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Tuesday, 27 July 2010

happy burning midnite oil


it's time it's time.

it's a hectic week. everyone is tense. everyone is stress. some people are just not in the mood.


but hey it's ok, im still very positive. when you are positive, you'll think positively although the situation is not that positive.

so what im saying?

it's ok la what people wana say or think.. yea nvm lo.. they will be fine after a while.. but you must play your role properly la. be good. =p

it has been quite some time since i burn midnite oil to do assignments or study for exam.

tonight im doing it again.

3 assignments to submit and 1 mid-term this week.

1. Journalism II mid-term : Wednesday 28/7/2010

2. Communication Technology asgmnt : to submit to Tiff by tonight. almost done.

3. Contemporary Malaysian Politics : Wednesday 28/7/2010

4. Travel Article : Thursday 29/7/2010

fun isn't?

hahaha. and you'll hear people complain this and that. assignments not good. slides not all. all not good bla bla. so make sure u do good good la.

happy burning midnite oil people.


dilemma of an ex-bf

i was and still talking to a good friend from Penang.

he's in dilemma whether to visit her sick ex-gf in the hospital.

simple situation isn't? i scold him. i ask him to go visit her. i persuade him. but he still stick to her decision not to go. he has his own reasons.

and he says..

"she dont need me anymore. she needs her bf, friends and family. not her ex. that's why faizah also dont want you. she surely dont want to c me also. so i better buat bodoh dont do anything. i'm a small peanut in everyone's life."

ouch! but im not offended or hurt la. it just HIT me right on my head. it's so true.

who are you now? what's your role? what's your significant in people's life?

what i can say to my friend is people around you care for you. i definitely care for you. don't be pessismistic. im sad to look at him like this.

i agree with him that we can't trust people 100%. when they don't have partner, they say they will be there to listen to talk bla bla bla. when they are in good terms with you, they say the same things too. but when they have partner already or when they argue with you, things totally changed. you become their enemy. you become unknown to them. you become a stranger. you become nobody to them.

does this sounds familiar to you?? this doesn't only happen to a relationship but also in a friendship.

Me n him are now are single. i call our geng as the Gay geng cuz everytime i go back to Penang, only few of us, the guys who are single. The rest? either studying out of Penang or have their own partners already.

the difference between two of us is he buang her ex-gf but still love her, at that time. but my case is i kena buang by my ex-gf but i still love her, at that time.

i think i would face the same situation like him too if one day my ex is sick. should i visit her or not. what will she feels? what will her bf thinks? what will her family perceives me?

the question now is will you talk, see or contact her since she got bf already? will you? let's just face the situation first then you let me know the answer. another question is, will she respond to you if she got a bf already??

haha.. i know i shouldn't think that much. you visit cuz you care. just visit that person la cuz who knows you might not see her again. just go visit lo cuz you still care, you are still a human, with feelings. don't think too much.

i always think of others all the time. yes all the time. i put others before me. that's me la.. couldn't help it.

some people always tell me to think for myself first before others. i duno, i just can't do that. too cruel i would say. seriously if i can make people happy, then it's my happiness too.

i pray that everyone i love is always good in health la cuz i can't bear the pain in my heart to see any of you not ok.

when you face this dilemma, just think la the pros and cons. don't make it so complicated, cuz everything is just very simple. if your intention is good, just do it and leave the rest to Him.

curfew is over

Good morning!

Self-reflection time is over.

Curfew time is over.

Puasa time is over. Buka puasa at 6pm.

Fasting from handphones and all kind of communications dah over.

I’ve been a way from people and internet. I didn’t online and I silent my hp.

i had enough time to be alone and to think.

Im kind of energetic?

My mind has awaken.. a bit?

I meditate, I took a nap, I bathed slowly and I chant.

I feel so refreshing la. I’ve put everything negative behind and look forward.

I just hope things will be back to normal but in a better way after this.

Ok got to go, have to finish up my assignment to send it to Tiff.

you know.. it's a relief to talk to your advisor who's like your mother. at least someone willing to listen and not judgemental. =p


self-reflection time

ok i declared that today is my SELF-REFLECTION day.

means yes no disturbance.

no phone calls, no sms, no e-mail, no chat, no FB, no internet lah..

I just wana be alone..

I don't wana talk to anyone.

I don't wana see anyone.

I need time for myself after whatsoever things that happened.

Again, it's time to reflect on myself n my life and my surrounding.

Im looking for some peace..

im looking for an answer..

im looking for my soul..

ku cari damai abadi..

mana kau damai, mana kau aman.

refresh, rejuvenate, reborn..


curfew until 8pm.

hehe. tq. tata.