Puasa 6

good morning. i haven's sleep yet la. cannot sleep and don't feel like sleeping. i'm ok. i'm fine. i feel better after i watched TV especially Man of Honor on AXN. hehe.

anyway im so glad that i learn something new today. Woohoo! To be specific, midnight. Have anyone of you heard of Puasa 6? Yes? No? if you are a Muslim then you know la. I only that Muslims puasa or fast during Ramadan and in Syawal to replace back the days that the missed out during Ramadan. But now only I know what is Puasa 6.

I must thank Fariza. Tengah-tengah malam she taught me something about Islam. Tankiu so much. I didn’t know that she’s so religious. I mean.. im not saying that she’s a bad Muslim but she opens my heart to know more about Islam. She proves to me that a person’s physical and attire doesn’t reflect truly on their belief and faith towards their religion. Tankiu sis.

Ok so according to her, Puasa 6 ni ialah puasa sunat. Muslims do this fast in the month of Syawal after Ramadan. it is called Puasa 6 because they fast 6 days in Syawal and only 6 days. No more no less. I asked her one funny question. If they fast 7 days, it is called as Puasa 7 is it. Hahah! No such thing CHIN ENG!! Ada Puasa 6 je la..

Anyway, although they must fast 6 days for Puasa 6, doesn’t mean they must fast 6 days continuosly. They can fast then stop then fast again. as long as it is within the Syawal month.

According to her Muslims miss Puasa 6. Why? Haha! this is because pahalanya besar. Pahala means.. the deed? Er.. the repay la. ok im bad in translation. If you fo Puasa 6, u’ll get pahala as if u puasa for a year. But hey! This doesn’t mean Muslim don’t have to fast during Ramadan la..

Besides, Puasa 6 also has many reasons behind it la. I don’t know what is it yet. I tel you all la when I know k? =p

You know what? The last day of Syawal is on my birthday, 19th October 2009. Wahahah. Bagus bagus!

I guess quite a number of Muslims will do this Puasa 6. It’s so good what. Furthermore, some may missed few days of fasting during Ramadan due to many reasons.

Thank you akak Fariza. Thx. Selamat berpuasa to those who do Puasa 6. =p

1.32am I Dissappeared

first time after using Facebook for so long, i noticed someone deletes me from their friend's list. and this person is someone that is always close to me. wow! how cool is that huh?? haha.

1.35am 13/10/09 she told me she just on with a guy
1.32am 14/10/09 she posted a pic of her n her bf wif the title 'love you sayang'
1.48am 14/10/09 she deleted me from her FB

cool man. COOL!

i have predicted and expected this to happen. memang betul jangkaan gua.

u noe wat? trust me, after this her new 'sayang' will delete me from his bf. i know her bf before we broke up that's why i have his Facebook. if he doesnt delete me, it'll be so damn weird.

what? can still be friends? ohhh! BULLSHIT!! she said berkali-kali over and over again that i have nothing to do with her anymore and she wants me to get away from her life FOREVER!! understand English rite??

i need to talk to someone. so badly... my heart is aching so badly. im hurt so deeply. i wana cry. i wana scream.

why must u delete me??!! why? Perlukah u delete i?? perlukah? I ni takde nilai at all dah ke in ur heart? Bila cinta datang, dunia bagaikan fantasi. Segala-galanya indah dan manis. Tapi bila cinta dah pergi, dunia bertukar neraka. Yang ditelan hanyalah api keperitan. Segala memori jadi mimpi ngeri.

dun wori, i wont backstand any of you, Nur Faizah and Nabil. although im hurt, but i still have dignity and i respect both of you.

thank you. thank you so much. i'll remember my 21st birthday. this is the present from you. wow!

QUOTE of the day

"Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today."

~ Natasha Khanum

QUOTE of the day

"You dont stop doing things because you get old, you get old because you stop doing things."

~ Rosamunde Pilcher

kata-kata hikmat

Bukan semua perkara dalam hidup ini ada peluang kedua.

QUOTE of the day

"I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out."

~ Roy Croft

QUOTE of the day

"If they dont mean what they say, they say what they dont mean."

~ YB Lim Guan Eng

QUOTE of the day

"Bila you give everything, when you give more, it means nothing to them, because they are used to it. Tapi susah kan. Kita give them lot of love because we want them to feel loved. But lain yang jadi. We make them not to hargai us."

~ Puteri Nor Natasha

THOUGHT of the day

We often ask ourselves ‘why am I different from others?’ why? Why others are better then us? Why are they so lucky? Why they get what they want and I can’t?

Now I have a new answer for this question.

‘Why do I have to be like others?’

We are special. I am special. You are special. Everyone is special. Humans are never the same. We live the way we want to be. We choose the path we want to go. We fight for what be believe.

Remember, you are who you are. Be proud of yourself!

Perpisahan - Anuar Zain

SONG of the day

it has been so long since i posted a song that i like. tonight let's listen to this song. a song from Cinta, one of the best local films ever made. the singer is Anuar Zain. the producer of Cinta is Khabir Bhatia.

close your eyes, listen carefully to the lyrics and feel what i feel tonight. it's a sad song. a nice sad song. a good song when you are sad.

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Ku mengerti perpisahan ini
Bukan kerana kau membenci
Tapi kasih yang pernah kuberi
Tiada lagi bersama

Seringkala aku terlihatkan mu
Impian nan indah
Bersulam bahagia

Ku harungi hari demi hari
Bersama wajah tak mungkin akan kembali
Tapi hati masih tak terima
Ditinggalkan sengsara

(Korus)
Keraguan ini bukanlah padamu
Perasaan hati masih rindu
Kekalutan ini hanyalah untukku
Tercari-cari bayanganmu
Tak sanggup aku kehilangan
Kehilanganmu

Kasih tercari-cari

Keraguan ini bukanlah padamu
Masih tercari-cari bayanganmu
Tak sanggup aku kehilanganmu

It's CONFIRMED!!

My prediction comes true. again.. Out of ten, eight of my predictions came true. I don't like it sometimes because it hurts.

i just talked to her. Now it's not about how i feel or what i sense. she admitted it herself. she's liking someone. SHE LIKES HIM. i know that guy.

well.. what could i say or feel? jealous? angry? sad? disappointed? upset?

im nobody to feel all this. im nobody now. who am i to her to feel all this. i dun have any rights to stop her.

no wonder she alwaz din't reply my sms. she's there. she knows. she's aware. i called her n she didn't even pick up. she saw me on9, she won't talk to me. everything has changed so drastically. i feel so dumb somtimes.

i din tell anyone abt this. im a person who'll keep my probs myself. what i do when im down? i write. i document it. i expressed it in words.

IM NOT OK. i cried. n i wana cry again. i can't bear the pain. yes im a guy but im not strong.

FINE IM SENSITIVE, POYO, SENTIMENTAL, CHABO. so??!!

sorilah dis is me. when i feel some feeling, it is just too strong.

life is not about love. yes i agree. i din focus my love on her only. i do my other stuffs. in our life, we have a part called relationship n i fill her in that part. she's in that part. i found someone that is most qualified n suitable to occupy that place in my heart.

too bad when you love someone, doesnt mean someone like you!

when you care so much for someone, when you sacrifice so much for her, when you put her above everything, doesnt mean she'll do the same to you!

arghh! fuck! arrghh!

ahhh... what a start for my blog after so long missing from blogging.

='( i still love her..

QUOTE of the day

Humility is not denying the talents we have, but rather admitting the weaknesses we have.

~ Felicita Fedelis

alone at home

Every students of UTAR Kampar has gone back to hometown after exam. semester break has started last Monday 28/9/09 to Sunday 18/10/09. And im still here..alone.. hehe.. I’m going to KL tmr then come back here again then Sunday only go back to Penang. Why? Hehe.. tell you later. =p

Cilaka betul! Ish! Haha. im sleeping alone in my house tonight. All my friends have gone back. My hostel area, Westlake now is as dead as a abandones town. So quite.. kinda creepy.

The houses here are so huge. Really! My house is one the new houses here. 3 storeys! 13 rooms! Im staying at 3rd floor. So imagine yourself being at home alone.. so far away from your hometown. Alone in your room all day. In middle of a serene environment, but sorrounded by lakes, jungles, hills, and quietness..

Yea yea I noe im rich stayin in such a big house alone. Haha! seriously I tell you, if you are a Penangite like me, you be amazed to see my house. It’s like a half Bungalow. Almost like a Bungalow la. really ada class! Houses here if built in Penang, sure damn expensive!

Im quite used to staying alone at home. Just that this time it’s a bit different coz everyone in Westlake dah blahh!

I love to explore places myself. I went into the jungles here to take pics and came out only after the moon arise. Sacry la.. but u noe.. wen u dun tink of the geli thing, u wont feel geli la. I can make myself dun tink of it. I have my tactics lar..

someone must always calm n strong in faith la. wherever I go and whatever I do, I always start with a prayer. I’ll pray for safety then I’ll ask for forgiveness if I did anything wrong. As long as my heart is pure, I believe, God will always protect me.

Nvm. Insya-allah Chin Eng can handle this situation. Hehe… I've already switched on all the lights in my house. see?? how brilliant i am? if thieves wana come in also they will think twice.

I’ll make myself busy lah. I’ll listen to songs. I got so many things to do. I have to edit weeding pics for a client. I have to house keeping. I have to pack my stuffs back to penang. I have to do laundry. I have to fold my clothes. I have to post up me n my friends supernatural act videos onto Youtube. I wana write a letter to the editor. I wana blog.. etc etc etc.

SEE I AM SO BOH ENG (not free).

Okla.. chao.. sakit perut la! grrrhhh! go pangsai 1st. c u. gnite. Tata.

Love of A Father

this is so touching. this video is not only for Christians but for every children in this world. our dad loves us. the man in the video made my heart melt and broken.

sometimes we just have to let one thing go to make sure another thing is safe. we can't have both at a time.

The Happiest Moment with Coursemates in Semester 2

Woah woah! I had a wonderful day today. So many happy things happy. thanks to God, her, and my friends.

I finished my exam finally. Had our last paper today from 9-11am. Subject: Mass Media and Society. I did quite well I guess. I know how to answer. Hehe. I studied ma! I was smiling, laughing n singing throughout the whole exam. hehe. Sempat pi kencing lagi oo. But I didn’t manage my time properly la. I din have enough time for the last question which is the essay question. I rushed n simply taruh all my points. Nvmla. I did my best d. no regrets this time.

MERDEKA man. after this I can blog here n there this n that. =p

I went to uni early today. Yeala bcoz I rode my bike.. the reson to be early is bcoz the gurad always stop me, I dun have sticker. Illegal la. si if they stop me I hav to make damn big round and curi masuk from another lobang. Fortunately im so lucky today. The guards curi ayam. I happily rode in. wahaha.

Just after i got down from my bike, I received a sms from her. She wished me goodluck n asked me to buat baik2.. Im so happy and glad that she did that. I got like some power to do well in my exam la. MOTIVATION man!

And im so handsome today.hehe. betul. Tak tipu. Memang handsome. Yeala. Tak percaya? Biar pi kat hang! Aku feel handsome kalau handsome la. like Ee Theng always said “got feel got feel.” =p I smell nice too. I used the perfume that we bought together from Body Shop.

Y I dressed up nicely today? Bcoz we had photoshoot after the exam. it was the first time since our studies that we had a group photograph. Everyone attended. Complete cun-cun 31 ppl. So happy. im so touched. I was so scared dat some of them will cabut n tak jadi to take pic again. this might be the first and the last one because its so hard to asked these m*nkeys m*nkeys to meet up altogether.

Vivien dating bulan today. Opps! Hehe. I tel u she was so ganas. I told her if she gatai, im gona cucuk her with the tripod. She got freak out n as usual.. she SCREAMED!

I geram oo at them. I asked them to go down n gather but they duk tok abt the exam. ish! i was so hot. Hot la. The weather is hot! I was wearing jacket. Tok after the photo shot la. Pei Suang tok non stop. Corene also. Ai Loon oso. aiyah all da gals la. so chicken backside la. hehe.

Thank God I have Tiffany, the whistle keeper. Hehe. I used her pinkish whistle. Fuiyo. Blow je all of them got shocked then start to gather. The weather was so superb. So clear, so blueish. no haze! we had bamboo trees as our background. Sorila have to ask u all to have the sunlight because if we dun, later reflectin n dark2. U all will say Chin Eng no pe-ro-fe-shi-nal.

Wah! The picstures turned out so nice. Seriously farking nice weih! The colors so cun! We had 2different pose. 1st one is the serious, chubby, innocent, bodoh-bodoh shot where the gals sit in one row n the guys stand at the back. The gals clos their legs tight2 with their hands on their lap and the guys stand straight with their hand cover2 their ciau-ciau. All of them luk so cute n funny la. some really hav the kindergarten boloh-boloh face. Haha!

2nd shot was the crazy funny shot. We are so pro in this la. u can see la all the crazy funny animals face in the picture. In this shot we all cramped, stand closely.

I want to develop the 1st pic in 8R size. U go check la how big is the 8R size. Then I wana stick it in my room. Hehe. Realy nice la. I used high resolution si the pic wont pecah2. 1 pic 7MB ok! Gila babi betul! Then for the 2nd shot I wana make into button. U noe button? The round shape thingy with the safety pin at the back n u pin on ur beg. I wana give them free la. FREE! So next time don’t say Chin Eng is kedekut especially Saravani. Haha.

I had Wei Hong aka Sotong as my assistant today. He got talent la. can improve some more. Hehe. He took 90% of the pics. yeala because I took pics with my frens ma. So he helped me lo. Thx Sotong. The pics really sui. Rmbr what Mister Oh thought u ya. =p

U noe ah Ai Peng said im hensem la. hehe. So heppy la. tq tq. =p

Meanwhile Ee Theng wana take off my pants. itu crazy Big Sister. I said i feel hot la inside. I was wearing boxer. Sweating la. The sun was so bright n burning u noe. I really felt like taking off my jeans. Heehe.

Amirah was so preety today. So cute. Comel. I suka. =p I took pics with her. I took pics with Ee Theng, Ai Loon, Haw Yeen, Pang Chong, Li Theng, Vivien, Deng Wen, Siang Tong, Teck Joo and Siew King. I never took pic with them b4. I missed out some la cz they cabut d. I wanted to take pic with Ai Peng. Yala she praised me wat. Hehe! She said nvm we can take pic tonite n ask me to stay hensem. Aduih I tak larat la.

Now I realised it’s so hard to have good appearance. No wonder la the chabos take hours just to make up. Dear Mister Oh you must now start to dress up yourself, wear smart-smart so that the girls will fall for you, so that people will talk to you like adult n not like budak kechik, so that people will take you seriously. FAHAM?!!

Tiffany house key was with me. but she went back n kenot enter her room. she kenot tahan mau
kencing. Haha! sory la. =p

N u noe wat suddenly my laptop black off again. arrrghhh! I typed long long d just now but n now all gone. Ish.

Im so super tired n hungry now. okla nk tido dah. Wake up later n go BBQ. Thanks all my JR frens for the meaningful short photoshoot. I'll post the pics on FB. dun wori. just WAIT. Hehe. So c u la. gnite. Tata.

I A M B A C K

ok im going to sleep now.

tata! =p

QUOTE of the day

"Kadang-kadang, orang yang paling kita sayanglah yang paling susah untuk disayangi."

~ film Cinta by Khabir Bhatia

temporary HP number

alo my prens. i think some of you know my hp got stolen. if u don't now i tel u.

MY HP GOT STOLEN!

so im sorry if some of you tried to reached me but tak dapat.

I hope u can send me your fon numbers lar.. =p

At the moment, if la nk cal or sms, can reach me at 0194171601.

i'll try to get back my Digi number ASAP!

kamsiah nandri happy merry bday.

QUOTE of the day

Hanging on and holding on on something doesn't mean you are immatured, obsessive or stubborn but when you found the thing that you are looking for all this while and it meant so much for you, you just can't let it go.

THOUGHT of the day

Have you ever lied? Why you lied? To whom you lied? Is lying good? Is lying bad?

Why people tell lies? To run away from responsibility? To run away from punishment? To give trouble to people? To avoid bad image and perception? To make someone happy and feel better? To maintain good relationship? To cause harm to others? To get something that others couldn't? To make people feel good?

Each and every one of us lied. 100% of mankind lied. Humans lied.

WE ARE LIARS!!

Which is is better. You lie and make someone happy or you be truthful and make someone sad? you want to be good to yourself or to others. We always take the first option. Why? So that the other party won't feel hurt and so that we won't get bad image.

Truth is a torture. Sometimes LIE is to unhurt people. But sometimes LIE hurts people more.

what say you?

QUOTE of the day

When you have found what you want in your life, it's hard and sometimess impossible to just let it go.

MORAL of the day

Never leave anything on the seats of your car and never leave your car unlock.

Selamat Hari Raya Aildilfitri

I humbly and happily wish everyone especially my Muslim friends throughout the whole world a very happy Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri / عيد الفطر / Eid ul-Fitr.

Semoga raya ini membawa berkat dan rezeki melimpah-limpah.

Maaf zahir batin dari kepala hotak ke kuku kaki.

Kepada semua orang tak kisah la u ni Muslim ke non-Muslim ke, sama-samalah kita beringat kepada Tuhan dan orang-orang di luar sana yang tak dapat meraikan hari kebesaran bersama orang tersayang. Yang ada banyak duit tu, buat la charity. Yang takda duit tu, doa la kat mereka. Yang kuat dan sihat tu, tolanglah dia orang. Let’s pray that these unfortunate people will be strong. forgive and forget lah.

Oh ya! Don’t forget to invite me to your open house. If you don’t i’ll ambush you. Wahahah!

I miss eating rendang and the cookies. I miss going to my friends house. I miss salam with her mom. sadly to say, i have a strong feeling that i won't be invited to her house. yeala.. things are different now.

I already got my first Baju Melayu in my life. yeh! It’s orange goldish. Nice la. The funny thing is I don’t know how to wear the sampin. Shit la.

Every year, at night, during this time, I’ll sit in front of my TV. Why? Because that’s the time when the video of Takbir Raya being played. Takbir Raya is to recite the phrase Allāhu Akbar. Allahu Akbir means God is the greatest. Muslims in Malaysia will go to the mosque, berjemaah and perform Takbir Raya.

U may think that it’s strange for a non-Muslim to listen to that. For your info, I can even sing the verse. =p

My favourite Takbir Raya recite is from the leader of Rabbani. Unfortunately he has passed away. Don’t worry. His voice will always be remembered.

This is one of the very few raya songs that I like the most. And these favourite songs give me some kind of keinsafan dan kesyukuran and kasih sayang.

Lastly, Selamat Hari Raya AIldilfitri again to everyone.

BB im heading to mosque for some photo shoot now. =p

*below is the video clip of Takbir Raya

sleeping in the car

Live reporting from inside the car, Penang.
Yes im blogging from my dad’s car in Penang. I cannot go home tonight. My car mati after I drove through a heavy flood. Penang was raining heavily the whole night and I was stranded. No where to go.
Now im here.. somewhere in Penang. In front of her house actually. We are sleeping at the same area. She in her house. N I in my car. Cool huh!
My parents didn’t noe abt dis yet. They are going to chop my head off late rin the morning.
Aih.. I duno how to lie. I didn’t cal them because im scared n my hp out of credit la. =(
Anyway I had a great night!
Omg! Damn hot la. I wonder how ppl sleep in their car.. zzzz..
Gnite la ppl. My batt gona die off soon. Tata.

boleh blah kau VIRUS

arrgggghhh! why????

noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! the virus in my laptop suddenly becomes so feirce. i mean b4 this still ok but now, gone case. i on my laptop, within 1-2 mins, it offs by itself!

i need my laptop now la i need to edit wedding pics. i dun have backup for my thousand of photos n all the documents yet la.

crazy!

pls dun be so mean...

damn! cilaka babi betul!

apasai hang talak kerja lain duk attack laptop aku. nanti aku sebat sama hang.

blah jauh-jauh la hang!

i gtg now. if not, it'll bye-bye again.

*exam at 9am. then balik kampung. woohooo!

QUOTE of the day

Money boleh dicari semula but memory bukan selalu boleh dicipta. So apalah gunalah ada wang banyak-banyak if diri tak bahagia?

PERIBAHASA of the day

Sikit-sikit, lama-lama bukit pun talak.

Ah Long Bukit Beruntung

today's journey in Pantun

Aku bangun lima pagi
Pasai nak study cilaka AV
Punya ngantuk nak tido lagi
Makan biskut minum kopi

Apa mia kopi aku still sleepy!
On9 FB bcoz im lazy
Tengok sana tengok sini goyang kaki
At the end apa pun tak study

Aku keluar awal-awal pagi
Ingat nk tengok-tengok notes lagi
Bawa motor kenot enter uni
Sticker talak what a pity

Curi masuk I hebat sekali
Aku kan kecik-kecik cili padi
Diam-diam ubi berisi
So you don’t play with me

Today second exam paper AV
Kali ini buat di new Block G
Ini first time aku step di sini
Hati gembira sangat happy

Wah fuiyo punya besar sekali
Sempoi cantik berseri-seri
Semua orang snap pics sani sini

Ada longkang kecik depan Blok G
So unik but weird la I see
Boleh la kencing si laki-laki
Buat la macam toilet sendiri

Hujan lebat sudah henti
Pasar malam aku pergi
Makan sedap suka hati
Sakit perut berak lagi

QUOTE of the day

I may be not number one, but i'll always be the only one.

on CLOUD NINE

yes! im on cloud nine mode. haha.

I'm Yours - Jason Mraz

SONG of the day

Chin Eng is in a very good mood today. What a happy day. So let’s listen to this happy nice song. It’s one of my favourites. I’m Yours from Jason Mraz. LIVE!

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Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks, now I'm trying to get back

Before the cool done run out, I'll be giving it my bestest
And nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love

Listen to the music of the moment people, dance and sing
We're just one big family
And it's our God-forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate, our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

D-d-do do you, but do you, d-d-do
But do you want to come on
Scooch on over closer dear
And I will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and I laughed

I guess what I be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanities and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do, our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Come on and open up your mind and see like me
(I won't hesitate)
Open up your plans and damn you're free
(No more, no more)
Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours
(It cannot wait, I'm sure)

So please don't, there's no need
(There's no need to complicate)
There's no need to complicate
(Our time is short)
'Cause our time is short
(This is our fate)
This is, this is, this is our fate
I'm yours

Oh, I'm yours
Oh, I'm yours
Oh, whoa, baby you believe I'm yours
You best believe, best believe I'm yours

QUOTE of the day

"Malaysians have to learn to respect each other. Those who want to hurt Indian and Chinese, they should ask themselves this. If we cubit ourselves, do we not hurt? Then why do we want to pinch them? This logic should also apply vice-versa."

- Chef Wan

happiness is achievable

i've read a blog of a friend of mine. she's sad. at the same time, i also feel sad reading Anil Netto's blog saying that Kg Buah Pala villagers still determine to fight for their heritage village and tonight they are sleeping in their broken houses.

well.. we must realised that problems always occur. it happens everyday. sometimes it's avoidable but most of the time, it is not. life is not as beautiful as we always want it to be. there are ups and downs. as a non-perfect creature on the Earth, we can't avoid but to solve and prevent it.

i feel it's not impossible to make ourself happy. how?

first, it can be doing the things you always wanted to do.

second, it can be you finished or accomplised something that you started.

third, it can be you do it with someone who knows you and cares for you.

fourth, knowing that someone you know is happy.

fifth, it can be you did a good thing.

and tonight, i feel i have achieved some happiness in my life.. although it might last only for a while before another problem arrives. but i appreciate every moment of it and save it in my memory.

i have achieved all the five happiness factors tonight.

1. i always wanted to study for my exam n i did it tonight when my friends are sleeping. we r tired tonight after we finished our first paper and the next paper, Introduction to Advertising is at 9am 16/9/09. i didn't want to waste any time that's why i studied tonight.
2. im happy because i finished studying AV. i didn't stop half way and go sleep. i studied from 2.30am to 5.15am. i may not remember everything but at least i have some idea of it.
3. my good friends accompanied me tonight. 2 of them. Saravani and Amirah. i asked my other friends but they are tired. amirah left around 2.30am and Sara was with me the whole night. yes i feel more semangat when my friends are around. if i sleep, they'll scold me.
4. hehe... me n my friends were joking and laughed our hearts out. they are happy. when they happy, i happy. i know Sara is happy too cuz i studied. haha. and if 'she' knows i burn midnight oil, i guess 'she' will be happy for me too.
5. i sent Sara home. yeala so late already you know. 5.20am in the morning. dangerous.

so think positively and live happily. i know it's not easy but.. hey.. in the end, who'll get hurt?

the answer is: WE, US, KITA, I, ME, SAYA, AKU, LIMPEH, WA.

till then, gnite ppl. signing off at 6am. tata.

what the TUUUUUT!

WHAT THE TUT! TUT! TUT! TUT! TUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT!

Maximum Satisfaction

OCE gila babi cokodok basi
Mengidam kfc pi makan seorang diri
Sedap gila hingga menjilat kaki
Now Sudah hapi can study

QUOTE of the day

"There are things we can change and things we cannot change."

- The Obnoxious 5xmom

The Devil Strikes Again

oh god! why is this happening? Why again? and why at this time when I should be focusing on my final then worrying about my mum and siblings safety?? It must be so serious. If not my grandparents won’t come and try to settle it. But as usual, my mum n us will be BLAME. Dad is never wrong.

Im so shocked and sad. Try to imagine someone big in size and hit another person. Try to imagine the impact. My mum always wake up at 6.30am and fetch sister to school. My dad didn’t even fetch her when it’s raining! My mum has to wear raincoat, cover my sister with jacket and send her to school.

What my dad said is totally not true. It’s an accusation. Purely accusation. My mum never instigate any of us. My mum never asks us not to go to grandma’s house. she always ask us to drop by. During last school break, my sister slept there for a week. Dad always want us to go to his parents’ house but never want us to go my mom’s side. my brother is weak is studies. So what’s the problem of taking tuition? My dad always scold him for not going to tuition but when he does, my dad says different thing. My mum subsidize half of the tuiton fee. My brother even dropped a few subjects so that the fee won’t be that high. Yes he is lazy and always play around. But don’t twist your words.

My mum has done a lot and so much for this family. She’s the one who handle and maintain the family welfare. She’s still working. My dad’s monthly allowance for her is totally not enough! Crap! How can rm500 fed 4 persons for a month?! My mum travels 30mins on bike to her work place everyday. She’s uneducated. She cant work in office. She’s just a cashier in a chinese coffee shop. She sells products from Tupperware. In the weekend, she opens a stall to sell Tupperware. But I’m still proud of her. why at this middle age she still do all that? Because my sister is still young. Because she loves us.

My dad doesn’t want my brother to further study in college. My dad forced my brother to take up Form 6. My brother is not the study material. We all know that. If my brother screw up Form 6, he’ll wasted his 2years and end up no qualification to enter any universities at all. My mum never asks him not to further studies. Me, my mum, my aunties, my uncles have been telling my dad the consequences of going to Form 6 but he just couldn’t understand. So at the end, my mum made a decision to let my brother study in this culinary institute and willing to pay for his studies. My brother tried so hard to talk to my dad. I objected at first for my brother to study at that instititue because I feel it’s low class. I want my brother to go to KDU or Taylor’s. I even agreed to use my PTPTN money for my brother. My mom refused. I know money is the prob. My brother and I are not in good terms since secondary school but I love my brother.

Im proud of my sister. She’s only 9 year old, Standard 3 but since Standard 1 she started to surf the internet. When I came to Kampar, she chat with me in English through MSN although she’s from Chinese school. She cakap banyak and she realli know how to think. She’s been protecting us when my dad beat us. I love her so much and I really want her to be someone someday to the society.

Im fucking fed up with all this. That’s why sometimes I never want to go back to penang! I just wana run away from all this. Im too angry. So what if u raised us up? Does it means u can treat us badly?? No! we’ve grown up. We are not like little kids anymore. we know how to think. We know what is good for us. We know who treat us nice and who doesn’t. I acknowledged your sacrifice on this family. It’s your responsibility. I appreciate what you have done but..

I’m totally against child abuse and domestic violence. I went through it. I know how it feels. I hate people who use vulgar words. I don’t want to be a son who charged his father in court. What if one day I have to…

I guess I shouldn’t go travel to neither Cambodia or Sarawak this year. I should save up money for my family. What is one day something bad happened? Who’s gona take care of my sister? And now im thinking really hard whether I wana go back for Raya break this 18-22/10. Maybe I should so that I can protect them.

If one day you have a family, remember, money is important but it’s not everything. Take care of your family with love but not money. Money without love is nothing. learn the right way to show your love. Violence can never solve a problem. Love them..

I know I should’t blog at this time but I need to let my feeling out. I need to talk to someone. i can’t talk to her. my hp is run out of credit. I don’t want her to feel im immature. I was having a nap actually but I was waken up by this bad news.

- anonymous author

time to stop.. for a while

Finally.. I really studied. It feels so nice.

I went to my Vivien’s house. Mirawani was there. fuh! We had lots of fun. We had pillow talk. We shared our thoughts and problems. We let our our grouses. We advised each other. We joke and screamed in the middle of the night like no one else’s business. It has been so long, for at least the whole semester since we had so much fun together.

I miss them. I love them. They understand me. they know who is Oh Chin Eng and the reasons behind my actions. I apologized for my… u noe.. all the bad silly stupid things that I did. Hehe.. I noe im bad. Sometimes only k. im sorry. And thanks for the crazy night.

Oh ya Sing Hua was there too. We took a lot of silly pics. haha.

As usual, my ‘adinda’, the girl that can never make us kering gusi and wana give her a nice tight slap, Vivien, repeat and repeat and repeat her probs. Probs that never exist. She and her ‘what if’. Think too much is not good.

No matter what, you know we love you right?? Hehe.. or I should follow what you say, “I know you love me right?”. It sounds so perasan.

One thing I learnt last night. Im REPULSIVE. Im still figuring out the meaning.

Im happy that finally i got her msg last night. As i always said, a small little action can make a big difference. =p

Around 4am only I started to really concentrate and focus on my studies. Woah! Semangat giler! This is the first time in this semester I burn midnight oil. I enjoyed it so much! my KOPI O KOWKOW really powerful la! Finally I finished Interpersonal Communication. Went back at 7.40am n slept at 8.30am woke up at 11smtg bt slept again till 1smtg.

I had murtabak for sahur. And now im damn hungry. Grrrhh! Chin Eng can tahan!

after I take my bath, reading marathon again. my classmates already reaching the finishing line, but im still in the middle, trying so hard to catch up.

This blog post will be the.. not the last of course. But I’ll control my addiction ob blogging. I wont blog or on9 that much after this la. I dun 1 2 get distracted la. OCE wants to STUDY! im sure regret if i get bad results. So it’s time to stop blogging..for a while. =p

Thx for dropping by. =p

~on FULL BLAST TURBO mode~

*oppss. sorry. i misquoted my fren, Mira. hehe. it supposed to be impulsively not repulsive. hehe. din listen properly ma. =p thx mira. 27/9/09

QUOTE of the day

A little small action can make a big difference.