Instead, I made it few months ago, in 2010.
If I ever persevere, stick to my principle, all these wouldn’t happen.
I never wanted UTAR Ball. NEVER! UTAR Ball, ball night, events, entertainment, girls, party are never in my mind. That’s not the reason why I joined SRC.
My biggest mistake was I accepted explanation and persuasion from Dr Teh and support and agreement from my own committee.
It was a mistake. It is a mistake.
It’s all my fault. I’m a weak leader.
This is the biggest defeat in my life.
Yes we managed to pull it through. We have to change the venue from Tambun Lost World to Kampar Club. Majority of the people who came were extremely happy. They were partying crazily, screaming, and enjoying themselves to the max. They were laughing all the way and it’s a good thing because that’s the point of continuing this event.
While they were enjoying themselves, I was standing there at one corner, looking at them while my mind at somewhere else, thinking, cracking my head on how to solve the financial problem.
I am totally not feeling happy. People are laughing happily but my tears are flowing, heart aches bitterly to the max.
Fingers will soon be pointing to one direction, to me.
I just hope that miracles will happen.
I just hope that I won’t be alone.
Actually why am I so sad? Yea I already made a big mistake by allowing this event to takes place ever since from January 2011. But I’m even more sad when there’s trouble, everyone is running away. Many people are quitting. Many fingers are pointing to me and I’m talking about my own committee members!
Like Hong Leong said, the lesson is I must be firm. I must dare to make my decision as a chairman and all will have to follow my words.
Yea it’s ideally that way but in reality, that scenario can never happened in the team.
Throughout the whole event, I got to see more of the real faces of people. Some people have their wn agenda. Some people are taking advantage of the networks, financial, friends, girls, reputation etc.
And some, they really put their heart and mind into making this event a success. In this group of people, those who really worked as I observed, are the innocent ones.
I thought after tonight, I’ll be free but no. There are damages that have to be repaired. There are messes to be cleared. There are debts to be paid.
Despites all the obstacles and problems we faced, we made it happened. I must thank all the committee members, helpers, sponsors, performers, university, Sahara, Kampar Club, participants and friends. Thanks a lot.
Thanks to the 4 committee members and 6 helpers who stayed back till the end, till midnight to clean up. Thanks to the girl who said this to me, “May God bless you.”
Thank you. Yea I know the god has been blessing me and I don’t ask for anything more. Hope you guys will be blessed as well.
I am gona silent my phone and sleep till God knows what’s the time. I’m not gona pick up any calls or reply any sms-es.
I..made the biggest mistake in my life.
*It’s easy to avoid responsibility than to bear responsibility.