spritzer? no, it's pulitzer.

Pulitzer Prize.

oh Pulitzer Prize.

i WANT! oh i want u so much! you wait for me. Wait!! im coming. Im coming to you my love. oh... my love. my darling.

i want u so badly.

come sleep next to me tonight baby.

DOINK!! im gona get you back to my home ONE day. SOMEDAY.

you watch out PULITZER PRIZE! jaga sikit kau! jangan main-main!

sometimes..

sometimes not only words that are spoken can kill, but words that are written too.

sometimes not things that are said to you can kill, but things that are said to others can kill too.

sometimes it's better not to know something then to know.

sometimes it's better to give up then to fight on.

sometimes i just wish to be mute, deaf and blind, so i would not have to bear all the pain.

blame the rain

well, i have one lecture at 5pm but now it's almost 6pm.

How to go?? It's raining la out there. the weather is so what the crap la. the whole morning was ok. then suddenly raining. drizzling.. but 4.55pm suddenly dush!! dash! dish! the rain became so super damn heavy.

yea i have a bike here. but my raincoat also cannot cover my skinny body lah. the rain really makes me so lazy to go to class. so i waited for the rain to stop but it didn't. and right now it's still raining although it is not as heavy as just now.

so what to do? Have to ponteng la. who ask the rain to rain huh?? Not my fault u know? I really don’t wana ponteng..

ok i admit im lazy today plus tired plus the RAIN.


“hendak seribu daya, tak hendak seribu dalih??”

…........................

BUT IF IM HAVING EXAM, I'LL SURE GO TO UNI.

nvmla i'll stay at home n study for my French exam tomorrow early morning. =p

public announcement.. on 'us'

I HUMBLY AND DOWN TO EARTH ASKING MY READERS NOT TO JUDGE US BASED ON WHAT I WROTE. I KNOW WHAT I WROTE ALL THIS WHILE HAVE BRING PROBLEMS, MISUNDERSTANDING AND HATRED. IM SORRY. I DIDN’T MEAN IT. IF MY BLOG POST SOUNDS LIKE IM HUMILIATING ANYONE, IM SORRY. NEVER AT ALL CAME ACROSS MY MIND TO SCAR ANYONE’S IMAGE. I MADE MISTAKES TOO. DON’T PITY ME JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE MY FRIENDS. IF IM WRONG, TELL ME. AND IF YOU DON’T KNOW THE HEAD AND TAIL, DUN MAKE ANY JUDGEMENT. ONLY BOTH OF US KNOW WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED. NO ONE TO BE BLAMED. THERE WERE UPS AND DOWNS IN THE RELATIONSHIP. THERE WERE GOOD N BAD TIMES. IT'S LIFE. EVERYTHING I SAY HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ANYONE UNLESS THEIR NAMES ARE STATED. OK I WILL TRY NOT TO TALK ABOUT MY PAST LOVE LIVE.

THANK YOU. =P

5cm to Hospital

Once again, i saw an incident that nearly cost a life to an end. This time, it's not from a teenager, not an adult, but a primary school children.

I was on my way home from Kampar Old Town when i saw that incident happened. I was riding my scooter behind a white Kancil car. Then there was this little Malay girl cycling on the grass at the left hand side of the road heading towards our direction. I guess she's in Standard 3 to Standard 5.

Suddenly she lost her balance. Then in just a second, her bicycle went to the main road. She was struggling so hard to balance her bicycle. At that time the girl is just in front of the Kancil and the Kancil was kind of fast. I felt like scream my lungs out but no, it didn't happen. I was so helpless at that time. My heart my thumping so fast. My hand automatically tried to reach out my camera to snap what's gona happen next. The girl SCREAMED!

Luckily the Kancil managed to break. fuh.. And the girl escaped unhurt from being bang over. The distance between the girl and the car is just 5cm! FIVE! Go and get your ruler and check how long is 5cm. She was still trying to balance her bicycle after the escape. From cycling towards us, now she's in the same direction with us. She crossed the road to the right hand side where a playground is. She was really freak out. She was shy and she didd't know what to do, so she just went off to some place.

I saw her shoe on the road. I think she slipped it when she was struggling to balance her bicycle. So i picked up her shoe and i bring it over to her. She talked to me in Bahasa Malaysia. She said 'terima kasih, Aunty.' Which means thank you Aunty. er.. ok... nevermind. She told me her leg is pain. so i asked her where. She didn't answer my question. Instead, she said her bicycle got problem. Before i left, she thanked me. Surprisingly, she kept calling me aunty, aunty and aunty.

hmmm... which parts of me look like an aunty huh?? haha. See, she was in trauma. She shivered. She couldn't think rationally.

I saw a packet of noodle in the bicycle's basket. I think it's her breakfast and she's on her way home. What if the girl couldn't make her trip home after she brought her breakfast? She doesn't has an IC yet. Nor a handphone. How is her parents going to reach her?

hmmm.. Thank God the incident didn't become an accident. Becareful people wherever you go. Life is fragile.

Always start your journey or activity with a prayer. Insya-Allah semuanya akan lancar.

5cm makes a lot of difference.

after 1 month

today is 19th. exactly one month after my 21st birthday.

well...

*wait wait. more to come.

Bye Penang Helo Kampar

good morning. i just woke up at 6.40pm.

i've reached Kampar. Im back in Kampar. my bus departed at 9am from Butterworth. I took Transnasional, the best bus to get back here. i slept for 1 hour only last night, then woke up at 6am ++. i rushed to pack to finished up the big photo to bring it back here. my sister n mum woke up at 6am because my sister is going for a school trip to Kelantan. so far. i wanted to go for breakfast but i couldnt finish packing. so mum made me breakfast: bread, sausage n egg. hmmm.. I don't know since when she has become so western. haha.

then at 8am my mum sent me to Penang Jetty. She said i went back to Penang with 2 begs n now im going back to Kampar with 2 bigger begs. haha! i always bring a lot of stuffs back to university. food, books, clothes, snacks etc. Anyway, i have to take ferry to Butterwoth to take my bus. the ferry was so empty. the sky was so bright n cool.

i slept in the bus all the way back to Kampar. I very very seldom sleep in the bus. But this time i was too tired, lack of sleep n the weather out there is just superb. More then half of the seats are unoccupied. traffic was so smooth, not many cars. in just 3 hours, i reached Kampar. that's super fast. usually the journey will takes at least 3 hours n 30 mins. thanks to Shi Han for fetching me Old Town...without helmet. haha. he forot to bring. so i used my sweater to cover cover lo. =p

i wanted to stay longer in Penang. i told my mum that i wana take afternoon bus then skip my 2pm class today. But she said no. she asked me not to ponteng. Cannot skip class. aih.. fine.. i miss home, that's why i wana stay longer. but if can, i don't want to skip any classes. so i took 9am bus because that's the only bus that i can make it for 2pm class. the next bus trip will be at 2pm. too late.

my maternal grandma said "if you wana stay in Penang, don't go so far to Kampar to study."

i reached my hostel at 12am smtg. i set my alarm at 1.30pm. i planned to hav a short nap. n guess what?? i woke up at 2.50pm. wat the heck!! arrgghhhh! damn it! im so late to the class. super late!! i set alarm in my 2 handphones but i didn't hear any of the phones ring at all. so... yea i skipped the class because i overslept, i cannot wake up. grrrhhh. this is the 2nd time it happened. my mum is gona nag me if she knows about it. no no, cannot let her know. =p

i didn't go to uni then. by the time i get ready, clean up myself, cycle to school, it will be 3.30pm then. so i slept again.. i hate it when im sleeping, someone call me. but i always answer the calls. someone called me just now so many times. unknown number. i was like damn it, must be the nurse from the clinic. first call, i didn't pick up. second cal, i picked up n i simply press my hp, then she hung up. third cal, i answered but i kept quiet, she halo, i quietly hung up. heheh. the voice is so similar to the nurse's voice. she didn't cal me again after that. hahahaha.

im hungry now. let's go makan ppl. if you are in Penang, i recommend u to go to Kapitan at Chulia Street, or Line Clear at Penang Road, or Padang at Dato Keramat, or Ananda Bahvan at Market Street, or SuaKenari at Chulia Street.

u wont regret. tasty and cheap and HALAL!

3 hours 5 minutes

1/40am

OMG! Damn! Oh gosh! Someone please SLAP me. PLEASE!

I was making a fram

Suddenly my phone rang at 1.40am. I was so shocked. No one will call me at this time. Oni my sayang will do. But that was like so long ago. Yeah, coz we are no more together.

I rushed to my room

My eyes blinked few times in a second.

It was her!! arrghh!

My heart nk tercabut!

X sgka.

Well, duri dalam hati dah dikeluarkan.

Chalee was right. She still care.

So what will happen after I this? Haha entahla. Life goes on, as normal lah. We lead separate lives now n we are happy with it.

Kalau kita nak, mesti ada cara kan? =p

*I HUMBLY AND DOWN TO EARTH ASKING MY READERS NOT TO JUDGE US BASED ON WHAT I WROTE. I KNOW WHAT I WROTE ALL THIS WHILE HAVE BRING PROBLEMS, MISUNDERSTANDING AND HATRED. IM SORRY. I DIDN’T MEAN IT. IF MY BLOG POST SOUNDS LIKE IM HUMILIATING ANYONE, IM SORRY. NEVER AT ALL CAME ACROSS MY MIND TO SCAR ANYONE’S IMAGE. I MADE MISTAKES TOO. DON’T PITY ME JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE MY FRIENDS. IF IM WRONG, TELL ME. AND IF YOU DON’T KNOW THE HEAD AND TAIL, DUN MAKE ANY JUDGEMENT.  OK I WILL TRY NOT TO TALK ABOUT MY PAST LOVE LIVE.

YOU are quoted... AGAIN!

"Pi suntik la boloh. Sakit itu otak cakap sakit. Apa mia OCE ni. Sipek open minded and willing to try apa apa punya laki takut jarum kaneh. Pengecut lar hang OCE hampakan wa. OCE is my idol tapi takut jarum haha."

~ Dexter Khaw Kuo Wen
~ 10.17pm
~ 18/11/2009 Wednesday
~ via MSN Messenger

* u r funny my fren. anyone who reads this sure LAUGH!
* thanks anyway. that's so sweet of u lah.
* but im not ready la. sakit! next time la. =p
* hohoho. don't be jelaous Nixon Lai Chia Huey. i quote u next time ok? kuai..

Runaway from Doctor

At the time im writing this, 7.55pm, it’s drizzling out there. I just reached home. My heart is till pounding so hard. It feels like popping out from my ribs.

The reason is.. I just went to the clinic. If you still remember, I once said that some part of my body is itchy. Some part which is too sensitive. It started in mid-May when I came back Penang for my sememster break. At first, I thought the itchiness is normal. But then when I sweat, It becomes itchier. Then, slowly, it spreads around. The wound becomes bigger. My skin becomes red. I have to always scratch n scratch n scratch. GATAL ma. My skin is peeling off. It becomes so sensitive. Sometimes it bleeds. It’s so irritating because it’s so itchy when I sweat. It’s so uncomfortable.

I’m not sure what’s the cause of it. Allergy? Or something else? So finally after 6 MONTHS, I went to the clinic in Pulau Tikus. Clinic Ev*ng*l. Heard of it? There was no any patient there besides me. I brought my sister along. When I register, the nurse asked me what sickness. I said itchy. She asked where. I said my body. I felt so uncomfortable with her questions. Then she asked whole body is it. I said no, just some parts la. I’m not gona tell her where I feel itchy! Anyway the nurse is very friendly. She asked me a lot of question about myself. she said being a journalist is good. I said got pros n cons la. She asked me to study hard and be a obedient son.

Ok… after a long chat, the nurse asked me to go in. The doctor looks like a Singh but he has some weird name. I don’t know what is he. So this doctor, asked me many questions again. what I do. Where I study. What course. Where I stay. Bla bla bla. The irritating part is I have to repeat my answers at least thrice. He has hearing problem la! ayooo!

After the nurse left us, I told the doctor, my sickness is something very personal. Private. So I told him what happened. I explained the symptoms. It’s not easy ok. The sickness im having is unusual. Then he asked me to sit on the bed. He pulled the curtain and he asked the nurse to stay away. Fuh.. my heart was beating damn fast. I can’t tell you how afraid I was. I was so freak out and I was shivering. He asked me to show him. Yea show him!! So what to do. I have to la. I pulled up my shirt and I showed him…not all! I cover cover a bit. This is the very first time some stranger is seeing it. Grrrhhh!

I’ve lost my JANTANNESS!

He asked me when did it happened. I said since May. He kept asking me the same ques. So I changed my answer to ‘6 months already.’ He still asked me the same questions for many TIMES. His ears really got problem. Then he got shocked why now only I went to see him. Hmmm.. I was scared and shy. I thought it will cure by itself.

Guess what the doctor wana do to it. He said ‘INJECT, APPLY CREAM AND TAKE MEDICINE.’ I was like what??!!! INJECT?!! Not on my hand but my BUTTOCK!! Ouch!! No way. Im afraid of needle. PAINFUL la! I asked the doctor what is the cause of it. The doctor didn’t answer me. he just said that I must put the cream n take medicine. What the tut!! Just tell me la why it happened!

Then he said after the antibiotic injection, I must come back in five days to follow up. I told him im going back to university tomoroow morning. He didn’t get what I said. He called his 2 nurses. I don’t know why. So I quickly told them that I can’t come back for follow up. the doctor said I must come back, at least let him know when.

So I went out to check when I can come back to Penang again. I’ll be very busy after I go back to Kampar. I have to submit my assignments next week then I have public competition the week after. The earliest I can come back is after three weeks. The nice nurse came out and she showed the ‘$’ sign, asking I don’t have money is it. I said no. I have RM50 with me.

After some time, I went in again. I wanted to lie to the doctor that I’ll come back again next week. You know.. maybe he won’t give me so many tablets and I don’t have to pay that much. But before I tell him anything, he asked me to lie down. The two nurses were there. I was so nervous. I don’t want. I kept asking the doctor is it necessary. I told them I’m scared of needle. It’s painful. The 2 nurses said no, it’s not. Then he said I have to pay RM120. Er.. ok.. so fast tell me how much it costs. Sadly I only have RM50. I told him and I showed him my RM50 note. The doctor was so speechles. I asked him not to worried. I said I’ll get the injection because it’s a must. The doctor asked me to go get $. I agreed and I said I’ll come back.

I walked out from the room. My sister kept asking me since we reached the clinic, what’s wrong. Why I went to see doctor? What doctor said? Why the doctor never give me any medicine. Etc etc etc. I didn’t tell her anything. I lied that I got stomachache. I don’t want her to know anything. And most importantly I don’t want my parents to know.

After a long thought, I came home. I didn’t go to get $ from the bank. I’m afraid of needle. I’m phobia to it. And I feel RM120 is just too expensive. It’s just an allergy afterall. I didn’t go to Government Hospital (GH) because I thought clinic won’t be that expensive. I don’t have time to wait for the long queue in GH and Im not convinced with GH.

Im waiting for the nurse to call me. she must ne wondering why I didn’t go back to the clinic. I didn’t pay a cent..yet. you know.. consultation fee. No, I’m not going back there. I’m scared. Just let it be lah. If the doctor is so desperate for consultation fee, come and find me la. he has my address and phone number.

Someone called me just now at 8.40pm. The number is from a house number. It’s from Digi. I didn’t pick up. who knows it’s the doctor. Sorry la im scared la.

Im kind of worried right now. I lost my appetite to eat. What if it’s more then allergy?

‘She’ asked me to go and check last month. You know..it might be some diseases..

haih...

Shit! i forgot to ask my sister not to tell my parents that we went to the clinic.

tata!

Chin Eng says..

ohhh... i feel so in love by browsing through all da pics i took ever since i had my first digital camera back in 2002. Not to forget the film pictures from my analog camera too. It's so heartwarming to look at the places i've been, the food i had, the wonderful n CILAKA people i met along the way, the one and only SAYANG that came into my life, my crazy and helpful buddies in Sekolah Menengah Hutchings and St. Xavier's Institution etc. I had so much sweet memories n great achievements. I can c how i changed physically and personally. I've grown to be who I am today. I learn frm my xprience..through da pics n my writings. thx everyone n everything dat came into my life. God bless you.

PHOTO of the day

12/2/2007 2.04pm

from L to R: Lee Khai Keat, Oh Chin Eng, Lau Wei Han.

we were having our lunch after our school. that was Upper Six time, we were 19 back then. this pic is just so cute lah. sebijik macam apek lancia. the old Chinese people especially will come here to have their meal. it's cheap n delicious. some of them will squad on this bench facing all the dishes. i don't think you can fine this style of eating anywhere else in Penang. n u know what? this picture came out in The Star newspaper. hehee.

Qin Ge - Fish Leong

SONG of the day

Songs from Fish Leong never fail to make her listeners fall in love, appreciate love and looking for love. She is the Love Ballads Queen. I have been listening to her song since her first album. People laugh and curious because Im a banana man n i listen to Chinese Song. Some people also feel surprised because they thought i listen only to Malay songs. haha.

I LISTEN TO CHINESE, MALAY, TAMIL, ENGLISH N ABORIGINES SONGS LA!

now go n listen to this song!

this song is nice lah.. im moved by its melody. ohhhhh....

* see im so nice. i have chinese n english lyrics for you people. got translation some more. =p

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時光是琥珀
shi guang shi hu po
Time is drops of tears
淚一滴滴
lei yi di di
being locked
被反鎖
bei fan suo
in an amber.
情書再不朽
qing shu zai bu xiu
No matter how immortal the love letters are,
也磨成沙漏
ye mo cheng sha luo
it'll still grinded into sand, leaking away.
青春的上游
qing chun de shang you
On the top of youthfulness,
白雲飛走
bai yun fei zou
white clouds are flying pass
蒼狗與海鷗
cang gou yu hai ou
turning into dogs and seagulls.
閃過的念頭
shan guo de nian tou
These flashy thoughts
潺潺的溜走
chan chan de liu zou
are slipping away.

命運好幽默
ming yun hao you mo
Fate is very humorous.
讓愛的人都沉默
rang ai de ren dou chen mo
It makes people in love silent
一整個宇宙
yi zheng ge yu zhou
(and) willing to trade in the universe
換一顆紅豆
huan yi ke hong dou
for a red bean.
回憶如困獸
hui yi ru kun shou
Memories is like a monster
寂寞太久
ji mo tai jiu
that'll eventually became gentle
而漸漸溫柔
er jian jian wen rou
from being lonely for a long time.
放開了拳頭
fang kai le quan tou
Letting go of (it's) fist,
反而更自由
fan er geng zi you
(it feels) much freer.

慢動作
man dong zuo
In slow motion
繾綣膠捲
qian quan jiao juan
attracting,
重播默片
chong bo mo pian
(and) replaying the silent film,
定格一瞬間
ding ge yi shun jian
(I've) stopped for a moment.
我們在告別的演唱會
wo men zai gao bie de yan chang hui
In our farewell concert,
說好不再見
shuo hao bu zai jian
(we've) said that we won't met again.

你寫給我
ni xie gei wo
You wrote me
我的第一首歌
wo de di yi shou ge
my first song.
你和我十指緊扣
ni he wo shi zhi jin kou
You and I were hand in hand
默寫前奏
mo xie qian zou
(and) writing the prelude from (our) memory.
可是那然後呢
ke shi na ran hou ne
But what now?
還好我有
hai hao wo you
At least I still have
我這一首情歌
wo zhe yi shou qing ge
this love song.
輕輕的 輕輕哼著
qing qing de qing qing heng zhe
Lightly humming,
哭著笑著 我的
ku zhe xiao wo de
crying and smiling at my
天長地久
tian chang di jiu
eternity.

命運好幽默
ming yun hao you mo
Fate is very humorous.
讓愛的人都沉默
rang ai de ren dou chen mo
It makes people in love silent
一整個宇宙
yi zheng ge yu zhou
(and) willing to trade in the universe
換一顆紅豆
huan yi ke hong dou
for a red bean.
回憶如困獸
hui yi ru kun shou
Memories is like a monster
寂寞太久
ji mo tai jiu
that'll eventually became gentle
而漸漸溫柔
er jian jian wen rou
from being lonely for a long time.
放開了拳頭
fang kai le quan tou
Letting go of (it's) fist,
反而更自由
fan er geng zi you
(it feels) much freer.

長鏡頭
chang jin tou
The long camera shot
越拉越遠
yue la yue yuan
is pulling further and further,
越來越遠
yue la yue yuan
further and further.
事隔好幾年
shi ge hao ji nian
After a couple years from this,
我們在
wo men zai
we are at
懷念的演唱會
huai nian de yan chang hui
(our) memorable concert
禮貌的吻別
li mao de wen bie
politely kissing good bye.

你寫給我
ni xie gei wo
You wrote me
我的第一首歌
wo de di yi shou ge
my first song.
你和我十指緊扣
ni he wo shi zhi jin kou
You and I were hand in hand
默寫前奏
mo xie qian zou
(and) writing the prelude from (our) memory.
可是那然後呢
ke shi na ran hou ne
But what now?
還好我有
hai hao wo you
At least I still have
我這一首情歌
wo zhe yi shou qing ge
this love song.
輕輕的 輕輕哼著
qing qing de qing qing heng zhe
Lightly humming,
哭著笑著 我的
ku zhe xiao wo de
crying and smiling at my
天長地久
tian chang di jiu
eternity.

陪我唱歌
pei wo chang ge
Sing with me.
清唱你的情歌
qing chang ni de qing ge
Sing acapella to your love song.
捨不得 短短副歌
she bu de duan duan fu ge
(I) don't want the short chorus to end.
心還熱著
xin hai re zhe
My heart is still hot,
也該告一段落
ye gai gao yi duan luo
but it should come to an end.
還好我有
hai hao wo you
At least I still have
我下一首情歌
wo xia yi shou qing ge
my next love song.
生命宛如 靜靜的
sheng ming wan ru jing jing de
Life is like a calm river
相擁的河 永遠
xiang yong de he yong yuan
embracing each other for
天長地久
tian chang di jiu
eternity.

i miss you

I never really dedicate a blog post for someone. As in write about someone. Especially for someone saying that i miss him/her. Oh maybe I did la to my sayang. But this blog post is not about her. today I wana talk about my good friends.

I miss two of them so much. Im missing them now. miss you miss you!

These two girls are the very few best and good girl friends I have. I mean.. I don’t mean that my other girl friends are bad but these two are special. These two are special in my age range. Im now 21 la. im trying to say that I have other best girl friends too but not in my age range.

Ok what the hell im talking about. Grrrrhh! Im not good in words la especially when it comes to describing a person.

Anyway these two girls are Tan Lay Nee and Carla Cardoniga.

Tan Lay Nee or Lay Nee. She’s now 20. Doing her degree in Australia! N im now in Malaysia!! I’ve known her for like.. haha many years oo. Since Form 2 or Form 3? That time I was 14/15. We were in PBSM or MRCS, a first aid society la. she was from MGS n I was from SMH. she’s helpful. Intelligent. A leader. Friendly. Very helpful. She’s small in size. A conflict that happened made us closer to each other. Somehow she became one of the girls that I trusted a lot at that time. I was the shy shy silly guy at that time. Yeah we do talked a lot but you know.. I was shy all the time. =p It’s still fresh in my memory when she won a footdrill competition. She was the commander at that time.  Im so proud of you Lay Nee. I can’t wait to see you back to Penang. But by that time, I’ll be back in Kampar. Wait for me lah. =p have a safe journey k.

Carla Cardoniga. Wooooo this girl.. she’s not a Chinese. She’s not a Malay. She’s not an Indian. She’s not a Malaysian la. She’s from Phillippines. Cool huh I have a friend there. =p she’s just 20 this year and she’s doing her degree. I feel so old n outdated. We know each other in Thailand. We were participating in a Youth for Peace Conference there. I represent Malaysia n she represents Phillippines. So that’s how I know her lah. Well.. she is pretty. Yes she is. She’s very nice n warm to talk to. N yeah she has a boyfriend. =p One week in Thailand may seems very short but it has built up our friendship across two regions. Im glad that we still keep in touch n care for each other. We’ll meet up again one day. =p

How nice if two of u are in front of me right now. wana give both of you a tight hug. Haha! I just miss you two sooooooooooooo much tonite. Greedy huh? Gatai?? Nola.

U girls must be proud because I only miss people who are special and meaningful in my life. Im sorry if I ever said or did something that hurt you. Hehe..

Pls take good care of yourselves wherever you are. Eat well sleep well. Don’t forget to pray. I love you my friends. Friends forever.

*if I dun say I miss you, doesn’t mean I dun miss u k. =p

Menstrual Pain?

Oh… Saravani.. what a joke. I mean.. I never expected that answer from you. But luckily u r fine la. fuh..

I got to know that my bestie in UTAR was sick. Racheal said in Facebook that Sara is sick n she wants to visit her.

I was like so scared n freaked out. I really thought something bad happened to her.

I straight away called her. that was like few minutes ago. After some time, she picked up. Yea she’s sick. She sounded weak.

I asked her la what happened. She kept saying that she’s sick. What kind of sickness la?? I insisted. Hmmm.. the answer is Menstrual Pain. Aduh..

I ingatkan apa jadi. Aiyah..

I asked her housemate to take care of her. guess what she said. She asked me what should she does. Haloooooooooooo! How would I noe lah! Memang krike la. im not a girl.

Sara was there when I was sick in UTAR. She’s the girl who first came to visit me. she was there everytime im sick. We became closer in Semester 2 because we were in the same class. I skipped classes n I always came up with excuses. She can tell you all the excuses that I’ll give. Haha. she’s a really really nice girl. Really nice. N she’s sarcastic..but in a good way.

Thank you Sara. My life in UTAR would be totally different without you. Thanks for the free medicines, 100 plus, food, joys n laughters.

Hope you’ll recover soon k.

Ejek me la. I dun mind. hehe.

The Hujan Song

Let's sing with me people.

old McDonald cannot go out.

e i e i o...

rain rain here. rain rain there.

e i e i o..

shake shake here. shake shake there.

e i e i o..

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hujan oh hujan, kenapa engkau hujan

macam mana aku tak hujan, awan sudah berat, awan sudah berat

awan oh awan, kenapa engkau berat?

macam mana aku tak berat, asap punya banyak, asap punya banyak.

asap oh asap, kenapa engkau banyak?

macam mana aku tak banyak, semua kerja manusia, semua kerja manusia.

manusia oh manusia, apa yang kerja banyak?

BANYAK LA!!

MEROKOK! OPEN BURNING! KENTUT! FARTING! PEMBAKARAN TERBUKA! PENGELUARAN ASAP DARIPADA KILANG YANG TAK TERKAWAL! CUACA PANAS DAN HUTAN TERBAKAR! ASAP KENDERAAN! YALA MALAYSIA GOVERNMENT ENCOURAGE THEIR CITIZEN TO BUY MORE CARS MA. N CAR PRODUCERS ALSO PRODUCE SO MANY CARS MA. DUN THEY HAVE BRAIN TO THINK THAT OUR ROADS ARE TOO CONGESTED WITH VEHICLES? CAN'T THEY THINK THAT VEHICLES ARE ONE OF THE MAIN CONTRIBUTORS TO AIR POLLUTION? CAN'T THEY THINK THAT ROAD ACCIDENTS ARE ONE OF THE MAJOR FACTORS OF HUMAN DEATHS? DON'T THEY SEE THAT PEOPLE ARE GETTING LAZIER TO WALK EVEN TO A VERY SHORT DISTANCE?

so how now??

- the end -

YOU are quoted

"Evening tadi wa tidur then mimpi you and i go Penang Road at night jalan jalan then you pinjam RM10 from me then we usik banyak orang kat Penang Road maleh hai hai."

~ Dexter Khaw Kuo Wen
~ 16/11/2009 Monday
~ 11.39pm
~ MSN Messenger

* this is freaking funny. the best bedtime story. 2thumbs up!

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n y 98753ync 9yhm75evb

yes yes!

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yes correct!

zzzz... guess what i said. i said nothing! lame!

im too sleepy. i do crazy things when im sleepy. i used to bit my frens because im sleepy. i used to talk nonsense when im sleepy. n i used to bang my fren's ass when im sleepy. oh i remember. it's Nizam n Kah Hoe's backside. hehe.

one thing that is serious: I feel that i've been neglecting my friends all this while. I lost contacts with many people that i know. n i din flirt!! i was loyal...

time management people! TIME MANAGEMENT!

divide ur time between your gf/bf, friends n family.

FAHAM?!! ok gnite. bye!

sekadar renungan

Jangan sesekali melakukan kesilapan dalam hidup kerana yang silap dan salah bukan selalu diperbetulkan. Orang yang disakiti dan dilukai bukan selalu boleh memaafkan. Sekali tersilap, susah untuk berpatah balik. Tapi kebanyakan masa orang yang tidak berdosa di sekeliling kita turut menjadi mangsa. Masa berjalan ke depan. Matahari tidak mungkin terbit dari barat. Insan mana yang tidak pernah silap. Jalan tidak ada yang rata, apatah lagi hidup sebagai seorang manusia. Apa maknanya jika hidup penuh dengan kebencian, pengkhianatan, kekecewaan, penyesalan, dendam, kedengkian, kepura-puraan, penghinaan, dan keangkuhan. Bermaaf-maafanlah. Berilah peluang kepada bunga-bunga cinta untuk kembali mekar. Dunia ini terlalu besar dan bukan senang untuk dua insan bertemu. Apatah lagi jika timbul bibit-bibit cinta. Kawan biarlah jika seorang, musuh jangan sesekali. Berfikirlah dalam-dalam sebelum bertindak.  Barang kalau rosak, boleh dibaiki. Barang kalau hilang, boleh beli yang baru. Hati yang telah hancur susah untuk dicantum kembali. Cinta yang telah putus takkan kembali lagi.

Fikir-fikirkanlah.

Kaulah Segalanya - Hazrul Nizam

Song of The Day

hihi.. ok.. i duno what to say in this post. hmmm.. im listening to this song alone in my room. not emo-ing la. not at all. not sad.. just... i'll call it emotionally attached to this song.

i have been attracted to its melody and the chorus of this song since i was in secondary school. i can't download the song because i duno the title until i met her. n listening to this song makes it more meaningful.

i like this song. hope it suits ur taste too. =p

i don't really know this singer. but i feel he's on par with my favourite Malaysia Male singer, Anuar Zain. both have good vocal.

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Kau mahu bak segala
Cinta yang ku dahaga
Kehadiran dirimu
Menyinari maka semua hatiku

Kau lukis hidupku

Kau hias hatiku

Kau sambut cinta ku

Tulus ikhlas

Suci hatimu kasih

Kaulah segalanya
Yang menyinari hidupku kasih
Hanya satunya
Yang kucintai

Hulur tanganmu kasih
Sambut cintaku
Jangan tinggalkan daku
Seorang diri
Tak sanggup lagi dilukai oh..

Maafkan daku
Jika salahku
Peristiwa yang pernah ku alami dulu
Aku tahu betapa pahit
Mu menerima sejarah hidupku oh..

Kaulah segalanya
Yang menyinari hidupku kasih
Hanya satunya
Yang kucintai

Sambutlah cintaku
Jangan kau pergi dari sisiku
Cintaku padamu
Ikhlas sejati
Cintaku padamu
Ikhlas sejati

potong P1 w1max

P1 w1max??

what P1 w1max?? the latest wireless broadband network??

cannot connect at all! what the!

i reached home last night and i was so desperate n so urgent to use internet to check my mail!

now oni can connect.

thanks to Streamyx. P1 w1max stil not working.

the P1 w1max agent came to my hse before i reached Penang n asked my dad to buy the router etc from him for rm100. the man said if cannot use, return the router n get back RM100. he also said that the P(otong)1 w1max is better n faster then streamyx.

so my dad gives it a try lo.

i was so shocked because streamyx is the best wireless netword for home use la although many people make noise.

podakh!! connect oso cannot, wana say better??

sucks to the max oo!

Potong je la the P1 w1max like what the company's advertisement says.

POTONG! POTONG! POTONG!

*anyway my location is at Gurney Drive area.

all the best

today you'll be having your last paper for your exam.

kalau tak silap i Journalism.

i don't know what time it starts.

it's never ur nature to write.

i know you well enough.

im the one who write a lot: on a piece of ppr n handphone.

that's what irrritate you all the same.

but no matter what.. do your best.

i know u can do it. u never have problem in studies.

u r not like me, malas sikit. =p

ingat baca DOA dulu b4 u start ur exam.

if siap awal, cek ur answers again la.

i can't say all this to u personally.

u'll never listen all this from my mouth.

it'll never happen.

but my wish n prayer will reached you.

He will help me.

as you said:

"kalau hati you ikhlas, Tuhan akan tolong."

so, buat baik-baik la.

balik Penang pun baik-baik.

i know u already received what i sent although no notification from you.

hope you won't throw it away.

that's the very last presents from me.

take care always. hati-hati all the time.

eat well, sleep well.

make a wise decision in everything in do.

i'll always support you and be here if one day you need me.

spread your wings and fly to wherever you want.

it's your dream to study abroad.

love your partner and never let him go.

if you love someone, show it.

I'll always n always pray for you no matter where you are.

It's a PROMISE.

and.. that's all la.

kalau ada jodoh, kita jumpa lagi.

kalau takde, biarlah ia jadi satu memori.

kenangan lalu takkan kembali lagi.

tapi akan tersimpan indah di dalam hati.

1437. Muax. Tata.

which one first

woah people!

i tell u har i have so many things to say. but so little time to type.

but i wana share what's in my mind. grrrhhh!

i don't understand what's wrong with my O.T.A.K. or B.R.A.I.N.

it keeps thinking. thoughts keep pouring in. memories keep haunting. creative ideas keep playing in my mind.

anything n everything comes in at one time.

all the 5Ws and 1H. what to do? when to do?

boleh GILA.

then what i do?

quickly right down on a piece of ppr. or key in in my handphone first, or keep mumbling to memorize it if im in the toilet.

i hate it when i can't get the things done. stress ooO!

YOU are quoted

" Being a reporter is not solely a job but it's a mission and to serve the society."

~ Kow Kwan Yee
~ 11 nov 2009
~ Journalism Gathering, UTAR, Kampar, Perak
~ my Super Senior, intern of Bernama

a night of laughters

love u Viv, Tiff n Rac. muax muax muax.

these 3 girls just made my night so happening.

i got ambushed while im sleeping.

tankiu so much. what a surprised. what a way we gather after for some time/

3 girls n 1 guy in a room n 2beds! wow!

one of them told me that some people just don't like me because me n my camera always 2geda all da time n i take pics of everything i do. as if i care. ahaha. im amused.

Racheal's is right. dun think of it la. people are like that. always like to say nonsense. no matter what you do also they will

oh, we had pillow n "borbor's" talk. =p

as usual, V did all the screaming.

then, i was the one who screamed in the room with 3 girls bcoz someone duno how to massage me.

R said i hav sexy legs! hehe.

T is going to ponteng again tmr. haha!

our plan 2go Ipoh tak jadi la. Rac's bf so nice, worried abt her safety, so cannot go out n cannot use his car go out at nite n go far-far.

yeala i also wont allowed my gf to go out this late la. dangerous. im worried abt her safety. if im there, then nvm la. =p

tq Rac for ur cup noodle. it's my 1st cup noodle ever since i came to Kampar. n the meal was my dinner n supper.

im so sleepy rite now. these 3 bugs pengacau. but i like it. =p wanted to go makan bcoz mulut gatai but aiyah we didn't coz all so lazy. someone needs to go back n pee.

had a talk with the sampat girl who always say we shud get married, Viv. zzz... my nilai pasaran jatuh merudum already la.

i thing that is sure tonight.

COMPATIBLE DOESN'T MEAN COUPLE CAN GET TOGETHER N BE HAPPY ALWAYS. A RELATIONSHIP MUST START N MAINTAIN WITH LOVE, NOT BY LOOKS OR WORDS OR COMPATIBILITY.

this is meant specially n spesifically for Vivien Chang!

gelenti can reach by tomolo ahh??

mission accomplished!

QUOTE of the day

"Who I was in the past does not dictate who I am now and who I am now does not dictate who I will be."

~ Tiffany Onn
~ curi-ed from her blog post titled: Revenge? NAH, 12 nov 2009

*so ada umpph Tiff!

another trophy by sister

Today is my sister’s graduation day. It’s more like a prize-giving day for her la because she’s just Standard 3 this year. Unfortunately I couldn't attend. I think I never miss her graduation. She never missed from getting prizes every year.

Im so proud of her la. really. She got too many medals n trophies. No place to display already. As she grows older, I try to encourage her by giving her gifts, bring her for a movie n treat her makan sedap. I love her. I tried my very best to show it n try to shape her into a girl. You know.. be gentle, loving, caring, soft-spoken that kind of things.

She on9. msn. She’s clever in computer stuff la. really kecik-kecik cili padi n cakap banyak like her brother. Hehe. Last semester holidays, she participated in a state level primary school drawing competition using computer. N guess what. She got 1st runner up. amazingly that was her first time taking part in such competition.

So she showed me the photos of her with the trophies standing at our house’s balcony. My mum took the photos. If I were there, that’ll be my job. But this year, sadly I wasn’t there standing like a reporter in front of the stage to snap her glorious moments.

Anyway she’s merajuk now because I don’t wana play games with her. im tired ma. N I never like to play games. =p so she changed her status to ‘away’. Waleuh. So the photos that she sent me cannot save lo.

Haha. by the way, im feeling very happy this week although at first I was quite down for being indecisive and in the end I missed the things I wanted to do. I must thank my friends n my new friends for bringing joy into my life this semester.

I can now proudly say that I’ve mood on. I’ve lost my love. But I still have many loves around me. Love is not only meant for one person. It only works when you share it with people. Love is always there if you are willing to open your heart and accept it. I may not get her love. But I still love her. and I love people around me too. i love my family as well.

Okla I talk too much! I wana go pom-pom den oink-oink for a while. Tired. N I feel like puking so badly after eating the kuih-muih at the JR Gathering just now. nak muntah sangat-sangat but tak keluar-keluar. hungry but suddenly no appetite la.

Have to wake up very the early to START study for MORAL midterm at 8am tmr.

Gnite.

"my new friend is..."

<< ok murid-murid, sila tulis sebuah karangan yang mengandungi ayat "my new friend is...". sila menggunakan Bahasa Melayu yang asli dan betul. jangan meniru kawan di belakang anda. karangan murid-murid mestilah mempunyai 1500 patah perkataan. sila hantar pada akhir kelas nanti. kalau karangan you bagus, cikgu akan bagi 3 Stars. kalau salah ejaan, tanda baca dan tatabahasa, cikgu akan call mak kamu. anda boleh bermula sekarang. >>

i am veli heppie today. i went to university. my big brathas n big sistas organised a party. all of them are from Parti Journalism. this parti is illegal. some people say HALAM! they never register sama itu ROS. if mata-mata mali, gelenti kena masuk lokap.

i terpakai smart smart today. paiseh nia. shy lo. kemaluan sangat besar. =p

i see-saw many people. some hensem, some boleh tahan. some sui, some boleh tahan. they semua olang veli heppie. they laughed veli loud like speakers. the teachers oso veli heppie. they also laughed n pitching lari. semua olang is ferenly. one cute ah boy alwayz 'kena scold lo". they made me happie manyak-manyak.

eh-behli-one mesti pay rm10. tapi saya belum bayar cikgu. mereka bagi makan. banyak ooo... ala itu telur ayam punya tart. ala itu teh talak tarik. ala itu jeli. ala itu kalipork. ala itu lotti. ala itu hijiau-hijiau panjiang-panjiang punya. dan lain-lain lagi. wa makan until mau muntah cirit dan birit, berak di parit, tapi sikit pun keluar.

dia olang tak boleh habis makan. dia olang tapau. dia olang minta kita olang bawa balik bagi olang-olang lain makan. kita olang kenyang. kita olang ambik. ada olang talak ambik.

we play-play games lo. tapi hor my heart sikit sakit la. kita olang main-main. wa pun lupa tangkap gambak with my cikgus. aiyah amma. shit lo!

i met many people. we went into a group. Mister Afi yang berjanggut kambing hutan warna cokelat bertompok-tompok also in my group. we introduced ourself. wa pun cakap lo.

( my name is "Oh, Chin Eng!" i am from penang. i am 21 yearsss old. )

semua olang kasitau nama. but kenot rimember all la cikgu. i only remember one pompuan's name. hehehehe. my new friend is CHIN POH NEE. not WONG POW NEE ok?? i remember her name only wor. the rest sorry la beb, wa tak ingat. saya tidak berasa gatal cikgu.

dia buat saya rindu sama sayang. wa talak tipu-tipu cikguuuuuu. sumpah atas cikgu. muka talak sama la. but their style and the aura kinda same. both wear metals on their teeth. both also santek. both mia kulit muka also clean n clear. n both mia suara also cute-mute. eeee suka la. suka wa mia sayang la. wa suka tengok olang pakai be-reh-ses. wa talak gatai cikgu. betoiiiii!!

kasih diterima cikgu. cikgu tolong kasi wa 3 stars. nanti saya bagi cikgu makan karipok. =p

chin eng ah, you never pay me rm10 yet!!

"CHIN ENG AH, YOU NEVER PAY ME RM10 YET!!"

arrghhhh! now everyone knows i never pay you yet, VIVIEN CHANG WEI LIN!!

u really gila la!

people, i tell you, i have this crazy friend. really super crazy. not only crazy! she's blur too. my lecturer calls her 'blur punya orang'. she can make you laugh like crazy fella with her personality. her hobby: scream!! this girl memang hebat! before you see the person, u can hear her voice as far as 100m. She’s the most sampat girl in our class. SAMPAT NUMBER ONE! She can just come up with some crazy out-of-mind terms. Yea, many of them are obscene. Not to forget his Bahasa Melayu yang tidak difahami even by orang Melayu kuno dan moden.

but she's a really nice girl la.

my seniors are organising a gathering for all Journalism course students later at 3pm today. so all of us have to pay rm10 la. so she incahrge for our semester la since she's our course rep. we have to pay last week. but i really don;t have enough $. i was pokai. really pokai.

then everywhere she goes she'll scream n ask me for money! she saw me oni ah, she's say loudly "CHIN ENG AH, U NEVER PAY ME RM10 YET U KNOW? WHEN YOU WANA PAY HUH?" grrrrhhhh! she'll tell the whole world that i owe her money. lu hebat la Si Vivien. ish! now everyone in UTAR know me d lo huh??

my coursemate Amirah called n asked whether im going for the gathering or not? before she hang up, she asked have i pay the rm10. then i went to see another coursemate to get the Moral notes, Poovan. guess what he said? "u havent pay Vivien yet right?"

walaueh!!!!! i suspect respect and i wana PACK u all la! Pack u all n masuk dalam kotak especially Vivien.

im gona PAY you today la!

she's happier now la compare to last time. yeala people is in love now. she met a nice n good guy. now i realised that meeting a good guy for a girl means everything for that girl. the girl will be happier and loved.

anyway, u make us love u with ur cilaka blur n songoi n funny n random n jerit melolong style la Vivien. but sometimes GERAM oo!

Memorial Service for 3 Drowned Students

Yes people, especially sudents of UTAR Kampar Campus, today at 10am there will be a memorial service at Heritage Hall for the 3 students who got drowned at the Batu Berangkai Waterfall on 1^st Nov 2009. This event is organised by UTAR Kampar Student Representative Council. Try to make it although you may not know them personally.

Im not going lah. Lazy to cycle u noe? U noe how tiring is it r? Im not that lucky can sneek in with my bike. plus I have to Journalism Course Gathering at the same place at 3pm later. Takkan nak cycle pi uni den balik den pi uni lagi? tired la.

Plus I went to the memorial service already last week by the friends of the 3 victims. So oklo. How many memorials we must attend la for the same person? Im sure if I go, I’ll sure take pics, then ppl will ask from me.

I better not waste time n stay at home to study. =p I cannot study in uni. I need to fotostate the Moral notes la. tomorrow morning got midterm n I haven’t started revision yet. My clothes are waiting for me to put them into washing machine la. and my floor is calling me desperately to sweep them.

So im NOT going la..

Anyway, finally I see some event organised by SRC. indeed this is the first one since the election last June. Ok perhaps they have been ‘fighting’ for the students but this is the first tangible thing that they make.

I really wonder why is it so slow for them to organised an event. If Journalism, news must be newsworthy, must have timeliness and urgency. Why after 11 days since the tragedy only they come up with this memorial service? Why the 3 victims friends can organised a huge memorial service for them on 2^nd Nov, just one day after the tragedy and SRC can’t?

Why the reaction from SRC is so fucking damn slow? Isn’t the job of SRC to do come up with something that has to do with the students?? Im also curious that why they come up with the memorial service for this 3 dead students. What was SRC doing when other students having difficulties with their parents who passed away, who can’t pay their studies fees, and so on. I never see SRC collect money for any disasters’ victims. None!

SRC didn’t even announce it in the student portal. They announced it in Facebook. Wat the heck? Be official sikit can r? SRC is a university’s students council ok? It’s legal punya. How can they do things like this? So cincai! Buat malu je satu badan pelajar buat pengumuman macam ni! Kalau nak bagi alasan tak cukup masa n last minute, memang tak boleh diterima. Segala aktiviti perlu dirancang dengan teliti. The students elect you people to do things. So do it the right way!

They are 2 groups of people that set up the event in Facebook n inviting people to attend the memorial. The first invitation comes from ‘Utar Kampar’ with the title of the event: Official Utar Memorial Service for Waterfall Victims. This group did a good job. They post a photo of flowers as the profile pic. they also wrote the details of the event: date, time, venue and description.

http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=196403666114&ref=mf#

The second invitation is from the Chairman of UTAR SRC, Edward Chin Yik Shearn with the title: Memorial Service in UTAR KAMPAR campus. Seriously im disappointed with this invitation. No photos on the page, no description what the event is all about. They oni posted up date, time n vanue.

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=599962876&ref=profile#/event.php?eid=176531125215&ref=mf

Now they even call the event as official one? Why so? Because it’s from the university? Entahla apa motif with the word ‘official’. Ada orang hentam SRC sebab tak buat kerja ke? Ataupun dihentam sebab tak memperjuang dan menjaga kebajikan pelajar UTAR? Ataupun sebab SRC terkena api sendiri tak puas hati tengok kawan-kawan 2 mangsa tu boleh buat memorial yang dihadiri oleh ribuan orang?

Im not making any allegations ok? U think yourself la.

IM FED UP OF UTAR KAMPAR SRC.

Yes I really do. Come find me if you are not satisfy with what I said.

i talk about facts and only facts!

Kamsiah.

senyum seindah suria

senyum seindah suria
yang membawa cahaya
senyumlah dari hati
dunia mu berseri
senyum umpama titian
dalam kehidupan
kau tersenyum
ku tersenyum
kemesraan menguntum
senyum
kepada semua
senyuman mu amatlah berharga
senyum
membahagiakan
dengan senyuman
terjalinlah ikatan

Pernah tak anda dengar lagu ini? Ingat lagi tak lagu ini?
I ingat. Lagu ni dah lama masa I sekolah rendah dulu. I suka sangat lagu ni. I ingat lagi setiap bait-bait lagu dan melodinya sehingga hari ni. Music videonya terdiri daripada masyarakat Malaysia yang berbilang kaum. Kalau you tengok MV lagu ni, gerenti u gelak dengan apek-apek kat dalam yang senyum tak bergigi. Kan best kalau RTM siarkan lagi iklan ni. Lagu ni menceriakan orang yang sedih.

Hati I akan gembira kalau saya melihat orang senyum. Saya rasa tenang sangat. Saya rasa lega sebab saya membawa keceriaan daripada kesedihan. Lagilah best kalau orang yang senyum tu orang yang I sayang.

I suka tengok dia senyum. Manis sangat-sangat. Senyuman dialah yang membuatkan saya terjatuh hati dengannya. manis sangat.. cantik. menarik. Hati saya tertarik tertawan. Haha.

Senyumlah selalu. Sesungguhnya senyum itu satu sedekah. Senyuman anda membawa seribu makna dan kegembiraan kepada orang lain. Anda tidak perlu membayar untuk mengukir sebuah senyuman. Bukan susah untuk melakar dunia yang penuh dengan bunga-bunga cinta.

A Song For Mama - Boyz II Men

Song of The Day

Yesh yesh! I did it! God fulfilled my wish. My sister on9 just now. I was like oh shit should I tell her n ask her to wish mum happy birthday? I decided I should do it. But then I was like oh shit again. how to tell her?!!

So I said today is mum’s bday, tell her happy bday. She just said ok. Fuh.. ok.. I duno how she gona say it. I wonder she’ll just wish her or she’ll tell my mum that I wish her. haha.

I want to know how she reacts. =p but anyway I did it. At least she knows that I remember her bday. =p all this while ever since secondary school, I know when is her bday bcoz I memorize her IC number. I need her IC number 4my school’s activities ma.

Anyway thanks to my sis la. I feel bad. She always want to webcam with me but I don’t want because my laptong hang when I use webcam. N sometimes I just don’t have the mood to webcam. She always ask when im going home. I can sense that she’s kinda disappointed la because I didn’t go home last week.

It’s still raining out there. I wana oink-oink! Im gona have sweet dreams tonight n no more wet-wet. Yesh!

I dedicate this song to you, ammi. Muax muax!!

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You taught me everything
And everything you’ve given me
I always keep it inside
You’re the driving force in my life, yeah

There isn’t anything
Or anyone I can be
And it just wouldn’t feel right
If I didn/t have you by my side

You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down
You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be what you have been to me
You’ll always be you always will be the girl
In my life for all times

Chorus:
Mama, mama you know I love you
Oh you know I love you
Mama, mama you’re the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin you is like food to my soul

You’re always down for me
Have always been around for me even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong
Yes you did

And you took up for me
When everyone was downin me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on

There was so many times
Looking back when I was so afraid
And then you come to me
And say to me I can face anything
And no one else can do
What you have done for me
You’ll always be
You will always be the girl in my life

Chorus

Never gona go a day without you
Fills me up just thinking about you
I’ll never go a day
Without my mama

Chorus

Happy Birthday Ammi

im awake. i didn't really sleep. my body is tired but my mind is keep thinking..of many things. one thing about me is my mind is active when im trying to sleep. all kind of thoughts n memories will flash back in one shot. then i'll try to key in as many as possible in my handphone then transfer it to my laptop the next morning.

right now, it's raining so heavily since just now. my stomach is rumbling so hard. i was going to sleep again but then if i sleep, i won't wake up till the next morning.i'll wait until 9pm for the rain to stop. if it doesnt, sleep again. im super tired.

i have something important to do before i sleep.

i wana wish my mum Happy Birthday. today is her birthday, 10th Nov. she's 45 now. old d huh?

sorry i have to wish you here. i don't have the guts to call you. i tried but.. it's hard. all this while we never do that. it's just not our family's culture to say 'i love you' or 'happy birthday'. how i wish you or sister will come across my blog and read this post. i wanted to ask sis to wish you but i forgot to do so when she online just now.

im a bad son i know. i alwayz make u angry. hehe.. i seldom clean the house n i keep junks! i turn my rooms n another room into STOREROOM. =p i realised that i put my family at the second place in my heart. as in i'll do my other stuffs, think of other stuffs then only family.

you know.. i already planned to go back and celebrate it with you. really. i want to make your 45th birthday special when im 21. all this while me, bro n sis or dad never celebrate your birthday. i feel so bad you know. my friends will celebrate it with their mum or at least call to wish them but i don't. i never do that.

finally i feel i have grown up. i feel like i wana do something for you. tangible one. i wana show it instead of just praying for you n dad. i feel like i got the call from the God to repay you, to be nice to you and be a good son. i'm already 21-legal age. first time you celebrate my birthday, not to count the birthday parties when i was a little kid la.

anyway, in the end, im still here in Kampar. many things came up. i was so undecided whether to go back or to go down to Melaka. i have test on Thursday morning. i have a Journalism Gathering on Wednesday. i was so sick last Saturday. i wanted to clean my room n learn French. and i slept whole day last Sunday after not being able to make up my mind.

my sayang taught me a lot. seriously. she n her mum are very close, like sisters. they always go for shopping together. =p im impressed with the bond between them. they are so like friends. talk to each other without fear, shy or doubts. jokes around. she celebrates her mum n dad's birthday. she always call her mum n update her. the thing i like the most is, she'll say 'assalamualaikum' when she starts the conversation. =p

ammi, i want you to know that i love you. i know u never hear it from me, but i do love u. i need more time n more courage to say it. i'll be good k? i think i am. =p and im safe here, dun wori.

i'll always pray that you'll be healthy always, you'll be safe wherever you are, you'll have long live.

friends out there, please don't be like me la.. cherish the one you love especially your parents n siblings. think anout this: how many years do you have to sing birthday song to your mum? HUH?!! people get old and human dies.

grrrhh! don't care. i wana go back this week n i wana belanja her MAKAN! yes makan is my favourite activity.

Happy Birthday Ammi.

from JOG to CYCLE

yoyoyo people. im home! i reached home at exactly at 4pm. in my previous post i said i wana go jog right? yea i din go. instead i went for CYCLING!! =p

tepuk la sikit. i cycled for 40km Kampar-Gopeng-Kampar for 4 hours. i'll blog about it when im free la.

i just bathed. feel so damn fresh n clean. i smell so good. seharum bunga di pagi.

ok im going to sleep now. im damn tired n sleepy lah. i need to restkan my eyes, my jaw, my hands, my spine, my legs, my ass, my muscles n my b*lls-according to Emily Chong. the battery in me need to be recharged. if you use Energizer pun, cannot recharge punya.

someone pls wake me up at 8.30pm pls coz i need to fotostate notes for my Moral midterm exam this Thursday morning. i haven't study anything yet. =p

i love to sleep when it's raining heavily like this. but pls no scary thunders.

gnite yo. tata.

KATA-KATA hikmat

Kita selalu sedih atas apa yang kita tak ada. Kenapa kita tidak cuba untuk gembira atas apa yang kita ada? Beri peluang kepada anda dan juga orang-orang di sekeliling anda.

morning run

good morning! i feel so got UMMPPHH this morning! the sky is so clear.

i have been sleeping for at least 8 hours i guess. that's more then enough! i had some crazy dreams last night. i'll blog about that later.

now i wana go JOGGING!!! woohooo! i duno whether i can run for how long but aiyah just run la.

i always want to jog n work out but tak jadi cuz im not discipline. im lazy la.. the last time i jog was like 4-5months ago. and i dun have my sport shoe with me here.

people say skinny people shouldn't jog. others say jog is good for health. aiyah dun care la. jog only ma. basic exercise. i have a friend, really skinny n small, but she jogs everyday n she is a good runner! i tabik sama dia!

SARAH SULAIMAN CH'NG u r my running inspiration. hehe.

ok gtg! wana have a cup of milk mix with weight gain powder then RUN!!!!

natural war zone

i don't think anyone of you have been to war zone right?
yeala Malaysia kan is a pissed-full country
no matter what happen, we make noise here and there
then tomorrow we shake hand
Malaysians never fight for food
we just beg for food
so where got chance to be in war zone?

our nation's defence so strong
we have submarine! uh waaaa...
we have missiles! uh waaa...
we have more then enough protection

yeala we have money ma
ur parents pay tax every year what
if don't pay, Inland Revenue Board
or mostly people say Cukai/Hasil
they will come visit
if don't pay
Auditor-General won't come up with such report
if don't pay
they say you don't love the country

peaceful right?
but here tonight
in a small laid-back town
called Kampar
things are different

rain has been pouring
whole day long
i heard the loudest ever thunders
in my life
lightnings like disco light
i can see from my window
u can feel the war
without bloodshed
without money wasted
without tears
just some screams

yea i am scared
i am alone in my room
wana go back home...

so natural war zone
is always better
then man-made war zone

i duno what the crap im tokin about

QUOTE of the day

Lagi tinggi menggunung sebuah harapan, lagi tinggi lagi kekecewaan.

cursed saturday

again im sick on saturday.

this is the third consecutive week i have runnning nose.. only on Saturday.

i sure GERENTI fall sick on SATURDAY!

grrrhhh. the cost that i have to pay? cannot concentrate in class.

i have classes on Friday which ends on Friday.

then Saturday i have class from 8am-5pm!

9hours man!

i always wake up at 6am! gila babi! im crazee!

then the class is so cold even if i wear my sweater.

the long day of classes make me really tak larat.

now i ADMIT THAT IM NOT STRONG n my i have LOW ANTIBODY!

i came home from uni, reached just in time before the heavy rain started.

i took my med n TIDUR till 9.45am.

hungry...

but ahhh.. let sleep again.

=p gnite tata.