quote of the day

Laughter is not the best medicine. The best medicine is got to hear your mum's voice. =p

pain like dying

i have been in severe pain since last Saturday.

i puke what i eat.

i got diarrhoea.

Most importantly my stomach is seriously extremely pain.

Doctor said i got gastric.

I got an injection. I paid a higher price for the so-called more powerful medicines.

But no difference.

i can just curl up myself on the bed everyday.

I feel like a deadman.

Feel so disabled.

so useless..

There's nothing i can do.

I cant even sit on the chair.

I cant stand when i bath.

I cant walk properly.

I shiver when i ride my bike.

It just feels like i'm dying.

the pain is unbearable.

i always got stomachpain. I always lausai. my stomach always not ok. But it never as pain as this.

why..

Why now..

I have my Final Year Project presentation on Wednesday and an assignment's presentation on Friday.

I cant afford to be hospitalised.

I'm holding on.

But.. It feels so impossible,

Time is running out.

you may think it's not that serious but wait until you come and look it yourself.

why i still blog.

cuz i dun have to think academically when i write.

i need to blog so that at least people know what happened if i died.. or if i'm hospitalised.

i've shrink..

i wana go home..

my family didn't know i'm sick.

ok.. back to the patient's bed.

*everyone will die. so do it. but before i die, at least let me get a scroll for my family first.*

Lord Buddha...

Lord Buddha, thr's only one thing i wish for now.. Pls cure my sickness by tonite as i  hv few important things to do next week. The pain is unbearable. I cant afford to be sick n unable to do anything.. =(

do you know..

Do you realised that those people that you are frank and dare to argue with is because they are your true friends.

Ok I’m going to sleep now. I’m think i'm falling sick soon. Cannot take it anymore. So suffer.

i sprained my neck and it's so painful.

pat tor thnia

Sakit perut yang teramat-amat sangat. Bahasa pasar kalau kat Penang, I cakap sakit gila babi.

Damn painful ok my stomach.

Thnia ka boi si!

Few years already I’m having serious and frequent stomach ache.

Don’t ask me why cause I duno why.

If it’s possible, I wana take away my stomach!

Why I talk so much in my blog. Cause I wana tell la. I need to say it out la. If I keep everything in my heart, can die one ok. No one is here, no one to listen to, so I talk to my blog la. Got people read or not is not a big deal.

Okla okla. I can’t stand it anymore. Sleep NOW!

hakchiu

Beginning of the sem sick, now end of the sem also lagi sick!!

So sick ah!!

Everything also cannot do.

good night.

injection.. again!

this is not the first, definitely not the last time i got injection in Kampar.

I had any injection today.

Reason??

got stung by some unknown insect while i was riding my bike!!

yea the thing stung me on the road!!

grrrhh!

it stung my neck ok. within few minutes, my whole body became so itchy. the pain is just too much to bear. my neck turned red.

went to the clinic with my friend. thanks to her.

oh ya, had an injection there.

aih..

sakit gila beb.

u noe. i had mor injections in Kampar compare to my 20 years living in Penang.

well..

life is good! =p i have a lot of things to do, schedule is packed. it's a good thing to keep us alive and life wouldn't be dull.

Im busy till next week.

Joint Operasi Lalang ( JR Gathering ) tomorrow. Balik kampung on Saturday.

good Culture n Communication presentation with Avinesh n Yogish today.

im now rushing for Public Administration assignment. SOrry im late.

the injection is making me so damn sleepy right now. eyes are shutting. tired! im like those drunk guy stim-stim blur-blur.

annek Kopi O' Kaokao satu.

GETTING SLIMMER..

raining non-stop heavily again. 

someone said im slimmer. different people have said the same thing.

of course la! 

yes i am. 

know im getting 'slimmer'. 

i realised that i lose weight since August.

my muscles pun kechut.

what to do la... 

eat so much but duno all fats and flesh go whr. aih.. 

i spend a lot on food ok..

i oso wana be BIG ok..


maybe it's because of my stomach.

OR MAYBE I HAVE SOME UNKNOWN DISEASE WHICH YET TO BE DISCOVERED AND DIAGNOSED!

the funny thing is im already skinny like lidi how can i be slimmer.

aih..

Sometimes i am SAD ok when people say im skinny!

wat the heck!

u so fat ass got use meh??

grrrhhh！

what you people want??

why complaint so much?? why talk so much??! why judge this and that?!

So what if im skinny?!!

cannot ah?? u sakit mana? or mana gatai?? need me to garu anot???

pungkok hang!

if u so fat give me some fat la. if u jeles, go jump Penang Bridge la. if u oso skinny, shut up la. if u wana be like me, call me BOS la.

i can't wait to be home to eat my mum's cooking.

Ok back to Journalism II subject.

laptop is ill

sad!

laptop is spoiled!

it's so hard to on it. after like about 10times trying, ok it's on. but it lasted only for about 10minutes then it will shut down by itself.

=(

i haven't back up all my stuffs yet la...

PEOPLE PLEASE PLEASE BACK UP ALL YOUR DATAS NOW!! YES NOW! DON'T DELAY! DON' WAIT! DON'T GIVE YOURSELF EXCUSES.

hmmm... im trying to save my datas in my external harddisk now.

luckily im going back to hometown tomorrow.

need to bring it to see Doctor Dell.

yes i miss my home so badly!!

wahahaha.

im coming home my love.

i can rest puas puas. tidur mati!

and i'll be missing u all my coursemates. c u next week or the week after.

i hate being sick

i hate being sick at this time.

i hate being sick when i have many things to do.

i hate being sick when i have assignments to pass up and midterm.

i hate being sick because i have to skip classes.

i hate being sick because i won't be able to do anything.

i hate you FLU and FEVER!

where got time see doctor

good morning..

it's time to pack and go back Kampar.

stomach feels better after i wake up.

last nite, KKY told me that we are not young anymore, we are aging, can fall sick easily. if we cure our illness faster, than we focus on our works.

true..

but people like me..

no time, see what doctor la, u tell me.

this is the attitude la.

people always work, work and work, money, money and money, then neglect their health.

when time to die only they regret.

aih..

but im not working to get $ now la.. my case is different. assignments, presentations, planning, SRC etc..

BUSY..

not an excuse but serious la.

n okla i personally lazy go see doctor. i just feel lazy la. some more have to wait for the doctor etc.

so i decided to go see doctor this semester break. i'll eat accordingly. i won't simply eat whatever i want and i'll take suppliment.

people please go see doctor if you are sick no matter how busy you are.

stomach bursts

OUCH! Arrrghhh!

Sakit tak terkata. Aku tak tahan.. betul-betul tak tahan.

Now feel like puking pulak! Peningnya..

This is so damn irritating and disturbing. Im mentally challenged. I have to always tell myself that oh it’s not painful but it is actually so so much painful!

This entire week is so serious. maximum pain everyday and diarrhea everyday! Whatever I eat, I released.

I’ve tahan for so long. So so long. So many years.

The pain is so unbearable that I tear in my heart.

I hate it man! I hate it! Im sick of it! My friends are sick of it hearing me say I have stomachache! It’s so common already.

Sometimes I feel that’s the reason why im skinny! Whatever I eat, I shit! Yeala! I noe u oso shit but my case is different. I don’t only shit but something is so wrong with my stomach.

I don’t wana tell anyone about the pain cuz I dun want them to be worried or to feel annoyed. But the pain is just too much that I can’t keep it all by myself. nah, I don’t really tell my family..

See doctor, doctor say same thing, give same medicine. Eat already also the same la ok! grrhh! I can’t wait for semester break la. I wana stay in the hospital. Just x-ray me, operate me or whatsoever lah.

People if some day you don’t hear me saying I have stomach ache, means im in the hospital d lah… n if im in hosp, I dun tink I’ll tell my frens lo. Why must tell ah.. buat susah orang je. ish. Bukannya dah bagitau kalau aku boleh sembuh!

If I have to die cuz of stomach tumor, if I have some disease in my stomach, or if my digestion system is not ok, please give me some clue, please make me really painful till cannot do anything then I’ll call the ambulans to send me to the hospital.

Ambulans mali..

health is important

ansSpent whole day out of Kampar. Reached university around 8.30pm. raining so heavily in PJ, from 6pm until now in Kampar.

I got diarrhea again. yea yea yea. What’s new right?? =p  lausai pangsai lausai pangsai. eh this time is different ok. cuz continuosly 4days already n today so severe. the pain is seriously UNIMAGINABLE. went to the toilet 3 times early morning. I felt dizzy n puking as well. same-same but different lah.

the journey back to Kampar was so suffering. i almost black out. Thanks Navin for your strong massage n minyak angin. at least i felt better.

I slept at 5.30am and woke up at 7am. Why so late only tidur? One of the reasons is my damn stomach! other reasons?? my body was shivering. heart was beating like drumroll. chest felt so packed. so hard to breath...

Grhhhh! Have been like this for YEARS man.

HEALTH IS SO MUCH IMPORTANT!

Poicia always tell me that.

Yea.. I noe la.. without health, nothing will go smooth.

but u noe.. im lazy la.. it’s like.. cincai la.. I just do whatever I do. Sometimes when im sick, I just let it be. I always have this perception that it will cure by itself.

But if I lausai, I sure take medicine. =p

Many friends ask me go to check up. aiyah no time la.. really ma. Need to queue up etc.

But ok im determined to see doctor, do a thorough check up this semester break. If got something in my stomach pun stomach la. cannot die 1 la.. nevermind oso la.

I feel so tired tonight for being sick! Im so sick of it.

Im tired.. need to sleep la. the rain is just nice. Weather is superb.

Good night. tata.

kissed by a BEE (part 1)

ok this is just to inform that i am fine..

just came back from the hospital.

the pain is terrible n unimaginable!

got an injection from Kampar Hospital. eating burger den medicine.

haven't tell my family, not gona tell. snall matter only kua, dun wana trouble them. but if it's serious, u ppl help me to tell dem ye. =p

body temperature suddenly shoot up. feeling so damn dizzy right now. gona black out anytime soon!

i forgot my way home just now..

what im worrying now is whether i can wake up tomorrow for presentation anot.

i duno..

i am so so weak right now seriously. hands are shivering.

my right leg where the bee stung is so numb. it has swollen. my left hand where the nurse inject me is so strengthless. i walk like Drunken Master.

im sorry if i cant make it for the presentation.

thanks for the concern friend. i love u. yes i do. tq.

gnite. bye.

oink oink

Ok time to sleep. I’ve achieved what I wanted to do d. I didn’t waste time n that is a good thing. Tq KKY!

My bed is so neat now.

My clothes are arranged nicely in the wardrobe.

I ironed my clothes.

my little kitchen is clean too. No more dirty plates.

N most importantly I finished 1 assignment.

It feels so nice to accomplish a task, even if it’s a small one.

Accomplishment is a big satisfaction. =p

Ok time to oink oink. Had 2 tablets of Panadol but so pondan, no effect at all. Aih.. ok gnite. Will cycle wif Sara to 8am class tmr. Hehe. Tata.  

sick time

im sick..

yes again.

haha!

not surpirising rite..

my classmates don't find it as a shocking news also cuz i always sick.

for them, it's a common news. no news value.

Pei Suang said it's uncommon if im not sick.

haha!

but so long i never sick d u noe.. many people i know have fell asick.

Officially now it's my turn.

i hate FLU!!

the cilaka flies pulak attack again tonight. ish! OIK CILAKA U DUN BITE ME LA! i smack u ah! go away i tell u. busy here u noe.. kakaciauciau. grrrhhh...

back to my dirty house

After 4hours drive, plus the jam all the way until Kampar, with the craziness of Edward…

Im back in Kampar.

But eeeeeeeeeew!! Arghhhhhhhhh!!

Damn it la cilaka babi! My house is so dirty especially my room! And I got a new roommate!! Khachui ah!

Ok let me tell you what is clean. The porch is clean. No more rubbish. My toilet is really clean but bulu everywhere.

My room is really dirty. I asked him, he swept the floor or not. He said yea. But you tell me why DIRTY?!! The staircase also hairy. Seriousla! If u tak caya, u mai tengok la. lai la!

Aih.. I thought I’ll have a nice roommate but manatau. He’ll gona get from me. nyeh nyeh nyeh! I warned him to clean the house before he moved in ok. grrrhhhhh! Dun make me tulan ooo. Im memang cerewet.

And you know ah?!! He slept on my bed!! Wat the shit!! Sleep on your own bed la. I know la my bed is nicer and smells nice.

Hahaha. He is gona kill me is he knows I shoot him. Bleeekkk! Wa suka! I just feel like cursing. =p

So what now.? As usual la! clean the room. Curse here and there. do laundry. blog. unload stuffs. Then sleep!

Damn! Im so sick right now. headache and running nose on the last day in Penang and first day in Kampar. I will follow u Panadol.

By the way, thanks Edward for the car pool.

Bukit Laksamana here we come

Good morning! Woah! I wokeup before my alarm rings at 6am. =p

Finally my dream comes true. Im going for hiking later. 3 buddies joining me: Dexter, Nixon and Kah Hoe. We are going to Bukit Laksamana, the longest trail in Penang. =p

Lalalalaa..

The journey is gona be tough. Very tough. I think it will be the longest jungle trekking trail I ever done.

We’ll start our hike from Taman Rimba Teluk Bahang and ends at Botanical Garden. We’ll pass Penang Hill on our way.

The distance between these two locations are very far. No bus will go to this places.

So our initial plan was we go by bike. 4 bikes. We’ll meet at Botanical Garden. Park 2 bikes there. then 4 of us on 2 bikes to Teluk Bahang. After we finish our hike at Botanical Garden, we can go to Teluk Bahang to get our bikes with the 2 bikes there.

But PROBLEM!!

Helmet! We don’t have helmet at Botanical Garden. Thanks to cilaka Nixon n Dexter for calling me bodoh. They are the smart ass! They brough this up.

So my solution. Nixon will drive. 3 of use will use bike. we’ll meet up at 7.30am later at Botanical Garden. Nixon will park her car there and we’ll use bike to Teluk Bahang. So when we finish our hiking, we’ll have car waiting at Botanical Garden and we can go and get our bikes.

Good planning. =p

I must thank them for joining me in this hiking trip. Susah mau pujuk la. You know la hiking is tiring. Have to wake up so early. Etc.

Right now my stomach still not ok. I lausai last night. now still feel like shitting. Arrghh! I don’t wana shit in the jungle later.

Hopefully we won’t get sesat later la.. if sesat taktau la. our handphones ran out of credit.

booksales make me sick

Arrrghh!

Shopping for books turned out so badly.

I went to Popular for its booksales. 90% discount ok.

How funny is it.

Buying books make me sick.

My head is so heavy and painful. Nose keeps running. Suddenly got diarrhea.

Feel so unwell.

Okay good night people. I need to take medicine n sleep now. bye.

The Woman Who Made HIV Real to A VIP

READ THIS PEOPLE!!

http://rantingsbymm.blogspot.com/2010/04/woman-who-made-hiv-real-to-vip.html

I just read a post in Datuk Marina Mahathir's blog and im so touched by it. thanks a lot Datuk Marina Mahathir. I've always fall in love with your words. and tonight, my tears drop again after read this post. i'm a student and i've been promoting health reproductive issue in my own capacity. i always try my best to stop people from discrimate the PLWHIVA. i wish there's more that i could do. n i'll repost this post in my FB. thanks a lot. God bless u.

*I've been involving in HIV/AIDS programmes in Penang and till today, i feel people are still the same. STIGMA! DISCRIMINATION! HATRED! FEAR!