ini tarak itu tarak

aih..

rimas tau bila ini tarak itu tarak.

apa pun tarak.

this afternoon i wanted to go to Tesco but the cleaner came, i have to keep an eye on her. then 5pm wana go to Gym but it hujan lebat.

so No Tesco No Gym.

then just now dinner time ajak friends but Maxis line kaput. went out but Hujan again. on the way to TEsco, hujan!

so No Dinner, No Tesco.

No banana also cuz forgot to buy.

No repair bicycle cuz lazy to push bicycle alone.

now wana cook magee but I dun have Telur. NO TELUR pulak!

terukla dey all. i wana buy 2 telur also the makcik dun wana sell. susah la tarak telur.

but okla im happy today. hehe.

i feel so gay, so sexy, so high!

thanks to Your Excellency Kow and Tun Nigel. =p

banana & maid

RANDOM thoughts

1. i desperately need a banana right now. i need to munch a long and huge banana so badly lah! beh tahan liao la. anyone got banana ah? can pinjam ah? i can pay you. SERIOUSLY!

2. im so disappointed with some people who use the service of foreign maid/cleaner and then feel suspicious on them. come on la. u ask them to clean your house then you feel they wana steal your damn things? DAMN u la. if u so clever, u clean it urself la. what the tut man. don't ask me to keep an eye on them. i wont. you thought every maid/cleaner are thieves meh! don't always look down on people la. i tell u if ur Karma is good, ghost also won't come near you la boloh!

Model Shot (1)

Date: 28/5/2010

Time: 4.13pm

Venue: Protestant Cemetary, Penang

Model: Jessica

Photographer: OCE

come ber-rhyme-rhyme

You suka, You baca.
You tak suka, You blahhh!

My photos you suka, you puji-puji.
My photos you tak suka, you diam-diam.

You mau i shoot pics, you book me.
Sudah shoot, you don't push me.

hhehe. rhyme tak??

don't force me

aih.. i forgot the count already. i don't know how many times i have been telling and asking the same thing.

DON'T FORCE ME.

sabar la..

im not scolding anyone k. im not.

im just telling and asking for a small favor.

sabar.. slowly. ban ban lao.

friends always rush me for their photos.

okla u can be angry and pissed at me. it's ok. that's me. that's my style. u can scold me but don't push me.

this is my rules.

and hor, if u r my friends, sabar la. dun pushy pushy. later i fall into the drain how?!!

stress u noe...

But if u r my customer, different story la. hehehe. cuz u'll pay me ma. of cos u got more priority la.

or if the photos are so important, let say it's for your assignment or anything official, ok no problem. i rush it for you.

but if it's not, sorry naik lori la ye.

and one thing i fucking pissed is i give u people your photos d but you simply post as if you took that pictures yourself. APA ni! what the fuck la ok. now im angry! no manners ka. take my photos already give some credit la. so hard ka mau say 'photos taken by Oh Chin Eng?!' If so hard, don't ask from me la. FUCK OFF la. grrrhhh! tulan nia.

okok chill. fuh... jgn marah. nanti pimples pop pop pop.

back to the story. i love photography. but my life is not only about photography la. Don't expect me to sit in front of my laptop 24 hours to edit pictures, post pictures and send pictures. come on man. I have my own life also la.

My name is Chin Eng but im sipek boheng ok. i got other stuffs to do also what.

so hor people.. hehe. Let me kautim your photos d den i'll send it to you ok.

NEVER ask me to post it in FB.
NEVER ask me to email you.

kalau lu mau. kasi pendrive. easy n fast. u know la the photos so banyak and besar.

u won't die if you wait for a while right??

if u can't wait, don't ask me to take pictures la next time. i don't mind. im not a professional what.

that's all i wana say lo. if u can accept, accept lo. kenot den ur PROBLEM la! if u terasa oso ur PROBLEM la. but u dun angry la ye.. im not scolding anyone what. =p

anyway, i feel so sorry for a friend cuz i totally forgot to send her, her family photos since January. my fault. my salah.

kelas hari ini: Bubu

Adik-adik.

hari ni akak akan ajar bahasa shortform.

sudah ready?

mula-mula kita kena guna bahasa Melayu baku yang betul ye.

jangan malu kuku ku malu.

so lesson pertama of the day is...

jeng jeng jeng!

B-U-B-U

adik-adik tau tak apa itu bubu.

cuba teka.

TEKALA!

eee tergedik-gedik pulak.

aku sepak nanti!

bubu la!

bukan bucuk!

bukan bf la!

LEMBU kepala hotak hang!

apa ni pun taktau ka?

takpe Adeline WOk has the answer.

Menurut Professor Emeritus Adeline Wok The Aedes aka Pangsaicua, beliau merumuskan bahawa bubu itu adalah satu subjek di mana Bumi diliputi oleh 70% air dan manusia tidak boleh terbang kalau tiada sayap.

Tapi rumusan itu adalah andalah rumusan dan teori paling tak menarik pernah diilhamkan nya.

Teorinya yang paling popular adalah Teori Bubu.

Bubu stands for..

IBU! or LAOBU!

ingat ye Bukan lemBu, Bulan, mat saBu, Busuk, Buta, kelaBu, atau laBu.

itu sjaa kelas kita pada malam ini adik-adik.

semoga adik-adik tidak terkencing dalam seluar dan pangsai lah anda sebelum anda dipangsaikan.

sehingga itu, kita jumpa lagi pada masa dan tarikh yang akan ditetapkan.

kalau adik-adik tak faham, silalah bayar tuition fee.

untuk keterangan lanjut dan extra services, sila hubungan talian panas di 1194.

sekian, terima kasih.

tata.

tomorrow do what ah??

Tomorrow do what ah?

Crazeee!! Today is just the first day of new semester and im asking the question.

Damn boring weih! Boring gila2. sien ka boi si. Clueless. Don’t know what to do.

Me, Tiffany n Rachael are asking  the same question.

Tomorrow do what ah??

We just came back from playing computer games actually. This is my first time officially playing computer games in Kampar. im not a game by the way.

And by 12am only the whole Westlake is as quiet as dead town.

Apa ni!! UTAR students insaf already ka??

I myself never faced this situation before.

Last semester was busy for me.

What happened ah?

We should feel excited.

We should be happy.

We should be hyper.

But amma..

Sien leh.

Sumor me and my classmates had a bad start because of Communication Theories results. Sucks man! Unexpected! Unbelievable. And we can’t do anything to change it. It’s a big blow for us la.

First class was fun la. crazy lecturer. But now..

We need entertainment!

Now we need to plan what to do for tomorrow!!

I start to understand why people complain that Kampar is a damn boring town.

wahahah.

i think im sien bcoz i didn't on9 today.

n im sick. so sick.

dats y im boring and grumpy.

I feel like KAPUT already. KARAT on the first day.

So tomorrow do what ah??

first day of uni

wake up wake up!

bangun!

it's the first day of school.

not primary or secondary school la.

it's the undergraduate school.

university la.

doink!

today will be the first day of my Year 2 Semester 2 in UTAR Kampar.

my class at 2pm but im awake now.

zzz..

woah! semangat gila babi nak p lecture.

it's so damn hot here that's why i terbangun myself.

my flu is betting better.

but my stomach is still not ok. i still smelled petai in my mouth. stomach is still fulled of 2plates of rice and a plate of petai! smelly but sexy. ahhh... i love petai.

wa ka lu kong hor im so excited right now.

walalalalala.

ok i wana go get newspaper then sleep again.

have a nice day people!

don't forget to shit!

Kata-kata Hikmat

Ada kalanya kita kena berhenti seketika dan menoleh ke belakang sebelum meneruskan perjalanan hidup..

back to my dirty house

After 4hours drive, plus the jam all the way until Kampar, with the craziness of Edward…

Im back in Kampar.

But eeeeeeeeeew!! Arghhhhhhhhh!!

Damn it la cilaka babi! My house is so dirty especially my room! And I got a new roommate!! Khachui ah!

Ok let me tell you what is clean. The porch is clean. No more rubbish. My toilet is really clean but bulu everywhere.

My room is really dirty. I asked him, he swept the floor or not. He said yea. But you tell me why DIRTY?!! The staircase also hairy. Seriousla! If u tak caya, u mai tengok la. lai la!

Aih.. I thought I’ll have a nice roommate but manatau. He’ll gona get from me. nyeh nyeh nyeh! I warned him to clean the house before he moved in ok. grrrhhhhh! Dun make me tulan ooo. Im memang cerewet.

And you know ah?!! He slept on my bed!! Wat the shit!! Sleep on your own bed la. I know la my bed is nicer and smells nice.

Hahaha. He is gona kill me is he knows I shoot him. Bleeekkk! Wa suka! I just feel like cursing. =p

So what now.? As usual la! clean the room. Curse here and there. do laundry. blog. unload stuffs. Then sleep!

Damn! Im so sick right now. headache and running nose on the last day in Penang and first day in Kampar. I will follow u Panadol.

By the way, thanks Edward for the car pool.

im ready to say bye to Penang

I have less than 12 hours from now. im going back to Kampar at 3pm tomorrow. I dun wana go back if it’s possible but I know I can’t. it’s ok im so mentally prepared and ready. Physically? No? I miss my sofa n tv. N I sprained my waist again. it’s so damn painful at the join between my hip and my right leg.

But it’s ok.

I had fun. This is one of the semester breaks I ever had. I’ve done what I wanted to do.

U noe.. im happy. im too happy. im still smiling right now. I met her. and I got her a birthday gift. Seeing her smile just swept away my stress and problems. Besides, I developed my grandpa’s birthday photos for him. I went to my grandma’s house although it’s raining. It never felt so good seeing my grandma’s smile. I had my second dinner there. and I got my money. After almost a year, I got my paid for a photoshoot. I took pictures for a group of students before.

Earlier in the day, i helped mum do cleaning. We laughed out loud. we helped each other. we sweat together. i enjoyed those moments.

Im satisfied. I thank God. I can go back to Kampar with no regrets.

But now before I sleep, i need to pack my stuffs. A LOT! And I need to clean up my messy room as well. Last breakfast tomorroe at Chowrasta Market. But some stuffs. Then, bye Penang

no more photos for today!

Time is seriously running out.

I have been sitting in front of my laptop the whole day, doing everything about photography.

Ok i cannot take it anymore.

No mor taking photos

No mor transfering of photos from camera

No more saving photos into external hardisk

No more editing

No more posting up photos

No more giving out photos to friends

Today will be a no photos day.

Im so tired of facing all the photos the whole day. I’ll only continue with all the 6 “No’s” after i go back to Kampar.

people, don't ask me anything about photography. don't ask me for photos. just don't mention the word. tq so much.

Now have to go out and develop birthday photos for grandpa. Then have to go so far to grandma’s hse to give them photos. I still need to buy stuffs back to Kampar. N i havent pack my beg yet. Room is so messy. Mum is nagging. Im going back to Kampar tomorrow. Arrrghhhh! Headache n sleepy. STress! I dun wanan go back yet.

Wana off9 d. Bye.

sing with me

good morning people.

let's go have breakfast.

but before that..

Come sing this together.

“Marilah, mari. Mari ke jamban. Tunaikanlah kewajipan, pada Indah Water.”

chicken getting results

finally i checkped my exam's results just now.

i went to the students' portal around 12.20am. i got into the results page d. but i stucked there. cuz i dare not to scroll down the page to look at the grade.

yea chicken. im a chicken.

I was shivering. Heart pounding as if im running for marathon. Adenaline gushed up.

seriously i freak out. i takut. goosebumps!vthis is the semester where the subjects are so hard that you know you can fail!

im so nervous until i got stomachache again.

Then my good buddy, Nixon so kaypo, he helped me to get the results. i gave him my username and password. he log in n he saw my results.

luckily no D. he said he saw 'CANDIDACY TO CONTINUE'.

i was like woah!! that means i pass! i can continue with my next semester.

out of a sudden, he copy n paste my results on MSN.

CRAZEE FELLA! i wana look at the grades myself la. ayooo,. but anyway thx to him la.

Im happy im happy. results are not bad. im satisfy with what i get. not to say unhappy but okokla.

Thank God i didn't fail.

u noe.. u people. i mean we people always say we'll do better we'll do hard work harder next semester. but all lazy and kantoi. all cakap je but kenot do. PHUIIII!! cannot lidat la. mana boleh. if we want good grade, must show good attitude and work hard.

one thing surprised me. I got a D for Communication Theories. impossible lo. i can get a B. i know how to answer the questions leh. i got confident in that paper leh! my course works' mark is among the highest n it is very high. apa sudah jadi! farnee la. the one that we all expect will fail we get C. i got C. the one that i expect will get at least C become D.

anyway, im glad i can still continue with next semester. i am so thankful. i am truly grateful. My prayer has been answered. i know i did many bad things but He's still there. i thank God. im lucky this time. but luck wont always by my side if i don't work hard.

im sad as well. my friends results are quite bad. i feel like crying! arrrgh! few of my coursemates already thinking of quitting. i mean to withdraw from UTAR. please don't do it. my batch already lose 2 students last year. i don't wish to see friends leaving again.

a good wesak day

just reached home. stomachache. don't care. i wana blog first.

ok let's recap what happened today.

overall, it was a superb day.

first, my results are out! but.. i haven't check yet. heheh. im scared. i am so freaking nervous. a lot of my friends don't get good results. what if i fail? habis koyak my mood later. hopfully i don't fail la. u see im so gila-gila now. later sure cry. sure KANTOI!

i went for a photoshoot today. im not the model la of course. for the first time ever, i officially take modelling photos. Jessica Neoh is the model. =p i tell u the whole process was damn fun n exciting. Nixon n Dexter were there as well. heheh JEss has to wait for few months for the pics. cuz im lazy to edit. n i'll be very busy for an event in uni this whole month. pics must slowslow edit n post. it's just like when u wana shit. mau berak kena slow n steady. baru best. baru syiok. baru sonng. i'll tell more about the photoshoot in another post.

my brother made spaghetty. fulamak. i tell u har. sedap!! delicious!! seriously it's so nice. better than my version. he's learning culinary art now n having training at Eastin Hotel. he wants to go oversea. good! GO! go wherever u want. get as much money as you want. after u become successful then only you come back!

then at night me n sister went for Wesak Day's procession. everywhere was so jamn. thousand of people from all over Malaysia and the world came. Penang is one of the main hub for all religious festivals in Malaysia i would say. people here just live in harmony. we are brothers and sisters. i was asked to be on duty as a Red Crescent first aider but kenot la. i need to take pic, pray and be with my sister. being there at the procession, i just felt so calm. so relieved. so close to God. i feel safe. i missed the procession last year because i was in Kampar. im glad i didn't go for a camp in KL n i stay in Penang. I love Penang so much. so so much!

after the procession, MAKAN! i had ais kacang with ice-cream, hokkien mee, char keow teow and kopi peng. awesome. wonderful meal before i go back to Kampar.

arrrghhh! skait perut again!! ok bye gtg. tak boleh tahan d. arrghh! i wana go shit shit d. Shit gona bom out soon! den mandi. den check my results. then bang my head to the wall n sumbat my head into the jamban.

lecture from my sister

Back in Penang, it’s still that hot but cooler than Penang. I have air-conds at home but I used it once only. Im lazy. Im not the air-cond type of people.

But few seconds ago I asked me sister to on the air-cond because It’s so hot n im tired. I just came back from a photo shoot.

Me: Poh Sim, on the air-cond la. so hot la.

Sister: air-cond, air-cond! The Earth is dying already. You still want air-cond, air cond.

Me: huh?!!

Wat the!! My sister give lecture! God tolong! She’s just Standard 4 but matured d. she’s knowledgable and socially conscious. I know I should be happy and proud. But.. this is too fast n shocking.

happy wesak day

This year will be the 2554th Wesak.

Im glad im still in Penang.

Me n Wesak always associate with Penang.

I never missed Wesak celebration in my life in Penang except for last year.

God's willing, i hope this year's Wesak will be a good Wesak for me.

i hope it'll be a turning point in my life.

i take this Wesak as a cleansing day for me.

to flush away all my sins and bad things.

and to be a better man.

'Throw away bad things, do good things, get blessings.'

i wish everyone will be well, happy and blessed.

happy wesak day to all.

dad is home

I just reached home from a productive meeting with friends for a big event in my uni.

Anyway, Dad is home this afternoon.

I think Im the happiest son in the world today. My dad is home! I managed to see him before I go back to my university. =p

Yesh!

I’ve not been seeing him for a week.

He’s not at home. He works at Bukit Merah. He’s building a big aquarium there in a former paddy field for my uncle. A lot of people are now turning lands there into an aquarium for expensive fishes.

I helped him before early January before semester 1 started. I tell you, it’s not a job that you wana do. You have to work under t he hot sun for a long hour.

When I reached Penang on Sunday 16/5/2010 dad was at home. I wanted to follow him to the construction site the next day but I forgot to tell him and he left house early morning. =p

Then he came back on Friday 21/5/2010. I was so joyful because I know on Monday I can follow him to work. I wana work for him. I just wana help him la. but manatau the next day he went back to Bukit Merah till today. Aduih..

My dad works everyday. Yes. Sunday as well. As a contractor he needs to finish his job in a short time. This is to safe cost and to satisfy the customers.

I think he’s taking a day off tomorrow because tomorrow is Wesak Day.

Im so Sleepy but I must not sleep. There’s a very important thing to do.

don't lock and shit

u noe..

when you shit, of course you must lock the toilet's door but not the master bedroom's door.

my sister was having his lunch.

suddenly she had stomachache.

so she went to shit before she finish her meal.

she used the master bedroom's toilet and she locked the room.

suddenly my mum's phone rang n the phone is in the room.

haha.

mum mum was banging the door.

forced my sister to open up the door.

but my sister was shitting half way.

hahaha. this is hilarious.

i don't know how my sister going to open the door while shitting.

at the end my mum got her handphone.

i think my sister opened teh room's door quickly and rushed back to the jamban before my mum went into the room to get her handphone.

hahaha. so people.

don't lock the master bedroom because you migth have to pause your shiting and that is not satisfactory moment of shitting,

Kata-kata Hikmat

Bukan senang untuk senang. Bukan susah untuk susah.

screaming for ice cream

"You scream i scream we scream for ice-cream."

Suddenly i thought of this. SOmeone taught me this before and until today I still can't say it smoothly. haha. She used to bully me cuz she's terror in this tongue twister. i wonder whether she still remember this.

='(

Out of sudden, i just feel like crying.

what the heck right?!

no exact reasons for that ok.

Everything seems so wrong tonight.

Mood swings drastically.

Im so moody the whole night.

my heart just don't feel good.

and i don't know why.

tears just feel like pouring.

I don't feel like talking to anyone now..

I need nobody.

I don't need a listener!

I just wana stay alone until i go back Kampar.

Marvellous 7 Reunion

From left to right: Nixon Lai Chia Huey, Teoh Chee Leng, Liam Kah Hoe, Shaun Loh Mun hon, Neoh Eng Huat, Oh Chin Eng, Lee Chun Soon.

It’s a big reunion. Finally after being separated for 5 years, we are here again, sitting altogether 7 of us. The last time we used to study together was in SMK Hutchings when we were in Form 5. After Form 5, some went to Form 6 and some went to college. We called ourselves Marvellous 7 because there are 7 of us and we were the most active students back in our batch. And 7 of us were school prefects.

*Photo taken by Chun Soon's gf.

QUOTE of the day

Don't love someone if you can't commit yourself. Love fades and break up? Then do you divorce if love fades? To love someone is to commit yourself and put your partner above everything else.

Bukit Laksamana here we come

Good morning! Woah! I wokeup before my alarm rings at 6am. =p

Finally my dream comes true. Im going for hiking later. 3 buddies joining me: Dexter, Nixon and Kah Hoe. We are going to Bukit Laksamana, the longest trail in Penang. =p

Lalalalaa..

The journey is gona be tough. Very tough. I think it will be the longest jungle trekking trail I ever done.

We’ll start our hike from Taman Rimba Teluk Bahang and ends at Botanical Garden. We’ll pass Penang Hill on our way.

The distance between these two locations are very far. No bus will go to this places.

So our initial plan was we go by bike. 4 bikes. We’ll meet at Botanical Garden. Park 2 bikes there. then 4 of us on 2 bikes to Teluk Bahang. After we finish our hike at Botanical Garden, we can go to Teluk Bahang to get our bikes with the 2 bikes there.

But PROBLEM!!

Helmet! We don’t have helmet at Botanical Garden. Thanks to cilaka Nixon n Dexter for calling me bodoh. They are the smart ass! They brough this up.

So my solution. Nixon will drive. 3 of use will use bike. we’ll meet up at 7.30am later at Botanical Garden. Nixon will park her car there and we’ll use bike to Teluk Bahang. So when we finish our hiking, we’ll have car waiting at Botanical Garden and we can go and get our bikes.

Good planning. =p

I must thank them for joining me in this hiking trip. Susah mau pujuk la. You know la hiking is tiring. Have to wake up so early. Etc.

Right now my stomach still not ok. I lausai last night. now still feel like shitting. Arrghh! I don’t wana shit in the jungle later.

Hopefully we won’t get sesat later la.. if sesat taktau la. our handphones ran out of credit.

All I Have To Do Is Dream - The Everly Brothers

Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream
When I want you in my arms
When I want you and all your charms
Whenever I want you, all I have to do is
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream

When I feel blue in the night
And I need you to hold me tight
Whenever I want you, all I have to do is
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam

I can make you mine, taste your lips of wine
Anytime night or day
Only trouble is, gee whiz
I'm dreamin' my life away

I need you so that I could die
I love you so and that is why
Whenever I want you, all I have to do is
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam

I can make you mine, taste your lips of wine
Anytime night or day
Only trouble is, gee whiz
I'm dreamin' my life away

I need you so that I could die
I love you so and that is why
Whenever I want you, all I have to do is
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream

FADE
Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream

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dream dream dream.. i wish everyone a sweet dream tonight. tomorrow will be a another beautiful day. =p

Please no Freddy from ‘The Nightmare at Elm Street’. Tq.

Gona sleep now. Good night. Tata.

are you in dilemma?

Dilemma..

Who of you here never face dilemma?

Dilemma is a situation where we are being undecided.

Dilemma is when you are having a hard to time to choose between 2 or more options.

We are leaders. Because we make a lot of decisions a day.

But it’s not easy to make a decision.

Most of the time we are stuck. A decision that seems to be so easy may not be that easy.

I know why.

The reason is because we are fear. We are afraid of the consequences.

I hate being in the state of dilemma. It’s so stressful. Being undecided is so torturing.

what would you do if you are facing dilemma?

If im in dilemma, I need to talk to someone. I need to let it out. Then I need response.

When I used to have girlfriend, she’s the one that I always turned to. She was my loyal listener.

But now im single. Who to talk to? Friends?

Some will talk to their best friends. But who are my best friends? I have very very close and good friends. But not everything is easy to tell someone.

Any good listener out there?

I am one.

a reminder again..

A reminder for myself again. Don’t reveal so many things. Keep the thoughts to yourself. Sometimes the more you say the more mistakes you make. Happiness should be shared around. But our feelings, just keep it inside. People are bias. Everyone is bias. When you say something. People who nod their head doesn’t mean they agree. Some will give you cynical look. Some will shoot you back after some time. Some will use what you have said to attack you personally. Some will feel that you are bullshitting.

I realised that it’s not a good thing to be so expressive.

Expressions are our personality. It’s hard to change but it is possible. To express is a way to let go a burden. It is also a way to share our happiness. But expressions can be misinterpreted and misunderstood.

Certain thing doesn’t have to be said. It is meant to be feel.

It’s ok if people don’t accept your opinion. But you must stand for yourself. You must stay firm on your decision. You must uphold your principles no matter what happens.

Family, friends, partner and people who understand you will know what is in your mind without you saying it.

A good listener is someone who will listen with heart and without being judgemental.

say & do or do & say

We do when we don't say but we say when we don't do.

We say but we don't do, we do but we don't say.

PENING!

You just do what you said la.

If you don't say anything also you must do what your heart says.

Or you do then only you say lo.

SO!

say and do or do and say??

moves on

Finally..

I've made up my mind.

After floating no where in the air, single, alone and sad for 1 year 11 days and 18 hours..

im gona say bye bye to the past now..

at 6.35pm Monday 24/5/2010.

I determine and seriously serious in what i want to do.

I know i might change my mind. I know i might look back. I know i might reminisce. I know i might get emo again.

But.. Im taking my first step now.

My journey is still far away.

Why must i torture myself and ruin my life?

Im tired of walking with someone who's not there anymore.

The fight in this struggle is no longer meaningful.

It's not worth it anymore.

When you can't change the situation, you either take it or leave it.

I chose the second option.

You don't have to live in someone's shadow.

You own your own life.

And I have nothing to regret.

Because i had the most fastastically beautiful sweet loving love story before, at least for me.

Now..

Im moving on.

I am.

QUOTE of the day

'All the world's a stage, And all the men and women merely players.'

~ William Shakespere

it's nice to send my sister to school

Good morning.

AT this time, my sister is already in school.

I just sent her there.

Damn sleepy right now. SLept at 4.30am n mum called at 6.26am to wake me up. But i slept again till 6.45am.

Sister woke up so fast. No hanky panky no merengek merajuk. The waking up process was so smooth. She brushed her teeth. Sometimes she didn't. haha. I prepared breakfast for her. Combed her hair. Gave her RM2.

I remember it was so hard to wake her up back then. Then all of us will be late to school n i went to school with grumpy and sour face. Stress gila.

The last time i fetched her and my brother to school was in 2007 when i was still schooling in Form 6.

WHen im back in Penang, i'll pick her up from school when mum is busy.

It feels so nice to be a brother again, sending and picking up my sister from school. =p

ok i wana get back to sleep people.

Good night.

tonight without parents

What if one day both of our parents are not with us anymore? what you gona do? What am I going to do? Im still young. Im still studying n not in Penang. Who’s gona take care of my brother and my little sister?

I’ve always taken my parents for granted. I didn’t do enough for my family yet. My parents have been very tiring and struggling all this while in making sure we got enough food to eat, clothes to wear, leisure, basic needs and education.

I haven’t repay them. I need to. I want to.

An old lady told me seomthing today. She reminds me to always be nice to our parents. Appreciate them. respect them.

It’s true you know. No matter how rich you are, how smart u are or how loving you are to your friends and partner, parents are still the most loyal, most loving, most caring, closest and the persons that sacrificed the most in our life from the moment we are created. When the whole world turns down on you, parents are always there. no matter how hard our life is, they never complain, never neglect us, not a second.

Why im so sentimental tonight??

Cuz both my parents not at home tonight. Both of them are away. Away at different places for different reasons. And Im taking care of my sister for tonight and tomorrow. I just put her into sleep. Oni 3 of us, my brother, my sister n me at home tonight.

I feel kind of lonely tonight without my mum’s nagging and without my dad’s snoring.

Human nature huh? When we have something, we tend to less appreciate it. We tend to less think of the importance of it. But now when something is not there, we feel the lost. We feel the emptiness.

Im bad, im sucks in relationships. I don’t know how to express my love in the correct way. Sometimes I just hide my feelings. Im a failure. Im sucks in love. I’ve failed to show my love to my mum, to my dad.

I want them to know I love them. I really do. They are the best parents in the world. They are the best. Im sorry for being a naughty and not-so-obident son.

REMINDER

2010 IS AND GONA BE A GREAT YEAR.

Martin Luther King says...

And I've seen the promised land. I may not get there with you. But i want you to know tonight, that we, as a people, will get to the promised land. And I am happy tonight. I'm not worried about anything. I'm not fearing any man. Mine eyes have seen the glory of the coming of the Lord.

Milo = pangsai

I don't know whether this thing ever happened to you or not but i experienced it many times before.

i drink Milo, then immediately i'll go pangsai.

haha. what?

im serious ni.

it's a fact!

so i cannot take Milo.

so i don't buy Milo's advertisement "Minum Milo and jadi sihat dan kuat."

all this while i've been drinking Milo since small but you tengok la.

TULANG MASIH SEKERAT! ENTAH MANA YANG KUAT. ISI SEMUA SOROK KAT MANA PUN TAK TAU LA!

ok stomachache again. Hi Jamban im coming!

out 16 hours

I went out around 8.20am this morning and came back just now at 12.20am.
A round of applause please. tq.

In Penang, i always run here and there do this and that or sleep here and there in my house.

In Mandarin cakap "pao lai pao chu" or Hokkien lang cakap "cau lai cau khi".

Aih i can never sit still at one place.

booksales make me sick

Arrrghh!

Shopping for books turned out so badly.

I went to Popular for its booksales. 90% discount ok.

How funny is it.

Buying books make me sick.

My head is so heavy and painful. Nose keeps running. Suddenly got diarrhea.

Feel so unwell.

Okay good night people. I need to take medicine n sleep now. bye.

my sister just never listen

okok chill chill.

i know i should not be angry.

but im just pissed off with my sister.

again, she came home by herself although i supposed to pick her up!

tulan lo i tell u!

this is not the first time. many times already.

usually my mum will pick her up. but today my mum can't.

again i went to fetch her. waited for her for 20minutes. then her friend came to me and said your sister went back already!

i was like WHAT!! not again!

She didn't even wait for me. i was just late for 2 minutes.

her school is just behind my apartment but it's dangerous for my sister to walk home. she's a girl and she's still a kid.

i scolded her before. i warned her so many times not to do that again but she just never listen!

i asked her never walk home even if mum is late. wait! if people ask you to wait, you wait. no one knows where are you if you are not there waiting.

what if something happen when she walks home?? u tell me.

you know, my mum scold me when my sister walks back alone.

fuh.. im not gona scold her. i wont. im done with it. im so disappointed with her.

IM NOT GONA FETCH HER FROM SCHOOL ANYMORE!

PERIBAHASA of the day

"1 hari hiking a kali, lama-lama pangsai pun selesa sekali."

~ Nixon Lai Chia Huey
~ 21/5/2010 1.00am
~ via MSN