what are you afraid of?

so what do you fear in your life?

what are you afraid of?

ghost?

no money?

injection?

dentist?

cockroach?

darkness?

height?

snake??

for me, that's nothing. i'm not saying that i'm brave and scare of nothing but for me my fear is beyond that.

yes sometimes i do fear for the things i mentioned above but i can overcome that.

but there is something that i find it so hard to take it.

what am i actually afraid of?

one thing and the most important thing i fear the most is when i hurt the one i truly love.

from good friends, to grilfriend, to family, to lecturers and someone that i respected and used to helped me a lot before.

that's my fear.

im sad when they are sad. i don't know what to do when i let them down.

i feel so helpless when they are down, when they turn me away, when they keep quiet and don't wana talk to me and i feel so alien to them.

I don't want to lost any of them. Im scared of losing people i love. I even cried to found dead cats, what's more a living human.

ANyone of you who used to be close to me, i don't wana lose you.

Yes, i screwed up. I made mistakes. i ruined things. I didn't perform well.

But i still wana keep this relationship, this friendship and this love.

For all the bad things i've done, i bow and i'm sorry.

No matter what happens, I, will always and always love you.

I really do..

EVen if i don't talk to you, that does not means i don't think of you.

I love you. Not the past, but now..

So people..

What are you afraid of?

If..

If you are given a second chance to change any moment in your life, what would it be?

Think hard about it..

No right or wrong answer for it.

You can still make a change.

Let go of the past, work for your future.

Sometimes there is no second chance in life.

Do you know?

Do you know that the buffaloes are afrad of human?

do you know that the buffaloes will stare at you until you move?

sensitive hearing

has telescopic view

can run faster than u

money by government = haram or halal?

As far as I know, this is the first time that a state government is giving out cash donation to the old folks but some politikus claimed it's haram. So i wana ask, the MONEY that the FEDERAL GOVERNMENT spend on the country is HALAL or HARAM because Genting casino pays tax, TOTO Magnum too, tobacco companies, alcohol as well as imported pork and etc which is haram in Islam. So??

If federal government says that the act of Penang state government is HARAM by giving out cash donation which is from horse racing betting, then i would say our Federal Government is HARAM! Haram because federal government is the one who passed the laws, enforce it and now they want to legalise football betting. If BN could not please and help its people, please don't use dirty tactics to bring down my beloved Penang state.

Who is Halal and who is Haram?

Those doing charity or those giving the license and legalise the activity?

Stop being hypocrite. People with sound mind is watching.

Bersyukurlah kalau ada insan yang berbuat kebajikan. Jangan dituduhnya haram. Sesungguhnya yang haram datang daripada hati kita sendiri.

*to those who wana return back the money, can donate it to my bank account. I will feel very blessed.

speechless clueless

"Can't you be simple a little bit?"

This is a question by a friend. I'm still thinking of the answer.

I'm clueless. Speechless.

First Time or Last Time

In life there is always a first time and a last time experience. Either one will left us with a great impact and some unforgettable memories. For me I prefer first time memories because it stays longer and more memorable. First time experience also makes me me anxious waiting for it, nervous when facing it and thought hard of it after experiencing it.

And today I had my first face-to-face conversation aka official meeting with the UTAR’s President. =p

I'll remember this day..

i wonder..

If an anger or disappointment are much more important than a friendship, then who are friends who are enemies..

i wonder...

i always wonder can the belly button suddenly open and the intestine pops out.

i've been thinking of that since i was small.

hmmm...

pondering..

This is what people will question the leader:

If you can't speak in front of 5 people, how are you going to speak with a crowd of 500 people?

are you in dilemma?

Dilemma..

Who of you here never face dilemma?

Dilemma is a situation where we are being undecided.

Dilemma is when you are having a hard to time to choose between 2 or more options.

We are leaders. Because we make a lot of decisions a day.

But it’s not easy to make a decision.

Most of the time we are stuck. A decision that seems to be so easy may not be that easy.

I know why.

The reason is because we are fear. We are afraid of the consequences.

I hate being in the state of dilemma. It’s so stressful. Being undecided is so torturing.

what would you do if you are facing dilemma?

If im in dilemma, I need to talk to someone. I need to let it out. Then I need response.

When I used to have girlfriend, she’s the one that I always turned to. She was my loyal listener.

But now im single. Who to talk to? Friends?

Some will talk to their best friends. But who are my best friends? I have very very close and good friends. But not everything is easy to tell someone.

Any good listener out there?

I am one.

lie or hide? (part 1)

i was so confused over these two words last night.

my early hypothesis is these two words are differenent.

what is your opinion on these words?

i think we need to see it from a wider perspective.

what's the meaning of lie? and what's the meaning of hide?

is it the same? any similarities?

or is it different? any differences?

when do people lie? and when do people hide?

why do people lie? why do people hide something?

which is good and which is bad?

do we always tell lies or do we always hide something?

do we lie to hide?

or do we hide to lie?

im still doing my analysis and figuring out the meanings, the differencenses and the similarities between these two words.

what do you think?

i'm sure all of us lied and hid something from someone before.

so if you don't mind, share with me your version of LIE and HIDE.

thank you.