubilee Celebration. It's a 25 years annversary celebration la.

5. I didn't organised anything, i didn't join the Earth Hour campaign in Westlake n i forgot to switch off my toilet light.

Then what happened?
1. I went to uni to support my Sooi Pheng, Sharmilla, Cheery and Hui Xin's Moral Campaign presentation.

2. Suddenly i became part of the campaign. I helped them to snap-snap photos. And im gona have dinner with Sooi Pheng n frens on Monday.

3. I had a good afternoon nap alone in my room.

4. My house owner came at night and i had a talk with her. She cleaned the whole house and fixed the lights with her husband. I respect her la!

5. Rachael called me telling me there's a religious procession in Old Town.

6. Thanks to her, I rushed to Old Town, took a lot of pics and know more about the religious celebration in Kampar and i know more about my own religion.

7. I had Comm Theories discussion at 9.30pm. We tried to finish it as soon as possible la.

8. I was late for the discussion because of teh procession. So I belanja Cynthia, Edmund n Tze Huey makan (to bribe them). hahahaha.

9. Then so randomly we went to Old Town middle of the night to have Susu Lembu. Sedap!

10. we took photos in front of a spooky house, in the middle of the road and at Jalan Mati. the girls were so scared.

11. But if it's not because of them asking me to bring them to Jalan Mati, I won't be able to enjoy the gift of God and the beauty of nature when the moon is so bright and you can see a lot of stars on top of you.

12. I save RM45 travelling cost back to Penang and RM30 for not going to the Silver Jubilee Celebration.

SO, everything happens for a reason. Setiap perkara yang berlu ada hikmahnya. never blame anyone because that's the decision you made. so you should bear the consequences and be responsible.

Don't blame God. if we win, we thanks Him. if we lose, we must also thanks Him. Be thankful of what we have.

trust me, every decision comes with an experience and lesson. you might not like the decision you made but you'll definitely learn something from it.

Whatever decision you made, there's nothing to be regret. Because you lose A, you'll get B. Or C. or D. Or E. Or F. Or nothing. But nothing means something.

now i've decided to finish 1 assignment, upload pictures in FB, send a letter to the editor, and choose some photos for a photography competition by today.

That's my decision, my choice. And im gona do it!

*this is just my 2 cents opinion. if you like it, tq. if you don't, thank you too.

Tuesday, 23 March 2010

aku flying kat cloud 9

well, it's nice to be back in Kampar.

especially when i managed to made it for a movie with friends.

that's the reason why i took 2pm bus.

first, i must thanks Adeline for the date. haha.

second, it's so nice to meet up with Vanitha again. wheee!

we went out for dinner together for the first time ever.

then we went to a chuch for a movie screening. it's also a place for the students to have a proper place to hang out and to study. seriously it's a nice place.

we watched a movie Facing The Giants.

well, the movie is superb.

it touches on the teacing of Christianity.

the movie uses sports as the subject of the movie.

i was screaming as if im watching a live rugby tournament.

i learn new things.

what matters is the message behind the movie.

it is priceless. a lot of lessons to be leant.

the movie is just amazing, fantastic, inspiring!

i feel so UMMPHH, energetic, spirited, highly motivated, inspired, boosted, nostalgic n grateful tonight after watching the movie.


i feel more relax n calm tonite. i feel so light. so fragile. haha.


im in great mood.


im happy.

im flying.

im on cloud nine.


thanks again to Adeline Wok for asking me to join her for the movie screening.

it's always nice to talk to her. she is a sweet girl. =p

the feeling is just like meeting up with your long lost friend from primary school n u just talk everything about your life and your dreams n ur thoughts.

but actually we met randomly. n then we just get a long lo. n i dun have to pretend to be someone else.

thanks for the great nite.

hidup Adeline, hidup Pandan Girl!

*2010 IS GONA BE AND IT IS A GOOD YEAR!!

Wednesday, 30 December 2009

a few drop of tears

I was lying on my bed, trying so hard to sleep. My laptop is still playing ‘You and I’ by Michael Buble. But I still cannot sleep.. I’ve been sleeping so late on this island. I slept at 7am yesterday.

Now, after I finish typing this, I think I can sleep well. Why?? Hehe.. I just talked to FELI!! Woohooo!! FELICITA FEDELIS!!  Thanks Feli.

I needed to talk to someone. Im clueless when I need to talk to someone. I have close friends, good buddies, but sometimes I don’t feel comfortable to tell them my personal stuffs. I felt lonely. I felt unfair. I cried. I don’t know why.

Of all so many close friends, I think Feli is the one that I’m so honest with. There’s nothing that I can hide from her. She knows when Im not happy. Sometimes, she’ll just pretend and wait for me to tell her what’s in my mind although she already know it. I trust her. I feel secure to talk to her. I feel calm..

She’s leaving this Saturday. I thought I’ll meet her again but no jodoh.

By the way, she's not a Chinese pun! nor a Buddhist or Taoist or Hindu. I'm ok talking to a non-Chinese. it's not an issue!

There’s something that I keep in my heart for so long. Something that is so hard to say it out. I’ve decided to just keep it as a secret. But someone else who knows it told other people.

I feel being betrayed. Can’t that person show me some respect? Can’t that person think of my feelings and my dignity? I lost friends because of that. That action has left a bad mark on my image.

So what im hiding actually? Do you still remember that I went for a blood test? Yes the blood test is the beginning of all the problems. The blood test is not just about me, but it involves other person as well.

Until this moment, I keep it as a secret. I didn’t tell anyone except God. I swear. I do all this because I respect that person. I care for her privacy. I don’t want anyone to think bad or look down on that person. No one knows what blood test I did. Why in the world all of a sudden I went to do blood test?!! i have faith in myself. I have faith with the people I trust, especially the one that meant a lot for me.. But that person never trust me…

Well, u might not get the same treatment like how you treated people.

Am I that bad huh? Tel me am I that bad??

Aku bukan nak cari publisiti murahan ok!! kalau hangpa tak suka apa I tulis, boleh blah dari blog aku. Aku sekadar ingin mencari ketenangan hidup.

I have no idea how long I can keep this all myself.

Sorry Feli for waking u up in the middle of the night. hehehe. And sorry for the troubles I’ve given you all this while.

You know I love you. =p

*if i cannot sleep, im gona miscall everyone in my hp. =p

Sunday, 20 December 2009

QUOTE of the day

"Will money, fame, popularity, and pleasure give us full satisfaction? All this will only lead us to nothingless. Satisfaction comes from God. Christmas is not about presents and gifts but the presence of God is more important than what men can give us."

~ 19/12/2009 Saturday
~ Christmas Carol, Ipoh, Perak
~ Pastor Hong

*i love his speech sooo much la!! what he says is true you know whether you are a Christian or not, God is more important than any other things.

Thursday, 17 December 2009

Thank You God

Letter To The God

God, 2009 is going to end soon. Very soon. I wana thank you for the guidance, blessing and protection you gave me throughout the whole year. Im sorry too for the wrongdoings I made. I know im bad.. I did try to be a better man but I failed.. why?? Im not gona give u any reasons. I know n You know.

I believe in you God. some people only pray to you when they are scared of ghost, when they are admitted into the hospital and when they are in troubles. But I always pray to you no matter im in good or bad condition. I always pray for others n not myself.

Anyway, I wana make a last wish. I wana ask for one last thing from you. A last one.. I promised it’s the last one. No more wishes after this for the rest of 2009. This is not about my final exam. I’ll work on it myself on my exam. no use I pray hard but I don’t work hard right.

God, the time is now. Im going to the hospital now to get my blood test results. I am very nervous right now. very. I just constipated because im too scared. My heart is beating very fast.

I pray to you that my blood is ok. I hope the doctor will tell me that. Please.. You are the only one I can turn to now. if my blood is ok, other people is ok as well. I dun wana trouble anyone. I don’t one. If I have to suffer for my sins, let me bear it all myself.

Please let me get a good results. Please.. I promise you if my blood is ok, I WILL BE ON VEGETARIAN DIET FOR 3 DAYS, PUASA FOR 1 WEEK AND I WILL PARTICIPATE IN THAIPUSAM NEXT YEAR.

Very 1 Malaysia rite??

I need spiritual strength right now. im going now.. I pray that everything will turn out ok. I want 2010 to be a great year ahead. I know some people is waiting eagerly to know the results. I dun wana let anyone down, including myself.

Thank you God.