have a bad feeling?

If you have a feeling that something bad is going to happen, it’s ok, let it be because sometimes there’s nothing much you can do. Just pray hard that it wont’ be that bad. And next time, avoid it from happening again. 

*well im feeling so nervous right now. Finger crossed that I won’t be hentam by YB tomorrow.*

faith

in deep trance

Thaipusam festival in Batu Caves (20/1/2011)

Nine Emporer Gods Festival in Penang (5/10/2011)

Jing Si Aphorisms

"Life becomes meaningful when we shoulder responsibilities. Avoiding responsibilities makes our life empty."


~ Master Cheng Yen (Tzu Zhi)

I pray that..

aih terlebih kenyang sampai tak boleh nak tido.

Finished my second paper today. Next paper is next Tuesday. so tonight can rest a while.

well.. i have something to say actually after knowing something not so good happened to my friends.

Friends who are in troubles now, disturbed by problems and feeling so down and demotivated, I feel so sorry I can't do much to help but I, will pray hard to Buddha. I'll ask Him to comfort you, to bless you, to give you peace and help solve your problems. May us be well and happy.

Mini Thaipusam? Many people don’t know about this celebration. We only know the real Thaipusam in the month of January or February.

Mini Thaipusam or the real name is Chithirai Pournami. It is actually the 1st Full Moon of Tamil Calendar. As usual, there’ll be people carrying milk pot and kavadi.

I missed Thaipusam this year, as in not carrying kavadi and no piercing and I feel not good about it.

Mini Thaipusam is today and few days ago I planned to go for it but I can’t because yesterday is UTAR Ball. I need to be on vegetarian and stuff.

But now, the urge is there for me to at least go and have a look and pray. When I wana do something regarding religion, I’ll do it. It’s not good when you say and when you think you wana do something religious but at the end you didn’t.

It’s all about your faith.

I still don’t feel good about UTAR Ball because there are many problems to be settled.

It’s ok.. let me go pray first.

i'll be on vegetarian today.

Teluk Intan here i come.

Nothing and no one I can count on to now except for religion.

At least religion is true, religion will never lie on me.

Giving Dana

Many people prefer to give money to help others. But for me, money is not everything although it’s important. I prefer to buy food for the needy ones or lend them a hand. I think that’s more meaningful. And when I do that, I feel a maximum satisfaction out of it. You just feel awesome and contented when you get a smile from them, even if they don’t say thank you.

Well, just now early in the morning I went to Kampar Old Town’s foodcourt to give Dana to two Theravada monks from a nearby temple at Temoh. Dana is actually a Pali word. It’s an act of giving to others. It does not mean that you give only material things that cost money. For you can give many immaterial things as well. (http://www.mahindarama.com/e-library/dana-vis.htm#1). Dana is an act of loving-kindness and non-selfishness. You’ll earn a lot of merits from it. And it’ll improve your karma. But when you give dana, never expect to get something in return. Doing charity or volunteerism must always come from a sincere and honest heart. Dana is not meant only for monks but for non-monks as well.

This was actually my second time doing dana. I did my first dana last year, alone. The monk will only come every Friday morning and left by 8.30am. I’ve always forgotten about this event. Not that I am lazy you know.. I really lupa. Furthermore, I’m lazy to wake up early when I don’t have class on Friday.  Thx to Poicia, she’s the one who reminded me and ajak me to do dana this morning.

So I went there around 8am. I was late, just a little bit late. Yea just a little bit late. But Poicia gave her dana already. I was like huh so fast?? It’s not like very urgent, why they wait for me. Hmmm.. but then I realized well, I was late. Whether late for a minute or an hour, it’s still late. Late means late. When you are late, you’ll miss a lot of things. I regret. I regret for being late. I regret for not being discipline waking up on time. I regret for procrastinating. Don’t ever be late la.. no use to regret because it’s already over and it has happened. Big loss..

Anyway, a lot of people especially the locals buying food for the monks. True Theravada monks never beg for money or sell amulets. They only accept food. I was in dilemma because I don’t what to buy to them. I remember Kwan Yee said that it’s better to buy dried food so that it can last long. She also told me to buy food that has no colouring. So at the end, I bought them a papaya and wheat bread. Both also good for health ma. =p

People, giving is always better than receiving.

Do more dana la…

It's another good awesome day! =p

Jing Si Aphorisms

Grateful, our hearts would be touched and moved.
Moved, we would be inspired to take action.

~ Master Cheng Yen (Tzu Zhi)

let us pray..

Today is 11th March 2011, 11311.

Today is a day we gona remember because tsunami striked again. Japan is highly affected with tsunami after a 8.9 richter scale of earthquake. I don't have to say much. Just open any news portal and you'll know how big is the impact. More and more people died with thousand of belongings destroyed.

well..

let's do what we can do.

While most of us here are still safe, able to online and be with friends and family, let us put our hands together, just take one minute to pray for the safety of our brothers and sisters who are facing disasters now.

my first video

Jeng jeng jeng!!

Ladies and gentlemen, let me introduce you to my first ever video production!!

Wahahaha.

I’m feeling so excited because this is the first time I make a video using a software all by myself. I am not an IT person. I’m bad in technology. That’s why I used about 2 hours to make this video. The Windows Live Movie Maker 2011 is so different from what I used to see few years ago. I think it has been upgraded.

So what’s so great about this video? It’s great because my effort paid off. I feel so satisfied because I finished what I’ve started.

This video is not shot by video camera. It’s actually a photo slideshows and I made it into a video so that I can post it on Youtube.

105 photos are used to make this video. I shot these photos back in 31/12/2009. It was 5am in the morning and I stood in front of Masjid Kapitan Keling in Penang for 30 minutes, waiting for the moon to set.

And I was so lucky because the moon was at its fullest that night, which was also the 15^th of the Chinese Lunar Calendar.

Besides than photography, I actually enjoy videography too. I want to be in the video and I want to produce video or movie too. The problem is I don’t have the tools to make it happen. Video camera is too expensive. Plus, my camera can’t take video.

Today I’m the producer, director, cameraman, and also the editor of my video. Hahaha.

So let’s enjoy this short video clip of “Moonset on the Last Day of 2009”.

namo namo

let's start off the day with..

Namo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Sambuddhassa
Namo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Sambuddhassa
Namo Tassa Bhagavato Arahato Samma Sambuddhassa

Happy Maulidul Rasul

Kepada semua kawan-kawan beragama Islam,

Selamat menyambut Hari Keputeraan Nabi Muhammad S.A.W.

Semoga pada hari yang mulia dan bermakna ini, marilah kita semua umat sejagat yang berlainan agama, bangsa, kaum, bahasa dan keturunan untuk berbaik-baik, hidup bersatu-padu, tolong-menolong dan membina ummah yang lebih teguh.

Sama-samalah kita lebih taat kepada tuhan dan agama masing-masing.

Lebihkan berpahala dan hindarilah perkara yang tidak baik.

Jangan kita merendah-rendah ataupun menghina agama dan kepercayaan orang lain. Sesungguhnya setiap agama itu mengajar kita perkara yang baik dan yang tidak baik semuanya datang daripada kita.

Selamat Hari Maulidul Rasul.

Faith

Venue: Hock Teik Cheng Sin, Tua Pek Kong Temple,

Lebuh Armenian, Penang

Date: 8.10.2010

Time: 2.47pm

RIP Chloe

It's a truly sad moment for us.. at least me..

My heart feels so heavy right now. Speechless. Shocked. Stunned. Clueless. Feel like puking. Just a moment ago, i was so happy, laughing out loud, chilling, then i got a message that someone has just passed away..

i asked my friend to confirm it. Then a friend called to tell me the same thing, followed by a post in Facebook. A friend of the victim's brother said the same thing too. so it's true..

On the night of 29th October 2010 at around 9.10pm, a girl and a guy on a bike had a collision with a Mercedes outside of Westlake Homes, Kampar. Now the girl, Chiang Wei Shan (an ex-UTARian who supposed to resume her studies next Jan) has passed away at 6.48pm today (7.11.2010).

Who's fault? I don't know.

Someone posted this on her Facebook this morning: Chloe might not survive if she couldnt pass through today doctor said if she still remain the same after today as her brain is dead, they will shutdown the machine that keeps her survive right now. SO ALL THE PRAYER WE NEED YOUR HELP TO PRAY HARD FOR HER SO THAT SHE COULD GONE THROUGH TODAY!! ASK ALL YOUR FRIEN...DS TO HELP TO PRAY HARD FOR HER IN THE NAME OF LORD JESUS!!! 

Before this, i saw some posts in Facebook saying that she's in coma. I really hoped she'll be awake. But now, she's gone forever.. 

I was there at the scene to take photos (http://j-on-news.blogspot.com/2010/10/serious-collision-in-bandar-barat.html). The girl was so scared. She was screaming due to the unbearable pain. She hold tightly to her brother once she saw him. And she kept on apologising. I went to the hospital to follow up. I can see how great is the love of her brother. He was angry at the slow response from the hospital. I was pissed off too. So much delay at the hospital. If things could be faster at that time..

That's the first and last time i saw her..

I really hope someone actually witnessed the whole accident to give a justice to her.

Around this time last year, 3 UTAR students passed away too (http://oh-chineng.blogspot.com/2009/11/students-swept-awayagain.html#uds-search-results). James Khor Wan Kai, Yew Shy Gin and Yew Ghim Chnieh got drowned at the Batu Berangkai Waterfall, Kampar on 1st Nov 2009. I was there, covering news. I was there, when they found the bodies. I was there, when their family members and friends broke down.

Now all their Facebook pages are flooded with wishes and condolence. They'll never have the chance to reply.. My heart breaks looking at the posts asking Chloe to wake up.

No one knows how miserable i am right now. I feel bad because i didn't got the chance to pass the accident photos that his brother asked from me.

I may not know her, but she has just left a very big impact on my life.

Coincidentally, these few days, i recalled the waterfall incident and now another death took place.

My deepest condolence and prayers to her family. Stay strong. She'll be sad if you are sad.

May her soul rest in peace.

My friends out there, Please.. Please.. drive safe. Please! i don't want to take pictures of your dead body on the road. i don't want to hear from anyone that you got knocked down by a car or lorry or what-so-ever vehicles. Think of your loved ones. If you scared you'll be late, depart early, don't speed. Follow traffic rules. Drive safe, drive slowly. Always say your prayer before you start your journey.

be safe..

Let me take this opportunity to say I LOVE YOU, I AM SORRY, and THANK YOU to all of you, each and every one of you including my family members who have came across my life, in case i don't have the chance to say or I'm too afraid to say it to you.

Let's all of us, in our own way, whether you believe in religion or not, pray for her and her family.

Sedekahkanlah doa buat mereka. Semoga rohnya dicucuhri rahmat.

Amitabha..

God bless her.

=(

3.0 to intern abroad!!

i always wanted to go study abroad. i missed the chance once and here I am in UTAR. But now i have the chance again through internship.

I'm looking through the Student Handout of Industrial Training Manual and i found this.

5.1.1       Industrial training/placement outside Malaysia

UTAR may look for internationally well-known companies for students interested in industrial training abroad. If the names of the internationally well-known companies are to be listed in UTAR website, students can view the list.  Should a student intend to undergo training with any one of the companies in the list, then the student would have to approach his/her respective faculty to arrange for industrial training. Otherwise, students could contact other company not in the Faculty List directly themselves.

Students must follow up with necessary documents as in guidelines below:

1.     CGPA of eligible candidate should be 3.0 and above.

2.     It is compulsory for the overseas company’s senior officer to send UTAR an official letter, and then UTAR would follow up with the company progressively.

3.     The Faculty Industrial Training Committee is required to go though the industrial training offer letter from the senior officer of the overseas company thoroughly.  If appropriate, the committee would bring up the recommendation to the Faculty Board/Management Committee for approval.

4.     If approved, DIIR and DISS would be informed of the decision to follow up with assisting the student in applying for the necessary e.g. application of visa, purchase of insurance, letters of indemnity.

5.     It is compulsory for foreign exchange student to purchase international medical and hospitalization insurance.

6.     It is the responsibility of the Faculty of the student to find out from the overseas employer, the type of Insurance the student has to buy before the student leaves Malaysia (e.g. Professional Indemnity Insurance).

7.     The Faculty has to ensure that the student is well prepared before going for industrial training overseas, such as

·         Purchase of  appropriate insurance not limited to personal accident policy, personal liability policy, medical, hospitalization and surgical policy and travel insurance; and to keep these insurance policies valid throughout the period of your stay/industrial training within and outside Malaysia,

·         Purchase of returning air ticket,

·         Preparation of legal document e.g. agreement letter signed between Candidate, UTAR and the Company, Indemnity Letter to be signed between the company and the candidate, and the parent has to sign to undertake the responsibility if the student damages any property in the company.

8.     You are required to fulfil the immigration requirements of the designated country of your industrial training/placement; find your own sponsor for the application of training pass or permit; keep the permit valid throughout the course of your industrial training/placement and to undertake to return home upon expiry of the permit.  Kindly contact the International Division of the University should you require any assistance or clarifications on immigration matters.

9.     You and/or your parents/guardian are required to bear all the costs and expenses including but not limited to visa fees, medical check-up fees, travelling expenses, your personal maintenance and stay expenses, repatriation expenses and any miscellaneous expenses as stipulated by the relevant authorities or the University or the Company.

10.  In exceptional cases subject to conditions, the university may consider acting as sponsor such as application of travel visit pass to Singapore.

11.  Visit by UTAR supervisor to overseas company may not be required.

5.1.2      The Rules and Regulations of the University govern your conduct during the industrial training period. Your industrial training contract with the company governs your time and effort that you will spend with the company.

5.1.3      You are reminded to uphold the good name of the University, abide by the code of conduct of the University, the Company, the industry, the terms of your industrial training contract, and any other relevant rules and regulations at all times during the course of the industrial training/placement.

5.1.4      You should also keep abreast with developments on campus.

To qualify for the application, my CGPA must be above 3.0

It's possible but it's hard.

hmmm... i screwed my previous exams la. My CGPA is just 2.6 now. How to jump up to 3.0 in this semester.

And to qualify is one thing, to compete with other applicants with higher CGPA is another challenge.

Oh God, i really need your help now. i'll work harder, can you show me some miracles? I need to get CGPA 3.0 by this semester la, if not i can't apply for abroad internship next semester.

kamsiah kamsiah!

If Tomorrow Never Comes

If Tomorrow Never Comes

by Norma Cornett Marek (1989)

 
If I knew it would be the last time that I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly, and pray the Lord your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time that I'd see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss, and call you back for just one more.

If I knew it would be the last time I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would tape each word and action, and play them back throughout my days
If I knew it would be the last time, I would spare an extra minute or two,
To stop and say "I love you," instead of assuming you know I do.

So just in case tomorrow never comes, and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you, and I hope we never will forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone, young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you're waiting for tomorrow, why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes, you'll surely regret the day
That you didn't take that extra time for a smile, a hug, or a kiss,
And you were too busy to grant someone, what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today, and whisper in their ear,
That you love them very much, and you'll always hold them dear.
Take time to say "I'm sorry," "Please forgive me," "thank you" or "it's okay".
And if tomorrow never comes, you'll have no regrets about today.

*Thanks for the inspiration Feli. I found this poem from your blog. Love you.

8-9-10

wow wow!

today is Wednesday.

nothing special la.

but the date is 8-9-10!!

THIS IS SPECIAL!

haha.

such a unique day we must do something la.

ok what??

STUDY la!

yes i'll study today..

i wana be good boy for today.

then later wana go pray. today is the first day of Chinese lunar month ma..

then maybe go buy ticket back to Penang la. if still ada la..

i think i wana go home la..

i miss Penang, i miss my friends, i miss Raya..

by the way, i slept so early last night.

huh?? what time ah..

just now lo..

6.30am lo..

early morning ma..

early la. not meh???

Happy Ramadhan

It’s puasa time again. or you can call it fasting.

I started to fast ever since 2006 Raya and if I fast again this year, It will be the fifth year already.

Hmm.. im thinking of a reason to puasa this year. Yeala.. u noe.. now im single. It’s not like im with my ex anymore. but last time I puasa it’s not because of her solely lah. I wanted to try to fast then im addicted to it. And I feel bad If I dun fast.

But this year is kind of different. What is so different. Im not so sure about it. I can fast if I want. I don’t mind. but.. hmm..

We’ll see how la. most probably I’ll fast but I’ll eat whenever I want. Haha. can ah can ah? Nola, I won’t do that la. I fast properly in terms of food, mental, behaviour and whatsoever things la.

And I can’t wait to see Amirah wears tudung! Hahaha! Sure chomel! And that time she cannot go kacau and tease people anymore cuz she’s fasting.

Anyway maaf zahir dan batin ye. In Malaysia, everything is so mixed up and rojak. I know im a Chinese but I also practice and adapt Malays and Indians culture. Aduih.. this is what you call diversity and plurality. Im proud of it.

Bermaaf-maafan la time puasa ni. Stay away from sins and mistakes. Jgn marah, jgn dengki, jgn kutuk, jgn dendam, jgn tipu.. Be a good person at least for a month. Insya-Allah besar berkatnya.

Selamat berpuasa to my Muslim friends. And for those non-Muslims who wish to puasa, selamat berpuasa and bertahan for you too. =p

Semoga tahun ni lebih baik daripada tahun-tahun yang sebelumnya.

happy wesak day

This year will be the 2554th Wesak.

Im glad im still in Penang.

Me n Wesak always associate with Penang.

I never missed Wesak celebration in my life in Penang except for last year.

God's willing, i hope this year's Wesak will be a good Wesak for me.

i hope it'll be a turning point in my life.

i take this Wesak as a cleansing day for me.

to flush away all my sins and bad things.

and to be a better man.

'Throw away bad things, do good things, get blessings.'

i wish everyone will be well, happy and blessed.

happy wesak day to all.

3 cucuks

Photo taken by my good friend, Teoh Chee Leng in 2010's Thaipusam.