missing her

3.30am and im still awake.

Just watched 'The Pursuit of Happyness' n im so touched and inspired by it.

Being alone at this hour is making my mind to go wild while having a flashback to the past.

And i don't plan to cut off the memory calling as i miss the good old times.

I miss her..

N in a minute, i managed to list down what-she-did-to-me list when we studied in Kampar. 

Urut me

Help clean room

Alwaz advise mandi, jaga health

gud to parents

Calm even wen im angry with her

Do asgmnt together

Watch movies together

Go to pasar malam every wed

Ronda xplroe here n thr

We’ll walk under the sky having star gazing

She alwaz talk n I seldom listen

Take really good care of me when Im so sick 

I miss hugging her. Have a nice sleep dear. Thanks for being there and accept me for who I am. =p

我要学華語

I am a bananaman.

WHY SO?!

Because I'm a Chinese but I can't read Chinese.

I feel really ashame of myself.

Malu besar, kemaluan tak besar sangat lah..

anyway..

Language or mother tongue is the pride of your people and your root.

What is it to be a Chinese but you can't read Chinese?

Ok i am not that bad la, at least i can speak and understand Chinese language and I know about the history of Chinese, our cultures, beliefs, practices, taboos and so on.

Some even worse, they duno anything about themselves and they proudly speaking like the British.

Okla nothing is wrong but i feel as a Chinese, Malay, Indian, Iban or Penan, you MUST know your own mother tongue.

I learnt the language before in primary school during kelas tambahan, but the 1 hour lesson few days a week is just not enough.

Now i forgot everything i learnt.

Thanks to my sister, girlpren and thanks to UTAR, i can speak mandarin fluently.

But of course i don't understand the Chinese canggih words.

Now i want to learn to write and read. I'm 24 this year, not so old if we have the will to do it.

Google Translate can be handy at times but it sucks man!

SOmetimes u just duno what the heck it says.

Like now, i want to translate 'i want to learn Chinese language/mandarin' also so problematic.

I have to translate word by word and then verify it with certain websites.

aduih.. bodoh betul aku.

Language is so beautiful when it's able to connect people around the globe.

By the way my name is  胡进荣

jobless depression

It has been so long since i wrote about myself, about me and not other things that i'm interested in. WHy care what others think of you? Just be true of yourself. Express what you feel. You can cheat the whole world but you can't lie to yourself.

I don't know why today so dull..

It's like so quiet..

And i feel lonely..

I just feel uneasy, so directionless.

i guess it's because of my job.

It's either i'm being stupid, stubborn or persistent because i only apply for one job.

I gave myself time until end of February before i start working.

Unfortunately i am still jobless. And till now i am still waiting for their answer. I've gone through all the process. They shortlisted me. Then asked me go for medical check up at their panel clinic last week. The blood test takes so long one meh..

It's either there's something wrong with my health or i don't get the job. I will go crazy if in these few days before February ends, they tell me i don't get the job.

Then i will have to apply for new jobs all over again. Lepas tu nak tunggu dipanggil interview, nak tunggu results bla bla bla. Bila baru boleh start kerja ni??

Anyone free to talk to me? ahaha.. Close friends in Penang all busy. Everytime ask them out for teh tarik, it's either they are working or they are lazy. But in the weekends, they can go out in a geng. zzz.. When u are away for 3 years, things change. No one's fault. It happened naturally. People always look for friends with similar interest to stick together. I'm into politics. I don't play games. I love history. I'm into human rights n activism. In short, i am just weird, not into any group.

It's not a problem, i feel good doing things alone. But you still need friends. I am happy to have them around. They are there when i need help and they know me well. But what's the point i only see them when i need help. As if i only look for them when i am in trouble.

Aih.. mum keeps nagging. Some people pula simply accuse this n that... oh what a night!

For once, i feel so useless. I feel so helpless.

Any magazine house, publishing company, newspaper agencies or event company want to hire a photographer? =p

PENANTIAN ITU SATU PENYEKSAAN

quote of the day

God never let you down. Only people let you down especially those who are close to you.

simple to be happy

 Oh yes I am happy today. Sometimes it’s just so easy to be happy.

I realized I am that kind of people that easily feel satisfied and contented.

What’s so happy about today?

Happiness is when Nathan slept on my bed last night soundly and we missed the concert by Olivia Ong.

Happiness is when I brought Nathan to the hidden delicious Curry Mee in Air Itam where only local know where it is.

Happiness is when I saw the Curry Mee aunties are still around and they smiled at me.

Happiness is when I got to know that my loved one is called for an interview at The Star.

Happiness is when I bargained kao-kao and bought antiques aka unwanted items aka rubbish cheap-cheap at Armenian Street ‘thieves’ market. 

Happiness is when I got updates from Pei Suang.

Happiness is when I got to know that Ai Loon is now working in a newspaper company in Penang! Wohooo!

Now I know why I pokai – food, books, travel, antiques.

*isn't it simple to be happy*

Happy 1.1.11

So today is the first day of November.

It's a unique day i would say because the number is 1.11.11

Nice right.

Some say today is a new beginning.

Everything starts from 1, not zero.

And i hope for the same too.

Everything will be just fine.

Something serious is bothering me since few days ago.

I am so disturbed by it.

I was away from MSN, FB..

I didn't go anywhere today. Just stay in the room..

It's ok.. Tomorrow will be another good day.

I wana wish Edmund happy birthday too. Friends forever bro.

Happy 10th anniversary too dear. Love you.

Happy 1111 again.

Starwalk Penang 2011

Ok.. let’s see what to write for this post. Just a very short one la since I’m still very tired from the walk this morning. I slept after I reached home but I’m still very sleepy now.

I never missed Starwalk ever since I’m eligible to join it about 8 years ago I guess. When I first started taking part, the walk was held in the town, start from the Esplanade. Then they shift it to Bayan Lepas area where The Star HQ was located.

This year, in commemoration to The Star’s 40^th Anniversary, the walk is back to hit the town. What makes it special is the route covers about 20 heritage sites along George Town Heritage Trail.

The starting and ending point this year was at Times Square at Jalan Datuk Keramat.

I went with my mum, sis and Tze Huey. I met some old friends and school teachers too. Of course The Star journalists as well especially Kow Kwan Yee. Kwan Yee is my snior from UTAR and she's doing well in The Star. I'm proud of her everytime i see her byline is the newspaper.

What was shocking is knowing that my not-so-athletic secondary school friend, Nixon Lai Chia Huey also took part and he’s in the 10KM Competition category. Unexpectedly I was met my Form 6 friends who are not kaki marathon, Lee Khai Keat and her girlfriend, Michelle Ooi don’t know what.

Every year I joined the Competition category which is 10KM. But this year for the very first time, I took part in 6KM Non-Competition category. Why? Because the participation fee is damn expensive for 10KM. More than RM10 ok. So not worth it. At the end of they race, they give you a certificate of participation only, not even a finishing medal. All this while RM10 only ok..

I never wanted to join Non-Competition category because I felt the category is so not competitive and 6KM is like so childish. Hahaaha. But it’s ok, it’s worth the money I paid. RM10 for 6KM this year. And the freebies we got are getting lesser. Seriously!

Khoo Teng Shin and her sister Khoo Sher Rynn (yes I remember their names) took part as well this year. Their dad was there, but don’t know where is aunty. This blur Teng Shin is so mensiasuehkan. He is a guy. It’s a he. He joined the Men’s Category. But he got the number and color for the Female’s Category. He finished the race in the Top 15 but too bad, at the finishing line, his sex ‘changed’. Hahaha. At the end, apa pun tarak!

One thing special about Starwalk this year is we were a passport with photos and descriptions of heritage sites along the route. We have to get a chop for each of the site in order to qualify for a special lucky draw by Sunshine Times Square.

Besides, more shutterbugs this year as there’s a photography competition on Starwalk Penang 2011 with the theme ‘Happy Starwalk Moments @ Heritage Spots’. Walaueh DSLR everywhere! I was busy shooting here and there. I am so gona join this contest. But.. I don't have close-up photos on people la. I totally forgotten about the theme. aiyah.. Don't care, i'll just try my luck la.

There were 150 lucky draw prizes. We didn’t get anything..again. we waited until 1pm plus plus. It rained heavily when the lucky draw was going on but when the session ends, the rain also stop. Cilakak betul! We were all wet waiting for our lucky number to be called ok..

Ok.. sign out and good night.

*got a lot of photos to share but lazy to upload la..

YOU are quoted

"Just because somebody doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. When you say love, to what extend can someone's love measure yours when love itself can't be measured like physical goods?"

~ Khaw Ree Nee
~ 13/8/2011 12.11am
~ via FB

http://www.facebook.com/permalink.php?story_fbid=10150265769017877&id=599962876&cmntid=10150265863717877

equal love?

I have a question.

Can both parties love each other as much as both do? I feel one party will love the other party more lo.

Got equal love one meh??

hmmm..

more than words

I'm touched and honoured when someone special said something so motivating, appreciating and true and yet insinuating.

She said:

You are a person with confidence. If not, how can you be SRC president? You are afraid of nothing. Anything also you’ll do. You explore everything. You bokiasi.

Well, i guess it's kind of true the part where she said im confident.

Thanks Tze Huey. xoxox