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Monday, 31 May 2010

first day of uni

wake up wake up!


it's the first day of school.

not primary or secondary school la.

it's the undergraduate school.

university la.


today will be the first day of my Year 2 Semester 2 in UTAR Kampar.

my class at 2pm but im awake now.


woah! semangat gila babi nak p lecture.

it's so damn hot here that's why i terbangun myself.

my flu is betting better.

but my stomach is still not ok. i still smelled petai in my mouth. stomach is still fulled of 2plates of rice and a plate of petai! smelly but sexy. ahhh... i love petai.

wa ka lu kong hor im so excited right now.


ok i wana go get newspaper then sleep again.

have a nice day people!

don't forget to shit!

Kata-kata Hikmat

Ada kalanya kita kena berhenti seketika dan menoleh ke belakang sebelum meneruskan perjalanan hidup..

Sunday, 30 May 2010

back to my dirty house

After 4hours drive, plus the jam all the way until Kampar, with the craziness of Edward…

Im back in Kampar.

But eeeeeeeeeew!! Arghhhhhhhhh!!

Damn it la cilaka babi! My house is so dirty especially my room! And I got a new roommate!! Khachui ah!

Ok let me tell you what is clean. The porch is clean. No more rubbish. My toilet is really clean but bulu everywhere.

My room is really dirty. I asked him, he swept the floor or not. He said yea. But you tell me why DIRTY?!! The staircase also hairy. Seriousla! If u tak caya, u mai tengok la. lai la!

Aih.. I thought I’ll have a nice roommate but manatau. He’ll gona get from me. nyeh nyeh nyeh! I warned him to clean the house before he moved in ok. grrrhhhhh! Dun make me tulan ooo. Im memang cerewet.

And you know ah?!! He slept on my bed!! Wat the shit!! Sleep on your own bed la. I know la my bed is nicer and smells nice.

Hahaha. He is gona kill me is he knows I shoot him. Bleeekkk! Wa suka! I just feel like cursing. =p

So what now.? As usual la! clean the room. Curse here and there. do laundry. blog. unload stuffs. Then sleep!

Damn! Im so sick right now. headache and running nose on the last day in Penang and first day in Kampar. I will follow u Panadol.

By the way, thanks Edward for the car pool.

im ready to say bye to Penang

I have less than 12 hours from now. im going back to Kampar at 3pm tomorrow. I dun wana go back if it’s possible but I know I can’t. it’s ok im so mentally prepared and ready. Physically? No? I miss my sofa n tv. N I sprained my waist again. it’s so damn painful at the join between my hip and my right leg.

But it’s ok.

I had fun. This is one of the semester breaks I ever had. I’ve done what I wanted to do.

U noe.. im happy. im too happy. im still smiling right now. I met her. and I got her a birthday gift. Seeing her smile just swept away my stress and problems. Besides, I developed my grandpa’s birthday photos for him. I went to my grandma’s house although it’s raining. It never felt so good seeing my grandma’s smile. I had my second dinner there. and I got my money. After almost a year, I got my paid for a photoshoot. I took pictures for a group of students before.

Earlier in the day, i helped mum do cleaning. We laughed out loud. we helped each other. we sweat together. i enjoyed those moments.

Im satisfied. I thank God. I can go back to Kampar with no regrets.

But now before I sleep, i need to pack my stuffs. A LOT! And I need to clean up my messy room as well. Last breakfast tomorroe at Chowrasta Market. But some stuffs. Then, bye Penang

Saturday, 29 May 2010

no more photos for today!

Time is seriously running out.

I have been sitting in front of my laptop the whole day, doing everything about photography.

Ok i cannot take it anymore.

No mor taking photos
No mor transfering of photos from camera
No more saving photos into external hardisk
No more editing
No more posting up photos
No more giving out photos to friends

Today will be a no photos day.

Im so tired of facing all the photos the whole day. I’ll only continue with all the 6 “No’s” after i go back to Kampar.

people, don't ask me anything about photography. don't ask me for photos. just don't mention the word. tq so much.

Now have to go out and develop birthday photos for grandpa. Then have to go so far to grandma’s hse to give them photos. I still need to buy stuffs back to Kampar. N i havent pack my beg yet. Room is so messy. Mum is nagging. Im going back to Kampar tomorrow. Arrrghhhh! Headache n sleepy. STress! I dun wanan go back yet.

Wana off9 d. Bye.

sing with me

good morning people.

let's go have breakfast.

but before that..

Come sing this together.

“Marilah, mari. Mari ke jamban. Tunaikanlah kewajipan, pada Indah Water.”

chicken getting results

finally i checkped my exam's results just now.

i went to the students' portal around 12.20am. i got into the results page d. but i stucked there. cuz i dare not to scroll down the page to look at the grade.

yea chicken. im a chicken.

I was shivering. Heart pounding as if im running for marathon. Adenaline gushed up.

seriously i freak out. i takut. goosebumps!vthis is the semester where the subjects are so hard that you know you can fail!

im so nervous until i got stomachache again.

Then my good buddy, Nixon so kaypo, he helped me to get the results. i gave him my username and password. he log in n he saw my results.

luckily no D. he said he saw 'CANDIDACY TO CONTINUE'.

i was like woah!! that means i pass! i can continue with my next semester.

out of a sudden, he copy n paste my results on MSN.

CRAZEE FELLA! i wana look at the grades myself la. ayooo,. but anyway thx to him la.

Im happy im happy. results are not bad. im satisfy with what i get. not to say unhappy but okokla.

Thank God i didn't fail.

u noe.. u people. i mean we people always say we'll do better we'll do hard work harder next semester. but all lazy and kantoi. all cakap je but kenot do. PHUIIII!! cannot lidat la. mana boleh. if we want good grade, must show good attitude and work hard.

one thing surprised me. I got a D for Communication Theories. impossible lo. i can get a B. i know how to answer the questions leh. i got confident in that paper leh! my course works' mark is among the highest n it is very high. apa sudah jadi! farnee la. the one that we all expect will fail we get C. i got C. the one that i expect will get at least C become D.

anyway, im glad i can still continue with next semester. i am so thankful. i am truly grateful. My prayer has been answered. i know i did many bad things but He's still there. i thank God. im lucky this time. but luck wont always by my side if i don't work hard.

im sad as well. my friends results are quite bad. i feel like crying! arrrgh! few of my coursemates already thinking of quitting. i mean to withdraw from UTAR. please don't do it. my batch already lose 2 students last year. i don't wish to see friends leaving again.

Friday, 28 May 2010

a good wesak day

just reached home. stomachache. don't care. i wana blog first.

ok let's recap what happened today.

overall, it was a superb day.

first, my results are out! but.. i haven't check yet. heheh. im scared. i am so freaking nervous. a lot of my friends don't get good results. what if i fail? habis koyak my mood later. hopfully i don't fail la. u see im so gila-gila now. later sure cry. sure KANTOI!

i went for a photoshoot today. im not the model la of course. for the first time ever, i officially take modelling photos. Jessica Neoh is the model. =p i tell u the whole process was damn fun n exciting. Nixon n Dexter were there as well. heheh JEss has to wait for few months for the pics. cuz im lazy to edit. n i'll be very busy for an event in uni this whole month. pics must slowslow edit n post. it's just like when u wana shit. mau berak kena slow n steady. baru best. baru syiok. baru sonng. i'll tell more about the photoshoot in another post.

my brother made spaghetty. fulamak. i tell u har. sedap!! delicious!! seriously it's so nice. better than my version. he's learning culinary art now n having training at Eastin Hotel. he wants to go oversea. good! GO! go wherever u want. get as much money as you want. after u become successful then only you come back!

then at night me n sister went for Wesak Day's procession. everywhere was so jamn. thousand of people from all over Malaysia and the world came. Penang is one of the main hub for all religious festivals in Malaysia i would say. people here just live in harmony. we are brothers and sisters. i was asked to be on duty as a Red Crescent first aider but kenot la. i need to take pic, pray and be with my sister. being there at the procession, i just felt so calm. so relieved. so close to God. i feel safe. i missed the procession last year because i was in Kampar. im glad i didn't go for a camp in KL n i stay in Penang. I love Penang so much. so so much!

after the procession, MAKAN! i had ais kacang with ice-cream, hokkien mee, char keow teow and kopi peng. awesome. wonderful meal before i go back to Kampar.

arrrghhh! skait perut again!! ok bye gtg. tak boleh tahan d. arrghh! i wana go shit shit d. Shit gona bom out soon! den mandi. den check my results. then bang my head to the wall n sumbat my head into the jamban.

lecture from my sister

Back in Penang, it’s still that hot but cooler than Penang. I have air-conds at home but I used it once only. Im lazy. Im not the air-cond type of people.

But few seconds ago I asked me sister to on the air-cond because It’s so hot n im tired. I just came back from a photo shoot.

Me: Poh Sim, on the air-cond la. so hot la.

Sister: air-cond, air-cond! The Earth is dying already. You still want air-cond, air cond.

Me: huh?!!

Wat the!! My sister give lecture! God tolong! She’s just Standard 4 but matured d. she’s knowledgable and socially conscious. I know I should be happy and proud. But.. this is too fast n shocking.

happy wesak day

This year will be the 2554th Wesak.

Im glad im still in Penang.

Me n Wesak always associate with Penang.

I never missed Wesak celebration in my life in Penang except for last year.

God's willing, i hope this year's Wesak will be a good Wesak for me.

i hope it'll be a turning point in my life.

i take this Wesak as a cleansing day for me.

to flush away all my sins and bad things.

and to be a better man.

'Throw away bad things, do good things, get blessings.'

i wish everyone will be well, happy and blessed.

happy wesak day to all.

dad is home

I just reached home from a productive meeting with friends for a big event in my uni.

Anyway, Dad is home this afternoon.

I think Im the happiest son in the world today. My dad is home! I managed to see him before I go back to my university. =p


I’ve not been seeing him for a week.

He’s not at home. He works at Bukit Merah. He’s building a big aquarium there in a former paddy field for my uncle. A lot of people are now turning lands there into an aquarium for expensive fishes.

I helped him before early January before semester 1 started. I tell you, it’s not a job that you wana do. You have to work under t he hot sun for a long hour.

When I reached Penang on Sunday 16/5/2010 dad was at home. I wanted to follow him to the construction site the next day but I forgot to tell him and he left house early morning. =p

Then he came back on Friday 21/5/2010. I was so joyful because I know on Monday I can follow him to work. I wana work for him. I just wana help him la. but manatau the next day he went back to Bukit Merah till today. Aduih..

My dad works everyday. Yes. Sunday as well. As a contractor he needs to finish his job in a short time. This is to safe cost and to satisfy the customers.

I think he’s taking a day off tomorrow because tomorrow is Wesak Day.

Im so Sleepy but I must not sleep. There’s a very important thing to do.

Thursday, 27 May 2010

don't lock and shit

u noe..

when you shit, of course you must lock the toilet's door but not the master bedroom's door.

my sister was having his lunch.

suddenly she had stomachache.

so she went to shit before she finish her meal.

she used the master bedroom's toilet and she locked the room.

suddenly my mum's phone rang n the phone is in the room.


mum mum was banging the door.

forced my sister to open up the door.

but my sister was shitting half way.

hahaha. this is hilarious.

i don't know how my sister going to open the door while shitting.

at the end my mum got her handphone.

i think my sister opened teh room's door quickly and rushed back to the jamban before my mum went into the room to get her handphone.

hahaha. so people.

don't lock the master bedroom because you migth have to pause your shiting and that is not satisfactory moment of shitting,

Kata-kata Hikmat

Bukan senang untuk senang. Bukan susah untuk susah.

screaming for ice cream

"You scream i scream we scream for ice-cream."

Suddenly i thought of this. SOmeone taught me this before and until today I still can't say it smoothly. haha. She used to bully me cuz she's terror in this tongue twister. i wonder whether she still remember this.

Wednesday, 26 May 2010


Out of sudden, i just feel like crying.

what the heck right?!

no exact reasons for that ok.

Everything seems so wrong tonight.

Mood swings drastically.

Im so moody the whole night.

my heart just don't feel good.

and i don't know why.

tears just feel like pouring.

I don't feel like talking to anyone now..

I need nobody.

I don't need a listener!

I just wana stay alone until i go back Kampar.

Marvellous 7 Reunion

From left to right: Nixon Lai Chia Huey, Teoh Chee Leng, Liam Kah Hoe, Shaun Loh Mun hon, Neoh Eng Huat, Oh Chin Eng, Lee Chun Soon.

It’s a big reunion. Finally after being separated for 5 years, we are here again, sitting altogether 7 of us. The last time we used to study together was in SMK Hutchings when we were in Form 5. After Form 5, some went to Form 6 and some went to college. We called ourselves Marvellous 7 because there are 7 of us and we were the most active students back in our batch. And 7 of us were school prefects.

*Photo taken by Chun Soon's gf.

QUOTE of the day

Don't love someone if you can't commit yourself. Love fades and break up? Then do you divorce if love fades? To love someone is to commit yourself and put your partner above everything else.

Bukit Laksamana here we come

Good morning! Woah! I wokeup before my alarm rings at 6am. =p

Finally my dream comes true. Im going for hiking later. 3 buddies joining me: Dexter, Nixon and Kah Hoe. We are going to Bukit Laksamana, the longest trail in Penang. =p


The journey is gona be tough. Very tough. I think it will be the longest jungle trekking trail I ever done.

We’ll start our hike from Taman Rimba Teluk Bahang and ends at Botanical Garden. We’ll pass Penang Hill on our way.

The distance between these two locations are very far. No bus will go to this places.

So our initial plan was we go by bike. 4 bikes. We’ll meet at Botanical Garden. Park 2 bikes there. then 4 of us on 2 bikes to Teluk Bahang. After we finish our hike at Botanical Garden, we can go to Teluk Bahang to get our bikes with the 2 bikes there.


Helmet! We don’t have helmet at Botanical Garden. Thanks to cilaka Nixon n Dexter for calling me bodoh. They are the smart ass! They brough this up.

So my solution. Nixon will drive. 3 of use will use bike. we’ll meet up at 7.30am later at Botanical Garden. Nixon will park her car there and we’ll use bike to Teluk Bahang. So when we finish our hiking, we’ll have car waiting at Botanical Garden and we can go and get our bikes.

Good planning. =p

I must thank them for joining me in this hiking trip. Susah mau pujuk la. You know la hiking is tiring. Have to wake up so early. Etc.

Right now my stomach still not ok. I lausai last night. now still feel like shitting. Arrghh! I don’t wana shit in the jungle later.

Hopefully we won’t get sesat later la.. if sesat taktau la. our handphones ran out of credit.

All I Have To Do Is Dream - The Everly Brothers

Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream
When I want you in my arms
When I want you and all your charms
Whenever I want you, all I have to do is
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream

When I feel blue in the night
And I need you to hold me tight
Whenever I want you, all I have to do is

I can make you mine, taste your lips of wine
Anytime night or day
Only trouble is, gee whiz
I'm dreamin' my life away

I need you so that I could die
I love you so and that is why
Whenever I want you, all I have to do is
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream

I can make you mine, taste your lips of wine
Anytime night or day
Only trouble is, gee whiz
I'm dreamin' my life away

I need you so that I could die
I love you so and that is why
Whenever I want you, all I have to do is
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream

Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream

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dream dream dream.. i wish everyone a sweet dream tonight. tomorrow will be a another beautiful day. =p

Please no Freddy from ‘The Nightmare at Elm Street’. Tq.

Gona sleep now. Good night. Tata.

Tuesday, 25 May 2010

are you in dilemma?


Who of you here never face dilemma?

Dilemma is a situation where we are being undecided.

Dilemma is when you are having a hard to time to choose between 2 or more options.

We are leaders. Because we make a lot of decisions a day.

But it’s not easy to make a decision.

Most of the time we are stuck. A decision that seems to be so easy may not be that easy.

I know why.

The reason is because we are fear. We are afraid of the consequences.

I hate being in the state of dilemma. It’s so stressful. Being undecided is so torturing.

what would you do if you are facing dilemma?

If im in dilemma, I need to talk to someone. I need to let it out. Then I need response.

When I used to have girlfriend, she’s the one that I always turned to. She was my loyal listener.

But now im single. Who to talk to? Friends?

Some will talk to their best friends. But who are my best friends? I have very very close and good friends. But not everything is easy to tell someone.

Any good listener out there?

I am one.

a reminder again..

A reminder for myself again. Don’t reveal so many things. Keep the thoughts to yourself. Sometimes the more you say the more mistakes you make. Happiness should be shared around. But our feelings, just keep it inside. People are bias. Everyone is bias. When you say something. People who nod their head doesn’t mean they agree. Some will give you cynical look. Some will shoot you back after some time. Some will use what you have said to attack you personally. Some will feel that you are bullshitting.

I realised that it’s not a good thing to be so expressive.

Expressions are our personality. It’s hard to change but it is possible. To express is a way to let go a burden. It is also a way to share our happiness. But expressions can be misinterpreted and misunderstood.

Certain thing doesn’t have to be said. It is meant to be feel.

It’s ok if people don’t accept your opinion. But you must stand for yourself. You must stay firm on your decision. You must uphold your principles no matter what happens.

Family, friends, partner and people who understand you will know what is in your mind without you saying it.

A good listener is someone who will listen with heart and without being judgemental.

Monday, 24 May 2010

say & do or do & say

We do when we don't say but we say when we don't do.

We say but we don't do, we do but we don't say.


You just do what you said la.

If you don't say anything also you must do what your heart says.

Or you do then only you say lo.


say and do or do and say??

moves on


I've made up my mind.

After floating no where in the air, single, alone and sad for 1 year 11 days and 18 hours..

im gona say bye bye to the past now..

at 6.35pm Monday 24/5/2010.

I determine and seriously serious in what i want to do.

I know i might change my mind. I know i might look back. I know i might reminisce. I know i might get emo again.

But.. Im taking my first step now.

My journey is still far away.

Why must i torture myself and ruin my life?

Im tired of walking with someone who's not there anymore.

The fight in this struggle is no longer meaningful.

It's not worth it anymore.

When you can't change the situation, you either take it or leave it.

I chose the second option.

You don't have to live in someone's shadow.

You own your own life.

And I have nothing to regret.

Because i had the most fastastically beautiful sweet loving love story before, at least for me.


Im moving on.

I am.

QUOTE of the day

'All the world's a stage, And all the men and women merely players.'

~ William Shakespere

it's nice to send my sister to school

Good morning.

AT this time, my sister is already in school.

I just sent her there.

Damn sleepy right now. SLept at 4.30am n mum called at 6.26am to wake me up. But i slept again till 6.45am.

Sister woke up so fast. No hanky panky no merengek merajuk. The waking up process was so smooth. She brushed her teeth. Sometimes she didn't. haha. I prepared breakfast for her. Combed her hair. Gave her RM2.

I remember it was so hard to wake her up back then. Then all of us will be late to school n i went to school with grumpy and sour face. Stress gila.

The last time i fetched her and my brother to school was in 2007 when i was still schooling in Form 6.

WHen im back in Penang, i'll pick her up from school when mum is busy.

It feels so nice to be a brother again, sending and picking up my sister from school. =p

ok i wana get back to sleep people.

Good night.

tonight without parents

What if one day both of our parents are not with us anymore? what you gona do? What am I going to do? Im still young. Im still studying n not in Penang. Who’s gona take care of my brother and my little sister?

I’ve always taken my parents for granted. I didn’t do enough for my family yet. My parents have been very tiring and struggling all this while in making sure we got enough food to eat, clothes to wear, leisure, basic needs and education.

I haven’t repay them. I need to. I want to.

An old lady told me seomthing today. She reminds me to always be nice to our parents. Appreciate them. respect them.

It’s true you know. No matter how rich you are, how smart u are or how loving you are to your friends and partner, parents are still the most loyal, most loving, most caring, closest and the persons that sacrificed the most in our life from the moment we are created. When the whole world turns down on you, parents are always there. no matter how hard our life is, they never complain, never neglect us, not a second.

Why im so sentimental tonight??

Cuz both my parents not at home tonight. Both of them are away. Away at different places for different reasons. And Im taking care of my sister for tonight and tomorrow. I just put her into sleep. Oni 3 of us, my brother, my sister n me at home tonight.

I feel kind of lonely tonight without my mum’s nagging and without my dad’s snoring.

Human nature huh? When we have something, we tend to less appreciate it. We tend to less think of the importance of it. But now when something is not there, we feel the lost. We feel the emptiness.

Im bad, im sucks in relationships. I don’t know how to express my love in the correct way. Sometimes I just hide my feelings. Im a failure. Im sucks in love. I’ve failed to show my love to my mum, to my dad.

I want them to know I love them. I really do. They are the best parents in the world. They are the best. Im sorry for being a naughty and not-so-obident son.



Sunday, 23 May 2010

Martin Luther King says...

And I've seen the promised land. I may not get there with you. But i want you to know tonight, that we, as a people, will get to the promised land. And I am happy tonight. I'm not worried about anything. I'm not fearing any man. Mine eyes have seen the glory of the coming of the Lord.

Milo = pangsai

I don't know whether this thing ever happened to you or not but i experienced it many times before.

i drink Milo, then immediately i'll go pangsai.

haha. what?

im serious ni.

it's a fact!

so i cannot take Milo.

so i don't buy Milo's advertisement "Minum Milo and jadi sihat dan kuat."

all this while i've been drinking Milo since small but you tengok la.


ok stomachache again. Hi Jamban im coming!

out 16 hours

I went out around 8.20am this morning and came back just now at 12.20am.
A round of applause please. tq.

In Penang, i always run here and there do this and that or sleep here and there in my house.

In Mandarin cakap "pao lai pao chu" or Hokkien lang cakap "cau lai cau khi".

Aih i can never sit still at one place.

Friday, 21 May 2010

booksales make me sick


Shopping for books turned out so badly.

I went to Popular for its booksales. 90% discount ok.

How funny is it.

Buying books make me sick.

My head is so heavy and painful. Nose keeps running. Suddenly got diarrhea.

Feel so unwell.

Okay good night people. I need to take medicine n sleep now. bye.

my sister just never listen

okok chill chill.

i know i should not be angry.

but im just pissed off with my sister.

again, she came home by herself although i supposed to pick her up!

tulan lo i tell u!

this is not the first time. many times already.

usually my mum will pick her up. but today my mum can't.

again i went to fetch her. waited for her for 20minutes. then her friend came to me and said your sister went back already!

i was like WHAT!! not again!

She didn't even wait for me. i was just late for 2 minutes.

her school is just behind my apartment but it's dangerous for my sister to walk home. she's a girl and she's still a kid.

i scolded her before. i warned her so many times not to do that again but she just never listen!

i asked her never walk home even if mum is late. wait! if people ask you to wait, you wait. no one knows where are you if you are not there waiting.

what if something happen when she walks home?? u tell me.

you know, my mum scold me when my sister walks back alone.

fuh.. im not gona scold her. i wont. im done with it. im so disappointed with her.


PERIBAHASA of the day

"1 hari hiking a kali, lama-lama pangsai pun selesa sekali."

~ Nixon Lai Chia Huey
~ 21/5/2010 1.00am
~ via MSN


First of all, thank you Kow Kwan Yee, gua mia senior for taking this photo. Secondly, fuyooo this picture is nice. Thirdly i love this picture!!

Seriously this is a good photo. Why? Ok cuz i look good. And the model, ahem, so natural. I just love the feeling of this photo. It's like.. So warm.. So friendly.. So sweet. SO vintage. I fall in love with my own smile lah!

It's like some Apek Cina just arrived in the tongkang. haha!

ei, I think im quite handsome also la hor in the photo.

wahahahah! im gona stare at this photo the whole night!

I love the photographer la for taking this lovely picture of this loving man.

a reminder..

Be rational, don't get emotional.

Thursday, 20 May 2010

my sister..

My sister is getting taller. Her head is reaching my neck. Tall but still skinny.

She’s talented. She’s good. If you come to my house, you’ll see all her trophies. She purposely display it in the hall. Haha.

She always draw. Im not sure whether she loves it or not but she has been doing it since small. She won quite a number of art competition.

Sometimes I pity her. Her weekends always packed with activitied. Like last Sunday. She woke up early morning for tuition at 8am, then rush for a drawing comepetition and dancing class at 1pm. I don’t know how she can cope with all this.

I wana spend time with her. bring her out for a movie, go for a good wlak with her at the Botanical Garden or fly kite with her. but sometimes I just don’t have the time. Then I’ll feel bad and blame myself for not spending enough time with her.

She’s quite smart. Exam: she’s always in Top 5 in the class and Top 10 in the whole standard. Like wow!!

But she never want to study. I ask her to study, she plays games, watches TV. Waleuh. I ask until bolat d.

Oh ya! She just washed all the dishes. I asked her my mum ask her to do that is it? She said no. *bows*

3 nights ago she taught me ABC. A for alamak. B is for Behtahan! Fulamak! *faints* I duno who taught her that.

Last night, she asked me something that she’ll never get the answer from me. it’s about love. In my family, we seldom n we are not open to discuss about this. It’s hard to change t his culture.

Sister: Takke (big brother), do you have a girlfriend?

Me: No.

Sister: Why no leh?

Me: Why must I have one?

Sister: Why must not you have one?

Sister: you know ah? In the drama, they always say ladies must get married by 30 years old. Then how old do you wana get married?

Me: I don’t know.

See.. that’s my sister. She’s matured d la. Nak akil baligh d. When we went to Thailand, she read newspapers in the hotel instead of following me n my mum out for shopping! Then we were having dinner, we saw a lady begging for money. My sister complained!!

She said, “aiyo why this lady wear so nice, got hands got hands but wana beg for money?”

Me n my mum just kept quiet. Haha.

Sometimes she’ll ask me about her. I’ll just keep quiet. I don’t know what should I say. I just hope my silence will make my sister forget about her like how I’m doing now. My sister misses her a lot.. a lot.. a lot.. I miss her very, very, very much too..

Ok I wana go out with my sister now to fly the kite. Something that we never do before. It’s also one of the things that I wanted to do my the one I love but I never have the chance to do so.

Wednesday, 19 May 2010

YOU are quoted

"There are times don't ask means can, ask means cannot."

~ Nigel Aw
~ 19/5/2010 3.17am

Tuesday, 18 May 2010

me and photography

I love to take pictures. It’s a reality. It’s a fact that cannot be change. It’s me.

One of the reasons im so fascinated and cling onto photography is simply because it gives me satisfaction. I get the best present I ever get from people, their priceless smile. Their smile worth every single tear, blood and sweat I put into the photo.

My aim is to make people happy as much as I can. I want to see them happy. Their happiness is my happiness.

I want to capture every single thing in life, whether it’s good or whether it’s bad.

My photos tell stories. My photos come with meanings. My photos touched people’s heart. I want people to remember me. I want people to remember their memories through photography. This, will make them cherish their lost memories. People can link it to their lives. I know they’ll appreciate it.

I don’t have expensive gadget like the pro photographer. I don’t need those when I already have one, the heart. I captured every single shot with my heart. I use this gift from Him to serve the people.

I don’t mind what you people call me. You can say im crazy. You can say im showing off. You can say im not talented. It’s ok. I am better then you who critisized me because im true to myself, I put efforts in what I do and I’m passionate.

Me and photography are unseparatable.

If one day I die, it’s ok. Because I’ve seen and felt the beauty of life..

QUOTE of the day

If a lie is repeated 10 times, the lie becomes a truth at the 11th time to everybody.

~ an English saying.

time to potong

i still remember in my previous previous old old post, i said when it's long you should just POTONG.

yes why wana keep long long?

I tell you it's so irritating.

and so not handsome.


sometimes so geram.

the bulu, i mean the hair always fly here and there when im studying.

so kacau!

now my boolu-boolu sudah panjang.

atas panjang bawah oso panjang.

it's so long and messy.

i never cut it in Kampar.

i feel unsecure. hahah. i prefer to cut it here in Penang.

im going to POTONG now.

potong atas. cut my hair.

potong bawah. shave my moustache.


i wonder..

Sometimes I wonder why some people can totally forget and let go a relationship and someone who used to be so significant in their life as if they never know each other. I can't. If there’s a delete button in our brain to erase memories, I would love to have it. At least it'll heal the pain deep inside the broken pieces of heart..

YOU are quoted

"One leader can't serve without passion and clear objective."

~ Kow Kwan Yee
~ 18/5/2010 3.31am
~ via MSN

*  I won't simply quote someone if it's not meaningful or funny.

JOKE of the night

"Lu mia senior wu lei jing, then you are junior ham sap jing."

~ Nixon Lai Chia Huey
~ 18/5/2010 1.40pm
~ via MSN

* zzzz... lidat also can. manyak creative cokodok basi!

Monday, 17 May 2010

i need to hike!

i need to hike so BADLY!!


wa beh tahan liao.

desperate yang amat sangat.

I never felt this way before.

but now seriously im so desperate to go for hiking!

i feel so ada umpphh now.

my mind, heart, soul and whatsoever are only thinking to hike, hike and hike.

i miss hiking so much.

i must hike by this week.


anyone in Penang feels like hiking, call me!!

let's leave out marks on the hills!

lets's go take awesome pictures.


present to miss joethi - handmade card

Previously I posted photos of the photoframe as a gift to Miss Joethi. Now another small little gift to our lecturer which is a handmade card with our signatures and wishes. It’s made by my classmate, Lee Pei Shhuang. =p

Can you see? This is Lee Pei Suang, beh paiseh tak malu posing with her card. Wahahah. Spot me at the back?? =p anyway thanks to her la. hardwork you know..

This is the fornt page of the card. Nice right? I like it especially the cute little clip.

Signatures and wishes from the Journalism students of January 2009 intake. I don’t think everyone sign though. Anyway sorry I don’t why the picture rotates itself la. always terbalik one. So you also terbalikkan your head to read la. =p

* Pei Pei ah, u can use the photos if u want. But i can actually send it to you in MSN la.

me n Miss Joethi on her wedding

see. my Journalism lecturer so pretty la. memang ngam. wa pun good looking what that night. wahahahah. tak malu praise myself. who cares la!!

congrats again Miss Joethi on your wedding. =p

Kata-kata hikmat

Bukan susah untuk menyukai seseorang tapi bukan senang untuk melepaskan sebuah cinta.

Sunday, 16 May 2010

I have spoken in Speaker's Square


i did what i've said.

mission accomplised!

i made it.

im glad to be back in Penang!

i have spoken in Speaker's Square, Esplanade, Penang!

ok this is an achivement for me myself.


first time giving speech in an open space.

and first time giving speech without audience, microphone, stage, podium or spotlight!

how cool is that!

and how funny is that??

nvm.. i made it.

when are you going to make it?

let them especially the public, government, pressmen and SPecial Brance officers hear your voice.

anyway there was a man with small gadget to take picture and take video was there before i speak. he left. then when i was speaking half way, he came n i SAW him take picture and video of me. seriously he got the SPecial Branch's look and style.

gosh! goosebumps man!

luckily when i say something about the police, he wasn't there.

thanks to my 4 Super VIPs and good buddies Nixon Lai, Ah Meow, Dexter the Pervert and Liam The Chiko for being there. haha.

and thanks also to a couple, my additional audience.

there were suportive. we had a nice chat.

impossible i can achieved my dream without u people.


i have 'something' to say

oh owh!

7pm ++ d ah??!

ish ish!

im late!!

i wanted to go to Speaker's Squake in Esplanade to give speech at 6pm but i just woke up la.

nvm2 the event is until 10pm.

arrghhh! now i feel the nerve d.

u noe la.. Speaker's Corner ma. Boh syiok la if i dun 'shoot' people. not camera shooting u noe. but shoot verbally.

mulut i kan gatai. nak makan. nak tembak.

ok im gona go there.

whoever is there, c u there la.

mata-mata pls dun catch me cuz i din ask anyone to go ok.

so it's not an illegal assembly la.


Saturday, 15 May 2010

home but not in home

finally after 3 hours of journey, im back in Penang!

yesh yesh!

who is not happy to be back to Penang, tell me?

yes im happy!

but now im locked outside the house.



im home but not in my home!

no one at home. no one to open the door for me. i have the keys but not the key for that lock!


now im stiiting outside my house. enjoying sauna. smelling the nice smell from the shoes and my feet. sweating like as if i just jogged for 30mins.

nvm.. nvm..

chill chill.. cool down beb! othou im damn hot in me!

luckily my sis didn't switch off the internet connection. if not i can't online now. at least i can still surf the net and listen to the radio.

i have apples. lu mau?? =p

a joyful accident

Have you experienced a happy accident on the road.

I had. And i tell u this accident is the happiest and funniest one ever happened!!

M en Poovan just involved in an accident!

Haha im fine! He is NOT!

I laughed the moment he shouted and fell. Then we laughed together after we reached home. And i am laughing out loud now while typing this.

This is his holidays present and also from UTAR on our last day of exam.


okla luckily he's fine.

1 last paper


another one more paper than can balik kampung.

exam at 9am!

lucky me i can wake up on time.

so sleepy..

all the best to all my frens.

well, im kinda nervous actually.

Friday, 14 May 2010

running out of time!!

oh no oh no!!

im running out of time. seriously.

I wana watch Thomas Cup later at 7pm. N im sure the game will last until 11pm.

exam at 9am tomorrow.

and im going back to hometown after exam.

i have less than 17 hours before my last paper tomorrow.

i haven't and i need to:
4.write and send a letter to the editor laundry
6.sweep n mop
7.clean my room
8.edit and burn the photos into CD and pass it to customer Thomas Cup
10.pack my beg


QUOTE of the day

By comparing ourselves with the others will never make us any better. We can never achive happiness and satisfaction in life by doing it. Be true to ourselves.

midnight jog ---> morning walk

just came home from very very very early morning walk with Tiffany.

now all the lactic acid is gathered and reacting on my neck, shoulder and pelvis.

sticky.. sleepy..

Didn't sleep the whole night!! and i have exam tomorrow morning at 9am!

gosh! we r so crazeee!


It has been so long since I posted picture of me. nah! Ini dia! Aku! Me! i! gua! Sexy!! Lalalalla! Hahaha.. sorila tonight is seriously a very boring night. so unproductive! I need to do something!

ANyway this picture was taken at Little Penang Street Market, Penang.
31/1/2010 10.51am

Thursday, 13 May 2010

what a boring night

Boring nite.
No excitement at all.
Seriously bored to death!
Boring to the MAX ah!
The whole Westlake is so quiet!
Everyone finished exam n cabut balik kampung.
Now I need entertainment.
No, I need to eat!
Some more just pangsai. Lausai la.
One more paper to go this Saturday.
My classmates must be very tired after the paper tonight.
All also so quiet.
Duno cabut p mana.
Must be shitting or sleeping!




Hold On - Michael Buble

SONG of the day

People, listen to this nice song by my favourite singer, Buble! I’ve fell in love with this song. I guess it’ll stuck in my mind, keep playing in my laptop for the next few days. Thanks to the one who introduced this song to me.

Didn't they always say we were the lucky ones?
I guess that we were once
Babe, we were once

But luck will leave you cause
It is a faithless friend
And in the end when life has got you down
You've got someone here that you can wrap your arms around

So hold on to me tight
Hold on to me tonight
We are stronger here together
Than we could ever be alone
So hold on to me
Don't you ever let me go

There's a thousand ways for things to fall apart
But it's no one's fault
No it's not my fault

Maybe all the plans we made would not work out
But I have no doubt even though it's hard to see
I've got faith in us and I believe in you and me

So hold on to me tight
Hold on, I promise it'll be alright
Cause it's you and me together
And baby all we've got is time
So hold on to me, hold on to me tonight

There's so many dreams that we have given up
Take a look at all we've got
And with this kind of love
What we've got here is enough

So hold on to me tight
Hold on, I promise it'll be alright
Cause we are stronger here together
Then we could ever be alone
Just hold on to me
Don't you ever let me go
Hold on to me, it's gonna be alright
Hold on to me tonight
They always say we were the lucky ones

QUOTE of the day

To achieve happiness, we must learn n willing to let go.

happy 1st year anniversary and happy may13

Anniversary? What It means to you? What do you do for an anniversary? Anniversary usually a memorable day to be remembered and to be celebrated. It is always a happy occasion.

But anniversary doesn’t always meant for a good thing.

Today at this moment I’ll celebrate my first year anniversary for being single. =p

I became single on 13th May 2009 1.35am. now it’s exactly one year. Im not being emo here ok. Just wana flash back.

It’s not that bad after all being single. From falling and rolling on the ground, I got back on my feet and I am here today.

Happy anniversary to everyone. Happy anniversary to Michelle Ooi and Lee Khai Keat. Happy anniversary to me to.

By the way happy May 13 as well.

I will remember this date forever.

Now continue studying! Woohooo!

Wednesday, 12 May 2010

Hafiz Hashim the saviour to semi-final

hehhehe! Malaysia is going to semi-final of Thomas Cup.

Go go Malaysia. love u la Hafiz Hashim!

results in

a politician must..

Im not gona talk in details what politicians should do and shouldn't do.

But one thing they must bear in mind is..


This quote is from Kow Kwan Yee.

They musn't be selfish. they must fight not only for what they believes but also for what other people.

ok the end.

study lo..

Yes yes im going to study. Yes yes I will study by tonight. No I wont sleep although I feel like sleeping, my left hand so painful and lenguh gila babi tak pasai pasai and I have stomachache.

My next paper is this Thurday 2pm.

A friend just asked me to study..

She said, “by the way, eng ah ~ study lo..”.

Suddenly I feel a slap on my face. I felt like I have just gotten up from my bed!

First thing, it has been so long since she said such thing.

Second thing, I’ve been playing even during exam period.

Third thing, I want to achive better results but I didn’t put enough efforts.


After I reached home from exam today, I went to watch Thomas Cup match between Malaysia n Japan till 10pm ++. I just bathed and im going to study now.

Ok I’ll blog about my ‘live’ badminton match tomorrow k. I have more serious and important thing to do. tata.

By the way, thanks LEE PEI SUANG. =p

Tuesday, 11 May 2010

Malaysia lost to Japan 2-3

More news go to

lesson to be learned

One thing that I learned a lot while staying alone is..

I mean the biggest lesson I’ve leaned when I go out from my room is…

Nola, u can on the electricity if u want.
Nola, u can on your laptop.
Nola, u can open your water tap.




Kannineh (Ai Loon: 11 May 2010). Kanasai I went for exam, after exam I gatai went to library to borrow books that has nothing to do with my exam n now I just got back!

Im not wet! But my room wet! My brother’s shoe that I borrowed, washed n put it outside to dry is also wet.

exam in the toilet

I tell u hor the Government and the universities and the house developer should be more creative and innovative.

They must make the exam in the toilet la. you know why???

Cuz students need to pee n shit! It’s easier if it’s in the toilet!

Can pee, bathe or shit while doing the exam.

Same goes to lecture. Hundreds of students in a big toilet with many jambans! All sit on the jamban or toilet bowls n listen to the lecturer. The lecturer can stand on the jamban if he wants to. What?? Malu?? Apa mau malu. Semua ada kemaluan ma. Chewww!

See how nice is it right?

Sometimes when you study you feel so hot. Then you need to pompom. And sometimes you need to eat n shit n study. So there must be a new mechanism to overcome this problem.

  new toilet with new technology must be invented. New toilets must come with speaker, LCD projector and a screen. So when you bathe or shit or pee, you can actually study using the projector in the toilet. The projector will projects the slides n you can easily n syiokly mandi la.

Another thing is when there’s a screen n internet in the toilet you can do video conferencing. The lecturer can teach from the toilet and you can study from your toilet. So sama-sama buat in the toilet la.

Whoever can do their studies n exam in the toilet shoud be granted co-curricular points, Soft Skills points and even a Datukship.

This shows that human have evolved and improved.

Now you tell me. good idea right?!! Safe time n safe money n safe resources. One stone can kill so many birds.

See la now I mau lausai! See la how! Tell me how!! Im damn geram when before exam i sakit perut. grrrhhhh!

I go lausai den how to study?

One more thing! The paper manufacturers must wake up! please invent a waterproof paper! Cuz it’s hard to study while you are bathing when the paper can get wet!

Argghh kenot tahan. PANGSAICUAAAAA im coming!