QUOTE of the day

Luck always comes in a row whether it's good luck or bad luck.

good morning Penang

hehehe. sorry no photos here. wana see photos?

go to http://oce-thephotojournalist.blogspot.com/2011/05/good-morning-penang.html

It's my first time going under Penang Bridge to snap snap. =p

amma reminds me..

Finally i managed to meet my maternal grandparents before i leave. Meeting the person you love is one of the most beautiful things in the world ma.

It just feels so nice, content and loving.

She has bee taking care of me since i was born until i enter primary school.

One thing for sure i would do when i go there is to eat! Her home-cook food is always the best. Sometimes better than my mum. hahaha.

So i told her im leaving this Tuesday to KL for my internship.

This is what she said and i felt sad listening this from her. I know she's proud of me. N i know she's abit sad i go so far.

" You go so far to study you must take care of your health. You must tkace care of yourself. You are big guy already. See you so skinny. Must eat more rice, must eat according to time. Go everywhere also becareful."

QUOTE of the day

Winning is not only from the results but from the experience.

Happy Wedding Lee Li Kar & Annie Kok

WIsh you a beautiful marriage my friend.

Photo taken on 21/5/2011 at Lee Jetty, Penang.

YOU are quoted

it's almost 5am n im still awake. stomach isnot feeling well la. i keep on farting. kentut sini kentut sana. got rhythm n melody some more.

hahah. it has been a while, in fact quite long ago since i quote someone in my blog.

and now at this time, i wana quote them before i go to bed. SO why i quote? it's either meaningful, inspirational, funny or stupid. hahaha.

so yea you are QUOTED peope. =p

“Gambar ambil liao sendiri view then when u KO time we help u playback all the pic u taken in ur life reminiscene kakakaka.”

~ Nixon Lai Chia Huey

~ 12.23am 21/5/2011

~ via MSN

“U r really such an amazing character! :D”

~ Christina Chin

~ 1.19am 21/5/2011

~ via FB

“U oways rush dats y SKINNY la.”

~ Huey Shyan

~ 4.00am 21/5/2011

~ via MSN

Oh I.C.

OIC is not my name.

my name is OCE.

this is about my IC!

you see how nice is my IC.

Now IC the quality of the so-called best identification card of the world.

Front view

Back view

Oh wow. It's so fragile huh.

Colour also faded. Must use ICI or Dulux next time.

NTV7, I'm Accepted!

“Media Prima Berhad has accepted Mr Oh Chin Eng (881019-xx-xxxx), undergraduate from Universiti Tunku Abdul Rahman who is pursuing his Bachelor of Communication, Journalism to undergo his 3 months of internship in our company. Throughout the internship duration, he will be attached to NTV7 News & Current Affairs dated from 30^th May 2011 until 2^nd September 2011.”

Wohooo!!

finally! at last i got the Acceptance Letter after months.

This is gona be the best new for today!

NTV7 I m coming!

Thank you so much Mr Teh for helping me in ths internship application. Thank you. Thanks a lot. May Buddha bless you.

Even Angels - Fantasia Barrino

Soulful song from an American Idol winner, Fantasia. Thanks to Oprah Show. Oprah Show is really inspirational and motivational. Anyway lisen to this song, it's nice. Fantasia herself cried while singing it.

QUOTE of the day

Wherever and whatever you end up with, always remember where you came from.

babies in process

'wow' Utusan Malaysia

In lectures, I learn that media must be objective, tell nothing but only the truth, neutral, independent, be responsible on their reports, quote from the credible sources, clarify and verify the information.

continue reading at http://oce-thephotojournalist.blogspot.com/2011/05/wow-utusan-malaysia.html

A Song to Mama - Boyz 2 Man

This is one of the very few favorite songs dedicated to the mother which i love.




Happy Mother's Day again. Live from Penang. =p

leaving Kampar

Wohoo it’s a beautiful Sunday morn in Kampar. Settling uni stuff, meeting up with friends, cleaning and packing up, having one last intimate moment with Kampar, then going back home. I’m gona miss Kampar for 4 months. In fact, I am very sad now separating with my friends. It’s like.. aih. Nvm. Go for nice breakfast lah! =p

Going to Penang at 2.30pm.

Happy Mother's Day

It’s Mother’s Day today (8^th May). I know no point I wish my mum’s a Happy Mother’s Day here. As if she can hear or read this. She’s computer illiterate and she can’t read English. This post is just to say that today is Mother’s Day. And I just wana express my love to mum. I love her no matter what I do and no matter where I am till the day I die.

This is what I posted in Facebook a while ago.

“I know it’s mother’s day today. But what the heck la you make a wish here? As if your mum got Facebook and Twitter. If you are that loving, go to your mum, wish Happy Mother’s Day to her face, give her a big warm hug and kiss her cheek. How’s that?? Dare or not?? I wonder if no social networks, where and how you gona tell the world and your mum that you love her…”

I really don’t understand why people wish their mother in Facebook lo. Can’t you just use the time and energy to SMS them? Or call them? Okla for those mums that have Facebook then okla. And if no money to call back, okla use Internet la.

But the funny thing is they even wish other people’s mum.

HALOOOOO! Other people’s mother also your mother ah? Mother eh you!

Please let me use a phrase from Mr Patrick Teoh, “niamah!”

At least, pray quietly in your heart wishing her a good health n happy life. Oh yeah, I’ve been doing that. See, easy and free.

Instead of keeping photos of yourself, or your friends’ photos or your lover’s photos in your wallet or purse, why don’t you keep a photo of your family? Will you be here without them? I’m not condemning la ok, but just think about what I said.

You see, I’ve been observing a trend or a behavior of human. You see when they say or ‘I pray that’ something something, do they really make a wish and pray?

NO!

Their wish and prayers never work. Saying and telling that they will wish you are just merely words to show support but it’s not really a truthful support.

Whenever you say to someone you pray that they will be good in something, make sure you really do it through your heart and not your mouth. If you are a believer, make the prayer through your religion.

Sorry la I just cannot accept people say they pray that bla bla bla but it’s just another kind of flowerish words.

People nowadays really macam-macam pun ada.

Very funny lah!

*Anyway, everyone in my house is packing up tonight cuz we are going back tomorrow. Woah have you seen a Packing Marathon before?? =p

*And mum, i'm going back later, so see you!

kata-kata hikmat

Setiap yang datang akan jua pergi kerana dalam hidup tiada yang kekal abadi..

eh listen here

1. Go explore.. see the world, taste the world, feel the world, smell the world, and hear the world. always try something new. stay out of your comfort zone. aiyah just go for it la. don't be scared, don't be worried. =p

2. You must always check your e-mail. What if got important messages ah? Check lah e-mail anda untuk keamanan sejagat, keharmonian hidup dan saja-saja.

3. Help people whenever you can. I tell you, the feeling of satisfaction and happiness you get can never be bought by money.

ugly me not. aku hensem.

YES THIS IS ME, OH CHIN ENG!

This is me people. It’s me. And I know I look good.

Handsome right? kan kan? I know i look handsome in this photo.

wahahahah!

Thanks to Ng Ee Theng aka Dai Ga Jie’s new camera. This is what they call fish-eye effect. I don’t know which part looks like a fish but this is really weird. Hahaa.

It's not cilakak ugly at all.

Hebat betul Ng Ee Theng's camera.

My pimples n bulus also can see!

QUOTE of the day

Live is like a circle, u must start what u finish, if not the circle will never be complete.

Year 3 Semester 1 exam is over

Hohoho finally Year 3 Semester 1 exam is over on 4^th May 2011.

Now exam is over. Suddenly I feel so boring and empty. It’s like university’s life is over. So fast time flies and im in Year 3 already, graduation soon end of this year.

Seriously boring la. Any programme ah?

Happy World Press Freedom Day

This is my Yellow Ribbon in support of World Press Freedom Day. It was given to me in 2010 during the lauching of Speaker's Square in Esplanade, Penang.

Happy World Press Freedom Day everyone.

The celebration was on 3rd May 2011.

I know i am late for like 1 day but it's ok. I was and still occupied for my finals ma. World Press Freedom is not only for a day but throughout the whole day. The fight for a free press will be going on until we achieve it one day.

Coincidentally on World Press Freedom Day, i had an exam on the subject of Politics and Media. hahaa. How irony is that when in studies, we talk about media freedom but in actual life, we actually don't have that.

I wrote this in my Facebook yesterday: it's 12am. it's May 3rd. It's World Press Freedom Day. i just hope that one day, the media in Malaysia will be more independent, neutral and free from Government control. let us at least against racist media for nation sake.

I don't know what we can do actually. but let's do something. Let's make a demand, a protest or a boycott to bad media.

DO you know that Malaysia is now ranks 143 out of 196 countries in the latest Global Press Freedom Index released by Freedom House from USA? What do you think about that huh??

You can decide what press you want you know.. The choice is in your hand.

saya berikrar..

Saya berikrar bahawasanya..

saya..

Oh Chin Eng..

Rakyat Malaysia..

Orang yang tak boleh duduk diam..

Ada je benda yang i nak buat..

Dan saya berprefer untuk buat sorang-sorang..

Sebab..

Bukannya semua orang nak buat apa i nak buat..

Sebab..

They are not interested..

Sebab..

I ni kan unique..

Special..

One in a million..

Weird..

Crazy..

Extraordinary..

Outgoing..

Lain dari yang lain..

Berani..

Bold..

Confident..

Extreme..

Bo kia si..

Dan macam-macam lagi..

So..

Bahawasanya..

Saya Oh Chin Eng..

Don't care what you people say la..

Don't care if you don't share my sentiments..

Don't care if you don't wana join me..

As i..

Will still be OCE..

I do what i wana do..

I do what i feel it's worth to do..

I am ok to do it alone..

And i'll do it by myself..

ok tq bye.

QUOTE of the day

When you are confident, you are unbeatable!

What Are Words - Chris Medina

Nice song!

My roommate has been playing this song everyday for quite some time. And at first I was quite annoyed by the music. Seriously!

But today I was awed by the singer, Chris Medina. He has a good vocal leh. And i fall in love with the MV the first time I watch it. I saw the MV through someone’s blog by the way. =p

The MV is so touching and true. But what touches me the most is not really the song, it’s Chris. I’m touched by his undying love his fiancée. How many guys could do the same thing like him? Hmmm..

Anyway I did a quick research on the singer and the song and this is what I found. Do read it.

<< 2011 American Idol castoff Chris Medina - the guy who touched everyone's hearts and possibly made us shed a little tear with his heartbreaking love story about his girlfriend who currently suffers from brain injury due to a car accident - is the first example of the new partnership between American Idol and Universal Music Group. Chris Medina has been given the opportunity to release his debut single online. "What Are Words" which hit iTunes on February 24th is a beautiful ballad, inspired in his AI story, written by Rodney "Darkchild" Jerkins. >>

This is a nice song! I suka. I’m now totally addicted to it. =p

Anywhere you are, I am near

Anywhere you go, I'll be there

Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see

How every single promise I keep

Cuz what kind of guy would I be

If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words

If you really don't mean them

When you say them

What are words

If they're only for good times

Then they don't

When it's love

Yeah, you say them out loud

Those words, They never go away

They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me

And I know I'm meant to be where I am

And I'm gonna be

Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side

I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words

If you really don't mean them

When you say them

What are words

If they're only for good times

Then they don't

When it's love

Yeah, you say them out loud

Those words, They never go away

They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near

Anywhere you go, I'll be there

And I'm gonna be here forever more

Every single promise I keep

Cuz what kind of guy would I be

If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

No (only) in Malaysia

In Malaysia, any rally, protest, demonstration, assembly, gathering and picket that held to demand something from the Government, it’s illegal. Other than Government, it’s legal.

I pray that..

aih terlebih kenyang sampai tak boleh nak tido.

Finished my second paper today. Next paper is next Tuesday. so tonight can rest a while.

well.. i have something to say actually after knowing something not so good happened to my friends.

Friends who are in troubles now, disturbed by problems and feeling so down and demotivated, I feel so sorry I can't do much to help but I, will pray hard to Buddha. I'll ask Him to comfort you, to bless you, to give you peace and help solve your problems. May us be well and happy.

excerpt from Cinta

"Kalau kita nak, mesti ada cara kan?"

This is an excerpt from my favorite local Malay movie Cinta produced by Kabir Bhatia in year 2008. The excerpt actually means when there's a will, there's always a way.

Well, why suddenly i choose to post this thing huh??

In life, we'll stucked at somewhere and we don't know what to do. Even if we know what to do, we'll be in dilemma whether our decision is correct or not.

What i can say is, if we want something, there must always be a way. It's like if you wana get good resuts in your exam, then you have to put effort and study hard. There's always solution to a problem.

Cinta, one of the best Malay movies ever produced and it makes me go teary when i watched it. Nice storyline and superb soundtracks by Malaysian best artistes.

Watch it if you have the chance. Who says Malay movie is bad huh?? Don't be sceptical and stereotype. Wait till you watch movies byt Kabir Bhatia, Afdlin Shauki, KRU, Amir Muhammad and Pierre Andre.

The below video is the final part of the film Cinta.

http://youtu.be/Bi2L1__1_6A

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bi2L1__1_6A&feature=related

QUOTE of the day

If you keep worrying and scared of getting bad results, then start working and work extremely very hard to get good results.

WASTE NO MORE TIME!

flash flood in Kampar

April 29 - Kampar is flooded again today for the second time in my 3 years of studies in UTAR Kampar. The first flood happened on April 10 but it's not as worse as today's flood.

The super heavy downpour started after 5pm and lasted for more than 1 hour with deafening thunders and discolight lightning. The scenario was like a war scene in Iraq. wooo scary right?!

Westlake Homes for UTAR students accomodation went blackout at 5.45pm and resumed only when the rain stopped at 7pm.

i wanted to go out to snap some shots but the rain was just too heavy. The water level rose so fast and the water poured into my house.

1 hour of heavy rain with loud thunders and disco lightning caused Kampar to be flooded. Places like Westlake, Harvard, New Town, Taman Tasik Selatan, and Taman Kampar Perdana are seriously affected. Some places were black out. More photos? Ask from UTAR students. =p
Places like Harvard, New Town, Taman Tasik Selatan, and Taman Kampar Perdana are seriously affected too. Now the biggest victims are the students where their vehicles could not start and their rooms are leaked thanks to the good construction by the profit-maker. The worst thing is UTAR students are having their finals now.

Not to forget, the shoplots in New Town also flooded. They are gona have bad time to clean the mess.

By the way, i'm really 'impressed' with Kampar. Satu kali hujan, satu Kampar tenggelam. walaueh.. the rain here so keng lo. In Penang, kalau hujan hor, at least oni few parts banjir. haha.
 
 

more photos at

http://www.facebook.com/media/set/fbx/?set=a.10150166681757877.305636.599962876&l=93f760f814

Old photos of rain in Kampar: http://oce-thephotojournalist.blogspot.com/2010/04/kampar-thunderstorm-aftermath-beautiful.html

and http://oce-thephotojournalist.blogspot.com/2010/04/kampar-thunderstorm-aftermath-ugly-side.html

don't question us

Sorry, suddenly I have the urge to say this.

Don’t question why the youngsters leave the country. Don’t question why the non-Malays support the Opposition. Don’t question the patriotism of the non-Malays. Don’t question why there are still so much crimes, accidents and poverty.

Question yourselves!

The answer lies in the government itself. Look at how you treat us. Look at how your policies and decisions which only benefit certain group. Look at how corrupted and incompetent you are. Look at how you labeled us the non-Malays. Look at how racist your people are when you unashamedly talk about 1 Malaysia.  

Let me tell you, before the change of a government, many young people will leave the country. Because I too, has lost hope.

exam again

I just came back from Penang yesterday. I had enough fun. I’m so blessed this year especially the last entire week. I am overwhelmed.

It’s final exam again. This is gona be the second last exam before I graduate end of this year. Time flies like nobody’s business. Blink blink eyes kejap je dah 3 years in UTAR. Haha. I’m now in Year 3 Semester 1. Internship next semester. Come back to UTAR for last semester and byebye UTAR.

This is indeed the hardest semester ever although I’m taking only 4 subjects. These four subjects are very tough ok. Not to forget, we have internship application la, final year project la, SRC la, events la etc. and UTAR Ball belum settle lagi. Aih..

Study week not even a week. Just few days. And exam of 4 subjects in a week. This is really crazy. First paper is this Thursday. Ayoyoyo..

I start to feel nervous already. I didn’t do my best yet. I wish my friends will do well in the exam. Remember study hard. Do your best and leave no regrets. Say your prayer when you start and end your exam.

To my graduating seniors, ah, so sad la u all are leaving. Last year, Kwan Yee and friends left us, now it’s Nigel and his friends. i am so gona miss you all! Well, no matter where you are, what you do, you are still my beloved helpful and caring seniors. I’ve learnt from you all and without you all, my life in Kampar would not be that interesting. To my graduating seniors, I say thank you. All the best in your life. Don’t forget me, your cilakak junior.

A lot of nice people are leaving too. Good friends I know throughout my studies here in 3 years are graduating this semester too. Keep in touch k.

I have been listening to songs whole day. A lot of Malay songs playing in my laptop. Well, a fact that many people don’t know, I’m a big fan of Malay songs. I listen to songs from Sheila Majid, Ungu, Ziana Zain, Anuar Zain, M.Nasir, Ramli Sarip, Yuna, Ning Baizura, Sudirman, VE, Ruffedge, Aizat and so on.

I posted in Facebook “when you study, it's better if you don't on your laptop because it's so distracting. not to forget, silent ur hp n put it far far away. it's annoying and you can hardly concentrate with so many gadgets around u.”

It’s hard to live without gadgets you know. Haha. Okla got to go. I’ll see whether I can study anot. Baca-baca but kepala kenot masuk. I know I must study but itu ohhhmmph tarak la. momentum manyak low. Why har?? i duk tidur whole day. Okla2. Bye bye la. see you soon la.

Some of you need me to upload photos in Facebook right? Er.. ok.. but sabar ya. I try to upload a bit lah ok. Mau study la.

Penang, I’ll see you again after 2 weeks. =p

All the best to my friends for the final exam ya. USH USH USH

funeral

Another touching advertisement by the late Yasmin Ahmad. It's so true and honest which touches hearts of many of us. ALthough she's gone but her lagacy will stay alive forever.

mali mali homph

hahaha. i need to release some tension. found this crazy photo taken back in 2006. wah! 5 years ago leh. anyway im back in Kampar.

Jing Si Aphorisms

"Nothing is impossible if you believe it is achievable."

~ Master Cheng Yen

Hypocrite Facebook users

Hypocrite..

What a hypocrite. Such a hypocrite! I see hypocrisy of Facebook users. What a faker.

In Facebook, eventhough you don’t know a person, they will come and add you. Most of the time, I just don’t care. I let it be. I won’t approve but I won’t ignore. I don’t want them to feel hurt if I ignore their request.

The issue here is why you wana act as if you know that person and add them?

I damn pissed with people who add me and then they never show their photos, not even their profile. Then how the hell I know who are you? If your information is so valuable and high profile, then no need add anyone la. Stay in your own world.

$%^&*(*&^%$%^&$%^&*

Okok please chill OCE. Please la, if you wana add anyone, at least let people see your basic information and photos. So that they know who are you ma.. and if you are good enough, send a FB message telling that person you know them, where you guys met or just say la you wana be friends etc.

OMG! I forget to mention that some people even lie about their names. They will put those fugly silly names in their profile. Some without English names will come up with some funny English names. Some will put celebrities’ names, cartoon’s names etc.

Aduih.. people, why are you so ashame of your own name??!!!

2 months ago, a girl added me and I didn’t approve. After a day, she sent me a FB message saying that she wana know me. I was like ok.. This kind of approach to know someone is so outdated la. a lot of people using this way when I was in Form 2, back in 2002.

Ok fine. That’s not the story. After we talked in FB message, I told her that I didn’t approve her yet because I don’t know her. After a moment, she cancelled her friend request. Hahaha. Walueh hipokrit betul pompuan nih!

And you know what? I feel so amused with some people. They criticized me openly in Facebook and now they are adding me. I wonder what’s their intention. Apa so bertaubat ka? Mau balik pangkal jalan??

Now, there’s another person adding me. I don’t know who the heck is her. I looked her profile and I found something so shocking.

It says “For those who wants to add me as your friend list, can you send me a message and tell me about yourself? I have no idea who you are and I'm not interest to check your profile. Thanks.”

Zzzzz… SPEECHLESS! Please look at yourselves before you say anything ok. Tq.

Why must we add so many people? Why must you have so many so-called friends in your Facebook? Are they friends anyway? For me they don’t deserved to be called as friends at all. For me these are all fake friends. What are friends? Friends are the one that you have their contact numbers in your handphone. You know what’s their names. You know where they stay and so on.

All these FB friends will never be there when you are in trouble. Just look at your friends list. Do you know all of them? Do they help when you need help? How many of them help you?

I know it’s good to reach out and have better networks but NEVER BE HYPOCITE!

I say all this not to show how exclusive and great I am by not approving anyone. This is a social illness that we are facing now. We spend whole day on Facebook. We talk to strangers who might harm us. We expose our information to the world.

Oh anyway I’ll say it again. I am not gona approve anyone who I do not know. I won’t. you can say I’m cocky or whatsoever you want. But that is me. Take it or leave it. This semester break im gona have a FB friends cleansing.

Oh im sorry if you (who are reading this) are that kind of person.

i am teruk

I’m home in Penang.

Woohooooo!

Hahahaha. It’s fun catching up with old friend. It’s more fun talking to Dexter Khaw.

Dexter Khaw Kuo Wen, that’s the man who knows me well. He has been a loyal critiques of me for over don’t know how many years.

I am teruk.

Whenever we go out, I’ll be late and they have to wait for me. I always last minute. Besides, I always delay things. These are my suckiest weakness. I have bad time management. Because of this attitude, I face a lot of problems. My personal life is always not smooth and friendship got affected.

Dexter is not the only one who dislikes my bad time management attitude. Those who close to me know about it lah.

Hmmm..

And guess what, he remembers all my bad things but not a single good thing. I asked him why. He said “keong kan you pernah buat benda baik for me to ingat ah?”

Well, it’s a pain truth but that’s the truth. I am teruk and Dexter know knows how teruk I am. Hahah.

Im such a bad ass lah. Ayooo.. He clearly remembers that I was late for an event for 1.5 hours back in 2003.

This means perangai buruk gua dah tersemai sejak berkurun lamanya. Ayoyoyoyoyo.

Dexter also hates me when I don’t do things that I said. For me, you must have a dream. You say it out and you try to do it. If you can’t achieve it, it’s ok at least you dare to dream and try to achieve it.

Yes he is cilakak but he is the most truthful guy friend I ever had.

He’ll just speak his mind out. He speaks nothing but truth.

I always mengata orang. Criticize this and that. But he never. He’ll only criticize when necessary.

Dexter Khaw, one of the very few steady men I have ever met.

He stood by his principles all the time. He’s free from problems as he knows clearly what he’s doing and he makes almost no mistake. He’s good to friends, family and himself..

He helped me a lot a lot of times.

He is there most of the times when I needed him. That’s what a friend is. I seldom help him. Why? Because he never needs my help. He seldom needs anyone’s help.

Before I end this post, I wana say something to myself, you can achieve many things in your life. But it’s not good enough if your attitude and personality is not good enough. You must good from outside and also from inside.

the most valuable lesson

I strongly feel that the most important and valuable lesson i learnt throughout my entire life is don't be last minute and never ever delaying things that supposed to be done within a stipulated time.

i, am not ok..

UTAR Ball has taken a toll on my life.

The event is over but the mess is not over yet. I just hope as a team, everyone will bear the responsibilities together. This is our event and not my event. Don’t just quit or pin-point when we are in troubles.

A lecturer just told me that he will deduct my marks. Ok.. Yea because I didn’t do well in my coursework. I deserved that. Even if I give him what he needs now, no use already.

Oh besides that, I didn’t submit an assignment which due last week. Haha. What the fark am I doing right. It’s all my mistake. Not that I didn’t do but I can’t finish it. I slept at 4.30amon Thursday. Woke up so early on Friday and work on the ball whole day. Saturday is about UTAR Ball again.

Im living in the world of worries and insecurity every single day...

I screwed up my assignments. My studies drop like shit. I’m totally not happy with my life now.

Whenever my friends see me, they’ll ask am I ok, why am I looking down, tired and stress. They see it themselves that I am not ok.

I am really not ok.

Since beginning of March, everything seems so disorganized. Everything seems not ok.

Whenever I try to settle something, there will be sure some other things popped up to be settled. At the end, many things are unsettled.

You know.. I am tired n down. I skipped a lot of classes this semester.

I am worried. I am so so worried.

I’ve totally no mood to talk to anyone. I get angry so easily. I lost my patience when I talk to people, even people who I’m close with.

What can I do now? What should I do now? What choice do I have?

The final exam is the only way I can save myself. The only way. Please, don’t bother me with event’s problems anymore, I had enough. Just give me a break please. Let me alone. At least for these 2 weeks until I’ve done with my final exam.

PRIORITY!

Now, my internship is still in limbo. The company hasn’t reply to my lecturer. I told him that I don’t wana intern in UTAR.

He was so happy when he knew that we can intern in UTAR. What the fark man, who wants to intern in his/her university? I DON’T WANT!! Now is week 14 and no answer from the company yet. Then what should the students do? We live in fear every day, afraid that we can’t go out to do internship, afraid that we must stay in UTAR to do our internship. Can the lecturer please help us out? Please..

He’s like cincai cincai all the time. sorry la but this is how I’m feeling.

Arrrghhhhh!

Seriously don’t ask me to do anything else. I am fed up. Suddenly here not enough money, there not enough money. Must attend this meeting and that meeting. Suddenly money hilang. Suddenly have to settle some stuff and rush to university. Oh ya not to forget ongoing, continuously INCOMING CALLS, SMS, and FB NOTIFICATIONS! Halo what kind of life is this??

YES I AM COMPLAINING! GO AWAY IF YOU DON’T WANA LISTEN.

I am now giving away giving up everything in my hand for studies. Ok?

DON’T ask me for photos unless it’s necessary. Politics? Get off!

I’ll read less news, care less, totally less Facebook-ing, take less photos, sleep less, still going to eat more and STUDY!

I don’t know what’s gona happen if I flunk my final exam. NO! that’s NOT gona happen!

I am so in a mess right now. Don’t believe me? Look at the photo or you are welcome to my room. I’m not hiding anything and telling people how good I am because I am so not in a good position right now…

I.. Am not OK..

ohm...

money matters

If you ask me do I trust someone when it comes to financial.

My answer would be no.

Why no?

Why not yes?

Why must yes?

Human nature: there’s greed in everyone. When you have the chance to keep something for yourself for free, you’ll do it.

In organizing an event, sure there will be a lot of expenses. But impossible you wana claim everything right? There are things that we have to spend by ourselves to make the event a success. If every single thing also claim, then pokai la.

And when it comes to claiming, there are sure people will give fake receipts. Eh eh I wana ask, you don’t afraid that people might find out meh? You don’t afraid of your religion meh? You tak takut dosa ka? Nanti tidur tak lena, makan tak lalu, mandi tak basah and berak taik tak keluar!

When so many people have to chance to hold on to the money, fraud will happen.

When there are so much procedures and steps or bureaucracies in getting the money or passing the money, fraud also happen.

This is why we have corrupted people. Duit dah melekat kat bola mata.

I also don’t have faith in myself. But of course I control myself. I still have high discipline, conscience, ethics, moral and fear for my religion.

You take people’s money today, tomorrow you’ll lost even more.

Never do bad to others la.

Money is important.

Money can be everything.

But conscience is always above money.