say & do or do & say

We do when we don't say but we say when we don't do.

We say but we don't do, we do but we don't say.

PENING!

You just do what you said la.

If you don't say anything also you must do what your heart says.

Or you do then only you say lo.

SO!

say and do or do and say??

moves on

Finally..

I've made up my mind.

After floating no where in the air, single, alone and sad for 1 year 11 days and 18 hours..

im gona say bye bye to the past now..

at 6.35pm Monday 24/5/2010.

I determine and seriously serious in what i want to do.

I know i might change my mind. I know i might look back. I know i might reminisce. I know i might get emo again.

But.. Im taking my first step now.

My journey is still far away.

Why must i torture myself and ruin my life?

Im tired of walking with someone who's not there anymore.

The fight in this struggle is no longer meaningful.

It's not worth it anymore.

When you can't change the situation, you either take it or leave it.

I chose the second option.

You don't have to live in someone's shadow.

You own your own life.

And I have nothing to regret.

Because i had the most fastastically beautiful sweet loving love story before, at least for me.

Now..

Im moving on.

I am.

QUOTE of the day

'All the world's a stage, And all the men and women merely players.'

~ William Shakespere

it's nice to send my sister to school

Good morning.

AT this time, my sister is already in school.

I just sent her there.

Damn sleepy right now. SLept at 4.30am n mum called at 6.26am to wake me up. But i slept again till 6.45am.

Sister woke up so fast. No hanky panky no merengek merajuk. The waking up process was so smooth. She brushed her teeth. Sometimes she didn't. haha. I prepared breakfast for her. Combed her hair. Gave her RM2.

I remember it was so hard to wake her up back then. Then all of us will be late to school n i went to school with grumpy and sour face. Stress gila.

The last time i fetched her and my brother to school was in 2007 when i was still schooling in Form 6.

WHen im back in Penang, i'll pick her up from school when mum is busy.

It feels so nice to be a brother again, sending and picking up my sister from school. =p

ok i wana get back to sleep people.

Good night.

tonight without parents

What if one day both of our parents are not with us anymore? what you gona do? What am I going to do? Im still young. Im still studying n not in Penang. Who’s gona take care of my brother and my little sister?

I’ve always taken my parents for granted. I didn’t do enough for my family yet. My parents have been very tiring and struggling all this while in making sure we got enough food to eat, clothes to wear, leisure, basic needs and education.

I haven’t repay them. I need to. I want to.

An old lady told me seomthing today. She reminds me to always be nice to our parents. Appreciate them. respect them.

It’s true you know. No matter how rich you are, how smart u are or how loving you are to your friends and partner, parents are still the most loyal, most loving, most caring, closest and the persons that sacrificed the most in our life from the moment we are created. When the whole world turns down on you, parents are always there. no matter how hard our life is, they never complain, never neglect us, not a second.

Why im so sentimental tonight??

Cuz both my parents not at home tonight. Both of them are away. Away at different places for different reasons. And Im taking care of my sister for tonight and tomorrow. I just put her into sleep. Oni 3 of us, my brother, my sister n me at home tonight.

I feel kind of lonely tonight without my mum’s nagging and without my dad’s snoring.

Human nature huh? When we have something, we tend to less appreciate it. We tend to less think of the importance of it. But now when something is not there, we feel the lost. We feel the emptiness.

Im bad, im sucks in relationships. I don’t know how to express my love in the correct way. Sometimes I just hide my feelings. Im a failure. Im sucks in love. I’ve failed to show my love to my mum, to my dad.

I want them to know I love them. I really do. They are the best parents in the world. They are the best. Im sorry for being a naughty and not-so-obident son.

REMINDER

2010 IS AND GONA BE A GREAT YEAR.

Martin Luther King says...

And I've seen the promised land. I may not get there with you. But i want you to know tonight, that we, as a people, will get to the promised land. And I am happy tonight. I'm not worried about anything. I'm not fearing any man. Mine eyes have seen the glory of the coming of the Lord.

Milo = pangsai

I don't know whether this thing ever happened to you or not but i experienced it many times before.

i drink Milo, then immediately i'll go pangsai.

haha. what?

im serious ni.

it's a fact!

so i cannot take Milo.

so i don't buy Milo's advertisement "Minum Milo and jadi sihat dan kuat."

all this while i've been drinking Milo since small but you tengok la.

TULANG MASIH SEKERAT! ENTAH MANA YANG KUAT. ISI SEMUA SOROK KAT MANA PUN TAK TAU LA!

ok stomachache again. Hi Jamban im coming!

out 16 hours

I went out around 8.20am this morning and came back just now at 12.20am.
A round of applause please. tq.

In Penang, i always run here and there do this and that or sleep here and there in my house.

In Mandarin cakap "pao lai pao chu" or Hokkien lang cakap "cau lai cau khi".

Aih i can never sit still at one place.

booksales make me sick

Arrrghh!

Shopping for books turned out so badly.

I went to Popular for its booksales. 90% discount ok.

How funny is it.

Buying books make me sick.

My head is so heavy and painful. Nose keeps running. Suddenly got diarrhea.

Feel so unwell.

Okay good night people. I need to take medicine n sleep now. bye.

my sister just never listen

okok chill chill.

i know i should not be angry.

but im just pissed off with my sister.

again, she came home by herself although i supposed to pick her up!

tulan lo i tell u!

this is not the first time. many times already.

usually my mum will pick her up. but today my mum can't.

again i went to fetch her. waited for her for 20minutes. then her friend came to me and said your sister went back already!

i was like WHAT!! not again!

She didn't even wait for me. i was just late for 2 minutes.

her school is just behind my apartment but it's dangerous for my sister to walk home. she's a girl and she's still a kid.

i scolded her before. i warned her so many times not to do that again but she just never listen!

i asked her never walk home even if mum is late. wait! if people ask you to wait, you wait. no one knows where are you if you are not there waiting.

what if something happen when she walks home?? u tell me.

you know, my mum scold me when my sister walks back alone.

fuh.. im not gona scold her. i wont. im done with it. im so disappointed with her.

IM NOT GONA FETCH HER FROM SCHOOL ANYMORE!

PERIBAHASA of the day

"1 hari hiking a kali, lama-lama pangsai pun selesa sekali."

~ Nixon Lai Chia Huey
~ 21/5/2010 1.00am
~ via MSN

me

First of all, thank you Kow Kwan Yee, gua mia senior for taking this photo. Secondly, fuyooo this picture is nice. Thirdly i love this picture!!

Seriously this is a good photo. Why? Ok cuz i look good. And the model, ahem, so natural. I just love the feeling of this photo. It's like.. So warm.. So friendly.. So sweet. SO vintage. I fall in love with my own smile lah!

It's like some Apek Cina just arrived in the tongkang. haha!

ei, I think im quite handsome also la hor in the photo.

wahahahah! im gona stare at this photo the whole night!

I love the photographer la for taking this lovely picture of this loving man.

a reminder..

Be rational, don't get emotional.

my sister..

My sister is getting taller. Her head is reaching my neck. Tall but still skinny.

She’s talented. She’s good. If you come to my house, you’ll see all her trophies. She purposely display it in the hall. Haha.

She always draw. Im not sure whether she loves it or not but she has been doing it since small. She won quite a number of art competition.

Sometimes I pity her. Her weekends always packed with activitied. Like last Sunday. She woke up early morning for tuition at 8am, then rush for a drawing comepetition and dancing class at 1pm. I don’t know how she can cope with all this.

I wana spend time with her. bring her out for a movie, go for a good wlak with her at the Botanical Garden or fly kite with her. but sometimes I just don’t have the time. Then I’ll feel bad and blame myself for not spending enough time with her.

She’s quite smart. Exam: she’s always in Top 5 in the class and Top 10 in the whole standard. Like wow!!

But she never want to study. I ask her to study, she plays games, watches TV. Waleuh. I ask until bolat d.

Oh ya! She just washed all the dishes. I asked her my mum ask her to do that is it? She said no. *bows*

3 nights ago she taught me ABC. A for alamak. B is for Behtahan! Fulamak! *faints* I duno who taught her that.

Last night, she asked me something that she’ll never get the answer from me. it’s about love. In my family, we seldom n we are not open to discuss about this. It’s hard to change t his culture.

Sister: Takke (big brother), do you have a girlfriend?

Me: No.

Sister: Why no leh?

Me: Why must I have one?

Sister: Why must not you have one?

Sister: you know ah? In the drama, they always say ladies must get married by 30 years old. Then how old do you wana get married?

Me: I don’t know.

See.. that’s my sister. She’s matured d la. Nak akil baligh d. When we went to Thailand, she read newspapers in the hotel instead of following me n my mum out for shopping! Then we were having dinner, we saw a lady begging for money. My sister complained!!

She said, “aiyo why this lady wear so nice, got hands got hands but wana beg for money?”

Me n my mum just kept quiet. Haha.

Sometimes she’ll ask me about her. I’ll just keep quiet. I don’t know what should I say. I just hope my silence will make my sister forget about her like how I’m doing now. My sister misses her a lot.. a lot.. a lot.. I miss her very, very, very much too..

Ok I wana go out with my sister now to fly the kite. Something that we never do before. It’s also one of the things that I wanted to do my the one I love but I never have the chance to do so.

YOU are quoted

"There are times don't ask means can, ask means cannot."

~ Nigel Aw
~ 19/5/2010 3.17am
~ MSN

me and photography

I love to take pictures. It’s a reality. It’s a fact that cannot be change. It’s me.

One of the reasons im so fascinated and cling onto photography is simply because it gives me satisfaction. I get the best present I ever get from people, their priceless smile. Their smile worth every single tear, blood and sweat I put into the photo.

My aim is to make people happy as much as I can. I want to see them happy. Their happiness is my happiness.

I want to capture every single thing in life, whether it’s good or whether it’s bad.

My photos tell stories. My photos come with meanings. My photos touched people’s heart. I want people to remember me. I want people to remember their memories through photography. This, will make them cherish their lost memories. People can link it to their lives. I know they’ll appreciate it.

I don’t have expensive gadget like the pro photographer. I don’t need those when I already have one, the heart. I captured every single shot with my heart. I use this gift from Him to serve the people.

I don’t mind what you people call me. You can say im crazy. You can say im showing off. You can say im not talented. It’s ok. I am better then you who critisized me because im true to myself, I put efforts in what I do and I’m passionate.

Me and photography are unseparatable.

If one day I die, it’s ok. Because I’ve seen and felt the beauty of life..

QUOTE of the day

If a lie is repeated 10 times, the lie becomes a truth at the 11th time to everybody.

~ an English saying.

time to potong

i still remember in my previous previous old old post, i said when it's long you should just POTONG.

yes why wana keep long long?

I tell you it's so irritating.

and so not handsome.

eee...

sometimes so geram.

the bulu, i mean the hair always fly here and there when im studying.

so kacau!

now my boolu-boolu sudah panjang.

atas panjang bawah oso panjang.

it's so long and messy.

i never cut it in Kampar.

i feel unsecure. hahah. i prefer to cut it here in Penang.

im going to POTONG now.

potong atas. cut my hair.

potong bawah. shave my moustache.

SO POTONG ATAS DAN BAWAH!

i wonder..

Sometimes I wonder why some people can totally forget and let go a relationship and someone who used to be so significant in their life as if they never know each other. I can't. If there’s a delete button in our brain to erase memories, I would love to have it. At least it'll heal the pain deep inside the broken pieces of heart..

YOU are quoted

"One leader can't serve without passion and clear objective."

~ Kow Kwan Yee
~ 18/5/2010 3.31am
~ via MSN

*  I won't simply quote someone if it's not meaningful or funny.

JOKE of the night

"Lu mia senior wu lei jing, then you are junior ham sap jing."

~ Nixon Lai Chia Huey
~ 18/5/2010 1.40pm
~ via MSN

* zzzz... lidat also can. manyak creative cokodok basi!

i need to hike!

i need to hike so BADLY!!

KENOT TAHAN ANYMORE!

wa beh tahan liao.

desperate yang amat sangat.

I never felt this way before.

but now seriously im so desperate to go for hiking!

i feel so ada umpphh now.

my mind, heart, soul and whatsoever are only thinking to hike, hike and hike.

i miss hiking so much.

i must hike by this week.

NO MATTER WHAT!

anyone in Penang feels like hiking, call me!!

let's leave out marks on the hills!

lets's go take awesome pictures.

let's go exercise NIXON LAI, CHEE LENG, ENG HUAT, DEXTER, KAH HOE, WEI VERN, MIRAWANI, RACHEL YEOH, EDMUND, LIANI, JESSICA, KHAI KEAT, WEI HAN, MURUKESH, KHAI KEAT, TENG SHIN, ROHENE, FELI, NATASHA KHANUM, YOU JEAN, AZHAN, KIM!

present to miss joethi - handmade card

Previously I posted photos of the photoframe as a gift to Miss Joethi. Now another small little gift to our lecturer which is a handmade card with our signatures and wishes. It’s made by my classmate, Lee Pei Shhuang. =p

Can you see? This is Lee Pei Suang, beh paiseh tak malu posing with her card. Wahahah. Spot me at the back?? =p anyway thanks to her la. hardwork you know..

This is the fornt page of the card. Nice right? I like it especially the cute little clip.

Signatures and wishes from the Journalism students of January 2009 intake. I don’t think everyone sign though. Anyway sorry I don’t why the picture rotates itself la. always terbalik one. So you also terbalikkan your head to read la. =p

* Pei Pei ah, u can use the photos if u want. But i can actually send it to you in MSN la.

me n Miss Joethi on her wedding

see. my Journalism lecturer so pretty la. memang ngam. wa pun good looking what that night. wahahahah. tak malu praise myself. who cares la!!

congrats again Miss Joethi on your wedding. =p

Kata-kata hikmat

Bukan susah untuk menyukai seseorang tapi bukan senang untuk melepaskan sebuah cinta.

I have spoken in Speaker's Square

hehehe!

i did what i've said.

mission accomplised!

i made it.

im glad to be back in Penang!

i have spoken in Speaker's Square, Esplanade, Penang!

woohooo!
ok this is an achivement for me myself.

why??

first time giving speech in an open space.

and first time giving speech without audience, microphone, stage, podium or spotlight!

how cool is that!

and how funny is that??

nvm.. i made it.

when are you going to make it?

let them especially the public, government, pressmen and SPecial Brance officers hear your voice.

anyway there was a man with small gadget to take picture and take video was there before i speak. he left. then when i was speaking half way, he came n i SAW him take picture and video of me. seriously he got the SPecial Branch's look and style.

gosh! goosebumps man!

luckily when i say something about the police, he wasn't there.

thanks to my 4 Super VIPs and good buddies Nixon Lai, Ah Meow, Dexter the Pervert and Liam The Chiko for being there. haha.

and thanks also to a couple, my additional audience.

there were suportive. we had a nice chat.

impossible i can achieved my dream without u people.

MUAX MUAX MUAX!

i have 'something' to say

oh owh!

7pm ++ d ah??!

ish ish!

im late!!

i wanted to go to Speaker's Squake in Esplanade to give speech at 6pm but i just woke up la.

nvm2 the event is until 10pm.

arrghhh! now i feel the nerve d.

u noe la.. Speaker's Corner ma. Boh syiok la if i dun 'shoot' people. not camera shooting u noe. but shoot verbally.

mulut i kan gatai. nak makan. nak tembak.

ok im gona go there.

whoever is there, c u there la.

mata-mata pls dun catch me cuz i din ask anyone to go ok.

so it's not an illegal assembly la.

hehehe.

home but not in home

finally after 3 hours of journey, im back in Penang!

yesh yesh!

who is not happy to be back to Penang, tell me?

yes im happy!

but now im locked outside the house.

WA TALAK KUNCI MAU MASUK LUMAH!

arrghhh!

im home but not in my home!

no one at home. no one to open the door for me. i have the keys but not the key for that lock!

zzzz...

now im stiiting outside my house. enjoying sauna. smelling the nice smell from the shoes and my feet. sweating like as if i just jogged for 30mins.

nvm.. nvm..

chill chill.. cool down beb! othou im damn hot in me!

luckily my sis didn't switch off the internet connection. if not i can't online now. at least i can still surf the net and listen to the radio.

i have apples. lu mau?? =p

a joyful accident

Have you experienced a happy accident on the road.

I had. And i tell u this accident is the happiest and funniest one ever happened!!

M en Poovan just involved in an accident!

Haha im fine! He is NOT!

I laughed the moment he shouted and fell. Then we laughed together after we reached home. And i am laughing out loud now while typing this.

This is his holidays present and also from UTAR on our last day of exam.

Wahaaha.

okla luckily he's fine.

1 last paper

morning...

another one more paper than can balik kampung.

exam at 9am!

lucky me i can wake up on time.

so sleepy..

all the best to all my frens.

well, im kinda nervous actually.

running out of time!!

oh no oh no!!

im running out of time. seriously.

I wana watch Thomas Cup later at 7pm. N im sure the game will last until 11pm.

exam at 9am tomorrow.

and im going back to hometown after exam.

i have less than 17 hours before my last paper tomorrow.

i haven't and i need to:

1.eat
2.bath
3.study
4.write and send a letter to the editor
5.do laundry
6.sweep n mop
7.clean my room
8.edit and burn the photos into CD and pass it to customer
9.watch Thomas Cup
10.pack my beg
11.sleep

FUYOOOO! HOW TO DO THAT IN LESS THAN A DAY!

QUOTE of the day

By comparing ourselves with the others will never make us any better. We can never achive happiness and satisfaction in life by doing it. Be true to ourselves.

midnight jog ---> morning walk

just came home from very very very early morning walk with Tiffany.

now all the lactic acid is gathered and reacting on my neck, shoulder and pelvis.

sticky.. sleepy..

Didn't sleep the whole night!! and i have exam tomorrow morning at 9am!

gosh! we r so crazeee!

me

It has been so long since I posted picture of me. nah! Ini dia! Aku! Me! i! gua! Sexy!! Lalalalla! Hahaha.. sorila tonight is seriously a very boring night. so unproductive! I need to do something!

ANyway this picture was taken at Little Penang Street Market, Penang.

31/1/2010 10.51am

what a boring night

Boring nite.

No excitement at all.

Seriously bored to death!
Boring to the MAX ah!

The whole Westlake is so quiet!

Everyone finished exam n cabut balik kampung.

Now I need entertainment.

No, I need to eat!

Hungry!

Some more just pangsai. Lausai la.

Aih..

One more paper to go this Saturday.

My classmates must be very tired after the paper tonight.

All also so quiet.

Duno cabut p mana.
Must be shitting or sleeping!

IM GONA GO WILD NOW!

HOW?!! DUNO! JUST GO WILD LA!

SCREAM! LET’s SCREAM WITH ME!

Hold On - Michael Buble

SONG of the day

People, listen to this nice song by my favourite singer, Buble! I’ve fell in love with this song. I guess it’ll stuck in my mind, keep playing in my laptop for the next few days. Thanks to the one who introduced this song to me.

Didn't they always say we were the lucky ones?
I guess that we were once
Babe, we were once

But luck will leave you cause
It is a faithless friend
And in the end when life has got you down
You've got someone here that you can wrap your arms around

So hold on to me tight
Hold on to me tonight
We are stronger here together
Than we could ever be alone
So hold on to me
Don't you ever let me go

There's a thousand ways for things to fall apart
But it's no one's fault
No it's not my fault

Maybe all the plans we made would not work out
But I have no doubt even though it's hard to see
I've got faith in us and I believe in you and me

So hold on to me tight
Hold on, I promise it'll be alright
Cause it's you and me together
And baby all we've got is time
So hold on to me, hold on to me tonight

There's so many dreams that we have given up
Take a look at all we've got
And with this kind of love
What we've got here is enough

So hold on to me tight
Hold on, I promise it'll be alright
Cause we are stronger here together
Then we could ever be alone
Just hold on to me
Don't you ever let me go
Hold on to me, it's gonna be alright
Hold on to me tonight
They always say we were the lucky ones

QUOTE of the day

To achieve happiness, we must learn n willing to let go.

happy 1st year anniversary and happy may13

Anniversary? What It means to you? What do you do for an anniversary? Anniversary usually a memorable day to be remembered and to be celebrated. It is always a happy occasion.

But anniversary doesn’t always meant for a good thing.

Today at this moment I’ll celebrate my first year anniversary for being single. =p

I became single on 13^th May 2009 1.35am. now it’s exactly one year. Im not being emo here ok. Just wana flash back.

It’s not that bad after all being single. From falling and rolling on the ground, I got back on my feet and I am here today.

Happy anniversary to everyone. Happy anniversary to Michelle Ooi and Lee Khai Keat. Happy anniversary to me to.

By the way happy May 13 as well.

I will remember this date forever.

Now continue studying! Woohooo!

Hafiz Hashim the saviour to semi-final

hehhehe! Malaysia is going to semi-final of Thomas Cup.

Go go Malaysia. love u la Hafiz Hashim!

results in http://oce-thephotojournalist.blogspot.com/2010/05/malaysia-into-semi-final-hafiz-saviour.html