emergency exit

you must be thinking about the emergency exit of a building right??

no no.

that's not the emergency exit i'm talking about.

i'm actually going back to Penang now due to some urgent matter.

this is the first time, i make a hasty decision to go back.

just decided yesterday actually.

i have to go back.

if not..

not good lo..

will be back to Kampar tomorrow night.

have to spend a lot on travelling again.

but what to do..

Happy Thaipusam

Here i wish you all Happy Thaipusam!!

Thaipusam is not only about breaking coconut or go take kavadi la, but for me, it's about holding on to your faith, be a good person and...

and...

to remember the poor as well lo. if you are going to temple or kuil, please bring along some coins to donate la k. thank you.

I am not taking kavadi this year. i am not going back to Penang this year.

I am now going to Batu Caves.

tata.

dead cat

feeling so bad right now.

it's hard to describe my feeling.

i just feel like tearing.

you can say i'm emotional.

but that's how i react everytime i see this animal died because of us, HUMAN!

my heart crashed into million pieces.

A cat just died in a horrific state.

it was rammed over by the UTAR bus.

its mouth was widely open bearing miserable pain with its intestines scattered all over on the road. the blood is still fresh on the road.

I took it and placed it at a better ground d.

this is the first time i met a dead cat in my university.

who to blame??

the cat, for not crossing the road properly?

or the bus driver, who rammed over it??

=(

mau fight la!

apa!!

apa tengok-tengok?!!

wa manyak hot now lo.

i duno why lo.

hormone imbalance is it??

im so in the mood for a physical fight right now seriously!

i feel like beating up someone or at least push someone down to the ground.

what, never see me so aggresive ah?

i can be very ganas one ok! kenapa, tak percaya ah?

eh, i'm a man too ok, there are times when man naik gila and act gila.

Right now, i really feel so hyped up and spiritedso hyped up, spirited for a boxing!

yeah! come on babe! come come till teh last man standing.

get me some small sized fella pls!

HOT ah!

n i tell u what i did to someone just now.

i already not in the mood tonight and he pissed me off.

there's this Malay boy, around 13-15yr old la.

He took his bicycle then he make the other bicycle to drop.

so fine, i quickly went over wana help him but before i reach him, he just left the scene, act as if nothing happen and let the dropped bicycle there.

out of sudden, i 'OIKKK' at him!

i was so loud and so fierce!

macam lion ok!

i stared at him.

he got a shock definitely la.

he made a U-Turn to put the bicycle in place again.

then i say it's ok it's ok and i put back the bicycle to its place.

and he kept on saying sori.

hahah! den i just laughed n laughed!

i didn't mean to scold him actually. and in fact that was not my bicycle. im just pissed off how can he just walk away like that.

but i really look like i wana give him a punch. haha. u shud look at his face.

ahhhh satisfied!

but rigth now i still feel wana punch something!!

anyone??? =p

YOU are quoted

"Satisfaction lies in the effort, not in the achievement, full effort is full triumph... "

~ Saravani Selvem
~ my classmate la
~ 17/1/2011
~ via FB

QUOTE of the day

Dare to say NO when you have to say no.

shaving time

all this while, everyone (i mean my close friends) always try to pluck my beard!

ish!

they love to do so lo.

and most of them are girls. why huh? oh jealous hor cuz they don't have beard like me?

hahaha.

Amirah always want to cabut my bulu.

they say it's not nice to keep beard.

i look old wor..

is it?

look old ma good la.

i think the reason i don't look good with beard and moustache is because i look messy in it and my beard is not thick.

aih..

i forgot to shave before the Orientation for the new students intake few days ago. Duno they notice my beard anot. ish ish ish.

nvm. i shave clean clean from atas ke bawah later lo.

tomorrow is first day of Year 3 Semester 1 already. You must always look good on the first day ok.

Vivien asked us again, "What to wear tomorrow huh?"

Normal question la..

anyway If ur beard and moustache long d must shave 1 meh??

I WANT TO KEEP LONG LONG LAH!

smileeeee

Don’t understand why some ppl so stingy to give a smile. So hard meh to smile. Smile only ma, can die meh?

EH i always smile to people one ok. it's some kind of greeting and respect ma.

Not that i wana show off or attract their attention la.

But it's normal la you smile to people.

when you don't smile, you really look not frienly ok.

so grumpy for what?!

wana show that you are fierce hor?

Go ciaksai la. Si bak bin!

wahahaha!

*ok i duno y im so behsyiok. maybe i can't stand my new housemates. never once they smile. as if i owe them money like that. if not happy, don't stay here lah!*

i made it to buddhist camp (part 1)

Im glad I made it to Buddhist Camp organised by UTAR Budhhist Society. It was well-planned and meaningful. Although im a banana but the committee took the trouble to translate, explain n key in hanyupinyin for us. Campsite was like heaven bcoz no one backstab, lie, steal or pretend. Now, I know more about Buddhism. It has enlighten my lost soul. Somehow I think found the thing that I was looking for. I found peace.

Tq.

in 1 week

In 1 week:

Penang -> Cheras -> Gombak -> Cheras -> Kampar -> Ipoh -> Taiping -> Kampar

= lost weight, koyak, tidur mati.

hehehe

Orientation well done. Speech ok kua. Meeting habis. Now rush to Taiping for camp. Will b out of contact until this Sunday, sorry if u can't get me.

tata.

anyway i feel so sorry n guilty for some people that can't reached me. i know i dissappoint them. it's my damn fault. damn me. aih..

QUOTE of the day

When you make mistakes, it's not enough to just say sorry. You have to fix the problem, compensate and never repeat it again.

lost in 2011

Today is like what, the 10^th day of 2011?? But why am I feeling so lost, as if I’m already in the maze of 2011 for years.

I don’t feel comfortable with what I’m feeling now seriously. Seriously..

I’m back in Kampar already. Reached here late last night. While my other classmates still enjoying one more week of holidays, I have to be back earlier. There are a bunch of people also sacrificed their holidays to prepare for Orientation this week. Hat off to them. They are really dedicated in what they are doing.

Now back to my story. I feel so stress up la. Yea this is just the beginning of the semester. But with Orientation, SRC, events, studies, Final Year Project, Internship application, etc etc and etc, wah kepala boleh pecah!

I think what bother me the most is SRC. A lot of unfinished plans and things to be done. Hmmm..

The problem now is..

I FEEL LOST!

I feel so so lost. Moody.  I don’t know what I should do. I’m so clueless and helpless.

No ummpph! No inspiration!

HOW ah? How?

I need the KICK!!

I need to start working. But brain is not working. Time flies so fast. I can’t afford to waste anymore time. Chances have slipped away.

OCE WAKE UP!!

Oh, I feel like go into the ring for a fight now. Feel like punching someone and let someone punch me. I wana feel the pain lah. Really la. Is there any illegal fighting ring? Eh I wana join. When you fight, you can overcome your fear you know. Cuz u’ll be dare to face your opponent and challenges.

I believe fighting is a good way to train us to face our problems. =

2010 was a good year. 2011? Hmm.. what say you? I don’t think 2011 is a good year because I don’t feel it. But maybe tomorrow I’ll feel differently? So, if you feel it’ll be good, it’ll be good la. And if you want it to be good, you make it good lo..

It's me, It's you

It's time to go

Bye Penang.

I am going off now.

Going to KL for a social work and back to Kampar on Sunday night. Orientation on Monday, then go for Buddhist Camp on Wednesday in Taiping.

New semester resumes on Monday 17th January 2011.

Fuh..

see you Penang during Chinese New Year.

tata.

new year with big spending

Today is already 8th of January 2011.

2011.

I'm already in the year of 2011.

time flies really fast huh.

while now is just the beginning of the year, i can already foresee that this new year comes with BIG spending.

when i say big, it's really BIG.

why so.

because all my gadgets broke down and i need to spend a lot to fix it.

i lost my handphone.

my laptop broke down. hardisk crashed. all my datas gone.

my camera is ill. it'll be dead anytime soon.

that only about gadgets, i still have to spend on other things.

new semester fee will cost me about 5K. i still need to pay for rental fee, daily expenditures, travelling expenses, camping fee, Chinese New Year clothes, photography competition, this and that etc etc.

oh God..

I am seriously broke even it's just the beginning of the year. how to survive la. I have to cut down my expenses again and i always do it on my food. I eat less which i know is not a good thing.

Guess what my bank only left RM70.00

haha! the amount is not enough for 1 week also la.

KOYAK. POKAI. HABIS!

later at 3pm i'll leave Penang. will only be back during CNY.

Just The Way You Are

nice song nice song!

Faith

Venue: Hock Teik Cheng Sin, Tua Pek Kong Temple,

Lebuh Armenian, Penang

Date: 8.10.2010

Time: 2.47pm

Sulit??

Menjalinkan hubungan sulit tanpa melibatkan apa-apa bahagian sulit adalah tidak menyulitkan kerana ia tidak menimbulkan sebarang kesulitan

QUOTE of the day

True love is when your partner loves you for who you are and accept your past without much questions.

arrrrgghhh!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

no no no no no!!

what should i do now.

Hardware crashed, datas corrupted, laptop spoiled.

I called DELL and the operator said there's no guarantee that they can rescue my datas!!

These datas are so important ok.

before this only the laptop's fan got problem.

Now, i can't even go into the window.

GREAT!!

I have nothing left!

i haven't backup everything yet!!

im leaving Penang on Saturday. Can i get my laptop back by then if i send it to the computer shop now?

Camera spoiled, hp is lost, now my laptop..

=(

KAY-ING lo..

Let me teach you how to be KAY-ING or how to pose WATTHETUT-LY.

Haahahaa. The best model is no one except Lee Pei Suang, the girl with the most interesting pose in the photo.

lalalalala. Woohoo!

*photo taken in Cameron Highlands.

*im too sien d. need to kacau ppl.

*don't kill me Rosemah Lee. =p

just a thought

When you already have new life and new hope, you can and you should just forget and let go your past.

QUOTE of the day

It's ok if your bf/gf is not the most handsome or prettiest person in the world, as long as he/she loves you.

pampers?

I miss wearing pampers for my sister, Oh Poh Sim la.

hehe...

she's 12 years youunger than me.

i took care of her when i was 12.

i changed her diapers, fed her, carried her around etc.

i miss those moments you know..

thumbs up to my Bro

I am really really proud of my brother la.

While today i help my mum to make steamboat, my brother who has graduated from a culinary art school and now working in the kitchen of Eastin Hotel, is making some kind of special dumpling.

I don't know what exactly it is but it's like glutinious rice ball or tang yuan.

The normal tang yuan don't have fillings but now my bro put some ingredients in the glutinious rice ball.

I saw crushed peanuts, shredded chocolate and cheese.

it looks delicious ok!

my brother is good in what he's doing lah.

what impresses me is his question to my mum.

he asks my mum to sit down and learn how to make this special food from him.

hahah! wow!

but my mum says since he's pro already, he should cook for the family.

my nosy and curious sister is helping and learning from my brother now. =p

by the way, home-made steamboat is yummy! =p

new year new things

new blog layout in a while! =p

funny article to start the year

hahahah guys i find this article funny lo.

you should read it lah!

it's from Wong Chun Wai, The Star newspaper.

click on this link:

Hoping for the new in 2011 http://thestar.com.my/columnists/story.asp?file=/2011/1/2/columnists/onthebeat/7709134&sec=onthebeat

bye 2010

ok before the end of 2010, i would like to apologise to everyone for all my wrongdoings. i noe i made mistakes. i ask for forgiveness.

i humbly wish everyone a very happy new year and a great 2011.

alrite, i'm ready for 2011.

time is getting less with family

holidays are gona ends soon, very soon.

3 weeks passed so fast.

I have another week to go before I go back to my uni. I supposed to have 4 weeks holidays until new semester starts on 17^th but due to some commitments in university I have to be back 1 week earlier.

I already start to miss my state and my family especially my sister.

I still have many things haven's done and settled in Penang.

And guess what I’ll start working tomorrow, means no much time left for me to spend with my sister as her school going to reopen next Monday.

I don’t want her to always stay alone at home. She dislikes it. I hate it too. But what can I do. What can we do. Everyone needs to work to make ends meet.

So I plan to bring her for bowling now as I promised but my brother didn’t want to come. Aih.. why.. he has been very negative and not loving for the past few years.

I know he has trauma. I know he’s not happy. So do i. after all these bad growing up experiences with abusing environment, we know who’s lucky and who’s not. We used to feel that there’s not love in the family. And all the past has made him into what he is today. For me, I stay positive, I know I don’t have to shaped by the environment and the culture, I chose my own path and decide on my own. But it’s tough tough.

I believe one day my brother will open up his heart and care for the family.

as for now, when im still in Penang, i'll try to spend more time with my sister and my family.

Me and my brother didn't talk much as usual. But this will be my resolution for next year, to have a better relationship with him.

aduih...

I tell you hor..

Pangsai is such a tiring activity.

Aduih..

So tired now.

Bo lat liao.

I love you, Ammi!

When was the last time I post a song?

I don’t remember.

But this song left my tears flowing..

I am not a mummy’s son. You know, that kind of boy who always glued to his mum. I seldom open up my heart to her. But she, gives me courage, showers me with unlimited love and raised me up to who I am today.

I thank her for that.

I never ever say to her face that I love her.

I don’t have the courage.

But, yes I do, I do love you, Ammi.

MmmmuaksS!

YOU are quoted

Sometimes you have to lose to win, to wrong to be right.

~ Fadzrina Ariffin
~ 28.12.2010
~ via FB

I wonder..

Why the mat salleh foreigners so rich 1 har? so damn kaya always travel here n thr. they eat kaya everyday kah? come sponsor me la!

where to before 2011?

It's the of the year before we usher in 2011.

I'm done with class trip to Kuantan n family trip to Genting.

But i have not yet spend time for myself.

I want my own personal quality time.

Where to after this for PERSONAL trip??

=p

Sweet and Sour of Xmas 2010

1)      Fire blazed 5 houses in Teluk Bahang and I was there, very fast, one of the first ‘reporters’ to be there. After 1.5 hours only the media arrived.

2)      I hurt my foot. I stepped onto either glass or nail.

3)      Went to Feli’s house for Xmas lunch.

4)      Sad can’t meet up with Yu Jean.

5)      Had another fail date for the second time. It’s all because of the fire.

6)      it feels so GREAT when u stopped ur bike at the traffic light to help a blind man to cross the road while everyone else of their vehicles just stood there, do nth n look at us. =p

7)      Mum prepared ‘hu chui’ the talisman/spiritual drink for safety purpose.

8)      Im going to Genting Highlands for family trip now. Coming back on 28^th morning.

merry christmas hohoho

hohohohoho!

it's Christmas again!

merry Christmas to all of you.

Hope all my Christian friends will have a joyful and memorable Christmas this year.

It is time to partay, to have good food and share happiness together.

to those kaypo people who celebrate Christmas as if they are Christian, buy some gifts for your friends la.

It's kinda weird u noe cuz everyone celebrate xmas. yes many of you cbrate xmas. many of u happy that it's xmas. hahaha. cuz it's a off day right??

alrite im goin to Feli's house to EAT BIG now!! wohohohoho!!

Selamat Hari Natal people.

tata.

QUOTE of the day

You'll know if someone care, love, cherish, appreciate, and put you in their heart. You'll know..

3 weeks in Penang

wooohoooo!

finally i am home. i reached Penang on Wednesday morning. and i lost my handphone. i left it in the ferry.

this is the first time the exam for Journalism course finished earlier than other courses. most of the time, our paper is the last one.

last paper was on 18th. then i went to Kuantan from 19th to 21st. i had an enjoyable time with you Sotong, Dai Ka Jie, Jing Wen, Xiang Lin, Yat Kuan, and Siew King. Thanks for the great hospitality Yat Kuan.

i met up with Feli yesterday. it feels great to catch up with her again. she bought me a tie as a Christmas gift. lalalalala. and she made me walked in George Town and hopped into public bus instead of travelling with my scooter. it's nice to slow down and feel the life of Penang.

then i helped Sheau Fung from PHT to shift exhibition stuffs in the new Museum at Macalister Road. Everytime i come back to Penang, i sure look for her and help out whenever i can. she taught me a lot of things.

you know..  i just helped my mum to wash the dishes.

im glad i did.

this is the first time i helped her to wash the dishes eventhough she didn't ask me to do so.

i feel.. i duno. i should do something for this family, to ease her burden.

this semester break is the only time i have to be with my family and i'll make use of the time i have.

i'm going out now but my mum ask me to eat. hmmm.. but she has not finish cooking la and i am rushing. this is the situation i dislike the most. i know she wants us to eat. every mum in the world work so hard in the kitchen to prepare a meal for her family hoping that they will eat, stay healthy and not hungry when they are out of the house. i know she feels disappointed everytime i didn't eat.

well, i'll stay to have my lunch and be late for my date lah. =p

this semester break is quite long, a total of 4 weeks. but i only have 3 weeks cause i have to be back to uni for the new students Orientation. yeala that's my duty as SRC Chairman ma. 3 weeks is damn short la.. most of the time, i dun really care of holidays. but this time..

I WANT ONE MONTH OF SEMESTER BREAK!!

let me TELL you thisdd

How much times left for you to know ur uni mates, to spend time with them n to go crazy with them. well.. not much! so?? get ur ass up n do it b4 u graduate. =p