sahur and tidur

It’s raining cats and dogs again right now in Penang. Lebat gila babi taik cirit berak parit cokodok basi. The 1st splash of rain was from around 3am and ended around 4.30am. Habisla the kampung at Jalan P.Ramlee. Sure flooded. Pity them. 1st Ramadan, they get disaster. This is really a test for them. I guess I’ll have a lot of good shots later on today.

Im so excited to puasa dis yr. I duno y. U know meh? I was eagerly crazily looking forward for thus day. I must be insane! Im not a Muslim but I want to puasa. Siao liao la. I had nestum n a roti for my sahur. My hse no heavy food early in the morning. My dad went out at 6am just now. Duno la where he’s going early in the morning. Funny la if he’s going to sahur. Wahahaahah.

I don’t plan to bersahur actually. Usually I’ll just sleep till sunrise. Then, I’ll ikat perut until I break fast or buka puasa. But I didn’t sleep the whole nite. I was editing some wedding pics. copy here copy thr. Delete here n delete thr. Sakit mata betoi.

By the way. Do u noe wat is sahur? U know? U know? How abt u? duno r? let me tel u. I oso don’t really know. Wahaha. Sahur, on my own understanding, is one of the step in fasting. Before someone fast, he or she must bersahur. Sahur is the starter la.

So what do u do for sahur?? U EAT la. wat else??? Some people wake up as early as 4am to sahur. I guess old people wake up even earlier than that. Y so early? Oo.. Most people wake up early to prepare their meal ma. For the bujangs or hardworking people, they will go out and eat lo. But most mamaks also closed la. Mamak pun mau puasa ma. Some people will cook before they sleep then they just heat it up lo. To make things easier, some will also tapau the night before and heat it up.

If im not mistaken la, Muslims must bersahur before the sun rise. After sahur, they will perform Subuh prayer. After prayer, some will sleep again. Some will u noe.. start their day with work, school or clean the house. Sahur cannot be done too late. I think la.. I think only la.. MUST sahur b4 6.30am. around that time la. correct me if im wrong.

One (1) for sure is. SAHUR IS COMPULSARY!

Then, throughout the whole day, they can eat or drink anything. KENOT! NO! NOTHING can enter their mouth. They have to ikat perut. must control their mouth. Kenot gatai2 eat this n that.

Puasa is good u noe. Make u closer to Allah for the Muslims. Good for health. Good for mental for controlling ur desiressssssss. Good for character building by thinking of the poor and elderly.

Anyway, im going to sleep now. My skinny bony backside is so painful after sitting on the chair facing my laptop for days! LENGUH betul! Sakit la.. Have to wake up at 9.30am to give the wedding pics to my customer. Then im going out with her at 11am. Huhuhuh. So happy giler.

Best to sleep when it rains. Good night folks. See u tmr. Byebye. =p

SONG of the day

She - Elvis Castello

happy mood today. because she's back to penang! hehe.

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She
May be the face I can't forget
The trace of pleasure or regret
May be my treasure or the price I have to pay
She
May be the song that summer sings
May be the chill that autumn brings
May be a hundred different things
Within the measure of a day

She
May be the beauty or the beast
May be the famine or the feast
May turn each day into a heaven or a hell
She may be the mirror of my dreams
The smile reflected in a stream
She may not be what she may seem
Inside her shell

She
Who always seems so happy in a crowd
Whose eyes can be so private and so proud
No one's allowed to see them when they cry
She
May be the love that cannot hope to last
May come to me from shadows of the past
That I'll remember till the day I die

She
May be the reason I survive
The why and wherefore I'm alive
The one I'll care for through the rough in ready years
Me
I'll take her laughter and her tears
And make them all my souvenirs
For where she goes I've got to be
The meaning of my life is

She
She, oh she

Damina on TV3

yes yes!

Damina Manta Khaira on TV3. i just saw her in Buletin Utama.

woohooo! im so happy. my friend, a lawyer on tv. haha!

she's the daughter of Darshan Singh, the popular, prominent, soft spoken and respectable legal adviser of the Pertubuhan Penduduk-Penduduk Kampung Buah Pala.

she’s representing the residents of Kampung Buah Pala in their second application for leave to appeal to the Federal Court relating to their eviction order. The Federal Court is set to hear on Friday. The residents are seeking leave to appeal for the second time to raise the issue of whether they have the locus standi (legal standing) to institute legal proceedings against Koperasi Pegawai Kerajaan Negeri Pulau Pinang Berhad and developer Nusmetro Venture (P) Sdn Bhd. They also want an extension of time to file the leave application as well as an order to stay the demolition of their houses in the cattle-raising village, dubbed the Penang High Chapparal, to make way for development projects.

For your information, Kampung Buah Pala will be demolished on our Independence Day, 31 August 2009.

im so so proud of her. she's one of the persons who inspired me a lot. she keeps me motivated. she advises me. she encourages me to always work hard. she makes me realised that life is not only about a girl. she sees talents in me.

im grateful to have her as my friend.

she is a nice girl. very nice girl to talk to, to seek advice and to learn new things. =p

thanks a lot Damina.

SONG of the day

Bila Aku Sudah Tiada - Hujan

Hi. Miss me blogging? Haha.
Listen to this song. I’m addicted to it since I came back to penang.
Let's sing it together. =p

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Bila, aku sudah tiada
Simpan semua lagu ku
Jangan di tangis selalu

Mungkin, itu sementara
Bila jumpa pengganti ku
jangan di lupakan aku

Pagi itu indah seperti biasa
Tidur yang lena terhenti di sana
Layap kuyu masih tak terdaya
Bukalah tingkap mu
Curahkan cahaya…

Siapa yang sangka
Bila tiba masa kita
Untuk pergi selamanya

Takkan terduga
Jika saat ni
Tuhan tentukan
Aku lah orangnya

Bila, aku sudah tiada
Simpan semua lagu ku
Jangan di tangis selalu

Mungkin, itu sementara
Bila jumpa pengganti ku
jangan di lupakan aku

Gelak tawa tangisan yang hiba
Kenangan kita masa di dunia
Alangkah indahnya jika
Kita mampu hidup selamanya…

Siapa yang sangka
Bila tiba masa kita
Untuk pergi selamanya

Takkan terduga
Jika saat ni
Tuhan tentukan
Aku lah orangnya

Bila, aku sudah tiada
Simpan semua lagu ku
Jangan di tangis selalu

Mungkin, itu sementara
Bila jumpa pengganti ku
jangan di lupakan aku

Bila, aku sudah tiada
Simpan semua lagu ku
Jangan di tangis selalu

Mungkin, itu sementara
Bila jumpa pengganti ku
jangan di lupakan

Bila, aku sudah tiada
Simpan semua lagu ku
Jangan di tangis selalu

Mungkin, itu sementara
Bila jumpa pengganti ku
jangan di lupakan aku

Bila, aku sudah tiada…

finished assignments

wakakaka..

chin eng has finished his part in the assignments.

feel so relieved n happy.

and im proud of my work. haha.

it looks so nice n PRO.

i tel u i laugh like some Tanjung Rambutan fella.

thanks to his frens for being so patience and so helpful.

some even did my part for me.

sorry i was late in submitting my part. u all noe why.. =p

anyway, me as well as my frens didn't sleep whole night.

everyone was rushing for assignments.

i'm not ok yet. still feel like puking so badly.

my face stil very pale and withered.

i shit jz now. GREEN color!!

going into critical phase

U might wonder how in the world I can still blog although I claimed that im super sick. Well.. I invite you here to look at my condition.

I’M SERIOUSLY ILL. MAKIN TERUK. AI SI LIAO.

I’m lying on the chair while im typing this. Im strengthless. Betul-betul tak larat. I just wana record down every single thing that happened. My sickness has step into another phase-serious and complicated one.

It all started last night 11 August 2009. I was fine when I woke up at 5.30am yesterday. I finished the medicine (panadol) from Kampar hospital the night before, 10 August 2009. I was so happy because my fever has cool down. No more headache n cough except for flu. I felt so fresh n energetic. I even went out early morning to take pictures of sunrise.

In the afternoon I went to hospital asking for H1N1 screening or saringan H1N1. I wana do bloodtest also. I said im still having fever since last Saturday although I’ve taken medicine. But the damn doctors and nurses said too many people, no time to check me. I must wait very long. They also said they’ll also do the screening on those who got contact with H1N1 patients. Wat the! The H1N1 counter is empty, no medical personnels. Fine! So I didn’t test my blood or do H1N1 screening lo.

7pm plus I took a nap. Since then I couldn’t wake up. I tried my best to wake up but I just couldn’t. I could feel that my temperature rise dramatically. At the end I woke up at 11pm plus when Saravani sms me. My body felt so pain as if someone just punched me. I struggled to walk to the toilet to wash my face. Hell my face was so pale, greenish. I felt like puking so badly. I was hungry but I was too sick to go out n get food.

So I slept again until jz now 7.30am. my condition is till da same.

- Dizzy
- Headache
- High fever
- Severe backache
- Feel like puking
- Stomach ache
- Strengthless
- Cough
- Body aching
- Hard to breathe
- Chest pain

I can’t turn my neck neither. I can’t walk properly. I walk hump-backed like apek tua.

So I went to the temple early in the morning. I prayed. I prayed realli hard. I was alone in the temple. No one was there. i was really worried that I got H1N1. I dun wana die yet. I haven’t achieve what I want to achieve. There r too many tings I wanted to do.

Saravani came around 9.45am. she gave me panadol n antibiotics. So nice of her. then she went to sch. We have class at 10am actually. I was getting ready to go. I sms my fren to fetch me bt she didn’t reply. I tak larat la nak cycle.

I’m suffering. I feel so miserable. I’m so ‘khang khor’ la. Something scary happened. I make this strange sound ‘hooo huuuuuu hooooo huuuu hoooo’. U noe.. like how ghost sounds. Then my mind went wild. I imagined the guardians of hell came. They stood in front of me. wat the. I got freak out. I quickly think of something else. In chinese belief, if someone is very ill and he saw these images, means his time is gona end.

10.45am I received her call. Seriously, I was so happy and overjoyed to listen to her voice. At least, ubat sikit sakit i. she asked me to go to hospital. I know I have H1n1 symptoms but GH ppl don’t wana do anyting on me. she beg me to go n c doctor. I said ok. She still cares for me. =p

I just took medicine. If by afternoon, im not getting any better, I’ll ask my uni Department of Students Affair to send me to the hosp. if they declined, I’ll make sure UTAR’s image #$%^&*.

I don’t have much time. I skipped a lot of classes already. And this Friday is the due date for my two assignments.

God, aku nak sembuh. Tq.

breaking news! H1N1 in UTAR... finally

news hot hot from the oven!

my housemate just, JUST told me that few students from my campus, KAMPAR, have been quarantined.

the shocking part is...

JENG jeng JENG!!!

1 UTAR student is DEAD. MATI. SII.

im not sure it's true or not la.. u check n see la ya..

i tried to login to UTAR email bt the system is down. hmmm.. y at this time? smtg is wrong.

anyway i found this blog. bachala..

http://my-h1n1.blogspot.com/

ppl, wear mask. drink more water. alwaz wash ur hand.

till then, goodnite.

i oso talak ok yet.

tata.

sudah jatuh ditimpa bumbung

she just called me

=p im so happy. i got the medicine.

finally i have to go to the hospital

frens, if u all read my blog, u noe im not ok. jz wana give u all some updates. im going to the hospital now. my condition is getting worse.

hp no credit. wana cal my parents oso kenot. aih..

my flu is getting worst

Im still awake. I couldn’t sleep. I tried to sleep since 3am after I took flu medicine. The medicine is not helping at all. I was struggling hard to make myself sleep bt I failed. I was so cold. My flu keeps dripping. I keep hakchiu. My head feels so heavy. I wear sweater. I blanket myself from head to toe so that I’ll sweat, so that I wont feel that hit but I still feel damn cold.

This is the worst flu I ever had in UTAR. Usually I’ll recover after I sleep but not this time. I’ve used my effective method-take med, blanket head to toe, clos all the windows, switch off the fan, make myself sweat-this time, it’s not working.

Seriously I feel like fainted. My eyes hardly open but I cannot sleep. My jaw is painful. I don’t understand at all why I cannot sleep.

I FEEL LIKE DYING.

I prayed juz now when I was trying to sleep. It didn’t work. Aih..

I didn’t see doctor because I took medicine already. Furthermore, I’m not the kind of person who sikit-sikit see doctor. If it’s normal sickness, I’ll just rest at home. This time, my heavy flu is quite heavy. My running nose is quite serious. I tak larat to move around.

I feel bad for my roommate, Siang Yong. He has recovered. He’s not having good night sleep because of me.

Time-time susah like this, I think of her. I feel like calling her, tel her what happened. But I don’t even exist in her mind anymore. it has been almost a week since we talk or sms. I sms her bt she nvr replied. I’ve been her bf, her fren, her enemy n noe I don’t exist. I always said to her:

“if 1 day i die pun, u also wont know.”

I also think of my family, my mum. If she knows, she’ll definitely ask me to go see doctor. If I were in Penang, she’ll take medicine for me.

Have u ever feel lonely when you are sick? Have you ever think of your loved ones when you are sick? Have you ever felt worried that u might lost them?

Ok.. now im feeling so hungry. I didn’t take dinner last night. I guess I’ll strive hard to ride my bike to have hot noodle soup.

Mr. OH is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO sick!

let me tell you 1 story.
u sit back n listen to me.

THAT SICK CHICKEN IS SICK AGAIN! arrrghhh!

y is he always fall sick sooooooooo easily?? got problem la that little kid. low antibody. health got problem. so damn WEAK. gona DIE anytime.

he slept in the evening n woke up at 11.30pm. planned to have dinner but suddenly.. suddenly..

just in few minutes, he got flu! heavy flu. his nose was running like river. can nose run like river?? i duno... but running nose la.

he keeps 'hak chiu'. he feels so cold. he is shivering.

his tears kip dropping. his eyes are watery.

arrghhh! troublesome! the virus is spreading. before this, 2days ago his roomate was sick-flu, high fever, n sorethroat. now he's recovering but Mr. Oh's turn to be ill.

for your information, out of so many many illness n sickness, FLU is the one that he hates the most! benci!

so now he cant even goes out for dinner. he's taking milo n biscuits then MEDICINE.

he'll jump to his bed. he can't barely open his eyes.

he bids goodbye to everyone. till then, good nite n see you. sayonara. bye bye.

meletup habis!

aku benci org yg talam 2muka. hipokrit. taik cirit berak parit. tlg jgn duk buat sieh. depan org buat mcm angel, mulia sgt nk buat smua bnda tapi lps tu apa bnda pun x buat! ckap x serupa bikin. ludah ats langit kna juga kat mulut busuk sndiri. cermin muka sekupang hang dulu sblm nk kritik. kalau bagui sgt, buat smua asgmnt sndiri, jgn nk blame org lain! nanti aku sepak skali jgn nk nangis! meluat je aku tgk nama u, muka u, sms u, suara u! BOLEH BLAHHHHH! KURENG ASAM!

1st time i argued n shouted at ppl in UTAR

for the 1st time in UTAR, i argued wif ppl.

reali kenot tahan d dis time. i shouted at her. i scolded her. i just MELETUP!!

arrghh! %^&*()*&^#$%^&

Argghhh! FVUK FVUK FVUK!

Sorry but I couldn’t take it anymore! damn! Again someone in this hse steal my water. THIS IS NOT THE FIRST TIME! Fuck la! I’ve been very patience all this while but tonite I realli meletup! I went to the sink. Guess wat I saw? My thermos is widely open. The cap is on the sink. Im so fucking geram.

Again someone took my thermos wic contains hot water, open it n let it cool down. Damn! Fuck la! the thermos is to keep HOT WATER! AIR PANAS!

ALL the guys staying on the same floor as me, DON’T BOIL WATER n KEEP IT COOL for DRINKING! They DON’T have drinking water. So what they do when they 1 2 drink water?? Dey take my thermos la! FUCK LA! I’m always the one who boil water, cool it down n pour it into big bottles for them. Oni once in the blue moon dey boil it n let it cools down.

Don’t dey understand thermos is to keep hot water. U noe u use it wen u wana hav coffee or milo. If u want cold water, boil, let it cold n pour it into the big 1.5L bottles la. BOTTLES everywhere in this hse n they NEVER USE!! Want drinking water, boil it YOURSELF la!

Let me make it clean and clear. I don’t mind u ppl 1 2 use my hot water. Use. But after that BOIL n fill it FULL again. And PLEASE close the tab after use it. And PUT it BACK to the place whr u took it! And use it as HOT WATER.

I just scold my roommate. He’s not really the one who always did that. But I really kenot tahan. I need to let it out! Sorry SIANG YONG! This is the first time I fuck fuck fuck in front of someone. Grrrhh!

I jz boiled water again. n dis time I keep my thermos in my room. I’ll nvr put it in the public area again.

Good night. =p

QUOTE of the day

Treat others as you would like to be treated.

- The Golden Rule

TOO much sleep makes you cannot sleep

Yo yo yo . wassup wasup. good morning. Hehee…

Come on! Wake up wake up! 7 o’clock d! wake up! BANGUN!

It’s MONDAY. A new day. It’s the beginning of the week. Woohooo!

Hehehe… so syok to kacau ppl. I didn’t sleep whole night..again. I slept the whole yesterday. Arghh! Wasted my time. I was sooo tired n exhausted because of the demonstration. I woke up around 1am and I stay up till now. I tido too much till I kenot sleep.

I Don’t think I can sleep today.

1st- im not sleepy. Weee.. =p
2nd- berlambak assignments waiting for me.
3rd- I wana follow the Kampung Buah Pala demolition story.

In just few hours, Nusmetro is going to demolished Kampung Buah Pala. I’m so sad I couldn’t be there, lending my support to the villagers. I didn’t go back to PG because I have too many asgmnts to pass up this week and I’m having $ prob la.. I pray that the developer can postponed the demolition and negotiate with the villagers.

Ok I wish everyone will has a great day ahead. DON’T FORGET TO START YOUR DAY WITH LITTLE PRAYER.

Yang jalan kaki tu tgk kiri kanan.
Yang bawa motor tu jgn rempit.
Yang kerja tu jgn curi tulang.
Yang blajar tu jgn tido dlm class.
Yang sakit tu jgn sakitkan org lain.

QUOTE of the day

Bukan semua benda ada jawapannya. Kalau ada jawapan pun x semestinya betul. Ada kalanya kebisuan itulah jawapannya. Jawapan yg benar selalunya bukan terletak pada bait-bait kata tetapi suara kecil yg terbit dari dlm hati.

ISA-let's make history

it's time.

i've put away my fear n my nervousness.

have been thinking of it whole nite to go or not to go.

i've decided.

i'll join my brothers n sisters from all walks of life regardless of their political ideology, religion, race and occupation

here we come

to create another history in out beloved country.

God bless us that this assembly will be a peaceful one.

sadhu. sadhu. sadhu.

*to: you. erm.. i nk p dah. i'll be very happy if u read my blog. i duno wat to say.. jz wana wish u to be safe of H1N1. bye..

regret is not gona change anything

omg! it's already 6am n im still awake!

WOW! what a record again!

i have class at 8am! ohhh.. i don't tink i shud sleep now. if i do, bye bye la all my classes for today. haha! im sure i'll zzz later in the afternoon. I don’t feel like sleeping also. My sleeping time dah tertonggeng terbalik apom balik. I sleep in the afternoon and then active at nite.

anyway, i was preparing for my presentation actually. have to present later at 12.30pm for Introduction for Political Science. the title is hegemony. entah apa-apa la. the scope is so wide.

i started around 3am. than i pangsai la, i bathed, i washed n hang my clothes.

argh.. i couldnt concentrate. i've been not sleeping for MANY days. crazy i noe. bad for health i noe. but hmmm.. wat to do la anne. wa dulu-dulu lazy, ada prob sikit. now wa mau catch up la. next wik mau hand in manyak assignments lu tau ka. kena korban sikit la.. korban talak boleh mati ma..

so wat i did?? i viewed our pics. a lot man. its all over evrywhere. it reminds me of our journey all these years. i've known her for almost 3 years now. everything has changed. i miss her.. thank god i took a lot of pics last time. i can browse it again and again. i felt like calling her but arghh! i din.. i dun wana argue in da middle of the nite. while i browsing through thousands of pics, i came across a series of pics. it caught my attention.

pictures of Opera Pasar. Its a street theatre held in Penang last December where i was the lead actor. To my shock and dissappointment, i didn't take any pic of me n her throughout the 3 shows. wat the %$^&*()(*!

im so sad. regret. totally REGRET! i dun u'stand y i din take any pics wif her on such an important date and event. im the limelight of the show. i was in this apek 70s costume wearing pagoda shirt n short. reporters interviewed me. family n frens came to support. she was thr helping. she was thr giving me support, giving me advise. but.. not even one pic we had. i feel so bad for myself n her.

aih.. then i just scan thru my laptop. my documents, write ups all over the place. its so messy. again, i found something interesting. i found the letters that i wrote to her. haha! i read it. sound so sweet. =p the letters r so long. Gila babi pnjang. i pity her she had to read all that. i used to rite to her. y?? see.. now i can read back n syok sendiri.

I REALLY WISH WE CAN ENJOY THOSE MOMENTS AGAIN.

ok! stop toking abt the past for tonite. after all those flashbacks, i just on9. i read blogs. i listen to radio.

suddenly hior.. tba2.. hmm.. something bite me! guess what is it.





its a KACUAK!

its a COCKROACH!

its a LIPAS!!





eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeew! it fell from the ceiling n it bite my neck. wat the! eee...

she came..

omg! what the hell is going on??

suddenly i think of her. its so sudden n random!

it's not the right time. im preparing my presentation for tmr. =(

im not strong.. im not.. i can easily be touched by just listening to slow, sad, or love songs.

im listening to 988.. my fav chinese radio station.

God is so wow. He gives us an ability called feeling. feeling changes so fast in just a blink of an eye.

how nice if she is here right now.. u noe..

waaaa... bes juga berangan syok sendiri. =p










ok! stop!


GET BACK TO WORK!

QUOTE of the day

Pagi yang segar mewangi tidak semestinyanya akan kekal cantik berseri sepanjang hari kerana hujan gelap mungkin akan turun di tengah hari.

RM50 finally...

waaaaaaaaa............. happppppppppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

aku happpppppppi!

hua hi!

yeh yeh!

yot yot!

pooot pooooot!

finally after 4months since March! i got rm 50 agaiN! yeah AGAIN!

woohooo! wakakaka. nyeh nyeh nyeh nyeh nyoh! what a good starter of the day if not a RM50 and a picture from you with your name in the Thumbnails section of The Star??

not to show off la.. but hei i wana show u la! go grab today's The Star! haha!

burn last minute oil

as usual, everyone studies at this time. y?? because tmr morning got exam. i haven't finish studying yet. i slept from 12.30am until 3.30am. i dun tink im going sleep tonite bcoz exam at 10am.

good luck to everyone who's taking Introduction to Mass Communication. =p

QUOTE of the day

"I think our parents are proud of us despite who we are. But when's the last time we're proud of them?"

- Vivien Chang Wei Lin

*think about it..

guilt of a son

Im still awake. Emo-ing bcoz im going back tmr morn. I mean later at 9am. Coincidentally, my fren jz said smtg wic really saddened me.

I told her, Vivien Chang that she has not been updating her blog. She’s surprised that I read her blog.

She also said “for now i juts treat it as a place for me to let out n record my emotions so that i nxt time can look back n see whoa i experience this b4,im not gonna repeat those silly mistakes again. so i wasnt thinking of ppl reading it la. unless if i got write better stuff there lolx. i oso keep my pics on fb,cuz in case computer kena reformat again..i realize i din really take pics of myself when i was younger. so nxt time i wanan hav something to look back on my own face lo. i like to record things up wan lolx.”

I was like kena slap when she said that. Im not angry. She din offend me. No. My heart breaks because I din take pics wif any of my family members. I mean duo pics. Truths are painful. Painful. It’s so painful.

What kind of son i am? I used my parents money to get my camera n some camera gadgets. I took pics of everything. I took pics with everyone. I have pics of everyting. I captured memories of other ppl. I document other people’s life.

But.. where is the pics of me n my parents? I call myself sentimental, sensitive, expressive. I love old stuffs. But hei! Where are the pics of me n my bro? where are the pics of me n my sis? Where r the pics of me n my mum? Whr r the pics of me n my dad?

I cant recall at all when was the last time I took pic wif any of them. Yea we had family photo last year during my sister’s bday bt not this yr cz I was in Kampar. I cant recall I took any duo pics wif any of them since I got my own camera in 2003.

Arrghh! This is so hurtful! I hate myself!! Y now oni I realised.. a pic mayb just a pic. It may not means anyting to u. But a pic for me means more than just a pic. I’ve been recording my life thru photography. Sadly to say, I din use it to record my family’s life.

A pic brings a family together. It creates love. It documents memories that will nvr be repeated again. It captures moments that last forever. It reminds us of the past. It shows us how life has changed over the years.

I dun wana take pics wif them when only they have died. I don’t want. Im already 21. They are almost 50. Anything can just happened like Michael Jackson n Yasmin Ahmad. Im gona hate myself when im old for not taking pics wif them.

I noe the truth. The truth is im not a good child. Really im not. I may not be a good son but I love them. I really love them. I just duno how to show it. I cant. I silently quietly pray for them, hoping they are fine n safe. I cried in my prayer. Sumtimes I ask from the God to shorten my life so that my family members can live longer.

NEVER IN MY LIFE I SAY TO THEIR FACE ‘I LOVE YOU’.

Never! I never hug them too. I've huggeg my sister only. No one know how guilty I am. My tears are not gona change anything. I guess I’ll only say the 3 letter words when they are not breathing anymore.

I promised myself I’ll take pics with everyone of them, one by one, the next time I come back to penang.

*Anyway im not angry at Vivien. Not at all. I wana thank her for waken me up. I’ve learnt a lot about family love from my JR classmates in UTAR. Thanks a lot.

the 'thing' is getting bigger

If u read my blog, you'll now noe that i have some sickness or i'll cal it illness. No one knows what is it. No one. I never tell anyone about it, not even my parents or her. Im scared. Im shy. There's nonit to tok about it i think. U sick, ur prob la, y wana trouble ur frens n parents. i dun1 anyone to be worried.

Tonite i decided to wrote what im facing after 2months. This 'thing' has bothering me since my semester break in May. It is one of the reasons y i neglect my studies and couldnt concentrate in my studies. It's so sickening, disturbing n irritating.

Tonite the wound bleeds. yea.. I see blood. It has been getting bigger and bigger. Yet, no one notice it because it's cover by clothes. It's unseen by naked eyes.

it's painful.

it bleeds.

it's ichy.

If you ask me what is it? sorry i wont tell. i just kenot tel. i duno how to say it out. it's not like flu, fever, sorethroat or cough. It is smtg more serious than that.

Y i never see doctor n get proper treatment? I dare not to see doctor. I nvr like to spend $ on health. I'm a person who alwayz belive that the sickness can just cure by itself. I'll leave it thr n i wont do anyting abt it. I noe I'm just killing myself. God knows what is the 'thing'.

i miss yasmin

Helo.. I feel so uneasy for not blogging this few days. I write actually. I write a lot these few days. Just that I din post it in my blog. Anyway im still in Penang. Im going bck tmr, 9am bus.

Right now at this moment, im watching Petronas advertisemnets. Yasmin Ahmad came into my mind. I miss her. I still couldnt believe that she has passed away.. i couldn’t hold back my tears. it's so hurtful watching someone’s work when the person has gone.

She’s not gona come back. no.. she wont.. MJ has gone too.. y one after anotheR? Y cant good ppl live a little longer? Dey will forever be remembered for their achievements and the message in every of their works which has touch our hearts.

balik kampung

penang im coming. wait for me!

Interpersonal Communication-Midterm

ok. exam in 1hour time.

date: 26 july 2009

time: 10am-11am

venue: DDK1

preparation: notes

results: DIE LA!

QUOTE of the day

just because u r loyal, doesnt means u r desperate. love is the best gift ever from God. u dun force to love n be loved. there's NOTHING wrong to love someone! to love someone is hard, but to forget and leave behind ur love is even harder, painful and hurtful. it's like a deep stab down to your hearth, slicing ur skin into pieces, kiiling u softly.

ehehe

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rain PLEASE stop

omg! it's already 7.45am.

y the rain is getting heavier?

STOP la.

wa mau pigi sikolah la.

lu ini maciam hujian hujian olang olang susah lu tau ka.

sikit-sikit cukup la.

dangerous mau bawak kapcai lu tau ka.

nanti wa tak mau fren sama lu.

stop ok? slow sikit yeh..

later wa blnja sama lu gula-gula.

tankiu ye.. =p

rain DON'T stop!

I feel lazy to go to class la. aduih… clas at 8am. I woke up at 5am to do my assignments. Then 6.15am it rain so heavily. Gila babi lebat oo.. da wind oso very strong.

Haha! so nice to sleep.

BUT I DIDN’T.

I was like hoping the rain can stop. By 7.15am the rain has slowdown. Sikit2 la.. suddenly I feel like ponteng. Haha! I dun wana go… lazy la.. so cold out thr. Later the wind blow me away.

arrrghh! Y the rain has to stop?? hujan la. kasi besar mia. Kasi besar2. BESAR! Bagi tuakang punya! Make Kampar flooded. We tenggelamkan da lakes in Kampar. Everyone sleeps at home. Everyone nonit go to uni. Ahahaahah! How nice is that.

Anyway thanks to my clasmate, Saravani. So nice of her to ask her fren to come fetch me. I was like alooo wa mau ponteng la! Y raining oso wana go to sch la.. hmm.. I noe she wont ponteng la. she’s a very nice gal, alwaz scold me. haha! I feel so bad nia if I ponteng.

7.30am the rain getting lesser. Drizzling la.. sikit2 belum jadi bukit. Hmm.. yea2. Im getting ready to go to sch now. i changed my mind la. But i'm not going with Saravani, im riding coz i need to go home ASAP!

WA TAK MAU PONTENG!

i need some rest

I'm going back to PEnang this saturday. i need some rest in the place where i belong. i was too lazy n down dis semester. i've changed negatively. im looking for peace. im waiting for the sun to shine again..

i blog quite often recently. i duno y. do u noe? maybe..

1) i feel it's time to let out what's in my heart and mind?

2) i 1 some attention?

3) im too lonely and i need to tok to someone?

4) i'm tired of writing journal n kip it all myself?

5) it's one of the things that i can leave behind to my frens if smtg hppen 2me?

6) 2 update my frens n da one i love?

selamat malam

Good night
I wana sleep d
Yea 10pm d
My teachers used to day must sleep at 10pm
Sufficient sleep is good for our body and mind
Haha
Im too tired la
Will wake up at 3am la
See u
Taata

selamat pagi

Good morning world!
What an achievement.
I didn’t sleep the whole night.
i guess the KOPI O KAO is too kao
I spent my night in front of my laptop.
Did many things.
My class at 10am.
Partial solar eclipse is gona happened later at abt 8.15am.
Hungry now.
Im going out to makan.
Wana join me? Let’s go! =p

rintihan

orang yang patut baca tak baca...

my roomate kena SAMAN

this is a story abt my roomate, Gan Siang Yong.

He woke up around 11.50pm and he wanted to go out for supper wif my hsemate. he nk motor. I ok 2lend him bt duno y I din say yes. so finali dey keluar.

suddenly he called me at 12.37am. he kena saman! Shit la! he din wear helmet. I scold him! Den oni I realised he curi2 take my bike. I tot he din use cz he din ask da key from me. I was so angry n hot. Seriously!

Firstly he din ask me for the key n he took it curi2, use my bike without permission. Secondly he doesnt has lesen. Thirdly he din wear helmet! Wat if the polis 1 2 cari pasal and take away my bike?! Policemen can just accuse u and bully u especially if u r new to saman-ing and duno your basic rights. They can oso say dis is motor curi bcoz lesen talak, helmet pun talak!

I dun mind lend him my bike bt becareful la. see la now he kena saman. I hate ppl invade my privacy n use my ting without telling me. i pantang gila babi when the ting is so private. im soory la for being so honest. Good frens don’t mind if frens use their tings. But depends what is it.

Anyway my instinct was so chun. When he ask me can he use my bike jz nw, my mind was thinking abt him kena saman because more policemen on da road recently. Manatau cun-cun he kena. He's super lucky bcoz the policemen din ask for his lesen. if not die la!

He did smtg wic really annoyed and saddened me. He wanted to 'settle' it when the policemen stop him. So thhe policemen ask him 'brapa u mau kasi'. What the fuck la! GIVE U SHIT LA POLICEMEN! At the end my fren couldnt settle it because too many of dem. aih.. i HATE PPL GIVING AND RECEIVING BRIBE.

after he kena saman, he can still happily go yumcha n came bck oni at 1.20am. ayoyo amma! i feel like kick him at the ass!

TOLONG PAKAI HELMET. KALAU TAKMAU KEPALA HOTAK U, GO BANG ON DA WALL INSTEAD!

looking for chin eng

chin eng is missing

chin eng is trying hard to look for himself as he has lose himself

chin eng don't have the answer for 'what is your problem?'

chin eng has changed

chin eng is not asking for sympathy

chin eng made a lot of mistakes this semester since june

chin eng has offended his good friends

chin eng feels really sorry and bad

chin eng couldnt help it coz he's really depressed and demotivated

chin eng feels sad, moody, lonely, heartbroken

chin eng is physically hurt too

chin eng almost give up

chin eng wants to put behind the past and move forward

chin eng needs time and support to bounce back

chin eng knows he doesnt't has much time because he has wasted a lot of time and chances

chin eng hopes his friends can still accept him while he's struggling to get back on his feets

CHIN ENG WANTS TO BE CHIN ENG AGAIN!!