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Thursday, 5 November 2009

quotable quotes

"Dimulakan dengan Bismillah. Disudahi dengan Alhamdullilah."

~ lirik lagu Raihan

Decision. Photos. Controversial.

Few days before I was talking about whether to post up the photos of the 3 UTAR students drowned in the waterfall incident. I get feedback. Some say ok. Some say not ok. For me, as a photographer, as a journalist to be, as a witness to the searching and rescuing operation, as a normal human being, I really want to post of the photos. It’s my hardwork to get those photos.

Im a person who uphold the truth. But I also care about the sensitivity of this issue. I know for sure that some people will make a fuss about this. They will definitely condemn me. than, go n spread the news saying that cilaka photographer post up photos of dead people. There are also people who will talk about respect the dead.

So I have decided that im gona post up the photos of the incident but not the dead bodies photos. I have also decided that if any of the victims friends want the photos, I’ll give it to them. but until today I haven’t do it.

My friend, Tennee got the photos from me and she post it on her blog. guess what? People critisize her. I already know that people will bising, make noise, critic this and that, condemn you etc. I pity her. anyway she removed some of the photos already.

You people only make noise because some of you know the victims and most of you know about the news. I can guarantee you 100% that if you never come across this news, u wont even give a damn to google their news and click on our blogs and look at the photos. And if you see the photos, I bet you’ll click on it and you’ll view it. You are curious to know what happened. You are attracted to something that you never seen before.

Your eyes want to see those photos but when you see it, your mouth say we shouldn’t published it.

Oh grow up people. There’s this ‘busybody’ gene in you. Don’t wear a mask. Don’t be a pretender. Don’t be a kuih talam dua muka. mang kong lanciau ua.

Please don’t forget that these photos are in the newspapers too. Chinese newspapers especially published those gruesome and scary photos. Why don’t you make noise there instead of here? Is it because we are small little people that are easily to be bullied or you just don’t have the guts to show your tigress tooth to the big company?

This is a sharing to those who were not at the scene. We are just reporting and showing you what has happened like what the newspapers are doing. It’s just a documentation of a disaster. This is a NEWS! So many people were there snapping photos with their handphones. the photos are circulating all over the WORLD! so what are u gona do?

Blogs, social networking sites and photo sharing sites are the alternative ways to get news. Nowadays people don’t turn into mainstream newspaper anymore because of its bias coverage. People prefer on9 news because it’s free, fast, wide coverage of news and you can get news from different perspective and different sources.

Stop blaming the people who post up photos of any bad events. Blame the people who go to google and type:

1.       james khor dirty dreams
2.       dirty dream james khor
3.       dirty dreams by james khor
4.       dirty dream blog james khor
5.        james khor dirty dreams blog

yes there are people who typed that keyword in the search engine. Im not lying. I have prove for what I say. I can trace how what the keywords that people use and end up in my blog. these 3 students are gone. Why some people still wana find fault?!

We never expect that to happen. We never want that to happen. This is fate. If can, I also want to turn back the time and see them alive but I can’t. I saw the bodies, I saw their parents crying, I saw death!

Im sad and down too. I have a mother, a father, a brother, a sister, 2 grandpas, 2 grandmas, relatives and good friends waiting for me to graduate and back to Penang safely. I have a girl that I love. I feel how you feel. I don’t want to loose anyone that I know. I wish I’ll DIE first so that I won’t be sad and mourn for their death.

In journalism, there’s this aspect that we must uphold the truth and give the facts to the audience. But there is also an aspect called ethics.

So people I ask you since who am I to give my opinion on this. Do you think truth can goes a long with ehics? Do you think by telling the truths that might give disadvantages to some people is unethical? What can be published and what can’t be published?

What say you?

So stop blaming anyone. The photos are not meant to humiliate the victims. Some people talk about respect. Oh puh-les. When someone is alive, you don’t give a damn on them. You cheat on them. You humiliate them. You accuse them. You lie to them. You smear their good name. you defame them. You set them up. you insult them. You downgrade them. You disgrace them. You scold them with vulgar words. You say nasty stuffs about them.

Now they are gone and you talk about respect? Do you respect a living person? Do you really respect your father mother, your brother sister, your grandpa and grandma, your relatives, your bf n gf, your husband n wife, your buddies, your friends, your lecturers, your boss, the aunties n uncles who collect your daily rubbish, the waiters, the hawkers, the orphanage, the old people, the disabled, the beggars and anyone that came across in your life? DO YOU?!!

Tepuk dada jangan tanya selera, tanyalah keimanan diri.

Kalau nak kritik tu biar bertempat. Tengok kat diri dulu sebelum nak berkata. Jangan gajah depan mata TAK nampak, lalat seberang laut nampak.

Ok I don’t know why I say all this. I didn’t post up any photos also. No one has yet to say any bad things about my blog post of the incident. Im just fed up with some people and their thoughts.

If you terasa, itu bukan masalah saya.

*as usual, my blog 24 hours a day 7 days a week 365 a year welcome your comments, suggestions, opinions, support, critiques, vulgar words and whatsoeveryouhaveinyourmind.
 *I’ll post what i want, i'll say what i wish. You don’t have any rights in the world to judge me. Leave the judging to those who really know who Oh Chin Eng is.

OME, Im Worried

i have been having problems with my ears since mid-May this year. i went to see doctors, spent around rm100 and im ok after that. but nop, my right ear is not ok. for the past few months my right ear produce some yellow color liquid n it's smelly. i realised that my i lost a bit of my hearing ability. hmmm.. n i came across this article today from KOSMO Online. im gona see doc TOMORROW! ppl go c doc if you are sick. dun be so CINCAI like me.

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Hilang pendengaran kerana bakteria

Oleh SHANIKA ABDULLATIB
shanika.abdullatib@kosmo.com.my

Pusat jagaan harian kanak-kanak menjadi faktor utama kepada jangkitan dalam telinga (OME).



DEMAM yang tidak berpenghujung, kerap menangis dan tidak dapat tidur menjadikan ibu bapa Aqil gelisah.

Bukan itu sahaja, tahap kesihatan anak mereka yang berusia dua tahun itu semakin merudum sejak dihantar ke pusat jagaan harian kanak-kanak berhampiran pangsapuri mereka.
Setelah berlarutan selama hampir dua minggu dan keadaan tidak bertambah baik, Aqil dibawa berjumpa dengan pakar dan diagnosis dengan segera.
Hasil pemeriksaan mendapati kanak-kanak itu mengalami jangkitan dalam telinga yang disebabkan oleh bakteria.
Jelas Pakar Bedah Telinga, Hidung dan Tekak (ENT), Hospital Pakar Ampang Puteri, Dr. Aminuddin Saim, gejala jangkitan ini dikenali sebagai Otitis Media atau jangkitan dalam telinga (OME).
“Bukan perkara luar biasa apabila seorang kanak-kanak berusia di antara dua hingga enam tahun mendapat penyakit ini. Namun, yang membimbangkan ialah ramai ibu bapa yang tidak sedar anak mereka menghidap penyakit ini,” katanya serius.
Bukan sekadar itu, pilihan yang terhad sehingga memaksa kebanyakan ibu bapa menghantar anak mereka seawal usia beberapa bulan selepas kelahiran ke pusat jagaan kanak-kanak menyebabkan penyakit ini semakin berleluasa.
Tegas Aminuddin lagi, kepadatan bayi dan kanak-kanak serta tahap kebersihan yang tidak dapat dipastikan di pusat jagaan itu menjadi faktor utama dalam penyebaran penyakit ini di kalangan kanak-kanak.
Menjelaskan lebih lanjut, Aminuddin berkata, OME merupakan jangkitan di dalam telinga terutama di kawasan selepas gegendang telinga.
Malah OME langsung tiada kaitan dengan telinga luar, tahi telinga atau aktiviti berenang.




Sambungnya lagi, kanak-kanak mudah mendapat OME selepas demam selesema. Seringkali ia terjadi seminggu selepas demam tersebut.
Paling utama, penyakit ini berlaku secara berulang-ulang. Lebih banyak kanak-kanak terdedah kepada persekitaran yang tidak bersih, lebih kerap jangkitan ini berulang.
Dalam kes jangkitan yang lebih kronik, jangkitan tersebut boleh menyebabkan gegendang telinga berlubang dan nanah yang berterusan.
“Lebih parah, cecair dalam telinga ini yang dibiarkan akan menanah dan akhirnya mampu merosakkan gegendang telinga,” kata Aminuddin.

Hilang pendengaran

Menyentuh mengenai kesan penyakit ini, sebanyak 10 hingga 20 peratus kanak-kanak yang tidak dirawat dengan segera bakal mengalami masalah pendengaran.
Bukan itu sahaja, kehidupan sosial kanak-kanak OME juga akan terjejas termasuk tahap pembelajaran mereka.
“Kanak-kanak OME cenderung untuk menjadi lebih agresif. Pertuturan mereka juga terjejas dan tahap kesihatan yang sering saja terganggu,” ujar Aminuddin yang membuat kajian penyakit ini beberapa tahun lalu melibatkan seramai 1,097 kanak-kanak prasekolah.
Malahan kanak-kanak OME cenderung mendapat radang otak, jangkitan pada tulang telinga serta mengakibatkan pekak berkekalan.
Bagi merawat OME, lazimnya pemberian antibiotik menjadi pilihan pakar kecuali jangkitan tersebut mencapai tahap kronik.
“Jika keadaan telinga menjadi kronik, pakar akan melakukan pembedahan kecil bagi memasukkan sejenis tiub bagi mengeluarkan cecair yang tersumbat di kawasan dalam telinga tersebut,” ujar Aminuddin.
Tambahnya, tiub tersebut bersifat sementara dan bertujuan menstabilkan tekanan dalam telinga. Selepas tiga hingga empat bulan, tiub itu akan terkeluar dengan sendirinya.
Dalam pada itu, lebih mengejutkan apabila laporan tersebut yang disiarkan dalam jurnal Otorhinolaryngol Pediatric mendedahkan sebanyak 13.8 peratus kanak-kanak menghidap penyakit ini.

http://www.kosmo.com.my/kosmo/content.asp?y=2009&dt=1101&pub=Kosmo&sec=Kesihatan&pg=ke_01.htm

Wednesday, 4 November 2009

YOU are quoted

"tadi my mak suddenly cakap pasal lu and your ex haha. we agree lu mia ex cantik lol. gembira bo haha."

~ Dexter Khaw Kuo Wen
~ 4/11/2009 Wednesday
~ 9.57pm
~ MSN Messenger

happy good morning

good morning. selamat pagi. kalai vanakam. chao an.

i have a good laughters to kick off my day today. oh i just love them, my friends who make my stomach pain for laughing too much.

1st was from D. he said:
"woot woot! at this time is 5.38am and yet i haven't sleep yet cos why i teman my lovely assignment lol...and then later le got class at 8am woot woot! life lik this rocks!!! woot...."

2nd was from F. she said:
"me too...how i wish my ex boss or my ex fiance yg in that situation" after i told her that im sad 3 students from my uni r dead. wahaha.

3rd was from Y, my housemate. this is the funniest thing that happened just now. he was going out to play basketball. suddenly he came back. guess why. guess.. because he forgot to wear his UNDERWEAR!

wooohooo! crazeee!

"don't forget to put a smile on your face." ~ Fariza.

let's have a great and happy day today 4/11/2009, Wednesday. woohooo!!

you'll always be REMEMBERED

these are the videos that made by James' friends.

i don't know you personally James. but i feel sad by your lost. im sure people who know you feel more pain than i do.

this goes the same to your friends Yew Ghim Chnieh and also Yew Shy Gin. you people will be remembered. May God always bless you wherever you are.







DON'T die before i do

well.. it's time where everyone is sleeping. but im here wiping my tears away. i was finishing the unsettled things that i wanted to do until i came across some videos on the net. it's the videos made to remember James Khor, one of the students who died few days ago.

My tears keep flowing like the gush of water dat swept him n his 2 friends away as I watch the videos made for him. Sometimes I wonder will people remember me when im gone? Will you? I realised human never changed. They will only appreciate you when you are gone. But is that really the only way to show your love?

Arrrghhh! Yellow by Coldplay sang by James’ friends just melt my heart away. Damn it.. my tears just keep flowing. i have downloaded the song. i repeat n repeat listening to it. as im writing this, the song is playing in my laptop.

Im sad someone has just passed away n I haven’t had the chance to know this person yet. i miss them. my heart breaks into pieces knowin dat ppl hav gone n they nvr come bck. they nvr will.. He’s such a jovial person. I once used to be like him, active. he's lovable.

People, let live this life with love and not hatred.

life and death is never in our hand. it's in His. death is just a part of our life. what's the point having so much money or so much fame or so much friends or so much wives or so much stuffs when you can't even bring them when you are gone?? people don't remember for what you have. people remember the things you do, either good or bad, how u touched their heart, what you said and how you carry yourself. it's ok to be yourself but never disgrace, downgrade or humiliate or defame anyone.

people, no mater what you do, remember that there are people out there who love you. no one is born to be hate. there are good qualities in you that people see that you don't.

i want to call da girl dat used to be part of me so badly but i just couldn't do it. i don't have the courage. and it's not gona make any difference if i cal her.

i don't want any of the persons that i know die before i do bcoz i love you ppl. i really do even if i nvr say it 2 your face. pls forgive my wrongdoings.

Tuesday, 3 November 2009

Because You Loved Me - Celine Dion

SONG of the day

I dedicate this song to the people I love and you can do the same too. Dedicate it to the people that you love, people that has changed you into what you are today, people that has leave a mark in your heart, people that meant a lot if your life.

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For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me



a long sleep

oh gosh! i just woke up! i thought it's already 6am 7am. no it's 9am!

i have been sleeping since 2pm just now. there gone again another day without doing the things that i wanted to do. aih..

i wanted to post something to someone n it's super urgent but i didn't. i wanted to check my schedule and finish up the unsettled things because i want to go to KL tomorrow but i didn't.

it was raining at 3pm just now. i know because i woke up blur-blur n i slept again.

i had a dream. a bad one.. kinda freaky. my heart was pumping so fast. i can feel that i was gasping for air while im sleeping. ok.. i dreamt of her. i tried my very best to recall what is it but i couldnt. i forget everything...in just a blink of eye. i just remember she appeared in my dream. i saw her. we talked. she said smtg to me...

that's one of the reasons i woke up. she's no more with me but now she appears in different form. i guess i was thinking about her before i sleep that's why she came.

i shall go out and get some food for my lunch n dinner.

anyway i've finished selecting the photos of the UTAR students drowned in the waterfall incident. should i post it here n in Facebook? many people ask me to show the pics. but im afraid that some people would be angry and condemn my action. so people how??

Monday, 2 November 2009

JOKE of the day

just found out from my friend that some people in UTAR actually hate me 4who i am-carrying a camera everywhere i go n having a malay gf. they say i have prob wif my brain.

WTF man! so what? u mana sakit? u envy the attention i get is it? let me be what i wana be! im proud to be myself n being different! stop being so judgemental and racist! you dun really know who i am. FUCK off la!

get your FACTS right nx time. never in my life i have a malay gf. boloh..

ok now everyone pls laugh! a round of applause to these SHITTY people!

cilaka babi! cokodok basi! pungkok tak cuci! jaga later u cirit! kurang asam! Kanasai! Gundechi ombodeh la!

sending off James Khor Wan Kai, Yew Ghim Chnieh, Yew Shy Gin

James furneral-2molo 12.30pm Batu Gantong nearby kelab lumba kuda opposite 协和中学.4 those who want go, bus is provided (Total bus fees will be divided). Pls submit ur name 2 Ms Esther DSA if u r attending BEFORE 5PM, TODAY.2molo 7am gather at Blk D. UTAR T-shirt. Class attendance cant exempt. Everything at own responsibility. More info, pls call Mei 0166791283. Pls spread new as much as possible. UTARIAN only! Tx

To friends of James Khor Wan Kai, Yew Shy Gin and Yew Ghim Chnieh who wish to pass their last massage to them, there will be a small ceremony in westlake basketball court tonight monday 02/11/2009 at 9pm to 11pm. Friends may bring their last tribute to the victims (flower, card, ect) may they be rest in peace, thank you.

* infos taken from James Khor Fan Club in Facebook http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/pages/Penang-Malaysia/James-Khor-Rest-In-Peace/170073884931?ref=ts

Students Swept Away...AGAIN


Batu Berangkai, Kampar: Body of James Wan Kai Khor, 20 from Penang was the first of missing victims that was found yesterday by the 2 villagers at about 9.40pm yesterday. He was among the 3 missing UTAR students who got drowned at about 5.30pm at Batu Berangkai Waterfall when a sudden gush of water swept them away. The waterfall is about 10km away from the collapsed suspension bridge where 3 pupils drowned in the river just a week ago here in Kampar. Looking on is Perak MB, YAB Dato' Seri Dr. Zambry bin Abd. Kadir, wearing black cap.

*I was the first journalist/photographer to reached the scene n got the photo. Nyeh nyeh nyeh!

I’ll upload more pics. Sabar…

COPYRIGHT RESERVED! IF YOU REALLY BETUL-BETUL GILA BABI NEED TO USE THE PHOTO AND NOT FOR COMMERCIAL OR PROFITABILITY OR POPULARITY PURPOSELY, USE LAH BUT PLEASE LET ME KNOW!!

Tq. =p

virus attack in CF card

damn it!

my memory card got virus. must be definitely 100% from the reporters' laptops. shit la!

my laptop just suddenly black off. im trying hard to get the pics in my memory card back.

this is i hate the most being a photographer-you lost all the pics.

sorry..

all the best

good morning! im feeling so sleepy n hungry now. i slept at 7.30am n i woke up at 9am. then i slept again till now.

seriously im worn out. my friend asks me to get more rest. but i have important stuff to do today. upload the photos n finish up my blog post. pls sabar k ppl.

but before that, i have something more important to do:

All the best to my friends or people that i know that are having their final exam now especially a university in Melaka. Hope you all will do well. I noe exam has started but i guess sempat lagi to wish kan?

Ingat baca doa dulu sebelum start exam. relaxkan your mind. hopfuli apa yg dibaca tu keluar. kalau tak keluar, kelentong je.. =p

okla go break the legs. study la. jangan nanti nak merengek nak regret sebab tak study. stop playing n flirting and couple-ing for a while. sleep well. eat well. study well. lastly, dun fall into the well.

QUOTE of the day

Tell the people that you love, you love them, as if you'll never have the chance to say that anymore.

Sunday, 1 November 2009

UTAR students missing at waterfall (update 3)

7.20pm
Breaking news! 3 students from UTAR, Kampar, Perak went missing at Kampar waterfalls. Alert came in at 5.45pm. Rescue and search operation is going on despite the heavy rain. And now i shall head out to the scene!

7.43pm
saya baru menghubungi Balai Polis Kampar untuk mendapatkan maklumat terkini. lokasi kejadian dia Kuala Dipang Waterfall. operasi mencari dan menyelamatkan masih dijalankan. menurut Koperal Suhaimi, 3 pelajar tersebut dikhuatiri telah dihanyutkan. pihak polis meminta bantuan pelajar-pelajar UTAR supaya menghubungi pihak universiti ataupun lecturers supaya berhubung dengan Balai Polis Kampar sekarang. dan saya berharap kita semua doakanlah rakan seuniversiti kita selamat. ok nak keluar pi scene sekarang! lapar..

7.50pm
According to the police, 2 boys and 1 girl were swimming at the waterfall when a sudden flow of water swept 3 of them away. Their male friend who was not in the water with them rushed to ask for help from the police station.

2 november 2009

12.20am
i left the location n headed to Hospital Kampar.

2.50pm
i finally reached home. fuh.. what a day. All 3 bodies have been found-2 boys 1 girls. I was the first ‘journalist’ to reached the scene and I got the pic of the first body and their IC photos. Press asked the pics from me. oh know they know me-Oh Chin Eng, the enthusiastic Journalism student from UTAR. bad things happened too. I fell twice in the jungle n I fell from my bike. Doctor gave me an injection. It’s my first accident and injection in Kampar. During the press conference, MB of Perak, YAB Dato' Seri Dr. Zambry bin Abd. Kadir told the press that I was the one who torched him when he enter the jungle n he asked them to get the pic of the 1st body that was found from me. =p I just had my bfast, lunch, dinner n supper for y’day. Im run out of energy. Thank God Im safe. Im so gald that im still alive. My heart breaks when I see the victim’s family members cried. I love you mum, dad, bro, sis, NF n my frens. Gona pangsai, clean up myself, sleep n wake up at 8am to check my photos in the newsppr and blog abt it. Too tired lah!

4.15am
my roomate, Gan Siang Yong just help me to translate the news in Chinese for me. China Press published the pics with my name on it. hehe. i dun want to be a BANANAMAN! im gona learn Chinese by hook or by crook. yesh!

5.10am
i just bathed n it's raining again..

6.25am
i was google-ing the news from the press. saw the photos i took. the press used it but without crediting me. zzz.. hope that the printed version will have my name on it la. im not trying to be popular but this is ethics and they promised me that they gona put my name of it. afterall i took the photos. gona sleep now. be strong ppl. pray. love. gnite. see ya later. tata.

QUOTE of the day

When you tell yourself you want to be happy today, think happily, you will be happy.

PHOTO of the day


Malaysia Bull-leh! I am the goalkeeper.

Saturday, 31 October 2009

i found my CINTA

PHOTO of the day


tak paham bahasa. Malaysian's mentality. enforcement = zero!

ni sap pe dee ya

ni sap pe dee ya??

yes yes. i just sap-sap dinner n supper. n now i feel so fulled n sleepy. it's ok because it makes me happy!

oh i just love to eat. i live to eat! i din have my dinner. so i went out just now, alone, middle of the nite to look for food. i had Burger Special n lok-lok. the burger is rm2.50 with egg. standard price la. sedap n yummy. the burgerkid is friendly. we chit chat. then i sat on the malay restaurant's chair to eat but i didn't order any drinks. cool huh? learn from me. =p

i looked for egg/telur everywhere but all shops closed already. i went to 7-Eleven. they dun sell telurs. arrghh! i need telurs so badly la! i want telurs. i want to make toast tomorrow la. eee.. where are you telurs when i need you. i cannot use my own telurs la. mana boleh. can You drop few telurs from the sky for me? hehe..

on my way home, i saw the Lok-Lok stall is still open. i never like that stall. everything is just so expensive. i geram at them. but then.. oh god! my stomach couldn't resist the temptation of it. i stopped my bike! then i had 4sticks of my favourite food with a heavy heart. hmmm.. the sauce just ok ok la. not that nice. the cheapest stick is RM0.60! expensive! i can get rm0.50 per stick at Kampar pasar malam. in Penang i can get it for rm0.40 per stick! anyway i had 4sticks of lok-lok which costs me rm2.80.

not worth it.. my stomach satisfy but not my pocket.

Wahhhhhhhh I just relised that I have new habit. ‘Melepas’ on my blog. Melepas means to release. As in to spill out everything in my mind. =p

ok time to sleep. class at 8am later. it's gona be a very long n exhausting day. French class-2lectures n 2tutorias. 8am-5pm.

selamat tidur olang-olang.

Yi Ran Shi Peng You - Yu Heng

SONG of the day

Arrrghhh! It’s so sudden. As I was writing the previous blog post, I thought of this song and my tears just flow. GILA!

I love this song so damn much. It symbolizes… er… something. The song and the music really suit my feeling right now. So NGAM. Matching.

Oh.. tears just burst out terpancut macam paip listening to this song. Don’t listen la people. If you are like me, banjir later.

I love you Yu Heng. I have your CD!! You are one of the very few local chinese female singers in Malaysia.



ching ren jie de chian yi tian
ta li kai ni shen bian
zhi shen sia ni de je jing de shang mian

na yi yeh
wo pei je ni
ni ku le yi jeng yeh
ni shi fou chi tau
wo dui ta yi yang hen xiang nian

chi dao you yi tian
wo he ta pong mian
zai na jian
wo men chang qu de ka fei dian

zhai chi dau you xie kan shou
wo he ta shei dou bu chen shuo qu ko
wo men zhi jian ying chang le she me
chu le hou zhi ji mei ren dong


ke shi ni
ni je me shuo
ni zi tau hao shi bu shi chong ze bi kai wo ~oh~
wo yi yang nan guo
duo si wang wo men bu cheng xiang shi guo

na yi yeh
wo pei je ni
ni ku le yi jeng yeh
ni shi fou chi tau
wo dui ta yi yang hen xiang nian

chi dao you yi tian
wo he ta pong mian
zai na jian
wo men chang qu de ka fei dian

zhai chi dau you xie kan shou
wo he ta shei dou bu chen shuo qu ko
wo men zhi jian ying chang le she me
chu le hou zhi ji mei ren dong

ke shi ni
ni je me shuo
ni zi tau hao shi bu shi chong ze bi kai wo ~oh~
wo yi yang nan guo
duo si wang wo men bu cheng xiang shi guo

zhai chi dao you shieh kan shou
wo he ta shei dou bu cheng shuo qu ko
wo men dou shi
zui hao de peng you
sui hui you yong qi qu kai ko

bu zai hu
bu zai nan guo
wo men hai you hao da hao da de tian kong ~oh~
gu shi de zui hou
wo men dou bu cheng shi qu guo
shen me...

wo men yi ran shi peng you

Friday, 30 October 2009

i say.. crappy lovey story

move on je la.. dah orang tak nak kita. nak buat cam maner.. hati perit. makan sikit. nafas sakit. berak cirit. tidur tak bangkit.

kata orang, lepas. but it's not easy to do. kalau dia mai balik, kau yang punya. kalau la dia mai balik.. burung tak boleh tinggal dalam sangkar. someone told me, you love someone is to see that person happy. she has made her choice. i respect her decison. i DO! tapi.. life is so unpredictable.

hari ni jadi kawan.
esok jadi lawan.
so jangan kita kena sawan.
kalau tidak nanti naik awan.

so move on with your life la people. your another half dah mati. yeah dah mati. bila cinta mati, orang pun matila. jasad tu boleh simpan tapi hati tu bukan kau yang punya! PAHAM?!! life have changed. things will never ever be the same again. cinta datang tanpa diundang. cinta dipupuk penuh harapan. cinta pergi penuh kebencian.

ada olang mau move on u tau apa dia buat? delete Facebook. delete MSN. delete Friendster. delete handphone number. buang hadiah n presents. maki hamun. kutuk n fitnah orang tu. hmmm... patut kah. kalau dah break pun, u olang pernah bercouple kan. pernah ada good memories together kan. pernah sacrificed a lot kan. caya la sama gua. u buat semua tu pun that person will still lives in your heart. you can delete someone's name but she never dies in your heart.

now i believe in jodoh. kita yang merancang, Dia yang tentukan. move on doesnt mean u give up. it means.. wa tak tau. but never stop hoping. bila ada harapan, adalah impian. bila ada impian, adalah kejayaan.

when you found someone that you really love and you are so in love with her and you are so damn serious and committed, put her above everything in your life, really sacrifice your time energy and money, devoted yourself to that person, where that person meant so much for you, and you want to make that person the mother of your children, you want that person to be the first one you see when you go back from work, and you want your last breathe to end when you are on her lap; it takes days, months, years and sometimes even your lifetime to let go of that someone.

i made mistakes. you! yes YOU who are reading this right now also made a lot of mistakes kan? then?? go DIE ah? say sorry la. admit your mistakes. learn from your mistakes. forgive and forget. give people chance! treat others as you would like to be treated lah. nak bawa sekali kebencian you sampai you tua ka?!!

olang Cina ciakap: bila jalan mau ke depan. jangan tengok belakang.

tapi Oh Chin Eng cakap: bila jalan, kaki ke depan, kepala kadang-kadang toleh ke belakang. jangan dah ke depan lupa semua benda. learn from experience. appreciate the memories.

yes sorry to say i still love that someone now. so what?? but kenangan masa lalu biarkanlah berlalu.. bibit-bibit percintaan dan kenangan manis biarlah disimpan rapi dalam hati. everything u do, u'll think of her but don't let your past control your life. seteruk mana pun, u pernah mencintai dan dicintai. u pernah memiliki sebuh cinta yang sungguh indah sekali. cuma.. ia tak kekal abadi. TAPI! ia akan tetap diingati.

when you like/love someone/something, doesn't mean you must have it!

have courage man! fight for what you believe. dreams do come true when you believe.

Sun Tzu says if you know you are losing, RUN! this is strategy man!

i appreciate n i enjoy the day from 15/7/2006 till 13/10/2009.

ok goodnight love you muax tata.

PHOTO of the day


Only in Kampar. No wonder la our letters sometimes missing. The postman sesat. Never ever make sex in the middle of the road.

again and AGAIN!

Grrrhh! Geram ahhhhhhhhhhh!! I have to sweep the floor AGAIN! tangan-tangan orang yang tinggal kat level 3 dah CACAT ka??!! Arrghhh!! I came back from uni at around 7pm. N so OMG! My room is so damn dirty. Rubbish here n there. Bulu here and there. Not my bulu ok?!! How I noe?? I noe la!

Yesterday oni I swept the floor. Today so dirty again! Red ants are everywhere at the common area. Kanasai la! Now my room is sticky again. grrrhhh. Y must I always do the sweeping n mopping?!!

This afternoon I had a shitty day. I woke up at 2pm thinking that my class at 2pm. So I rushed la. I went out, the common area to get my bottle. Cilaka! The washing powder/serbuk pencuci all over the floor. WTF man!

I was so pissed off n I burst out la. I MELETUP! BOOM!. Yea boom! Dah la lambat, kena sapu pulak. Again I swept the floor. if once nevermind la. but im the one who always sweep the floor. N I said ‘kheong k*n’. I was so hot! Couldn’t hold it any longer.

Then my jamban! TOILET BOWL la! That day I just gosok only rite. Today, shits are everyday! Wat the FCUK man! That day I gosok sampai berkilat-kilat shining shining now u can see tompok-tompok cokelat! Arrrghh!

people out there, LISTEN here. whenver you want to SS (shit & shoot), aim properly. do it with gentleman, be a man lah!

I bukan nk say bad things about my housemates or roommates but tinggal sebumbung kalau help each other la. Jangan jaga kain sendiri je. Kalau u yang buat kotor or rosak, fix it la.

TULAN nia.

Thursday, 29 October 2009

QUOTE of the day

When you tell yourself you want something, do it and be the best out of it. U have a choice. Do with commitment or Die with embarressment.

Wednesday, 28 October 2009

Nanti - Innuendo

SONG of the day

Let’s listen to this soothing and cheeky song together by Innuendo, the Malaysian group who sings Belaian Jiwa. A nice song to put u to sleep. It’s our favourite song. Miss the moment when I sing to her. =p waahaha.

I took years to find and download this song in mp3 format. hope you all will like it as well.

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Bintang bintang di kayangan
Lembut sang bayu
Tanpa bulan di awangan yang tinggi
Tanpa bayangmu
Andainya tiada ketukan kayu

Jika mimpi dihapuskan
Hancurlah lagu
Walau kita dipisah laut biru
Walau kau jauh
Lihatlah angkasa
Kan terubat rasa rindu...

*Chorus
Seindah malam ini
Lazimnya tiada tandingan
Sehingga kupandang wajahmu
Hilanglah perasaan hiba di hati ini
Terpadam rindu bila kau kembali
Bila kau kembali nanti

Jangan duduk sendirian
Jangan kau sayu
Kalau pungguk bersahutan
Kalau kau tahu kurindukan suara
Segeralah kepadaku

*Chorus

Sejenak malam itu
Kau buat ku bahagia
Semenjak malam itu
Hilanglah kisah kisah duka
Bila kau kembali
Bila kau kembali

* Chorus x2

Seindah malam ini
Ku akan menunggu mu
Bila engkau kembali nanti

Kehadiran dirimu suatu hari nanti
Bila kau kembali nanti...



Grade A1 Magee Goreng

ladies n gentleman. tuan-tuan dan puan-puan.

memperkenalkan Magee Goreng OCE yang sedap lazat sehingga menjilat jari. sila berikan tepukan yang gemuruh dan meletup kepada Chef Oh! yesh yesh!

bukan je sedap hingga menjilat jari tapi kuali dan senduk sekali. fulamak!

magee gorengnya berspring. telur habis. no problem. dia bubuh hotdog sama itu fishball. dipotong kecik-kecik but not too kecik!

Siang Yong, my roomate helped me in the cooking. i asked him to cincang garlic. so lawak. she basuh with water n cincang basah2. ayoo amma..

im happy. really. happy because my friends are happy. they happily finished all the mee. the satisfaction of a cook is to see the food he cooks make people happy. they like it. of cos la.. sedap ma.

i used to cook for someone i know. to be more precise, someone i love. the joy of cooking is when you pour your love into something you do, it will always turn out great and the taste of satisfaction is unimaginable. everytime you see that person's smile while munching on the food u made, it feels like heaven. segala kesedihan n problems hilang. feel so aman n bahagia..

i always belive that a good cook, cook with his heart.

waaa..

im not saying that im so marvellous. im just saying that whatever we do, if we put our heart in it, we'll do well, we'll really satisfied although sometimes the results are not that good.

i wana have LOK-LOK later. but now it's still raining. ohhh.. what a nice weather to sleep la. eat so much make me wana oink-oink. grrrhh!

Maternal Grandparents


Hehe. This is the wedding picture of my maternal grandparents. Cute huh. So nostalgic lah. they are so gona kill me if they find out i post this pic. =p

wednesday = delicious day

Today is Wednesday!! Rabu!!

Means It’s makan sedap day. It’s hochiak day. It’s a yummy day!

Wednesday is the best day for me in Kampar. It’s the only entertainment day here. Why?? Oh because Wednesday is the pasar malam or night market day.

It’s a never to be missed day living in Kampar. U get to eat a wide variety of good food at a low price. This is also the time where the town comes alive.

But it’s raining now la. Aiyah! Gone la my Wednesday!

Now im starving. Woke up at 9am ++ then I slept again till 1pm ++ n now I just woke up. When I dun have class, I wont go out to buy lunch.

I was thinking of making French Toast and magee gireng for brunch but now is tea time already.

*yawn*.

Okla dun care! wana go make French toast n magee goreng. Lapar gila. anyone wants some?? Sedap ok!!

Oh rain, please stop before 7.30pm. I need to go out and have my favourite Lok-Lok.

Thank you.

sem 3 first housekeeping

Done! Siap! Fuh.. sleepy la. I just finished berhousekeeping. My first housekeeping since I came back to Kampar on 22/10/2009.

I swept the my room and the common area.
I mopped the my room and the common area.
I washed my clothes.
I washed my bedsheets.
I cleaned my besen.
I gosok my jamban.
I hanged my clothes.

Everyone is sleeping and im cleaning my room. What the heck!

Kanasai spider webs everywhere. Aih.. so dirty! Geram oo.. Sometimes I feel so WHAT THE FUCK!! Yeala im not the only one staying on level 3 ok?? 7 people walking, 1 person sweeping. I sure meletup everytime I clean my room. Damn dirty! Sampah everywhere like no one stays in the house for months. Dah makan kalau, buang baik-baik la sampah. Aih..

Got leg jalan, takde hand sapu kah?? Hehe.. I copy this style of scolding from my mum. She used to say ‘ada lanciau kencing, takde tangan flush ke?!’

Back in pg I seldom help my mum. Yeala cakap mum memang betul. I ni buat rumah I macam hotel. I ni buat dia macam maid. Hmmm.. I bukannya sengaja. I noe how to do but im just lazy. See now I do everything by myself. I know how to use washing machine. =p I seldom help her to do house works. Teruk la I tau. I love her.

A person that I know also always help her mum. Im impressed n proud of her. although she cannot cook, but at leats she can clean the house, hang the clothes, teach her sister in her studies. She’s my inspiration la. she’ll be a good wife. =p

Anyway. Im so satisfied! Puas habis. Syok habis! Fulamak the satisfaction best tak terkira!! Now my room is so so so so so clean. Malam2 kemas rmh is so syok. Tak panas. Tak bising. Feel so free.

Wahaha!
Lantai ku bersih licin dan shining.
Baju ku harum dan segar merwangi.
Besen ku berkilat tapi takde petir.
Jamban ku putih bersih macam baru belum diberak.

Rajin kan anak dara ni? =p

Okla im sleepy d. im starving! wana oink-oink now. mission accomplished. Gnite. C u. tata.

N oh ya before i say chao, I nak say something. Baru je teringat.

“KALAU ORANG TU TAK SUKA KITA, BETAPA BANYAK DAN HEBAT DAN SWEET DAN SEMPOI U MAKE HER HAPPY, DIA TAK RASA APA-APA JUGA.”

~ popped out of my mind when I was cleaning the toilet. Suddenly teringat yang banyak benda I buat for her masa dia nk mai Kampar to do her assignment.

Saturday, 24 October 2009

KAMPAR kena BOMB

yes yes yes!

I heard a loud explosion just a few minutes ago.

not bomb actually. but thunder. it's raining super heavily now. SUPER! reali lebat.

n now my level is out of electricity. i was on9 n suddenly 'POP'!

smtg got burn. the smell of plastic burning all over the place.

this is shitty!!

arrghh! i need to sleep lah. flu punya teruk!!

Friday, 23 October 2009

QUOTE of the day

“Do you know that politics is the art of making the possible impossible and making the impossible possible?”

~ Datuk Seri Chua Soi Lek

*Thursday 22/10/09 after he was asked on his relationship with Ong and whether he and Ong could work together after so much bad blood at the MCA press conference to end the crisis between the two top guns of MCA.

Wednesday, 21 October 2009

now i understand

QUOTE of the day

"When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us."

~ Alexander Graham Bell

lost and found

again.. im still awake at this time.

i did a lot of thinking and self reflection tonight.. a lot. flashed back a lot of stuffs especially the time with her. i read back what i wrote in my blog, my diary, my notes etc. i browsed through pics in my laptop. i recalled what i did, what i said.

finally i realised i made a lot of mistakes. i realised how bad i am. everything i did hit me back.

for the first time since 120806 i got freak out. i was so scared. i felt so cold. blood was pumping so fast. im gasping for air.

i've committed a lot of sins.

hard to swallow but that's the facts. im wrong.

i have a mixed feelings right now.

shocked. disappointed. sad. down. waken up. acceptance. glad. hapi. forget it. move on. reborn.

i feel empty as well.

i have so many things to say but it's glued under my throat. it just couldn't come out.

i've been so childish, immature, and playful.

arrrghh! hate myself for that. seriously. i expressed too much. sometimes im too emotional. yea im sensitive. over-react? not to forget im always late. i procastinate. im impulsive and so on.

i hold on to something too long. i should learn to let go. then move forward.

i reveal too much of my weaknesses. =p

i'm giving myself a chance to turn things around. i dun wana be a bad guy.. Chin Eng wants to be good and successful.

yes from this moment, oh chin eng wants to be OH CHIN ENG! i duno how. i really duno. i wish i wont repeat the same mistakes again. i wish i can think maturely. i wish i can carry myself better. i wish i can be a better person.

i want to be a good son.
i want to be a good brother.
i want to be a good grandson.
i want to be a good friend.
i want to be a good boyfriend.
i want to be a good student.
i want to be a good leader.
i want to be a good person.

well.. just hope and see.. changes need time.

i've been thinking why im always fail and stuck in my life. i think i have the answer tonight. i think so... it's my attitude.



ATTITUDE!

i used to be so aggresive and passionate in what i do. i used to aim high, far-sighted and be the best out of the best that i could.

let's take some action now rather than keep thinking what to do. im so determined and passionate right now. please keep on burning, Fire.

suddenly what Mister Andrew said came into my mind. our main priority now is our studies and be a good son. LOVE?? talk about that only after you secure a stable job la!

people wont really angry at you if you make mistake. people will only angry at you if you keep on repeating the same mistake and never learn from it!

im sorry again.. it's good if you get to read this. i have move on but that doesnt mean i must forget everything that has came into my life. i've learned from this fail relationship.

i got lost. now i found myself.

thank you.

Tuesday, 20 October 2009

chicken oh chicken

it's 4.35am now n im still awake.

i've been like this, awake at night and sleep at day time. my mum always scold me for being upside down. haha.

suddenly im craving for fried chicken from Line Clear. damn la. i miss their fried chicken. so huge. so berisi. so krispy. so yummy.

feel like going out now to have late nite supper. yea alone. ok what.. i'll do anything to get good food anytime anywhere. =p

hmm.. no no i don't think i wana go la. i wana spend more time in my house as i'll be going back to uni this thurs.

time flies so fast. people come people go. good things bad things. morning night. hi hi bye bye. wat the tut im talking about!

Monday, 19 October 2009

QUOTE of the day

"Watch your thoughts, they become your words. Watch your words, they become your actions. Watch your actions, they become your habits. Watch your habits, they become your character. Watch your character for it will become your DESTINY."

~ Melinder Kaur