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Wednesday, 30 November 2011

quote of the day

Laughter is not the best medicine. The best medicine is got to hear your mum's voice. =p

right brain right attitude

brain

attitude

brain

attitude

You must have the right things to be a right person.

You have have the right brain and right attitude in life.

I have the right brain but i don't have the right attitude.

Monday, 28 November 2011

pain like dying

i have been in severe pain since last Saturday.

i puke what i eat.

i got diarrhoea.

Most importantly my stomach is seriously extremely pain.

Doctor said i got gastric.

I got an injection. I paid a higher price for the so-called more powerful medicines.

But no difference.

i can just curl up myself on the bed everyday.

I feel like a deadman.

Feel so disabled.

so useless..

There's nothing i can do.

I cant even sit on the chair.

I cant stand when i bath.

I cant walk properly.

I shiver when i ride my bike.

It just feels like i'm dying.

the pain is unbearable.

i always got stomachpain. I always lausai. my stomach always not ok. But it never as pain as this.

why..

Why now..

I have my Final Year Project presentation on Wednesday and an assignment's presentation on Friday.

I cant afford to be hospitalised.

I'm holding on.

But.. It feels so impossible,

Time is running out.

you may think it's not that serious but wait until you come and look it yourself.

why i still blog.

cuz i dun have to think academically when i write.

i need to blog so that at least people know what happened if i died.. or if i'm hospitalised.

i've shrink..

i wana go home..

my family didn't know i'm sick.

ok.. back to the patient's bed.

*everyone will die. so do it. but before i die, at least let me get a scroll for my family first.*

new day


Date: 14/2/2011

Time: 7.54am

Venue: Penang

Sunday, 27 November 2011

Lord Buddha...

Lord Buddha, thr's only one thing i wish for now.. Pls cure my sickness by tonite as i  hv few important things to do next week. The pain is unbearable. I cant afford to be sick n unable to do anything.. =(

Friday, 25 November 2011

spider


Date: 24/11/2011

Time: 2.20pm

Venue: Kampar

Thursday, 24 November 2011

quote of the day

You may run, you may hide but problems can never be solved.

Sahabat Selamana - Padi



This song is dedicated to the people whom i called friends..

Kita sahabat selamanya.. Walau apa pun yang berlaku..

Kata-kata hikmat

Bila kita diam, hati pun rasa lebih senang, lebih tenang..

Wednesday, 23 November 2011

pesan mama

Mama gua selalu pesan jangan buat jahat kat orang. Dia kata hari ni kalau u buat jahat kat orang, nanti hari esok orang akan buat jahat kat u pula. 

TAKUT TAK?!!

sigh of relief

*photo by Hah Haw Yeen*

ahhh...

I hope this will be my last semester.

Yes, i am working towards it.

If it's materialised, then i can have a sigh of relief.

I will be very glad because i don't have to trouble anyone anymore.

I'm a trouble maker.

I always need people's help.

Some were forced to lend a hand.

But for those who did it willingly, i thank you.

I can't repay your good deeds but you will be given merits by your Creator.

I was lazy... I was lazy yesterday. But i'm a little hardworking today.

I jogged. I studied for tomorrow's midterm. And i did my assignment.

One step by one step la.

After exam, i will be free. I need a break, an escapade.

I'll go for a meditation course. Maybe i'll go travel as well. Most importantly, be away from the internet as much as possible for some time.

I feel calmer now after listening to Buddhist chanting and music. It's nice you know especially when my room is clean and full with aroma from the candle burner. =p

Tuesday, 22 November 2011

best hardest lesson in 3 years

Doing my Degree for 3 years and finishing it at the end of the year, I got the best lesson ever in my university’s life.

It’s through a very hard way.

It’s my fault. It’s my bad attitude. It’s what I deserved.

My legs are painful but it’s not as severe as the jab on my heart.

You know.. I was shivering, body temperature is so high and I so wana puke.

But it’s worth it i guess.. I will remember today.


I am tired of arguing.

So if you guys feel like procrastinating, you better don’t. =p


WAKE UP! LOOK AT YOURSELVES INTO THE MIRROR. SLAP SLAP SLAP!

GUYS, BE A MAN!

Some thoughts to ponder..



1.           If you fall, remember to stand up again. The world is not always dark.
2.           You don’t tell the whole word the bad things about your friends. Yes, your friends.
3.           If you make mistakes, admit it and don’t repeat it again.
4.           When you are in trouble, then you will know who your friends are and what it means to be a friend. The term is very subjective.
5.           It’s unforgivable if you keep on repeating the same mistakes.
6.           Teamwork is when everyone helps everyone and not getting a black sheep.
7.           You have to bear the consequences of the mistakes you made.
8.           Silence is not golden when there is crisis.
9.           Face the problem, never hide from it.
10.       Jobs delayed are jobs not done.
11.       The last thing you ever feel like doing in life is procrastination.
12.       It’s easier to blame others than to be responsible.
13.       True friends will not only say good things about you but the hurtful but truthful words too.
14.       It’s a human nature that when you make mistakes, they will tend to forget all the good things that you have done.
15.       It’s scary when a friend can say something bad behind you and a minute after that be so nice in front of you.
16.       Some people seem to be a good friend in front of people but they not always at the back.
17.       Nothing is sadder than someone that you trusted so much side others.
18.       In every dark clouds, there will be golden ray of lights at the end of the day.
19.       Hati budi manusia paling senang untuk dilihat apabila anda di dalam kesusahan.
20.       Seringkali gajah depan hidung tak nampak, semut seberang laut pula jelas kelihatan.


congratulations Malaysia!

Monday, 21 November 2011

thoughts

It’s always very important not to only listen to your heart but you must follow what your hearts says than to follow what the majority do. 

Sunday, 20 November 2011

Penang Bridge, 21KM, i am coming!

It’s time. about 1 hour from now I will be running on Penang Bridge, a marathon event that will be endorsed by the Malaysia’s Book of Records.

My heart pumping fast just by just looking at the 21km marathon route. Still couldn’t believe that I am running Half Marathon 21km.

This is my first time joining half marathon for any running competition.

I never felt as excited, nervous and anxious as before in any running competition. I couldn’t sleep thinking of the run later.

I must thank Edmund for the inspiration. It’s because of his challenge that I joined Half Marathon. But sadly he can’t join because he is hospitalized for denggi. I will complete the run for him.

The starting time is so crazy. 3am is the starting time. 3am is a sleeping time la aduih. We are givern 3 hours and 30 minutes to complete the race in order to get a certificate and a finishing medal. 

Someone I know is running blindfolded for a charity. Please donate some money for his noble cause. Click this link to know more http://www.facebook.com/blindfoldmarathon

I bought a Powerbar just nw. . It’s an energy booster. It contains 9g of proein. Uhhh.. that’s high. I need it for my run later. The price is high too. RM9 for something like Cloud 9. What to do.. Wa bo lat ma.

I slept for only 1 hour. Just hope that I wont fall asleep while running.

Oh ye OCE! Go go go!

Im coming Allianz Penang Bridge International Marathon 2011. It’s about the heart n mind. C u guys on the bridge. Watch out for the runner with a DSLR!

All the best everyone! 


I am not aiming to be the champion, What I want is to just complete the race in 3 hours. 

Saturday, 19 November 2011

Penang Bridge International Marathon 2011, Half Marathon info


Race Date: Sunday, 20th November 2011
Start Time: 0300 am (Men)
Start Time: 0315 am (Women)
Finishing Time: 3.5 hours (Three and a half hours)
Start Location: Queensbay Mall
Closing registration date: 21st October 2011
Distance: 21.0975KM
AIMS Course Measurement Certificate number: MAS2009/031


Registration Fees (In Ringgit Malaysia):
Half Marathon
Early Bird: RM45 (April to 30th June 2011)
Normal Fees: RM50 (1st July to 30th Sept 2011)
Late Registration: RM60 (1st Oct to 20th Oct 2011)
Registration closed on 21st Oct 2011

Courier Service fees:
Fees: RM10 - Delivery to Peninsula Malaysia Only.

PBIM 2011 partner for courier service:


(please take note that the courier service option for PBIM runners will no longer available if registration after 15th September 2011)

Goodies bag:
Local participants Self pick up:
1) Self pick up in Penang at QB Mall on 12th & 13th Nov 2011. 10am to 10pm 9pm
2) For outstation participants, self pick up on 18th and 19th Nov 2011 (10am to before 5pm on 19th Nov 2011)

Singapore participants can opt for self pick up at our agent office or self pick up at PBIM venue:
1) Self pick up in Singapore on 7th to 11th Nov 2011 8th to 12th Nov 2011 (date changed due to public holiday in Singapore on 7th Nov)
Address in Singapore:
Athlete's Circle
27 Boon Tat Street
Singapore 069623
Tel: +6563726388
Time: 10am to 7pm
(please take note that self pick up option for Singapore runners will no longer available if registration after 15th September 2011)

2)  Self pick up in Penang at QB Mall on 18th and 19th Nov 2011 (before 5pm on 19th Nov 2011)


Running singlet / Running bibs:
Half Marathon running bib number starts with:
D - Half Marathon Men Open
E - Half Marathon Women Open
F - Half Marathon Men Veteran
G - Half Marathon Women Veteran

Thursday, 17 November 2011

thank you roomates

I am very thankful and grateful that throughout my 3 years of Degree studies in Kampar, i have 2 good roomates who are always there.

The first roomate was Siang Yong, my classmate.

Now it's Ah Liang, 3 years younger than me.

Thank you. 

Tuesday, 15 November 2011

It's about the heart

Remember.. Everything is about the heart. Don’t give excuses. If you really want it, nothing can stop you. 

hectic weeks ahead

This short semester is ending very soon.

Today is Tuesday of Week 5.

Another 3 weeks to go for before the semester ends and I’ll have my final exam for the one last time before I graduate.

To be exact,
17 days left in 7 weeks of studies.
15 days before we say hie to December.
27 days before exam week starts.

The remaining 15 days of the month will be the most hectic one. It’s kind of critical.

There are so many things to settle.

And the most important one is about studies.

It’s the time to settle all of them and it must be done by this month.

There are 2 presentations, 1 radio assignment, 1 video assignment, 1 mid-term, 1 written assignment, 1 report and FYP!

Wohooo!

Yes I can handle it. Yes I can! Yes I can. yes I can…


There are more things that i want to do.


This is my last chance and i will do the very best for year 2010.

OCE!
Cut down your time on FB.
Don’t eat so long.
Don’t sleep so much.
Control yourself, don’t play too much,
Don’t talk too much.
Cut down unnecessarily activities.
Sleep late and wake up early!


FINAL LAP OF 3 WEEKS!

Moonstruck in The Star



I'm thankful that my photo appeared in The Star again 2 days ago on Nov 13. =p

quote of the day

If you ever feel jealous of people’s achievements, work hard and get it yourself.

Monday, 14 November 2011

lives found in Kampar


I got some really hot and sexy girls photos to show. Really!! Are you ready?

Jeng jeng jeng..

Ok? Set? ON!
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You cilakak pervert!

If you really scroll the page down to look at hot babes, then you are really shit la. hahaha. Sorry ya I didn’t take any photos of girl today.

Ladies and gentlemen, today is about animals.

Wohooo!

Say wohooo!

Wo.. hooo!

Today was a very productive day. I had an assignment discussion with Sarah, Rachael and Tiffany in my house. Amirah and Poovan were not here. It has been so long since we were last together to do assignment. I miss those days.

Then, all of the sudden I got emo in the early evening. Stress I guess. Too many thoughts were running wild in my mind.

So I went into the jungle to look for ducks and chickens.

Manatau satu ekor itik dengan ayam semua pun takda.

At the end I found something else. Look at the photos and you’ll know what it is.

And it’s this something else that cheered up my day.

Kampar is such a beautiful and amazing place.

You’ll be amazed with its scenery and breathtaking view. You’ll be surprised to see animals that you might only able to see from textbook.

Staying in Kampar for 3 years, I’ve seen cow, buffalo, firefly, migratory birds, frog, monitor lizard and so on.

If i can materialized my dream house, it would be a small hut in the middle of the jungle.




A cute puppy in Westlake. It's so damn black. It's so cute. The puppy is just 2 months old. I never really play with a doggy before but i fall in love with this one. I wana take it and run away! This puppy must be from the same family as Hwei Huih's Lucky i think. 


Grasshopper. 


Look carefully. It's actually a spider. =p


I guess this is called caterpillar.


Ok this is ant. In Bahasa Malaysia, this is called semut. 


Haha. Now who can tell me what is this? I don't know what creature is this. 


Ladybird. So tiny and cute..


This is epic. A group of buffaloes are having their evening bath. Buffaloes or kerbau can actually dive into the water!! They can swim! wow!



katak di bawah tempurung

Kenapa dipanggil katak di bawah tempurung? Kerana katak itu asyik berada di bawah tempurung. Katak bodoh. Katak hanya tahu duduk diam di satu tempat dan melihat-lihat. Kalau katak itu sanggup dan berani keluar daripada tempurung, maka tiada lagi katak di bawah tempurung. Jangan jadi katak di bawah tempurung. Jangan kau digelar katak di bawah tempurung. Jadilah katak di atas, tepi ataupun luar tempurung. Setiap tempurung itu boleh dipecahkan.

Hidup ini terlalu indah dan singkat untuk kita hanya melakukan perkara yang sama setiap hari.

Fikir-fikirkanlah. 

YOU are quoted

"Do not mourn for the past, or worry about the future, but do live in the present moment wisely and earnestly. Then, happiness comes."

~ Kow Kwan Yee
~ 9.14pm
~ 12/11/2011
~ via FB

new song by Penny 戴佩妮 - 回家路上



hey listen to this song. you Chinese song listeners must really listen to this song.

I like the melody. The MV is even better.

She went to India to shoot her video clip.

Oh i must go to India one day.

Sunday, 13 November 2011

Happy Birthday Cynthia Lim















i like banana



I love banana.

I was so desperate to get one after dinner.

So I went to the Mamak shop to get one.

Ahhh.. sexy! Damn nice.

I bought a sebatang fat sweet and long banana for 50 cent.

Cheap and yummy!

Banana is very good for health ok.

It contains potassium.

But sometimes after you eat, you might need to go sit in the toilet.

For your information, single banana can be bought from mamak restaurants in Kampar.

You can go to Ghany, Maha Maju or Premas.

Makanlah banana sebelum anda dibananakan!

quote of the day

It does not matter how long you took to finish a run as long as you completed it. 

Saturday, 12 November 2011

Run OCE Run



Wohooo!

I am so kuailan to dig my own grave.

I didn't exercise for so long but tomorrow i'm going for a 7KM Trekathon at Taman Botani Negara, Shah Alam. It’s organized by my uni. Since this is my last semester already, I just go and have fun la. 


It's my first time to run in KL.

Next week I’ll go for 21km Penang Bridge Run.

I am crazy I know. Seriously I feel like smack my head for registering 21KM Penang Bridge Marathon. I never run for such a long distance before. The most is 10KM.

I was in dilemma whether to run 10KM or 21KM. At the end I chose 21KM. I want to challenge myself. I have never done it before and I want to do it. I want to achieve something that i know it’s hard to achieve. I know that the decisions I make always come with a heavy price, but I still want to do it. The hardest it is, the happier I am. If I don’t do it now, I might not able to do next year. I believe that as we grow older, we will be less adventurous. We will be less brave.

That’s why I am always that crazy, do the things that majority of the people don’t do.  Haha.

Baguslah! Tolong sediakan paramedic for the run. I might need it. Tq.

I remember when I was small during primary school time, I always want to join marathon. When I reached the qualifying age at bout 12, I started to run until I was 17. In one year, I joined about 5 runs and i love to collect the participation certificate. But as I grown up, I slow down. And after my high school, I seldom join any run anymore. Lazy..

Tapi saya masih suka aktiviti lasak. I’m born for adventurous and challenging activity. I kecik-kecik tapi kuat jugak tau.

Running is actually a very miraculous thing when you can sweat out all your tense and stress.

I love running but my stamina is not that strong.

Strength does not come from your feet but your mind.

Kalau hati dan minda kuat, kaki pun akan kuat.

Kekuatan kita bukan terletak pada anggota badan tapi hati.

It’s ok I will complete the run tomorrow and I will never finish last!


I will wake up earlier to warm up.. last minute warm up.

USH!

OCE bokiasi!

I run when i have to run and i want to run like Forrest Gump.

Run OCE run!

"lu mai knua wa san-san cit ki kut. wa holiao lu knua beh chut!"

Quote from Miss Lydia Yeow: gaya masa berlari. mutu nampak dar kasut pelari. keunggulan gua rasa boleh nampak masa masuk ambulance

Manny Pacquiao the destroyer!


My jaw drops watching Manny Pacquiao in action.

He’s one of the very best boxer I’ve ever seen.

His punch is too powerful. He moves like wind. He’s just too fast to be defended.

He’s good in what he’s doing. He worked hard to achieve what he has today.

Wow! I’m inspired!



Tian Shen Sect in Penang

For more, read it at http://monkeygod2u.wordpress.com/page/2/

111111 full moon

111111 was actually normal for me except for the fact that the number is unique.

But thinking of uniqueness, isn't everyday also unique and special? We can't repeat or rewind the time.

I was so blur that i went to my class at 10am when the class is actually at 11am. zzz...

And there was supposed a briefing at 10pm and i was late for it.

i was so damn bored the whole day. Felt so lost and meaningless. Didn't know what to do..

Sometimes, this is what happened in life.

You need to get back to the track and be focus.

Sien nak mampui! Panas pulak tu! Macam babi panggang! Babi panggang pun lagi sedap. Eh betul la.

i slept early tonight at about 8pm and i woke up at 11pm.

Fulamak!

The moon was so bright and round like the yolk. The entire sky was lighten up by the moon light.


I stood by the window enjoying the beauty of full moon. It was so bright that the light shines into the room. This might be the 2nd last or even the last full month for many of us who'll graduate from UTAR Kampar this year. 

Whatever it is, always enjoy the beauty while it last because beauty never last long.


So as usual, i went out with my camera to document the beauty of the night. I might not see it again tomorrow.

111111 ended with something nice, at last. =p

To see the photo, please click http://oce-thephotojournalist.blogspot.com/2011/11/full-moon-on-111111.html

You will see nothing if you go and stand by the window now because the clouds are blocking it. It seems like it's gona rain.

Friday, 11 November 2011

YOU are quoted

"It's not wrong to have an excited face or even a smile! Can bright up someone's day!"

~ Patrina Anjali
~ 11.11.11
~ via Twitter

*your words made me smile*

Graduation (Friends Forever) - Vitamin C



Well, this song is specially dedicated to those who are graduating soon especially to my classmates.

3 years passed so fast.

3 years ago we don't know each other.

but after 3 years, i believe we will miss each other. Our tears will drop when we bid goodbye.

Time flies and we move on.

I will miss all of you.

Friends forever.

I love you all.

Thursday, 10 November 2011

stupid asshole driver

Some people are really stupid asshole. Drive car but no brain. The bigger the car, the brainless the driver is! What the fuck with my new housemate. Block the entire gate of the house and not even a person can walk through. This is not the first time ok. Almost everyday they block the entrance. Sometimes they block quarter of the road. There’s already a car in the parking area. They are lazy to find a place to park and they squeeze in their car. But it can never fit. Don’t drive if you don’t know how to park. Ciaksai! Lu mia bapak mia jalan ka? Lesen kopi ka? Le ma leh!

Make me so tulan!

At the end, i confront the driver. I said it straight to his face that his blocking the entire entrance. He said sorry and moved his car somewhere. 

The Great Women of our Time Awards 2011


Congratulations to NORA MURAT, the executive director of Amnesty International Malaysia, for winning The Great Women of our Time Awards 2011 under the category of Education and Public Service. It is an award honouring 18 outstanding women who are significant contributors in shaping the future of various fields and the lives of others. Nora will be receiving RM 5000 and she is giving the prize money to the Youth Network of Amnesty International Malaysia for their projects.

wau factor

I always take photographs of people and sometimes i send it to The Star.

But this time i was being photographed and i appeared in The Star newspaper.

It was the work of Jwen, the one that have complex mood swing but she's a nice friend la.. =p

Luck was on her side as it was her 1st time sending photo to The Star Thumbnails.

Maybe because i was inside. lalaalala!

YES I CAN!

I know I can do it. Yes I can. I’m not that bad. I just need to do it instead of wanting to do it! Seriously, if others can, why not me?

Wednesday, 9 November 2011

snap me!

Have been photographing people for so long but today finally I was being photographed. Wahahaha!

snap me!

Have been photographing people for so long but today finally I was being photographed. Wahahaha!

my blog is getting boring

yea..

like what the title says.

My blog is getting boring. memang pun betul. kanasai betul. tak happening la. macam sudah boh syiok! last time i simply talk whatever i like. but now.. I feel like.. i've changed!

hmmm.. people changed.

but i really gila la last time. kurang hasam betul.

I mengarut. merepek. mencarut. merapu.

Anyway below conversation is between me and Dexter yesterday at MSN.


Dexter Khaw says (9:27 PM)
haha
lu mia blog sipek complicated lo sekarang

oh chin eng says (9:27 PM)
fuyoooo

Dexter Khaw says (9:27 PM)
random topic all baca till pening

oh chin eng says (9:27 PM)
like how?!!
haimeh
mana ader..
normal je i tink

Dexter Khaw says (9:27 PM)
to me lebih rumit d

Dexter Khaw says (9:28 PM)
sipek banyak fact and voice of your mind

oh chin eng says (9:28 PM)
=p
Wow

Dexter Khaw says (9:28 PM)
tak menarik and lawak anymore

oh chin eng says (9:28 PM)
makin sexy
eh yalo2
i pun rasa mcm tu
duno y nowadays lbh serius n intellectual
no more pangsai! ish! sien!

Dexter Khaw says (9:28 PM)
yealo very boring

Tuesday, 8 November 2011

quote of the day

democracy is sometimes so problematic and chaotic when everyone also wants to be heard. autocratic is needed to make things done faster and easier.

JR Happy Moment

I am going to graduate soon end of this year.

Very soon.

Very soon..

I start to feel nostalgic and sad looking at the photos i took with my classmates throughout our 3 years of studies in UTAR Kampar.

I know i am so gona miss them.

People come people go but they, my friends stay in my mind and heart always..

Monday, 7 November 2011

Singkong dan Keju - Bill and Brod




Kau bilang cinta padaku
Kalau ku bilang pikir dulu
Selera kita
Terlalu jauh berbeda

(*)
Parfum mu dari Paris
Sepatu mu dari Italy
Kau bilang demi gengsi
Semua serba luar negeri

Manakah mungkin mengikuti caramu
Yang penuh hura-hura

Reff:
Aku suka jaipong kau suka disko
Oh oh oh oh
Aku suka singkong kau suka keju
Oh oh oh oh
Aku dambakan seorang gadis yang sederhana
Aku ini hanya anak singkong
Aku hanya anak singkong

Back to (*)

quote of the day

Things may be expensive but it’s ok as long as it’s good and last long.

Sunday, 6 November 2011

i found Ghee Urendeh!



Finally.. Finally..

I found my favourite Indian delicacy, Ghee Urundeh.

I was like jumping up and down upon seeing it.

I missed it so much.

I can't find it in Kampar.

I started to fall in love on it when i was in secondary school. I remember i went to my teacher's house for Deepavali and she gave me that.

Thanks to my good friend, Murukesh and Kumahresh and his family for that.


I tapao 4 Ghee Urundehs home.

lalalaa.

I AM SO HAPPY!

Sunday in Penang


12.59pm 6.11.2011

Nice view from my balcony after a downpour. It's nice to just relax at home on a Sunday. It's a good time to recharge and rejuvenate. Sometimes you need to slow down in life to get more joy. =)

Saturday, 5 November 2011

Volunteers for PT Foundation Needed

Dear friends of PT Foundation/MAC/MAF,

Greetings and hope you have a good week.

This is to inform you that volunteers needed to make red ribbons for this year's RED Carnival 2011 @ PT HQ Office on weekdays/ or @ PBKS Center at Tan Com Building, located next to Tune Hotel, on weekends.

Kindly refer to our online location map for direction at www.ptfmalaysia.org

We are targeting to make 50,000 to 80,000 pieces or more of red ribbons for this year's event, which is our highest ever, and we need volunteers to come to the PT HQ Office to help make this a reality from next week till the weekend ending, before the RED Carnival 2011 @ Sungei Wang Plaza (26 & 27 November 2011).

Training will be provided and your help needed during weekdays (office hours) or weekends. Kindly contact us at 03-4044 4611 from Monday to Friday (from 10am to 6pm) if you think you can help out.

Thank you for your kind attention and look forward to hear from you. Good weekend and take care.

PT Foundation

Aku Cinta Padamu - Sheila Majid

Friday, 4 November 2011

Peace..

Relax, concentrate, control your breathe, calm your mind, listen to your heart beat, put off your anger, peace..

eeew TV3

I puked blood watching TV3 news. That's why i stopped watching Buletin Utama since few years ago. TV3, you have totally lost ur credibility n trust from the ppl. Since when Seksualiti Merdeka festival event turns into 'perhimpunan seks bebas'?! You are saying the event is to promote 1 night stand, having group sex or sex partner exchange is it? TV3 u r so damn fcuking sickening! Why must you frame people up? Pls dun twist n spin the words 360. Your job is to report the truth, not to lick ur boss ass. media taik cirit buat malu aje! shame on u!

When i was small, i respect TV3 and i dreamt to be an anchor in TV3, but now podakh! 

I WILL BE SO SAD IF ANYONE I KNOW WORKS FOR TV3 OR UTUSAN MALAYSIA. SERIOUSLY!

as a reporter

I feel that as a reporter, we don’t cover news only when someone calls us to cover news. News is everywhere and all the time. Reporter should go out there to cover it on their own initiative. Never sit and wait. Be alert. Be the voice for the people. 

a toast

Thursday, 3 November 2011

democracy buried alive

Demokrasi sudah mati,
terkubur dalam-dalam
di dalam liang hahad.

Aku hak aku
Tapi hari ini
Kebebasan ku dirampas
Aku kalah menjadi diri sendiri
Aku diikat tali
Dipaksa mengikut apa kamu suka


Minoriti dipersenda
Yang kecil bilangannya dibuli
Tak pernah kau hormat 
Si kaum minoriti
Orang Asal dipijak
Kini LGBTIQ dilanyak

Kau manusia
Aku manusia
Siapa kau
Kau siapa
Untuk menghakimi aku

Sebaik-baik aku
Sejahat-jahat aku
Biar Tuhan yang tentukan
Bukan kau!

Aku berhak
Memilih cara hidup sendiri
Dan orientasi seks serta jantina sendiri.

It’s a sad thing that Seksualiti Merdeka Festival has just been banned by the police force.

What is wrong with the festival? If you don’t like, you don’t go. If you don’t agree with them, you don’t ban them and if you hate them, you can choose not to be friend with them.

It’s as simple as that.

Education has been politicized. Religion has been politicized. Now, sex and gender are being politicized.

This is my country, Malaysia.

Democracy has buried alive.

Democracy belongs to all.

I learnt in my religion, Pendidikan Moral, Pengajian Am, Pengajian Malaysia, 1 Malaysia and from the society to accept everyone for who they are. I learnt to respect and understand them.

There must be equal rights and human dignity not just for ourselves, but also for those who are different ie. straight, gay, lesbian, bisexual, intersex, transgender, asexual, unsure or simply fabulous.

Any festival that has to do with them is now illegal. I wonder will these people be arrested. Will these words (straight, gay, lesbian, bisexual, intersex, transgender, asexual) be censored from the press, tv and radio.

Will I be arrested for having them as my friends? Will I be arrested if I ever use those words.

I still believe this is a democratic country.

I hope I was wrong when I think that democracy has flushed away like the shit i just produced.


54 years of independence? Merdekakah kita?


I have no idea..