best hardest lesson in 3 years

Doing my Degree for 3 years and finishing it at the end of the year, I got the best lesson ever in my university’s life.

It’s through a very hard way.

It’s my fault. It’s my bad attitude. It’s what I deserved.

My legs are painful but it’s not as severe as the jab on my heart.

You know.. I was shivering, body temperature is so high and I so wana puke.

But it’s worth it i guess.. I will remember today.


I am tired of arguing.

So if you guys feel like procrastinating, you better don’t. =p


WAKE UP! LOOK AT YOURSELVES INTO THE MIRROR. SLAP SLAP SLAP!

GUYS, BE A MAN!

Some thoughts to ponder..

1.           If you fall, remember to stand up again. The world is not always dark.

2.           You don’t tell the whole word the bad things about your friends. Yes, your friends.

3.           If you make mistakes, admit it and don’t repeat it again.

4.           When you are in trouble, then you will know who your friends are and what it means to be a friend. The term is very subjective.

5.           It’s unforgivable if you keep on repeating the same mistakes.

6.           Teamwork is when everyone helps everyone and not getting a black sheep.

7.           You have to bear the consequences of the mistakes you made.

8.           Silence is not golden when there is crisis.

9.           Face the problem, never hide from it.

10.       Jobs delayed are jobs not done.

11.       The last thing you ever feel like doing in life is procrastination.

12.       It’s easier to blame others than to be responsible.

13.       True friends will not only say good things about you but the hurtful but truthful words too.

14.       It’s a human nature that when you make mistakes, they will tend to forget all the good things that you have done.

15.       It’s scary when a friend can say something bad behind you and a minute after that be so nice in front of you.

16.       Some people seem to be a good friend in front of people but they not always at the back.

17.       Nothing is sadder than someone that you trusted so much side others.

18.       In every dark clouds, there will be golden ray of lights at the end of the day.

19.       Hati budi manusia paling senang untuk dilihat apabila anda di dalam kesusahan.

20.       Seringkali gajah depan hidung tak nampak, semut seberang laut pula jelas kelihatan.

hectic weeks ahead

This short semester is ending very soon.

Today is Tuesday of Week 5.

Another 3 weeks to go for before the semester ends and I’ll have my final exam for the one last time before I graduate.

To be exact,

17 days left in 7 weeks of studies.

15 days before we say hie to December.

27 days before exam week starts.

The remaining 15 days of the month will be the most hectic one. It’s kind of critical.

There are so many things to settle.

And the most important one is about studies.

It’s the time to settle all of them and it must be done by this month.

There are 2 presentations, 1 radio assignment, 1 video assignment, 1 mid-term, 1 written assignment, 1 report and FYP!

Wohooo!

Yes I can handle it. Yes I can! Yes I can. yes I can…


There are more things that i want to do.


This is my last chance and i will do the very best for year 2010.

OCE!

Cut down your time on FB.

Don’t eat so long.

Don’t sleep so much.

Control yourself, don’t play too much,

Don’t talk too much.

Cut down unnecessarily activities.

Sleep late and wake up early!


FINAL LAP OF 3 WEEKS!

hai FYP

Langsir ditutup rapi
Cahaya terik dilitupi
Bilik jadi gelap gelita
Kipas berpusing laju
Bagai diserang histeria
Sedap untuk tidur mati

Jam berdetik
Tiada tanda akan berhenti

Masa menyusur
Hati resah
Nafas sesak
Kerja berlambak

Tapi malas menguasai diri
Ku jadi pemarah dan moody
Bukan kehendak menjadi begini
Tapi ku lemah di sanubari

Penat mencari motivasi
Di mana kau inspirasi
Hilang kau diterminasi
Mana pergi..

Aku perlu berhenti berkasih
Berhenti berpacaran dengan teknologi
Diramas idea materialistik
Dan sepastik
Kembali ke dunia hakiki
Balik ke jalan
Menuju ke FYP

Biar yang pergi berlalu pergi
Usah diungkit kembali
Sedangkan pokok boleh bercambah lagi

Fotografi kau blah dari sini
Akan ku ceraikan mu
Kau menghancur konsentrasi ku
Takpe, kita masih boleh bermadu
Perkara lain-lain, letak ke tepi
FYP jadi prioriti

Bangunlah kau
Bangun

Akan ku bangun dari kerusi
FB kau berambus dari sini
Biar cahaya masuk ke mari
Biar kejahatan berlalu pergi
Biar otak bersih berseri
Biar ku setia pada mu FYP

Mai aku siapkan kau FYP
Officially starts malam ini
Susah akan ku harungi
Kalau tidak
Tiadalah graduasi

final stay in Kampar

I’m back in Kampar again yesterday. This will be the last time I come back to Kampar for a new semester. Hopefully I can graduate by the end of this year, as it is supposed to be.

Class starts next Monday but surprisingly I’m a week earlier. What to do.. I must finish my Final Yeap Project (FYP). If not, no graduation. Besides, there are things to settle in Kampar.

My mum forced me to take pocket money from her before I left the house. I declined. I’ve been doing that for a year at least. My younger brother and my sister need the money more than me. My brother is already working and giving money to my parents but I take money from my parents? This is so wrong.

It’s ok. I can still survive with PTPTN loan. But I must be very careful with what I spend. I left with only few thousands ringgit till the end of the year. New semester always comes with bigger expenses. Money have to be used on room rental, school fees, groceries, books and notes as well as to fix the broken things such as bike and bicycle.

My brother fetched me to the jetty. Then I took morning bus which I nearly missed and reached Kampar in the afternoon. The house was in a mess as if it was abandoned for months. A war taken place in the house I guess.

It’s nice to be back. The whether was superb. It has been two days that the sky is so blue. The clouds are so thick and white. It’s so windy and at night, it’s chilling. It’s sunny but not hot at all. The weather makes me so cheerful!

My roommate, Ah Liang is back too. So nice to see him.

Anyway, once I reached Kampar, I was invited for lunch at Aunty Betty’s house. I rejected at first but after that she called. Out of respect, I went. She made very nice chicken rice. Seriously nice! Tze Huey, Cynthia and Edmund were there too.

Then it’s the housekeeping time, as usual.

Let’s see what I’ve done..

I had good food and nice bath.

Sweep and mop my room and the hall.

Unload stuffs from my luggage and begpack.

Fix my bike.

Put on bed sheet.

Clean the sinky.

Boil water.

Fold clothes.

Put on facial mask.

Arrange things in the drawer and cupboard.

I had a wonderful dinner last night with Tze Huey. My mum woke up at 6am in the morning yesterday to cook for me. She made me fish curry, omelette with onion and ikan bilis, sausages, and nuggets. I tapao back to Kampar and supposed to eat it for lunch but I was too fulled after lunch at Aunty Betty’s house. My mum made cokodok too. Many people don't know what's that. It's a banana ball la.

You know.. I haven’t finished arranging my stuffs yet. Too many things and rubbish la. Today will be the last day to settle everything.

I can’t wait to fully concentrate on my FYP..

October is a FYP month.

messy

EVerything is messy like the lines and colors in this photo. Im feeling stress and tired as well. when i close my eyes, my mind is till running here and there. nice sleep? never! Physically tired. that's ok. Physicals can heal. But when the mind is tired, it's hard to continue working.

My room is messy. i hardly have time to really clean it.

My mind is messy. too many things to think and too many things to do at the same time.

my assignments are messy. 2 more presentations and 1 written report.

hmmm.. messy messy. is your life messy?

well, everything can be messy but not your life.

it's still raining

waterdrops from my window.

well, it's still raining out there. whole night already.

i didn't go out for dinner because my bike break down last night.

thanks to my senior, Elween who fetched me to uni this afternoon.

hmmm.. it has been some time since my blog is about my daily life. i mean, in 1 post i talk about what happen bla bla bla la.. you know.. tonight i just feel like writing a diary. who cares! if you don't like, you don't read la. If you wana attack my personal life also go ahead la. you got nothing better to do right??

today is the official day i cycle to uni in this semester although it's the second time. the first time was last Friday when i cycled all the way for 20minutes to Eastlake to meet Pei Suang and the rest then cycled for another 10mins to uni.

have to cycle lo, what to do, motor rosak ma. Siang Yong came to my house and we cycled together. we used to cycle to uni a lot last time before i got my bike. the feeling of nostalgic was there. the sky was so blue with the sunny clouds. the guard waved to me, telling me it's good to cycle. hahaha. of course it's good cuz they don't have to face me, who always try to sneek into uni. my bike don't have sticker actually. shhh.. =p

i had a presentation today. i did something different for the presentation la and i know it's not well accepted especially by a friend when she showed her disgruntled face, not looking at us at all throughout the whole presentation. hmmm.. it's ok. at least i and my groupmates dare to do something different. it's actually a simple presentation. we have to interview politicians. so we feel it'll be boring if we just explain and compare the politicians. at the end, we acted out the whole interview session. hahah. this is the very first time i act in my presentation i think. is it?? =p

my classmates especially Dai Ga Jie, Ah Joo, PC, Pei Suang and Ai Loon were so high tonight. they kept on spamming my Facebook wall by tagging me in their video. Oh God! i tell you, in total, it's more than 30 videos lo. siao la! they were so damn high. duno why.. everyone pakat and attack me. hahaa.

Then i posted this is my Facebook status, "oh JR-ians Jan 2009 intake sekalian. spam me la till this December. Wherever you all go, i will follow you, till we say bye bye. YESSSH!! muakS!".

We are going to graduate by the end of this year. I can see many people have developed, i won't use the change la. I can see developments in them. some become better in ENglish especially Ai Loon. i love to see her talk nowadays. And Vivien is not that crazy anymore. While for Mirawani, i'm touched and impressed when she let go her dream of winning a modelling competition for her studies. These are just the very few examples.

Being here in UTAR 3 years more or less has make us grown up. Saying goodbye is a hard thing but i'm sure before we say goodbye, we'll spend a lot of time together. And they already plan to go Genting Highlands in Week 13, Pangkor Island in Week 14, Terengganu in semester break and Sarawak end of this year.

hahaha. habis koyaklah poket i. But aiyah don't berkira so much la. seriously think about this, do you think you'll have the chance to travel with them after you graduate? i'm not trying to be sentimental here but this is the fact. you can have thousandsss of friends in the cyber world, but true friends only a few of them and in university's life, your classmates are your true friends.

cherish them. make use of the time when you are with them. forgive and forget, support each other.

i talk too much. lalalalalalala.

class at 8am tomorrow. oh hope that the rain won't stop so that i can sleep till the afternoon. haha. how to go to uni if it's rain. ayayaya.

one more thing, one last thing before i end my 'speech', my photos may be not good enough to be put into an exhibition, it's ok, because at least i still have my Facebook and blog to share the beauty of my life through the lense.

in presentation..

You might be so much better than your friends. You might not like the contents, language proficiency or style of their presentation but out of respect, you should not show your disgruntled face to them. As your friends, aren't you supposed to give them moral support? You are not perfect either. Accept others differences like how you want people to accept you.

1 hour shower

GOOOOOOOOOOD MORNING!!

ahhh..

1 hour hot shower in the early morning is so sexy..

hahahaha =p

i feel so syiok just came out from the bathroom.

i went in at 5.30am and came out around 6.30am.

yea i must be crazy i bathed for 1 hour.

i just couldn't resist the syiokness of hot shower. i kept on pouring myself with hot water because it's cold la.

some more, i feel like i didn't bath for so long already, so ganti balik la.

sometimes i'll sleep in the toilet too. hehe.

how? let me give you some tips. you can either sit or squat or lie on the wall.

see how easy is that.

lalalalala...

i feel so energetic and refreshing right now.

semangat nak buat banyak manyak benda hari ini!

come on assignments! i'll deal with you today before Jing Wen deal with me.

and now, i wana go to Old Town for a nice roti bakar. UTAR-ians Kampar-ians, this roti bakar shop will soon, very soon in these few weeks be demolished. Go and have a taste of the traditional roti bakar before it's gone.

wohoooo!

busy --> stress --> down

I never meant to be emo.

I don't want.

But the situation makes me to feel that way.

This semester is a very hectic, packed, stresful and important semester.

I have to deal with Internship application, Final Year Project, assignments, SRC etc etc.

I feel the time i spend with my friends are getting less.

No personal quality time at all.

Yea before this we had a lot of public holidays. It's not a good thing ok cuz it makes all of us so lazy. But i know that is not a good reason not to do your works.

I need to talk to people. To express myself. But everyone also busy. I don't wana bother anyone. My friends are busy too.

I actually just came back from discussion. I haven't taken my dinner and my shower. Came back home around 6pm, took a nap and rushed for discussion at 8pm.

I'm having a presentation tomorrow with Jing Wen and Jie Ee.

As usual, Jing Wen always say something and do another thing. This is her style. She won't express something directly. cilaka right. hahaha.

I feel i really get down to work seriously since last week.

Why.. Cuz time is running out.

What i should do is less blogging and less FB.

Always set my priority!

My roomate is already sleeping and the light is still on because i'm doing my assignment. i feel so bad la..

nvm, he is very understanding. I'll go eat my burger, take my shower and continue with my assignment.

All the best for my friends too.

Last but not least, happy birthday to Xiang Lin and Jing Wen. I love you all. =p

BIG things to do

alalalalala...

BUSY BUSY BUSY!!

yes yes busy.

will be busy from this week this April.

In fact many of us started to be busy from last month.

a lot of things to do this semester.

hmmm..

but for tonight...

I want to accomplish 3 tasks!

3 is enough la. Not too less, not too much.

at least i have an aim and i'm working on it.

It's ok if you say out your dream and then you can't achieve it.

how can you say people cakap kosong?

A dream is not an empty entity. You dare to achieve something for yourself.

Whether you achive it or not, it's another matter.

I'm actually feeling so sleepy right now. Doctor ask me don't take coffee must i can't resist it.

so..

i wana done these things before i sleep tonight.

1) Assignment

2) Sponsorship letter and proposal

3) Confirm and inform SRC Monthly Dialogue Session

4) Resume

5) Send application form to be the staff for March Introduction Weekend

* I'm really stress. What i hope from friends is just an understanding and care. That'll all to keep someone keep on fighting.

assignment rush

NEWS UPDATE!

Live from 1194 Westlakes Homes.

A lot of Burung Hantus are awake tonight rushing for their assignment.

this is a good trend.

This is a week where all these burungs or birdbird sleep at 4am, 5am or even 7am.

for photo enthusiast, this is a good time to capture their photos when they are most active at night with their eyes half-opened.

and the wind is so strong and cool out there.

and the weather is so nice to sleep.

and a simple topic becomes so hard to explain.

BUATLAH ASSIGNMENTM MAJULAH SUKAN UNTUK NEGARA, SALAM 1 MALAYSIA.

*berita disampaikan oleh OCE.

injection.. again!

this is not the first, definitely not the last time i got injection in Kampar.

I had any injection today.

Reason??

got stung by some unknown insect while i was riding my bike!!

yea the thing stung me on the road!!

grrrhh!

it stung my neck ok. within few minutes, my whole body became so itchy. the pain is just too much to bear. my neck turned red.

went to the clinic with my friend. thanks to her.

oh ya, had an injection there.

aih..

sakit gila beb.

u noe. i had mor injections in Kampar compare to my 20 years living in Penang.

well..

life is good! =p i have a lot of things to do, schedule is packed. it's a good thing to keep us alive and life wouldn't be dull.

Im busy till next week.

Joint Operasi Lalang ( JR Gathering ) tomorrow. Balik kampung on Saturday.

good Culture n Communication presentation with Avinesh n Yogish today.

im now rushing for Public Administration assignment. SOrry im late.

the injection is making me so damn sleepy right now. eyes are shutting. tired! im like those drunk guy stim-stim blur-blur.

annek Kopi O' Kaokao satu.

hectic week

Everyone suffers in short semester.

Everyone will go crazy especially from week 3 - week 5.

I am so so gona go crazy.

yes, may things to do, many things happen in this week.

1) Public Administration midterm: today

2) Culture and Communication presentation: Thursday

3) Public Administration assignment: Friday

4) Treasure Hunt Competition: Wednesday

5) JR Gathering: Friday

6) Sister dancing competition: Sunday

7) Pay student bill

8) SRC: meeting, events, student welfare issues

9) etc etc.

eh, harder!!

eh, eh!!

harder..

HARDER!!

YES you can do it!

just push harder.

YES you can do it!

just work harder.

and u'll get good results!

go go go!

YES YOU CAN!!

3.33 and Dean's List!

too early or too late?

too late or too early??

i duno..

i just know that me n some of my friends from my course didn't sleep for whole night. hahaha. yeah crazy! we were doing newspaper assignment la. most of us finished it by 6am. some sleeping right now.

But here i am still awake, preparing for 8am class.

Finally i can on my laptop. but it will shut down by itself soon. aih..

Tiffany, Rachael and Siang Yong are enjoing their late supper aka breakfast at Ipoh McD. haha. I didn't go la cuz i sacred can't make it to the last tutorial class at 8am. then later 10am going to cycle to explore a place with coursemates.

susah la kan nanti tidur atas basikal atas jalan..

a long day ahead. body is so heaty. head is so heavy.

8am class
10am cycle and explore a warsite in the jungle
1pm go office settle SRC stuff
7pm Majlis Berbuka Puasa
9pm meeting

anyway too late or too early huh?

those people who are still awake at 6am, they will say 'wah so late already ah?'

but for those who just wake up, they will say 'wah so early ah?'

so today you belong to which group huh??

what am i toking about huh?? blur gila babik. but stil energetic and bersemangat =p

I tak..

I tak lansi.

I tak berkira.

I tak ganas.

I tak handsome.

I tak muscular.

I tak punctual.
I tak show off.

I tak pandai in IT.

I tak simpan dendam.

I tak boleh tak makan nasi.

I tak suka orang buang barang i.

I tak pandai English and Chinese.

I tak kisah if I have non-Chinese gf.

I tak boleh if people keep rushing and bugging me.

i tak tau apa lagi nak cakap.

TENGAH BER-OT. OVER-TIME TONIGHT LA!

Mahasiswa and Politics, Yes and No?

just wana share something thatt i wrote.

http://oce-thephotojournalist.blogspot.com/2010/08/mahasiswa-and-politics-yes-and-no.html

DAMN you stomach!

Grrhhh! Why everytime im in a rush and emergency, you cari pasai huh??

I cirit the whole morning and I feel asleep eventhough I woke up early to submit my Special Reporting assignment. I have to submit my assignment by 12pm. and guess what time I woke up. 1pm man! 1pm.

This is so oh my God la. grrhhhh! I was so blur and nervous. I rushed to printing shop to print. And it was raining.

So yea I was late to submit my assignment. Hmmm.. Miss Tan wana deduct 20%. Oklo.. I didn’t say no cuz it’s my fault. I should bear the responsibility and no one to be blame. She’s just being fair to everyone.

Lesson: don’t fall asleep after u wake up.

4 + 2

4 + 2 = 6

My maths still can pakai. haha.

4 more assignments.

2 more presentations.

crazy week ahead

Omg omg!!

Koyak koyak!

Sudah koyak now koyak lagi.

Now only I know there are few more assignments to pass up this week.

HABIS aku. Betul betul koyak this time.

Have to finish around 5 assignments in 5 days.

Wow!!

And I feel free tonight. Haha. must be because of the damn hot weather!!

Ok life is not just about assigments. I still have other stuffs to do. My room is kinda messy. A lot of unfolded clothes. Commitments in SRC n events.

Bagusla. Good training kan. multi-tasks.

Seriously I have to do well in assignments n presentations n get good marks in courseworks la. if not, exam lagi koyak.

Well.. my results last semester dropped d. I have to do something right?

YEA!! STUDIES FIRST! YES! another week with Kopi O' Kao Kao + less sleep + more pimples + uncertain makan time + high blood pressure + stress + anger.

Plan ur time baik baik la ye..

wahahah i can foresee another busy, pening, crazy, hectic, stressful, khisiau, hot, nonsense, pengsan, unpleasant, mohsin, moody, controversial, behtahan, tiring, gila babi, sour and bad week ahead.

so yeah people don't ask me do anything else besides than assignments k. n sorry i dun i can upload any pics in my FB. tunggu jap la. don't talk to me la for a week. later gua busy gua stress gua marah.

no problemo! Just work ur ass off! We can do it!! =p