aih.. i forgot the count already. i don't know how many times i have been telling and asking the same thing.
DON'T FORCE ME.
sabar la..
im not scolding anyone k. im not.
im just telling and asking for a small favor.
sabar.. slowly. ban ban lao.
friends always rush me for their photos.
okla u can be angry and pissed at me. it's ok. that's me. that's my style. u can scold me but don't push me.
this is my rules.
and hor, if u r my friends, sabar la. dun pushy pushy. later i fall into the drain how?!!
stress u noe...
But if u r my customer, different story la. hehehe. cuz u'll pay me ma. of cos u got more priority la.
or if the photos are so important, let say it's for your assignment or anything official, ok no problem. i rush it for you.
but if it's not, sorry naik lori la ye.
and one thing i fucking pissed is i give u people your photos d but you simply post as if you took that pictures yourself. APA ni! what the fuck la ok. now im angry! no manners ka. take my photos already give some credit la. so hard ka mau say 'photos taken by Oh Chin Eng?!' If so hard, don't ask from me la. FUCK OFF la. grrrhhh! tulan nia.
okok chill. fuh... jgn marah. nanti pimples pop pop pop.
back to the story. i love photography. but my life is not only about photography la. Don't expect me to sit in front of my laptop 24 hours to edit pictures, post pictures and send pictures. come on man. I have my own life also la.
My name is Chin Eng but im sipek boheng ok. i got other stuffs to do also what.
so hor people.. hehe. Let me kautim your photos d den i'll send it to you ok.
NEVER ask me to post it in FB.
NEVER ask me to email you.
kalau lu mau. kasi pendrive. easy n fast. u know la the photos so banyak and besar.
u won't die if you wait for a while right??
if u can't wait, don't ask me to take pictures la next time. i don't mind. im not a professional what.
that's all i wana say lo. if u can accept, accept lo. kenot den ur PROBLEM la! if u terasa oso ur PROBLEM la. but u dun angry la ye.. im not scolding anyone what. =p
anyway, i feel so sorry for a friend cuz i totally forgot to send her, her family photos since January. my fault. my salah.
mula-mula kita kena guna bahasa Melayu baku yang betul ye.
jangan malu kuku ku malu.
so lesson pertama of the day is...
jeng jeng jeng!
B-U-B-U
adik-adik tau tak apa itu bubu.
cuba teka.
TEKALA!
eee tergedik-gedik pulak.
aku sepak nanti!
bubu la!
bukan bucuk!
bukan bf la!
LEMBU kepala hotak hang!
apa ni pun taktau ka?
takpe Adeline WOk has the answer.
Menurut Professor Emeritus Adeline Wok The Aedes aka Pangsaicua, beliau merumuskan bahawa bubu itu adalah satu subjek di mana Bumi diliputi oleh 70% air dan manusia tidak boleh terbang kalau tiada sayap.
Tapi rumusan itu adalah andalah rumusan dan teori paling tak menarik pernah diilhamkan nya.
Teorinya yang paling popular adalah Teori Bubu.
Bubu stands for..
IBU! or LAOBU!
ingat ye Bukan lemBu, Bulan, mat saBu, Busuk, Buta, kelaBu, atau laBu.
itu sjaa kelas kita pada malam ini adik-adik.
semoga adik-adik tidak terkencing dalam seluar dan pangsai lah anda sebelum anda dipangsaikan.
sehingga itu, kita jumpa lagi pada masa dan tarikh yang akan ditetapkan.
kalau adik-adik tak faham, silalah bayar tuition fee.
untuk keterangan lanjut dan extra services, sila hubungan talian panas di 1194.
Crazeee!! Today is just the first day of new semester and im asking the question.
Damn boring weih! Boring gila2. sien ka boi si. Clueless. Don’t know what to do.
Me, Tiffany n Rachael are askingthe same question.
Tomorrow do what ah??
We just came back from playing computer games actually. This is my first time officially playing computer games in Kampar. im not a game by the way.
And by 12am only the whole Westlake is as quiet as dead town.
Apa ni!! UTAR students insaf already ka??
I myself never faced this situation before.
Last semester was busy for me.
What happened ah?
We should feel excited.
We should be happy.
We should be hyper.
But amma..
Sien leh.
Sumor me and my classmates had a bad start because of Communication Theories results. Sucks man! Unexpected! Unbelievable. And we can’t do anything to change it. It’s a big blow for us la.
First class was fun la. crazy lecturer. But now..
We need entertainment!
Now we need to plan what to do for tomorrow!!
I start to understand why people complain that Kampar is a damn boring town.
wahahah.
i think im sien bcoz i didn't on9 today.
n im sick. so sick.
dats y im boring and grumpy.
I feel like KAPUT already. KARAT on the first day.
today will be the first day of my Year 2 Semester 2 in UTAR Kampar.
my class at 2pm but im awake now.
zzz..
woah! semangat gila babi nak p lecture.
it's so damn hot here that's why i terbangun myself.
my flu is betting better.
but my stomach is still not ok. i still smelled petai in my mouth. stomach is still fulled of 2plates of rice and a plate of petai! smelly but sexy. ahhh... i love petai.
After 4hours drive, plus the jam all the way until Kampar, with the craziness of Edward…
Im back in Kampar.
But eeeeeeeeeew!! Arghhhhhhhhh!!
Damn it la cilaka babi! My house is so dirty especially my room! And I got a new roommate!! Khachui ah!
Ok let me tell you what is clean. The porch is clean. No more rubbish. My toilet is really clean but bulu everywhere.
My room is really dirty. I asked him, he swept the floor or not. He said yea. But you tell me why DIRTY?!! The staircase also hairy. Seriousla! If u tak caya, u mai tengok la. lai la!
Aih.. I thought I’ll have a nice roommate but manatau. He’ll gona get from me. nyeh nyeh nyeh! I warned him to clean the house before he moved in ok. grrrhhhhh! Dun make me tulan ooo. Im memang cerewet.
And you know ah?!! He slept on my bed!! Wat the shit!! Sleep on your own bed la. I know la my bed is nicer and smells nice.
Hahaha. He is gona kill me is he knows I shoot him. Bleeekkk! Wa suka! I just feel like cursing. =p
So what now.? As usual la! clean the room. Curse here and there. do laundry. blog. unload stuffs. Then sleep!
Damn! Im so sick right now. headache and running nose on the last day in Penang and first day in Kampar. I will follow u Panadol.
I have less than 12 hours from now. im going back to Kampar at 3pm tomorrow. I dun wana go back if it’s possible but I know I can’t. it’s ok im so mentally prepared and ready. Physically? No? I miss my sofa n tv. N I sprained my waist again. it’s so damn painful at the join between my hip and my right leg.
But it’s ok.
I had fun. This is one of the semester breaks I ever had. I’ve done what I wanted to do.
U noe.. im happy. im too happy. im still smiling right now. I met her. and I got her a birthday gift. Seeing her smile just swept away my stress and problems. Besides, I developed my grandpa’s birthday photos for him. I went to my grandma’s house although it’s raining. It never felt so good seeing my grandma’s smile. I had my second dinner there. and I got my money. After almost a year, I got my paid for a photoshoot. I took pictures for a group of students before.
Earlier in the day, i helped mum do cleaning. We laughed out loud. we helped each other. we sweat together. i enjoyed those moments.
Im satisfied. I thank God. I can go back to Kampar with no regrets.
But now before I sleep, i need to pack my stuffs. A LOT! And I need to clean up my messy room as well. Last breakfast tomorroe at Chowrasta Market. But some stuffs. Then, bye Penang
I have been sitting in front of my laptop the whole day, doing everything about photography.
Ok i cannot take it anymore.
No mor taking photos
No mor transfering of photos from camera
No more saving photos into external hardisk
No more editing
No more posting up photos
No more giving out photos to friends
Today will be a no photos day.
Im so tired of facing all the photos the whole day. I’ll only continue with all the 6 “No’s” after i go back to Kampar.
people, don't ask me anything about photography. don't ask me for photos. just don't mention the word. tq so much.
Now have to go out and develop birthday photos for grandpa. Then have to go so far to grandma’s hse to give them photos. I still need to buy stuffs back to Kampar. N i havent pack my beg yet. Room is so messy. Mum is nagging. Im going back to Kampar tomorrow. Arrrghhhh! Headache n sleepy. STress! I dun wanan go back yet.
i went to the students' portal around 12.20am. i got into the results page d. but i stucked there. cuz i dare not to scroll down the page to look at the grade.
yea chicken. im a chicken.
I was shivering. Heart pounding as if im running for marathon. Adenaline gushed up.
seriously i freak out. i takut. goosebumps!vthis is the semester where the subjects are so hard that you know you can fail!
im so nervous until i got stomachache again.
Then my good buddy, Nixon so kaypo, he helped me to get the results. i gave him my username and password. he log in n he saw my results.
luckily no D. he said he saw 'CANDIDACY TO CONTINUE'.
i was like woah!! that means i pass! i can continue with my next semester.
out of a sudden, he copy n paste my results on MSN.
CRAZEE FELLA! i wana look at the grades myself la. ayooo,. but anyway thx to him la.
Im happy im happy. results are not bad. im satisfy with what i get. not to say unhappy but okokla.
Thank God i didn't fail.
u noe.. u people. i mean we people always say we'll do better we'll do hard work harder next semester. but all lazy and kantoi. all cakap je but kenot do. PHUIIII!! cannot lidat la. mana boleh. if we want good grade, must show good attitude and work hard.
one thing surprised me. I got a D for Communication Theories. impossible lo. i can get a B. i know how to answer the questions leh. i got confident in that paper leh! my course works' mark is among the highest n it is very high. apa sudah jadi! farnee la. the one that we all expect will fail we get C. i got C. the one that i expect will get at least C become D.
anyway, im glad i can still continue with next semester. i am so thankful. i am truly grateful. My prayer has been answered. i know i did many bad things but He's still there. i thank God. im lucky this time. but luck wont always by my side if i don't work hard.
im sad as well. my friends results are quite bad. i feel like crying! arrrgh! few of my coursemates already thinking of quitting. i mean to withdraw from UTAR. please don't do it. my batch already lose 2 students last year. i don't wish to see friends leaving again.
just reached home. stomachache. don't care. i wana blog first.
ok let's recap what happened today.
overall, it was a superb day.
first, my results are out! but.. i haven't check yet. heheh. im scared. i am so freaking nervous. a lot of my friends don't get good results. what if i fail? habis koyak my mood later. hopfully i don't fail la. u see im so gila-gila now. later sure cry. sure KANTOI!
i went for a photoshoot today. im not the model la of course. for the first time ever, i officially take modelling photos. Jessica Neoh is the model. =p i tell u the whole process was damn fun n exciting. Nixon n Dexter were there as well. heheh JEss has to wait for few months for the pics. cuz im lazy to edit. n i'll be very busy for an event in uni this whole month. pics must slowslow edit n post. it's just like when u wana shit. mau berak kena slow n steady. baru best. baru syiok. baru sonng. i'll tell more about the photoshoot in another post.
my brother made spaghetty. fulamak. i tell u har. sedap!! delicious!! seriously it's so nice. better than my version. he's learning culinary art now n having training at Eastin Hotel. he wants to go oversea. good! GO! go wherever u want. get as much money as you want. after u become successful then only you come back!
then at night me n sister went for Wesak Day's procession. everywhere was so jamn. thousand of people from all over Malaysia and the world came. Penang is one of the main hub for all religious festivals in Malaysia i would say. people here just live in harmony. we are brothers and sisters. i was asked to be on duty as a Red Crescent first aider but kenot la. i need to take pic, pray and be with my sister. being there at the procession, i just felt so calm. so relieved. so close to God. i feel safe. i missed the procession last year because i was in Kampar. im glad i didn't go for a camp in KL n i stay in Penang. I love Penang so much. so so much!
after the procession, MAKAN! i had ais kacang with ice-cream, hokkien mee, char keow teow and kopi peng. awesome. wonderful meal before i go back to Kampar.
arrrghhh! skait perut again!! ok bye gtg. tak boleh tahan d. arrghh! i wana go shit shit d. Shit gona bom out soon! den mandi. den check my results. then bang my head to the wall n sumbat my head into the jamban.
Back in Penang, it’s still that hot but cooler than Penang. I have air-conds at home but I used it once only. Im lazy. Im not the air-cond type of people.
But few seconds ago I asked me sister to on the air-cond because It’s so hot n im tired. I just came back from a photo shoot.
Me: Poh Sim, on the air-cond la. so hot la.
Sister: air-cond, air-cond! The Earth is dying already. You still want air-cond, air cond.
Me: huh?!!
Wat the!! My sister give lecture! God tolong! She’s just Standard 4 but matured d. she’s knowledgable and socially conscious. I know I should be happy and proud. But.. this is too fast n shocking.
I just reached home from a productive meeting with friends for a big event in my uni.
Anyway, Dad is home this afternoon.
I think Im the happiest son in the world today. My dad is home! I managed to see him before I go back to my university. =p
Yesh!
I’ve not been seeing him for a week.
He’s not at home. He works at Bukit Merah. He’s building a big aquarium there in a former paddy field for my uncle. A lot of people are now turning lands there into an aquarium for expensive fishes.
I helped him before early January before semester 1 started. I tell you, it’s not a job that you wana do. You have to work under t he hot sun for a long hour.
When I reached Penang on Sunday 16/5/2010 dad was at home. I wanted to follow him to the construction site the next day but I forgot to tell him and he left house early morning. =p
Then he came back on Friday 21/5/2010. I was so joyful because I know on Monday I can follow him to work. I wana work for him. I just wana help him la. but manatau the next day he went back to Bukit Merah till today. Aduih..
My dad works everyday. Yes. Sunday as well. As a contractor he needs to finish his job in a short time. This is to safe cost and to satisfy the customers.
I think he’s taking a day off tomorrow because tomorrow is Wesak Day.
Im so Sleepy but I must not sleep. There’s a very important thing to do.
Suddenly i thought of this. SOmeone taught me this before and until today I still can't say it smoothly. haha. She used to bully me cuz she's terror in this tongue twister. i wonder whether she still remember this.
From left to right: Nixon Lai Chia Huey, Teoh Chee Leng, Liam Kah Hoe, Shaun Loh Mun hon, Neoh Eng Huat, Oh Chin Eng, Lee Chun Soon.
It’s a big reunion. Finally after being separated for 5 years, we are here again, sitting altogether 7 of us. The last time we used to study together was in SMK Hutchings when we were in Form 5. After Form 5, some went to Form 6 and some went to college. We called ourselves Marvellous 7 because there are 7 of us and we were the most active students back in our batch. And 7 of us were school prefects.
Don't love someone if you can't commit yourself. Love fades and break up? Then do you divorce if love fades? To love someone is to commit yourself and put your partner above everything else.
Good morning! Woah! I wokeup before my alarm rings at 6am. =p
Finally my dream comes true. Im going for hiking later. 3 buddies joining me: Dexter, Nixon and Kah Hoe. We are going to Bukit Laksamana, the longest trail in Penang. =p
Lalalalaa..
The journey is gona be tough. Very tough. I think it will be the longest jungle trekking trail I ever done.
We’ll start our hike from Taman Rimba Teluk Bahang and ends at Botanical Garden. We’ll pass Penang Hill on our way.
The distance between these two locations are very far. No bus will go to this places.
So our initial plan was we go by bike. 4 bikes. We’ll meet at Botanical Garden. Park 2 bikes there. then 4 of us on 2 bikes to Teluk Bahang. After we finish our hike at Botanical Garden, we can go to Teluk Bahang to get our bikes with the 2 bikes there.
But PROBLEM!!
Helmet! We don’t have helmet at Botanical Garden. Thanks to cilaka Nixon n Dexter for calling me bodoh. They are the smart ass! They brough this up.
So my solution. Nixon will drive. 3 of use will use bike. we’ll meet up at 7.30am later at Botanical Garden. Nixon will park her car there and we’ll use bike to Teluk Bahang. So when we finish our hiking, we’ll have car waiting at Botanical Garden and we can go and get our bikes.
Good planning. =p
I must thank them for joining me in this hiking trip. Susah mau pujuk la. You know la hiking is tiring. Have to wake up so early. Etc.
Right now my stomach still not ok. I lausai last night. now still feel like shitting. Arrghh! I don’t wana shit in the jungle later.
Hopefully we won’t get sesat later la.. if sesat taktau la. our handphones ran out of credit.
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream
When I want you in my arms
When I want you and all your charms
Whenever I want you, all I have to do is
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream
When I feel blue in the night
And I need you to hold me tight
Whenever I want you, all I have to do is
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam
I can make you mine, taste your lips of wine
Anytime night or day
Only trouble is, gee whiz
I'm dreamin' my life away
I need you so that I could die
I love you so and that is why
Whenever I want you, all I have to do is
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam
I can make you mine, taste your lips of wine
Anytime night or day
Only trouble is, gee whiz
I'm dreamin' my life away
I need you so that I could die
I love you so and that is why
Whenever I want you, all I have to do is
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream
Dilemma is a situation where we are being undecided.
Dilemma is when you are having a hard to time to choose between 2 or more options.
We are leaders. Because we make a lot of decisions a day.
But it’s not easy to make a decision.
Most of the time we are stuck. A decision that seems to be so easy may not be that easy.
I know why.
The reason is because we are fear. We are afraid of the consequences.
I hate being in the state of dilemma. It’s so stressful. Being undecided is so torturing.
what would you do if you are facing dilemma?
If im in dilemma, I need to talk to someone. I need to let it out. Then I need response.
When I used to have girlfriend, she’s the one that I always turned to. She was my loyal listener.
But now im single. Who to talk to? Friends?
Some will talk to their best friends. But who are my best friends? I have very very close and good friends. But not everything is easy to tell someone.
A reminder for myself again. Don’t reveal so many things. Keep the thoughts to yourself. Sometimes the more you say the more mistakes you make. Happiness should be shared around. But our feelings, just keep it inside. People are bias. Everyone is bias. When you say something. People who nod their head doesn’t mean they agree. Some will give you cynical look. Some will shoot you back after some time. Some will use what you have said to attack you personally. Some will feel that you are bullshitting.
I realised that it’s not a good thing to be so expressive.
Expressions are our personality. It’s hard to change but it is possible. To express is a way to let go a burden. It is also a way to share our happiness. But expressions can be misinterpreted and misunderstood.
Certain thing doesn’t have to be said. It is meant to be feel.
It’s ok if people don’t accept your opinion. But you must stand for yourself. You must stay firm on your decision. You must uphold your principles no matter what happens.
Family, friends, partner and people who understand you will know what is in your mind without you saying it.
A good listener is someone who will listen with heart and without being judgemental.
Damn sleepy right now. SLept at 4.30am n mum called at 6.26am to wake me up. But i slept again till 6.45am.
Sister woke up so fast. No hanky panky no merengek merajuk. The waking up process was so smooth. She brushed her teeth. Sometimes she didn't. haha. I prepared breakfast for her. Combed her hair. Gave her RM2.
I remember it was so hard to wake her up back then. Then all of us will be late to school n i went to school with grumpy and sour face. Stress gila.
The last time i fetched her and my brother to school was in 2007 when i was still schooling in Form 6.
WHen im back in Penang, i'll pick her up from school when mum is busy.
It feels so nice to be a brother again, sending and picking up my sister from school. =p
What if one day both of our parents are not with us anymore? what you gona do? What am I going to do? Im still young. Im still studying n not in Penang. Who’s gona take care of my brother and my little sister?
I’ve always taken my parents for granted. I didn’t do enough for my family yet. My parents have been very tiring and struggling all this while in making sure we got enough food to eat, clothes to wear, leisure, basic needs and education.
I haven’t repay them. I need to. I want to.
An old lady told me seomthing today. She reminds me to always be nice to our parents. Appreciate them. respect them.
It’s true you know. No matter how rich you are, how smart u are or how loving you are to your friends and partner, parents are still the most loyal, most loving, most caring, closest and the persons that sacrificed the most in our life from the moment we are created. When the whole world turns down on you, parents are always there. no matter how hard our life is, they never complain, never neglect us, not a second.
Why im so sentimental tonight??
Cuz both my parents not at home tonight. Both of them are away. Away at different places for different reasons. And Im taking care of my sister for tonight and tomorrow. I just put her into sleep. Oni 3 of us, my brother, my sister n me at home tonight.
I feel kind of lonely tonight without my mum’s nagging and without my dad’s snoring.
Human nature huh? When we have something, we tend to less appreciate it. We tend to less think of the importance of it. But now when something is not there, we feel the lost. We feel the emptiness.
Im bad, im sucks in relationships. I don’t know how to express my love in the correct way. Sometimes I just hide my feelings. Im a failure. Im sucks in love. I’ve failed to show my love to my mum, to my dad.
I want them to know I love them. I really do. They are the best parents in the world. They are the best. Im sorry for being a naughty and not-so-obident son.
And I've seen the promised land. I may not get there with you. But i want you to know tonight, that we, as a people, will get to the promised land. And I am happy tonight. I'm not worried about anything. I'm not fearing any man. Mine eyes have seen the glory of the coming of the Lord.
First of all, thank you Kow Kwan Yee, gua mia senior for taking this photo. Secondly, fuyooo this picture is nice. Thirdly i love this picture!!
Seriously this is a good photo. Why? Ok cuz i look good. And the model, ahem, so natural. I just love the feeling of this photo. It's like.. So warm.. So friendly.. So sweet. SO vintage. I fall in love with my own smile lah!
It's like some Apek Cina just arrived in the tongkang. haha!
ei, I think im quite handsome also la hor in the photo.
wahahahah! im gona stare at this photo the whole night!
I love the photographer la for taking this lovely picture of this loving man.
My sister is getting taller. Her head is reaching my neck. Tall but still skinny.
She’s talented. She’s good. If you come to my house, you’ll see all her trophies. She purposely display it in the hall. Haha.
She always draw. Im not sure whether she loves it or not but she has been doing it since small. She won quite a number of art competition.
Sometimes I pity her. Her weekends always packed with activitied. Like last Sunday. She woke up early morning for tuition at 8am, then rush for a drawing comepetition and dancing class at 1pm. I don’t know how she can cope with all this.
I wana spend time with her. bring her out for a movie, go for a good wlak with her at the Botanical Garden or fly kite with her. but sometimes I just don’t have the time. Then I’ll feel bad and blame myself for not spending enough time with her.
She’s quite smart. Exam: she’s always in Top 5 in the class and Top 10 in the whole standard. Like wow!!
But she never want to study. I ask her to study, she plays games, watches TV. Waleuh. I ask until bolat d.
Oh ya! She just washed all the dishes. I asked her my mum ask her to do that is it? She said no. *bows*
3 nights ago she taught me ABC. A for alamak. B is for Behtahan! Fulamak! *faints* I duno who taught her that.
Last night, she asked me something that she’ll never get the answer from me. it’s about love. In my family, we seldom n we are not open to discuss about this. It’s hard to change t his culture.
Sister: Takke (big brother), do you have a girlfriend?
Me: No.
Sister: Why no leh?
Me: Why must I have one?
Sister: Why must not you have one?
Sister: you know ah? In the drama, they always say ladies must get married by 30 years old. Then how old do you wana get married?
Me: I don’t know.
See.. that’s my sister. She’s matured d la. Nak akil baligh d. When we went to Thailand, she read newspapers in the hotel instead of following me n my mum out for shopping! Then we were having dinner, we saw a lady begging for money. My sister complained!!
She said, “aiyo why this lady wear so nice, got hands got hands but wana beg for money?”
Me n my mum just kept quiet. Haha.
Sometimes she’ll ask me about her. I’ll just keep quiet. I don’t know what should I say. I just hope my silence will make my sister forget about her like how I’m doing now. My sister misses her a lot.. a lot.. a lot.. I miss her very, very, very much too..
Ok I wana go out with my sister now to fly the kite. Something that we never do before. It’s also one of the things that I wanted to do my the one I love but I never have the chance to do so.
