Home: criminals producer

Keluargalah kilang yang melahirkan segala penjenayah dan sampah masyarakat di dunia.

Home, is the factory where criminals and society parasites are produced. 

Think about it. 

Ah Kong and Ah Heng

*same kind of smile but different in number of teeth* 

Have you ever heard that we are just a temporary resident of the earth? Wait is there such saying or it's from my own?

What I'm trying to say is people will eventually get old, get sick and they sick. Some they died due to accident, disaster or poverty. 

This is my paternal grandfather. Paternal grandmother has just passes away few weeks ago. I wonder how many more years my Ah Kong will be around.

I've always wanted to follow both of them back to our root, our home village in China but I didn't. No it wasn't my fault. I wasn't procrastinate.

But I'm still sad that I didn't fight for the chance to join their trip. I missed it twice. Now Ah Kong is alone. I don't think he wants to visit the place he came from anymore, since Ah Ma is not around. 

Malaysia has already became her country so many decades ago. 

I hope and always pray that my grandparents, both from my mother and father side will always be healthy and live long, as long as I'm alive..

amma has passed away

Dear all, my paternal grandmother (in town) has passed away peacefully yesterday at about 6pm due to old age. The wake is being held at Block 358, Macallum Street (opposite Nine Emporer God Temple) until next Monday 9/9/2012.  Funeral is scheduled at 2pm on Monday. If you wish to pay your last respects, sms me in advance so that I can entertain you with ‘thordao’ and ‘charbihun’. Bring some pakao la if u r coming. Thank you all for your condolences. =p

bila putus sudah cinta

Sejak dari kecil, saya selalu berfikir dan percaya.

Apa yang penting dalam keluarga bukanlah wang semata-mata tapi kasih dan sayang.

Wang itu besar, dengan wang, segala benda boleh dibeli, segala kekurangan boleh ditempuhi.

Tapi gembirakah anda  jika wang yang ada tak membawa kebahagiaan

Tanpa kasih, tanpa sayang, tanpa cinta, tanpa percaya, tiadalah keluarga.

Rumah akan jadi hotel. Balik untuk makan, mandi, tidur dan keluar.

Apakah itu rumah jika tiada perpaduan, tiada penghormatan, tiada percakapan?

Paksaan tak membawa kegembiraan.

Bila anak dipaksa melakukan apa yang diimpikan oleh mak bapa, hasilnya adalah kesedihan.

Bila anak mengikut jalan sendiri, dia diebnci sebenci-bencinya oleh si bapa.

DI mana silapnya?

Pilih kasih semakin menebal. Apa saja yang dibuat ada yang tak kena. Kerja anak dipandang hina. Gaji sikit tapi dipaksa bagi dja lebih.

Dituduhnya anak berjudi bola. Dituduhnya itu dan ini, bulan dan bintang,

Dalam hati, dalam minda, anak itu kotor, tak guna.

Sejak kecil, ayat ayat ‘you tak berguna, you pergi mati lebih baik, mati cepat aman cepat’ berkumandang di angkasa.

Sekarang dituduhnya anak itu mencuri wang dari poket seluarnya.

Segala plot cerita dia yang reka.

Tiada siapa tahu yang benar mahupun yang dusta.

Bukankah dia anak mu juga.

Hati sungguh sayu dan pedih melihat apa yang di depan mata.

Apa yang boleh dibuat melainkan berdoa.

Diri ini tersepit di tengah-tengah dilemma.

Bila sudah tiada cinta, maka kosonglah jadinya.

Bila yang longgar makin longgar, yang jauh makin jauh, maka yang akhirnya..

Putus.

Putus.

Tak mengapa.

Kerana cinta sudah tiada..

TAMAT

“You don’t tell him you know. Nevermind if he wants to take. It’s ok to give money to son. You keep an eye on him. Do you see him bet on football or use a lot of money? You don’t tell mum you know.”


*akan ku rahsiakan perkara dari dia dan dia yang ada di rumah, supaya hati siapa-siapa tidak akan parah*

thoughts tonight

- Ask, ask, and ask until you get the information that you need. If not don’t you ever go back to the office.

- I am not good yet but I will work harder to be good.

- It’s an achievement if the office didn’t call you after you finish work. If they do, means there are problems with your stories.

- When you are happy, laugh it out. When you are sad, cry it out.

- Do what you like. Like what you do.

- Life brief candle. Kalau ada umur panjang, bolehlah jumpa di masa hadapan.

- Religion for me is just about where you go after you die.

- Feels good to see or to listen to some good friends or people that have made a deep presence or impact in your life after so long.


- I may have hight tolerance but definitely not patience. 


- How you handle your emotions and react to people at home will reflect on your behaviour out there. 


- If you are bad to people, don't expect people to be nice to you. 

Happy Wesak Day

It’s Wesak Day again today.

I don’t know why but every year, when Wesak Day is here, I will feel certain kind of calmness and peace.

It’s the spiritual feeling that hard to describe.

I’m glad I’m off today May 5 on Wesak Day. Coincidently today marks my second month of working in the media.

So what’s the plan today? As usual I wake up late. Then I’ll go to temples to pray, get free vegetarian good and Dhamma books.

I think I’ll go to a few temples to take pictures as well since I haven’t send my camera for repair yet.

The finale of Wesak will be the grand procession tonight from the Malaysian Buddhist Association at Burma Road.

I’ve never missed the procession ever since I started watching it as a kid then volunteered as a first aider during secondary school.

Not to forget, the prayers I will be making for my grandparents, parents, siblings, girlfriend, friends, Malaysia and the world.

Anyway, I hope with this Wesak Day, everyone will be blessed and the country will be peaceful again. No more violence anymore. We may not have wars with other countries or terrorists, but we have conflicts between its people and the government. May the evils are back to the track and be good again.

Happy Wesak Day.

*There will be traffic jams everywhere. So plan your route. Penangites stay at home if you don't wana be pissed. Or you can always use bike like me. Save time and cheaper. hahaha.*

bila bapak tamak

Alkisah bapa yang bertangan berkaki dan bekerja memaksa anaknya yang bergaji rendah memberinya wang bulanan tinggi menggunung. Oh malu tidak tahu dieja agaknya.


ya ia satu kewajipan anak memberi wang bulanan kepada mak bapak sebagai datu bentuk kasih sayang dan untuk membalas budi. 


tapi bukan sampai tahap bapak memaksa anknya memberi lebih wang daripada kemampuannya.


bila bapak tamak..


hodohlah ceritanya.

kepada mak bapak semua

kalau nak ada anak, jagalah baik baik, didiklah sepenuh hati. anak kecik manja bila dah besar baru nak kawal, dah lambat la. duit tu sampai mati pun untung tak hbs, masa dgn family yg penting. apalah gunanya sampai anak satu per satu benci kat u? semuanya karma. apa yg u buat kat org hari ni, esok org akan buat kat kamu. mungkin orang boleh memaafkan tapi bukan semua perkara boleh dilupakan.

quote of the day

You can choose not to follow the bad things from your parents, don't blame them for your bad traits. 

kriteria untuk kahwin

I posted this on my FB. So i'll just re-post here again, with some additional thoughts. .

kawan-kawan, buat pe nak kahwin awal? kalau tak kahwin pun takpela. desperate sangat buat pe? Kalau nak anak, buat je ambil anak kahwin. Banyak sangat anak terbiar kat luar tu. Kalau nak menurunkan zuriat atau mewarisi amalan kahwin-kahwin ni,  sorry la, i don't buy that. Ini dah zaman moden la. Kahwin tu is between you and me, not you and the world. Kahwin sekadar nak show off je for me. Nak invite satu dunia mai dinner mai kenduri. Lepas tu poket siapa koyak? You jugak nanti yang terkoyak! Ada yang dah kahwin lepas tu nak cerai. malu je, buang duit buang masa pulak tu. kalau nak juga kahwin, bagi i la, bagi i la ya, cari suami yang tak pemarah, lepas tu cari isteri yang boleh masak. itu kriteria utama bagi i. kriteria lain sendiri pi pikia la!

tak nak cakap dah la.

parents

We love our parents but we just don’t know how to express it most of the time. 

Then they will feel that we don't care about them, we don't love them and we are not obedient. 

It’s even harder to show our love when the dark histories during our childhood still hunt us down. 

It’s hard to forgive and forget isn’t it? 

We willing to spend so much on friends' birthday, Valentine's, convocation, wedding etc etc but we never buy a present for the one who brought us up. 


Some never even give a hug or kiss to their parents before. 

Enjoy and appreciate the present..

We are only given one father and one mother in our lifetime.

I.. am still struggling to let go my past..

But i love my parents, sibling and grandparents. 

home.. =)

Hi my sexy Penang and hot Malaysia i'm seeing you again. it's so nice to be home.. This is where i belong! =)

I just landed in Penang at 5pm just now and reached home at 8 something. Damn tired. After cleaning up, I’ll go to amma’s house to prepare the Pai Thni Kong celebration.

I feel like I’ve been away for so long although it’s like just half a month. But half a month is really long for me. I missed a lot of things in Penang. But everything happens for a reason la.

You can have the both worlds you know. In life, you need to choose. When you choose, you need to let go something else.  So while you are having something now, you have to sacrifice other things that come along the way. Unless your life is so dull that you don’t have to make any choice.

My journey started from Sunday 15/1/2012. I went to Hong Kong with my dad. Then to Taiwan on Sunday 22/1/2012. My mum, sister, aunty and amma flew there to meet us. Then on 25^th my brother flew there alone to meet us. Funny I know. Everyone like went separately to a same destination. What to do, my mum and brother is working while my sister is schooling.

It’s ok la. as long as we celebrated CNY together overseas. So I consider it as a family trip .

I’m done with travelling this year. I am super broke. It’s time to work, work harder, save and save more money before I fly again next year. I make it to a point that I must travel and get my passport chopped at least once a year from different countries.

Now time to clean up, unpack and pray. House is loaded with things and messy again. Wohooo!

*yes I practice Penang-centrism. =)*

family

I prefer to be in a monetary poor family than a poor of love family. 

quote of the day

Laughter is not the best medicine. The best medicine is got to hear your mum's voice. =p

final stay in Kampar

I’m back in Kampar again yesterday. This will be the last time I come back to Kampar for a new semester. Hopefully I can graduate by the end of this year, as it is supposed to be.

Class starts next Monday but surprisingly I’m a week earlier. What to do.. I must finish my Final Yeap Project (FYP). If not, no graduation. Besides, there are things to settle in Kampar.

My mum forced me to take pocket money from her before I left the house. I declined. I’ve been doing that for a year at least. My younger brother and my sister need the money more than me. My brother is already working and giving money to my parents but I take money from my parents? This is so wrong.

It’s ok. I can still survive with PTPTN loan. But I must be very careful with what I spend. I left with only few thousands ringgit till the end of the year. New semester always comes with bigger expenses. Money have to be used on room rental, school fees, groceries, books and notes as well as to fix the broken things such as bike and bicycle.

My brother fetched me to the jetty. Then I took morning bus which I nearly missed and reached Kampar in the afternoon. The house was in a mess as if it was abandoned for months. A war taken place in the house I guess.

It’s nice to be back. The whether was superb. It has been two days that the sky is so blue. The clouds are so thick and white. It’s so windy and at night, it’s chilling. It’s sunny but not hot at all. The weather makes me so cheerful!

My roommate, Ah Liang is back too. So nice to see him.

Anyway, once I reached Kampar, I was invited for lunch at Aunty Betty’s house. I rejected at first but after that she called. Out of respect, I went. She made very nice chicken rice. Seriously nice! Tze Huey, Cynthia and Edmund were there too.

Then it’s the housekeeping time, as usual.

Let’s see what I’ve done..

I had good food and nice bath.

Sweep and mop my room and the hall.

Unload stuffs from my luggage and begpack.

Fix my bike.

Put on bed sheet.

Clean the sinky.

Boil water.

Fold clothes.

Put on facial mask.

Arrange things in the drawer and cupboard.

I had a wonderful dinner last night with Tze Huey. My mum woke up at 6am in the morning yesterday to cook for me. She made me fish curry, omelette with onion and ikan bilis, sausages, and nuggets. I tapao back to Kampar and supposed to eat it for lunch but I was too fulled after lunch at Aunty Betty’s house. My mum made cokodok too. Many people don't know what's that. It's a banana ball la.

You know.. I haven’t finished arranging my stuffs yet. Too many things and rubbish la. Today will be the last day to settle everything.

I can’t wait to fully concentrate on my FYP..

October is a FYP month.

after 10days, i am home!

This blog has been untouched for almost 2 weeks. Now the owner is back!!

Uh la la..

I am home, finally. I am home in Malaysia. I am home in Penang. I said before and I’ll say it again, nothing feels better than home. Malaysia is still the best.

‎It’s awesome to meet my family members once i arrived in Penang. Kwan Yee sent me to my amma’s house. My mum was waiting me there to fetch me home. At home, home-made food were waiting to fill my hungry stomach.

Some of you might not know where I went. I just came back from a 10 days backpacking trip with Kwan Yee and Pei Suang to 3 countries, Thailand, Cambodia and Vietnam.

It was great. I have too many stories to share but not here this time.

I just wana say that I am safe and sound, still as skinny as always.

My begpack weighed 17kg! damn! I had to pay USD18 to check in my begpack. Haha.

I brought RM1.5k for the trip and back with only RM20. Haha. At least I have RM20 savings. Transportation cost a lot of money. That’s why I couldn’t buy a lot of souvenirs for friends. Budget a bit tight and I don’t know what I should buy. Sorry my friends.

Sorry to Kim as well. I couldn’t find selling hand-made soap in these countries, what more a normal soap. Only groceries sell it. I didn’t buy anyway.

I bought some gifts for my family members and some friends. Hope they like it though.

Eventhough we went to only 3 countries, but we had 5 currencies. What is funny throughout the whoel journey is 3 of us are sucks in Maths. Everytime when we have to pay, there will be problem. And we took a lot of times to do the conversion of currencies. =p

One thing I’m surprised is I didn’t have stomachache or lausai during the trip. Not at all. But now after back home, I lausia!! Wat the shit. ..

Thanks to Sarah Khoo for lending me her sleeping beg. It meant a lot for me as I slept in Bangkok Train Station for our first night and in Siem Reap International Airport for our last night.

Total clothes to be washed are: 6 shirts, 3 pants, 2 underwears and a boxer. Hahaa.

Photos? It’s still in my pendrive. I haven’t transfer it yet. Too much of photos!

I have been sleeping the whole day besides than eating. I made nasi goreng for lunch and it’s damn yummy. Today shall be my rest and lepak day at home. A lot of unloading and cleaning up stuffs to do as well. I am still feeling sleepy right now.

Tomorrow will be a working day for Kwan Yee, as usual. As for me and Pei Suang, we’ll back to suffer, to do our serious business, finishing our Final Yeap Project and submit at the end of the month.

Many things are pending to be done. October shall be the month for FYP, the top priority.

Things have been good since I touched down from the flight yesterday. I got good news lasty night and this morning.

Hope everything will be good for everyone till we meet 2012.

May Buddha bless you all.

Bye.

wow-ed by sister

There’s a photograph competition by The Star on Starwalk Penang 2011.

The theme is ‘Happy Starwalk Moments @ Heritage Spots”.

One participant can also submit two photos.

So I asked my sister to help me choose the shortlisted photos.

After a while, we can’t decide which is the best.

She asked me who chose the photo that I won the first prize at the beginning of the year.

It was me.

Confident and errogantly she said:

“You must trust yourself.”

I said ok ok and she just left.

It’s a words of encouragement, support, and inspiration.

I never thought to hear that from her, moreover at her young age.

She wants me to think by myself. She knows I can do it. She knows I can take good pictures.

Thanks Oh Poh Sim. =p

Starwalk Penang 2011

Ok.. let’s see what to write for this post. Just a very short one la since I’m still very tired from the walk this morning. I slept after I reached home but I’m still very sleepy now.

I never missed Starwalk ever since I’m eligible to join it about 8 years ago I guess. When I first started taking part, the walk was held in the town, start from the Esplanade. Then they shift it to Bayan Lepas area where The Star HQ was located.

This year, in commemoration to The Star’s 40^th Anniversary, the walk is back to hit the town. What makes it special is the route covers about 20 heritage sites along George Town Heritage Trail.

The starting and ending point this year was at Times Square at Jalan Datuk Keramat.

I went with my mum, sis and Tze Huey. I met some old friends and school teachers too. Of course The Star journalists as well especially Kow Kwan Yee. Kwan Yee is my snior from UTAR and she's doing well in The Star. I'm proud of her everytime i see her byline is the newspaper.

What was shocking is knowing that my not-so-athletic secondary school friend, Nixon Lai Chia Huey also took part and he’s in the 10KM Competition category. Unexpectedly I was met my Form 6 friends who are not kaki marathon, Lee Khai Keat and her girlfriend, Michelle Ooi don’t know what.

Every year I joined the Competition category which is 10KM. But this year for the very first time, I took part in 6KM Non-Competition category. Why? Because the participation fee is damn expensive for 10KM. More than RM10 ok. So not worth it. At the end of they race, they give you a certificate of participation only, not even a finishing medal. All this while RM10 only ok..

I never wanted to join Non-Competition category because I felt the category is so not competitive and 6KM is like so childish. Hahaaha. But it’s ok, it’s worth the money I paid. RM10 for 6KM this year. And the freebies we got are getting lesser. Seriously!

Khoo Teng Shin and her sister Khoo Sher Rynn (yes I remember their names) took part as well this year. Their dad was there, but don’t know where is aunty. This blur Teng Shin is so mensiasuehkan. He is a guy. It’s a he. He joined the Men’s Category. But he got the number and color for the Female’s Category. He finished the race in the Top 15 but too bad, at the finishing line, his sex ‘changed’. Hahaha. At the end, apa pun tarak!

One thing special about Starwalk this year is we were a passport with photos and descriptions of heritage sites along the route. We have to get a chop for each of the site in order to qualify for a special lucky draw by Sunshine Times Square.

Besides, more shutterbugs this year as there’s a photography competition on Starwalk Penang 2011 with the theme ‘Happy Starwalk Moments @ Heritage Spots’. Walaueh DSLR everywhere! I was busy shooting here and there. I am so gona join this contest. But.. I don't have close-up photos on people la. I totally forgotten about the theme. aiyah.. Don't care, i'll just try my luck la.

There were 150 lucky draw prizes. We didn’t get anything..again. we waited until 1pm plus plus. It rained heavily when the lucky draw was going on but when the session ends, the rain also stop. Cilakak betul! We were all wet waiting for our lucky number to be called ok..

Ok.. sign out and good night.

*got a lot of photos to share but lazy to upload la..

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

Wohooo! Finally it’s Hari Raya! Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitiri buat semua rakan tak kira di mana anda berada. Hati-hati kalau balik kampung. Makanlah byk2 sampai perut buncit. Sekiranya ada silap n salah, percakapan atau perbuatan, saya minta maaf byk2. Semoga Raya ini penuh dgn kemaafan, keinsafan, keamanan, cinta dan kasih sayang.

Everytime whenver it's Raya or Deepavali, i will sure go back to Penang. Never miss! But this Raya, i'm working. I'll only be back on the 3rd Raya.

Friends asked me before, why do i want to spend money travel home? Raya and Deepavali is not even my celebrations. Eh, i celebrate. I feel so awkward for not celebrating it. Raya and Deepavali are already part of my culture. I'll visit my friends during these festivals.

At the end, i'm the few Chinese who will go back hometown, the rest, stay in the hostel and do their own things or go back for holidays.

I miss home la.

My friends in Penang, wait for me, i'm coming home.. soon!

I guess i'll go back on Wednesday la although i supposed to work. I'll apply for MC or emergency leave la ok. haha. September 6 i must be in uni. I don't wana stay in KL then straight to uni for internship presentation. If i don't go back Penang now, i have to wait till 11th because 11th i need to be in KL for an event.

Blablabla i talk too much. Ok set, i'm going back to Penang then Kampar then KL. At least i can rest in Penang, meet up my friends and spend time with family.

hi Penang, i'm home

Wohooo! Finally im on my island, Penang.

I reached here at about 2am last night. I must thank Agkillah and her dad for fetching me home. If not I don’t know how am I going to carry my begs.

I tell you, the begs I carried home last night was the heaviest ever in any of my trip to anywhere.

This will be the last time I come back until my internship ends. That’s why I carried about 30% of my things back. Then I don’t have to carry so much after my internship.

So funny. I was like pindah rumah. I got 1 huge backpack, 1 loaded school beg and 2 heavy paper begs.

Oh god, I’ll be more penyek and ketot after this.

It’s ok, it’s nice to be home. I slept about 5am last night. I was too tired but I can’t take my eyes away from the TV. And I have to rush for an interview answers for my junior. It’s for his assisgnment.

He sent me the questions on Monday. But too bad. I was so sick since Monday. I sprained my neck then I had fever, flu and cough. I didn’t have time to check and answer his question until yesterday. But you know, when you are in internship, it’s like you are working. so you barely have time for other things. I sent him my answers in the afternoon just now. I hope it helps. If not, im sorry. I tried my best to help.

I woke in the afternoon and I saw Penang! Haha. Hi Penang. I miss you. I feel so outdated, many things have changed here. Ss usual, i'll hav a lot of things to do n i'll b so occupied.

The sad thing is when ur family members are not feeling well, im nt thr when help is needed. My grandma just had an operation. Will visit her soon.

I just lepak at home today. Tired n lazy to go out la. nice to have mum’s cooking again. Sedap! I’ll come out with my to-so-list soon. Sure got a lot of things. Haha.

You know what, my sister massaged me just now. Hehehe. So nice la. I didn’t know she’s that strong. So comfy. I feel so good now. =p